After agreeing to love with the actor

"Then what about me, how do you know?"

After a long time, so long that Shen Keyan thought that Chi Yi had fallen asleep in his arms, he heard his voice again.

Shen Keyan pinched the back of his neck: "Did my mother mention Shen Cong's other sons when she told you?"

Chi Yi understood: "So they want to use my affairs to stimulate you?"

"It's so smart." Shen Keyan tilted his head and kissed the corner of his eye: "He wanted me to misunderstand the relationship between you and Li Yang, and then attributed our encounter to your nostalgia and guilt for Li Yang, and maybe he wanted me I guess I suspect you."

"You answered this call in the study that day," Chi Yi sighed, "I discovered your abnormality that day. Fortunately, you didn't believe it."

"So the nightmare was because you were afraid of me?"

"I'm really scared, but not afraid of you." Chi Yi adjusted his position and turned his back to Shen Keyan: "I'm just afraid of the possibility that you will leave me."

Before Shen Keyan could speak, Chi Yi continued: "I didn't take it for granted that Yang Yang would always be by my side. After all, we all have things we want to do. I just didn't expect him to... ...." "I have always regarded him as my life mentor. Yang Yang is the most assertive, stable and open-minded person I have ever met. He is smart, generous, and motivated. He is very kind and gentle to everyone. Recognized as the 'best alumni', people around him will turn to him for help when they have difficulties."

There was already a cry in Chi Yi's voice: "It would be great if I could find out that something was wrong with him earlier. I obviously claimed to be his best friend but I didn't even notice that he was smiling more and more reluctantly. If I could find out about him earlier maybe It won't be..." "It's not your fault," Shen Keyan comforted him softly: "It's not your fault."

It is very easy for a person to hide his pain in front of the people he cares about, not to mention that Chi Yi was only 14 years old at that time, and the arts and science teaching buildings were so far apart. Chi Yi must be blaming himself, otherwise he wouldn't have pushed himself to that extent, Shen Keyan could only pat him on the back over and over again, trying to give him some strength.

"No, it's my fault, if even once I went to his house with him regardless of his avoidance, or when I went to school together, I didn't just talk to him about studying and caring about his psychology, or if I could visit them more at school Look at him in class, even if I can treat him better every day, maybe he won't be willing."

Chi Yi didn't understand: "He's so nice, how could anyone not like him, how could they be willing to treat him like that?"

"You know what, he has injuries all over his body, all of them."

Chi Yi sobbed and couldn't speak: "Why, he is already very sensible. He has cooked and washed his own clothes since he was a child. He buys them gifts every year. He has scholarships and bursaries and will not spend their money at all. , I am very polite and decent when facing others, why can't I give some to Yangyang? Maybe there is only a little, as long as a little, Yangyang will not..." "If I can find out earlier Well, I can take him to my house, my parents also like him very much, they will definitely treat him well, he can grow up well, after the college entrance examination, he can confess to his crush and become an excellent psychiatrist , to help more people.”

"The person he liked responded to him the day before, how could he be willing..." Li Yang jumped from the school roof on the day of the last parents' meeting in the second year of high school. He took the science course as usual that day. No.1 in the class, his father, the man who Chi Yi remembers as being very soft-spoken, came to hold a parent-teacher meeting for him. Chi Yi observed later that the place where Li Yang jumped was just past the window next to his seat.

The seat was just adjusted two days ago, and he had been sitting in the third row in the middle before that.

So Chi Yi thought, that must be his long-planned revenge, even if that person might only see him for a tenth of a second, he wants the other person to remember him, remember his last appearance, maybe he also wants to be at that moment , seeing the shock and bewilderment on the other person's face.

But why?

Chi Yi asked himself this question countless times. He hated that man who was so useless and only dared to vent his grievances to his wife. He hated why Li Yang couldn't think about these people who loved him, but hated himself even more. During that time, he would dream every day. He seemed to have forgotten the tragedy of that day, and only remembered Li Yang's gentle smiling face, but the separation between dream and reality made him more painful.

"Until I received the letter he sent me." Chi Yi twitched the corner of his mouth: "He said he was very happy to meet me, and that I gave him a lot of energy. If it wasn't for me, he might not be able to persist until now. , Said that I hope I can forget him and live happily, if I can take care of his mother for him."

"You see, he still loves people until he dies, but what have we done for him? One is so stupid that he doesn't even know he has been wronged, and the other watched him being abused but swallowed his anger for the sake of so-called family harmony. Why should we be missed by him?"

"I sometimes think, he is so hard and tired, is it better for him to leave, but he still has so many wishes that have not been fulfilled, how can he be reconciled?"

