Wild Journey

At night, Gu Xiao twisted a few cloth strips and tied himself up behind his back.

Feng Yao came into the room after taking a shower, and saw Gu Xiao half leaning in front of the bed, wearing a black shirt that he usually wears, with the neckline open casually, revealing his sexy collarbone and shoulders, and the strong and strong muscles behind his hands The action is particularly prominent, and the button of the shirt is opened up, which attracts people's daydream.

Feng Yao swallowed.

Gu Xiao: "..."

Feng Yao: "It's late at night, what are you doing?"

"Don't you want to treat a disease? I'm afraid that when I think about the past later, I can't help but want to beat you up." Gu Xiao said, "Do you want to start now?"

Feng Yao's expression became very exciting: "Then you don't have to be like this..."

Gu Xiao: "Feng Yao, what are you thinking?"

"I didn't think about anything." Feng Yao coughed dryly to cover up, and turned his eyes away, "You start."

In fact, this is not the first time Feng Yao has learned about their past, but compared to Gu Xiao's intermittent words when he was drunk last time, this time the narration is more logical, and following Gu Xiao's statement, Feng Yao suddenly discovered One thing - when Gu Xiao was out of control, it seemed that he was not as uncontrollable as they thought.

Feng Yao recalled carefully, compared to the three experiences of insanity, the stimulation in the concentration camp was obviously less, and the recovery was faster, and the stimulation intensity in the T-12 area and the airship should be similar, but in the flight On the boat, although Gu Xiao lost control, he was not as scary as when he was in T-12 area.

What's the problem?

Feng Yao recalled the details at that time, and gradually found the key point - Gu Xiao's emotions seemed to have a lot to do with his reaction.Gu Xiao will always calm down under his comfort, no matter whether he is sincere or false, because Gu Xiao under hysteria lacks thinking ability and cannot distinguish his intentions.

Feng Yao thought about it, a little absent-minded, until he heard Gu Xiao's shortness of breath, he came back to his senses, and quickly imitated the way of the therapist's psychological counseling, guiding Gu Xiao: "Calm down, Gu Xiao, adjust your breathing."

Gu Xiao forbearance closed his eyes, his jaw muscles tensed slightly.

After thinking about it just now, Feng Yao had an idea. He tried to comfort Gu Xiao out of his hysteria by means of intimate contact, so he sat closer and said to Gu Xiao, "Look at me, I'm by your side Woolen cloth."

Gu Xiao gritted his teeth extremely tightly, as if he was enduring extreme pain, or some extremely strong and terrifying impulse, he began to struggle, the veins in his wrist bulged exaggeratedly, and there was a loud noise from the head of the bed, Then there was the sound of uninterrupted collisions, and the harder he struggled, the more irritable Gu Xiao became. He finally opened his eyes. He paused, "...let me go."

"I didn't tie you up, you did it yourself, remember?" Feng Yao hugged Gu Xiao tightly, holding his struggling hands with one hand, and gently stroking his back with the other hand, "Those things... ... long gone."

"I love you very much, Gu Xiao, and it has never changed..."

"I never thought of harming you, and I have been kept in the dark."

"I also wanted to find you at the time, but I... was locked up, and I have been looking for you for a long time, you know it all, think about it carefully..."

"You have to believe me, Gu Xiao, I have always loved you very much, no one will hurt you anymore, I will protect you, we will be together for a long time..."

Feng Yao repeated these old things that had been said countless times before, tirelessly. Gu Xiao's breath was heavy, and he was trembling violently. The muscles all over his body were tense, like defensive scales erected, sealing himself into the pain. In the piled-up besieged city, the movement at the head of the bed gradually calmed down. He frowned and was still in great pain, but he no longer resisted Feng Yao. .

I don't know how long it took, Gu Xiao slowed down, as if walking out of a nightmare, he stared blankly at Feng Yao, and Feng Yao wiped his sweat for him: "Is it better?"

Gu Xiao nodded wearily.

Feng Yao: "You said everything just now, do you have any impression?"

Gu Xiao said hoarsely: "Yes, I remember all of them."

Feng Yao: "I think your illness is much better than before. Look, you have talked so much today, but you quickly controlled yourself."

Gu Xiao didn't speak, Feng Yao asked: "Are you forcibly restraining yourself?"

"In the beginning." Gu Xiao said, "Later... gradually I could listen to what you said, and began to consciously wake myself up."

Feng Yao: "That's because of me."

Gu Xiao: "I don't know, why do you say that?"

