Wild Journey

They sat on a high brick platform, with a half-meter-high fault at their feet, and the edge of the roof further ahead. Feng Yao leaned against the sloping lime wall, bearing a lingering kiss. At this moment, the night was dim and the breeze was blowing. What I saw in my eyes was the galaxy in the distance, and it was also Gu Xiao's sincere and handsome face when he kissed him nearby.

After a long time, Gu Xiao pecked Feng Yao's lips, the same as every time before, ending with an inseparable light kiss.

They were very close, and their breathing was full of alcohol. Feng Yao adjusted his unsteady breathing, and looked at Gu Xiao intently in this short silence, his eyes were full of love, and then he broke the silence and said softly : "Okay, you invite me. When the war is over, we will go for a walk."

Gu Xiao stared at Feng Yao steadfastly, as if in a trance, and after a long while, he opened his mouth, his voice slightly hoarse due to drunkenness: "Don't wait, don't wait, Feng Yao, Feng Yao... say something If so, I will take you away."

The four eyes meet, the moonlight is gentle, Gu Xiao's pupils can't focus, but they are shining, Feng Yao couldn't help touching his eyes, but he still didn't say yes, he was thinking, at least wait for him Once Yishen's safety is confirmed, he can really feel at ease, otherwise he has no intention to relax at all.

Gu Xiao's gaze was false, he was clearly looking at Feng Yao, but he seemed to be recalling something through Feng Yao, but in the end all thoughts turned into a heavy kiss, Gu Xiao lowered his head, and said to Feng Yao Lips, cruising to his cheek, and then to the side of the ear, the tone became solemn: "...Feng Yao, come with me."

Itchy ears, Feng Yao dodged uncomfortably, and was greedy for Gu Xiao's warm breath, he squinted his eyes: "Well, where are you going?"

"Anything." Gu Xiao said, "As long as you leave here, anywhere is fine."

……leave here?

Feng Yao sensed that something was wrong with Gu Xiao from the unusual words, but he couldn't figure out what he was thinking.

Different people have different reactions to drunkenness. Feng Yao belongs to the kind of wine that tastes good. Although under the catalysis of alcohol, he will occasionally do things without using his brain, but his brain is at least online and he can still think.This is not like Gu Xiao, after Gu Xiao drank alcohol, not only did his brain go offline, he even seemed to be a different person, he couldn't hide things in his heart, he was easy to touch the scene without saying anything, and he would be broken when he woke up.

In the dark, Feng Yao had a premonition—he might open Gu Xiao's locked heart tonight, and find out their buried past, so far, he tried to guide Gu Xiao: "Where is this? Institute?"

Gu Xiao didn't speak immediately, Feng Yao searched for clues of the past, and asked tentatively: "Don't you hate me? Hate that I lied to you."

Gu Xiao asked back: "Then do you love me?"

Feng Yao replied affirmatively: "Love, I love you."

So Gu Xiao also replied: "I don't hate."

"If you kill me, I won't hate you."

Gu Xiao took the wine bottle in Feng Yao's hand, drank it down, and then pushed the empty bottle back into Feng Yao's hand.When they touched each other, Feng Yao noticed that Gu Xiao's fingertips were trembling slightly, he put down the wine bottle, held Gu Xiao's hand, and it was cold to the touch.

Feng Yao put his fingers into Gu Xiao's, and clasped them gently, wanting to use this to help him warm up, and then asked: "...Gu Xiao, are you okay?"

"I drank it all..." As if immersed in an old dream, Gu Xiao stared at Feng Yao, but couldn't hear Feng Yao's words, "I'll give you my life, come with me, Feng Yao, Don't leave me... I will give you my life..."

This inconsistent confession made Feng Yao very dazed. He looked at the wine bottle in his hand: "What do you mean by 'you've already drunk'? What is this?"

Gu Xiao's expression was mixed with pain, Feng Yao looked at Gu Xiao, and recalled the scene on the flying boat that day in his mind, and he repeated in a daze: "I gave you this glass of water, you drank it, and you were pushed In the operating room?"