He locked himself in the room and refused to communicate with anyone. He kept his eyes open all night until dawn. He sealed everything about Li Yang into a box, forcing himself to forget about this person.

But how could it be forgotten?He just pushed himself to a dead end step by step.

"That was the first time I saw my dad cry, and my mom said the last time she gave birth to me was when she gave birth to me," Chi Yi sniffled, "My parents have been model workers for 20 years, and it's the first time we took a long vacation together , Said that they are old, I am their most important person, and they almost took me around half of China in those six months."

"Actually, I know. They took turns guarding my door during that time. I was afraid that I would be as anxious as Yang Yang, and that my son would never come back when I woke up one day. They would follow me if I didn't eat." Appetite, I can't sleep and they also suffer from insomnia, my mother is so strong, she is called the 'Iron Man Champion' by the school because my eyes are always swollen."

"I just thought, that's enough, and I told them I wanted to see a doctor."

Chi Yi sighed: "You should know later, I took a long vacation to start learning acting in the last semester of the third year of high school, and my parents applied to be transferred to the first year of high school, taking me to and from cram school every day, and going to the psychiatrist on weekends After sitting there for a while, no one mentioned Yang Yang to me again, and I slowly returned to a normal life."

"Yangyang is right, people always have to look forward."

"Actually, I understand the truth. Even if I don't understand it, I understand what Yang Yang said to me that day before. He really has the potential to become a psychiatrist."

"Learning acting was out of my plan. I passed the art test in a daze and then entered University A smoothly. Not to mention my parents, even I wondered if I did something wrong, so when I chose courses, I I chose psychology for the first time, although it is said that doctors do not heal themselves, but maybe I can learn something in class?"

"Then I saw you at the orientation party. Although many people said that your speech was too philistine, I really liked it. It was also your speech that made me find the meaning of learning acting. Later, I Went to all your movies and interviews."

Finally stopped crying, Shen Keyan breathed a sigh of relief: "So we Sui Sui are still my fans?"

"It doesn't count, I didn't pay attention to you when I was too busy studying later," Chi Yi explained: "Although the professional courses are considered easy, I later minored in psychology, and I went to a psychological mutual aid app in my junior year I became a volunteer, do you remember that friend I told you about before? I met him on it.”

Shen Keyan paused slightly: "Really?"

"Yeah," Chi Yi didn't realize it: "At the beginning, it was difficult for him to chat. No matter what I said, he would only answer me with periods, so I called him Mr. Periods. After two months, I spent two full It took him months to reply to me with anything beyond the period, and then we started a friendly conversation."

"Although I am a volunteer, sometimes I can feel that he is helping me, but he speaks so old-fashioned and rigid. I once thought he was older than my dad."

Shen · old-fashioned Hengqiu has a serious look · Keyan:... "Sometimes I even feel that the person opposite me may be Yang Yang, and sometimes I regret that it would be great if Yang Yang could meet someone who helped Brother Yu But no matter what, it's really amazing to accompany my friends to get better little by little," Chi Yi's eyes slowly cleared up: "Just a while ago, he told me that he didn't need to rely on a psychiatrist anymore. I'm really happy for him."

Talking happily, Chi Yi's eyes dimmed: "But he's gone too, it's clearly agreed that we can always be friends."

Chi Yi was depressed, and Shen Keyan's heart ached slightly.

"But it's okay, if he keeps chatting with me, it may be difficult for him to forget the painful memories of the past, so it's fine to break contact." Chi Yi pursed his lips: "As long as he can be good .”

But it will still be sad, right?Shen Keyan felt that he had made another wrong decision, and opened his mouth to say something, but was interrupted by Chi Yi complaining.

"Why are you all wet?" Chi Yi patted Shen Keyan's left shoulder in disgust: "It's uncomfortable."

"Yeah, why are you all wet?" Shen Keyan imitated his tone: "Little crying bag."

"Why so many tears?"

Chi Yi said stiffly: "Obviously you are sweating, it's really annoying."

"Yeah, I'm too annoying," Shen Keyan didn't refute: "Do you want to look in the mirror? Later, uncles and aunts will see your eyes and think I'm bullying you."

"They have evening self-study today, and my mother has to check the dormitory, and she won't be home until eleven o'clock." Chi Yi asked his parents for the schedule: "So we have to solve dinner by ourselves."

Shen Keyan frowned: "Is it so hard every day?"

"Not only that, but my dad is better. As the homeroom teacher, my mother has to get up at [-] o'clock every morning to go to the morning self-study. Every year when she leads the senior year, she says that she never wants to be the homeroom teacher. Every year, she says that the senior is too enthusiastic to refuse. In fact, it is I don't want to do it myself."

"Students who have been leading since the first year of high school always think that it is good for me to be more responsible and accompany them to encourage them to improve their grades." Chi Yi sighed: "And she is leading the rocket class, many Although the students have good grades, the pressure is even greater, and she is worried that some people will not be able to bear it psychologically, so they basically live in the school dormitory for three months before the college entrance examination."

There is a family home next to the first high school. Teachers can apply for a teacher's dormitory. There is a small kitchen in one bedroom and one living room. Although the conditions are not as good as the normal community, it is more convenient. Many teachers in the third year of high school will choose to live in the family home.

Shen Keyan said: "Uncles and aunts are very admirable."

"That's right, so now our family receives a lot of flowers on Teacher's Day every year," Chi Yi smiled: "It's also on their two birthdays. Every time they go out together to celebrate their birthdays, they have to answer a lot of blessing calls. Some students came to sit at home."

When he was a child, Chi Yi would also be jealous because he felt that his parents loved the students more, and he was also dissatisfied because he was neglected, but after feeling the love of his parents for so many years, he understood them more and more and was proud of them.

"So actually what I told them was to take you to see them tomorrow, and I brought you back today mainly to tell you about these things. You don't even know how nervous I was before," Chi Yi breathed a sigh of relief: "It's much better to say it now."

Chi Yi suddenly thought: "Why did you think of making medicine into candy? Is it because you are afraid of being seen?"

"Well, when I first entered the industry and couldn't control my emotions, I still needed to rely on drugs, but I was afraid of being photographed and making a big fuss, so I asked the doctor to make it look like sugar."

Chi Yi puffed up his cheeks: "No wonder, then you don't need to rely on drugs now? The last time I saw you taking it seemed to be a crew, it was when the scene of Fu Yuan's blackening was filmed."

"Well," Shen Keyan nodded: "Only when the mood is ups and downs, you need to take one to stabilize it. I ate it once the day I came back from Shen's house."

"So after I met you, did you eat three times? And I bumped into you twice," Chi Yi pressed Shen Keyan's face in the posture of speaking: "Do you have to go back to Shen's house? Can't you not go back? "

"I won't go back again in the future," Shen Keyan thought of something, and the light in Shen Keyan's eyes froze, and softened under Chi Yi's approach: "It has been resolved."

At least for a short period of time, the Shen family should not have the energy to bother him anymore, and when they react, they probably won't have the ability to bother him anymore.

"That's good," Chi Yi added worryingly: "If you must go back in the future, let me accompany you, and I will also see who is trying to provoke the relationship between us, it's too despicable! "

Chi Yi frowned and said dissatisfiedly: "You don't compete with them for family property. Although you say the child is innocent, they are sorry for you, and they come to embarrass you so righteously."

Thinking of what Zhuang Yan told him before, Chi Yi became even more angry.

Feeling a little bit wrong in anger: "You just said that they want you to think that our encounter is due to my guilt and nostalgia?"

Chi Yi turned to look at Shen Keyan: "What do you mean?"

Once the seeds of doubt are planted, they will quickly take root and germinate. Chi Yi said uncertainly: "You said that signing the contract with me was because of my aunt's illness, but after signing the contract, I also met with my aunt. Auntie really likes me but There are no posters or photos of me at home, I can understand that my aunt doesn't like these, but it's impossible for my aunt to only like an artist like me?"

"On the first day we met, I felt that the dishes you ordered were very suitable for my appetite. Later, you were also very kind to me, so the original agreement was wrong." Chi Yi denied himself again: "You clearly told Song Xiao that you were kind to me. It's because of the agreement..." "Did you hear that?" Shen Keyan thought of something wrong with Chi Yi during that time, and couldn't explain it: "I didn't think I was suitable for you at the time."

Not suitable?Chi Yi pursed her lips: "Is it because you are taking medicine? Are you afraid that you will lose control?"

Because you are afraid that you will hurt him, you always tell yourself to stay awake and keep your distance?But at that time they had only known each other not long ago, how could they think so much?Unless... "So when you came to me to sign the agreement, it was premeditated?" Chi Yi asked, "Why? What you said in the previous interview couldn't be true, could it?"

Passing by the shooting scene of "The Man in the Play", Chi Yi always thought that it was just a story made up by Shen Keyan when he fell in love with him at first sight.

"It's true, but the story line started a little earlier than that." Facing Shangchi's suspicious eyes, Shen Keyan said seriously: "I will tell you, from the beginning to the end, but you just treat it as my ritual emotional complex." Shen, wait for me, okay?"