Gu Xiao was silent.

Feng Yao did not see denial in his eyes.

Although he was mentally prepared, it was another matter when he was actually close to the truth. Feng Yao became a little nervous, and felt a little unbelievable that his absurd and groundless speculation had come true. He asked: "So , Is there medicine in this glass of water? Yishen brought you to the research institute for experimentation?"

Gu Xiao murmured: "You know... have you always known?"

Feng Yao was stunned for a moment, not understanding what Gu Xiao meant.

Gu Xiao pinched Feng Yao's wrist, suddenly showing a bit of hysterical despair, and asked forcefully, "Did you know it a long time ago?"

This time, Feng Yao was pinched and hurt, he shook his head at a loss: "What? I don't know... you should let go first, it hurts."

Gu Xiao looked at Feng Yao cautiously, as if he was trying to tell whether he was lying, and then he relaxed his grip after a long time.There was a crimson hoop mark on Feng Yao's wrist, and his joints were still aching, but he had no time to take care of it, because he saw a flash of suspicion and unfamiliarity in Gu Xiao's eyes, which made him suddenly feel There was a burst of unspeakable sadness, but his thoughts changed, and Feng Yao suddenly understood the reason why Gu Xiao asked him so from the suspicion.

And this reason made Feng Yao panic for no reason.

"You didn't know that Yishen wanted to use you as an experiment, right?" Feng Yao's voice trembled, "You don't know if I know about it, right? So you think I lied to you... You think Yishen and I are lying to you, you think I never loved you, just want...to use you?"

Gu Xiao frowned tightly, his breathing became short of breath, and the memories seemed to make him very painful.Alcohol will break down Gu Xiao's defenses, but it will not alleviate his mental symptoms. Feng Yao knew that he should not be forced too much, so he quickly hugged Gu Xiao and comforted him in a low voice: "It's okay, Gu Xiao, I'm... It's okay, I'm here exist."

Gu Xiao pressed his forehead against Feng Yao's shoulder, and the hand on Feng Yao's back arched unnaturally, and pinched Feng Yao very painfully, but this time Feng Yao didn't say anything, he endured the pain, lightly and slowly Gently stroking Gu Xiao's back, trying to let Gu Xiao relax his highly tense nerves in such a silent way.

After a long time passed, Gu Xiao's violently heaving chest calmed down.Feng Yao didn't know if Gu Xiao could answer the next question in his current state, but he was worried that Gu Xiao would be vigilant after waking up, and he was afraid that this was his only chance to get in touch with the past.After hesitating again and again, Feng Yao continued to ask. He leaned into Gu Xiao's ear and asked in a soft tone as much as possible: "Then why did you leave by yourself? Didn't you mean to take me with you? Why didn't you wait for me? "

After a while of silence, Gu Xiao said, "I'm afraid you won't want to."

Probably because of lowering his head, Gu Xiao's breathing was not smooth, and his voice was slightly choked. He buried himself in Feng Yao's neck and said intermittently: "I can't take you away, you don't want to go with me... ...I..." He took a deep breath, thought of something, suddenly changed the topic, and uttered words became more difficult, "I can't take you away, I want...I'm going to die."

Feng Yao was confused, he cupped Gu Xiao's chin, Gu Xiao obediently raised his head, but his eyes were lowered, eyes foggy, Feng Yao observed his expression and asked him: "What do you mean you are going to die? Isn't the fusion successful?"

Gu Xiao was in a daze and shook his head slightly.

Feng Yao froze slightly, and immediately frowned, wanting to ask, but Gu Xiao raised his hand to cover his eyes: "Don't look, Feng Yao, it's not good-looking...it's dead."

His vision turned dark, only the faint light between Yu Gu Xiao's fingers, the original active hug became passive, Feng Yao was held in Gu Xiao's arms involuntarily, he was dazed for a moment, he asked blankly: "What's wrong? "

Gu Xiao didn't answer, but suddenly hugged Feng Yao tightly. This hug used unprecedented strength, but it was so short and fleeting. He obviously had infinite reluctance and love, but he was limited by something and dared not touch it.Feng Yao suddenly had a thought, he felt that Gu Xiao was saying goodbye to him, it was like a last hug, from now on, they will say goodbye, or they will be separated, in short, they will never see each other again.