Chi Yi looked into Shen Keyan's eyes, which reflected his figure in miniature, with hesitation in his eyes, but he looked at him without dodging.

Almost instantly, Chi Yi understood what Shen Keyan meant. Like him, Shen Keyan also thought about the scene of confession, and today's confession was obviously within his confession plan.

Even though he knew now that he would not refuse even if he didn't say a word, Shen Keyan still wanted to give him a ceremony.

This feeling is like, he wrapped himself into a gift and sent it to Shen Keyan, telling Shen Keyan that as long as he unwraps the bow tie, he belongs to him, but Shen Keyan still wants to greet him again in a solemn way , placed by your side properly.

I remember that a fan fan said before that it must be a very lucky thing to be liked by Shen Keyan.

Fortunately, Chi Yi's heart seemed to have fallen into a glass jar filled with sugar water, so sweet that he was about to suffocate, but Shen Keyan still persisted in adding diamond sugar to it, one after another.

"Okay, I'll wait for you," Chi Yi said softly, "but you'd better not make me wait too long, I'm very sought after."

Chi Yi just said something in passing, but Shen Keyan did not expect to respond.

"Mo Zhiwei likes girls."

"Guan Momo, what..." Chi Yi said suspiciously, and suddenly realized the corner of Shen Keyan's slightly pursed mouth: "I remember that my parents don't put vinegar in cooking, why are they so sour."

Shen Keyan's complexion changed.

"Tsk tsk tsk, it was because of Momo that you suddenly wanted to go on "Walk with You" with me?" Chi Yi's lips raised uncontrollably: "No wonder you said earlier that it was just for the agreement, and as soon as you turned around, you wanted to go on the show to pretend to be affectionate. "

"Fortunately, I thought you were just trying to pave the way for me. It turns out that Shen Yingdi is so scheming." Chi Yi hugged his neck: "I just want to ask if my face hurts, Mr. Yingdi?"

As if to observe him closely, Chi Yi hugged his neck closer and closer until his noses and breaths touched each other. Shen Keyan lowered his eyes and looked at the corner of his grinning mouth.

"Does your mouth still hurt?" Shen Keyan asked.

Shocked by the dangerous emotion in his eyes, Chi Yi lost his ability to think. Thinking of the presumptuous and bold kiss behind the rose bushes, Chi Yi swallowed unconsciously. Before he could retreat, someone pinched the back of his neck.

Shen Keyan's domineering kiss fell.

The moment his lips and teeth touched, Chi Yi seemed to smell the sweet rose fragrance again, which mixed with the scent of Shen Keyan's body, completely confusing his mind and making him unable to distinguish dreams from reality.

The hand on the back of the neck got caught in his hair at some point, and his lower lip was gently bitten by the sharp teeth. Chi Yi frowned slightly, and heard Shen Keyan's coaxing voice: "Hey, open your mouth."

Chi Yi can only be obedient, and let him attack the city between his lips and teeth, and let the hand on his waist whirl lightly or heavily on his back, brushing across his spine and waist, causing waves of trembling in him , let Shen Keyan hug his waist for strength, and then he fell into the soft quilt, he hummed twice in discomfort, but in exchange for Shen Keyan's more fierce kiss.

Chi Yi could only hold onto his collar tightly, feeling Shen Keyan's gradually rising body temperature and the kiss that was no longer tender.

Qingle City in April was still slightly cool. He opened the window when he first came in, and a cool wind came in through the screen window, but Chi Yi felt that the whole house was extremely hot, as if every inch of his skin was sweating , sticky and wet, it is breathless.

"Change your breath."

It wasn't until Chi Yi felt that he was about to become the first person in history to be suffocated to death by a kiss that Shen Keyan's smiling voice sounded in his ears. Chi Yi blinked blankly, feeling physiological tears falling from the corners of his eyes.

"Good boy." Shen Keyan pressed over again, and kissed the corner of his wet eyes, and then the delicate kiss fell on Ya's brow, nose tip, and mouth corner, and slowly went down.

Chi Yi felt that something was wrong, he was obviously the one who settled accounts after the fall, so why is he now at a disadvantage?But Shen Keyan didn't know what stimulated him, and he became domineering for no reason. As always, he had to bear it.

After an unknown amount of time, the person on his body sighed heavily, lifted his collar that had already fallen to his shoulders, and buried his head on the side of his neck.

The scorching breath sprayed on the neck, and Shen Keyan's solemn promise sounded in his ears: "I won't wait too long."

The voice was still hoarse and suggestive, Chi Yi's heart skipped a beat and he quickly understood what he was talking about.

Chi Yi blinked and said, "Oh, okay."

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