Before Feng Yao could think about it, Gu Xiao let go of him and pushed him away, but his hand was still holding Feng Yao, pressing it on his heart.

"It stopped jumping, can you touch it?" Gu Xiao asked.

"Why isn't your heart beating anymore, is your heart?" Feng Yao asked, "Why is your heart not beating anymore? Isn't that just..."

Isn't that... dead?

Feng Yao's words stopped abruptly, and he suddenly understood.

The speech after drinking is disordered and illogical, but they are all true. The sporadic keywords, strung together, are the truth.In fact, Feng Yao should have understood a long time ago that he had vague guesses about his past experiences, but the guesses were too cruel and groundless. The fact woke him up hard.

Leaning on Feng Yao's shoulder, Gu Xiao murmured something in a low voice, which was unintelligible. Feng Yao lowered his head and approached, barely distinguishing a few syllables:

"Don't look at me, don't look... don't look at those corpses..."

"...you take it, take it away."

"Go back... Feng Yao, this place is too dirty..."

The hand covering his eyes gradually slipped down, and the breath in his ears became longer and longer. Gu Xiao nodded while talking, and finally fell on Feng Yao, falling asleep.

Feng Yao hugged Gu Xiao in a daze, and after two or three seconds, tears welled up in his eyes.

Everything was going in the worst direction. He sent Gu Xiao into the operating room with his own hands. It was his father who performed the operation. Gu Xiao did not fuse successfully from the beginning. He died, his heart stopped beating, and his body rotted. , was thrown into the pile of corpses as a corpse, they separated, Feng Yao had no chance to explain, Gu Xiao had such a misunderstanding, and hated Feng Yao for five years.

Alcohol piled up an empty dream for Gu Xiao. In the dream, at the last moment of his life, Feng Yao found him at the last moment. He should hate him to the bone, but Feng Yao said he loved him, full of hatred Then nothing remained.

He wanted Feng Yao to go back with his heart.

But Feng Yao, who should apologize the most, forgot all these things.

Feng Yao didn't know how he spent that night.He has no time to resent Yishen who is the chief culprit, and he has no time to resent himself. He feels great shock and grief for the past, and besides this, he is endlessly confused.

Even if he cured Gu Xiao's illness, those injuries had actually happened, physical destruction, mental torment, and the pain of these years of separation, there are so many things, how should he make up for Gu Xiao?Is it useful to make up?

When Gu Xiao woke up, it was already noon the next day, Mu Han and Si Yuan were not there, only him and Feng Yao were in the car, Feng Yao was sitting in the passenger seat, staring at their group photo in a daze, when he heard Gu Xiao's movement, he turned to come over.

Feng Yao probably didn't sleep all night, his eyes were a little swollen, and the whites of his eyes showed inconspicuous bloodshot eyes. The smell of alcohol last night still made him extremely tired and tired. He looked at Gu Xiao dully, hesitant to speak.

Gu Xiao was fragmented without accident, his mind went blank, looking at Feng Yao's appearance, he didn't understand what was going on for a while, until Feng Yao asked him hoarsely: "Do you think a broken mirror can be restored? ?”

Gu Xiao was even more confused: "What?"

Feng Yao shook his head lazily, and sniffed his nose. Gu Xiao vaguely had an ominous premonition, and he asked uneasily, "Did I... yesterday?"

Before he could finish speaking, Feng Yao threw himself into his arms.

Feng Yao lowered his head, Gu Xiao couldn't see his expression, he could only hear a few weak sobs from the person in his arms, after a period of stale silence, the sobs became more and more uncontrollable, and finally turned into a collapsed cry.

Gu Xiao: "..."

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Zuo (serious face: Can crying solve the problem of mother-in-law and daughter-in-law! Why don’t you think about what to do when you have time to cry! Feng Yao:? As long as you talk too much