Feng Yao: "In the T-12 area, I didn't know you well, and I was very resistant to your approach, which just confirmed your suspicion of me in the past, so you became very irritable... Later, in the flying boat and concentration camp , that's not the case."

Gu Xiao: "Maybe because you are one of the traumas."

Feng Yao was a little sad: "I'm sorry, it won't happen in the future."

Gu Xiao: "It's okay, it's over. Do you want to do it again?"

Feng Yao: "The therapist said it's best to do it step by step. If you repeat it too many times a day, the effect may not be so ideal. Let's talk about it tomorrow."

Gu Xiao hummed: "Then untie it for me."

Feng Yao: "I don't understand."

Gu Xiao: "?"

Feng Yao tilted his head, looking at Gu Xiao meaningfully.

Gu Xiao: "Untie it for me, be obedient."

Feng Yao imitated Gu Xiao's previous tone: "Why should I be obedient?"

Gu Xiao: "..."

Feng Yao looked at Gu Xiao, with playfulness and cunning in his pupils.

Gu Xiao raised his brows lightly, looking very confident. The two looked at each other silently for a while, but Feng Yao gradually lost his mind. He suddenly remembered the therapist's analysis of the condition that day: Gu Xiao has not yet come out of the past, he has never left the past. Subconsciously it may be insecure, even though they have been together for a long time.

Unknowingly, Feng Yao's joking expression subsided.

After a while, he got up, straddled Gu Xiao's body, and raised his hand to turn off the light.

"I love you." Feng Yao confessed in a low voice from the darkness.

Gu Xiao: "Why did you say this suddenly?"

Feng Yao: "It's nothing... just want you to know."

Half a month later, Feng Yao finished the operation and was discharged from the hospital. At the invitation of the therapist, he and Gu Xiao came to the research institute again.Si Yuan was also present, they greeted each other, and joked, "I'm almost becoming a psychiatrist."

Therapist: "Then I should charge you for stealing a teacher."

Si Yuan snorted with a smile.

The therapist looked at Feng Yao and Gu Xiao, and got to the point: "How are you doing these days, have you tried the method I said before?"

"Yes, I have been persisting." Feng Yao said, "The condition has improved, and the aggressive behavior can basically be controlled... In fact, there has been no violent tendency these days, and the time of losing control is also shortening, and he will wake up on his own. "

Feng Yao and the therapist described Gu Xiao's recent behavior in detail, the therapist made a record, and handed the last diagnosis report to Feng Yao, Feng Yao flipped through it, and heard the therapist say: "There is no medicine for PTSD, But the patient has violent tendencies and belongs to the subtype. I originally wanted to prescribe some antipsychotic drugs, but since the patient has improved, I think it is best to refer to your opinions."

Feng Yao: "It's fine, you're a doctor, I'll listen to you."

"Yaoyao, generally speaking, antipsychotic drugs have side effects." Si Yuan reminded in a low voice, "such as anxiety, lethargy, sexual dysfunction..."

Feng Yao was stunned: "What obstacle?"

Si Yuan: "It's the kind of medicine you wanted from me before..."

Feng Yao: "..."

Gu Xiao: "...?"

Feng Yao said in embarrassment: "No, I don't want it now..."

Si Yuan: "..."

The therapist smoothed things over: "Don't worry about this, as long as you take the medicine scientifically, the side effects will not last forever, and you can recover after stopping the medicine for a period of time."

Gu Xiao looked at Feng Yao: "What do you think?"

If the side effects are really only temporary, then Feng Yao doesn't care. I'm just afraid that something will go wrong. Besides, Gu Xiao's physical condition is special. Unexpected reaction, Feng Yao didn't want to take any risks, he was very hesitant, the therapist saw this, he didn't force it, he just comforted: "Medication is only adjuvant therapy, if it's true as you said, the patient's violent tendency has been greatly improved , it’s not impossible to not use medicine, you can decide for yourself according to the situation.”

Feng Yao: "Let's think about it again."

Therapist: "Actually, if we want to solve PTSD, we must start from the psychological point of view. In terms of treatment plan, I recommend delayed exposure therapy, which means to let the patient return to the traumatic scene, and reduce his emotional activation through repeated exposure. , and make it clear to him that what happened in the past will not happen again."

Feng Yao: "Go back to the research institute? This can't be achieved."

Si Yuan: "Isn't it just an operating room? What's the matter? Anyway, there are not many elements, so we can simulate one."

Gu Xiao frowned, looking very reluctant.

The therapist smiled and said, "I can understand your feelings. Most PTSD patients actually reject delayed exposure therapy and find it too painful. However, although this therapy is intense, it is indeed the most ideal treatment effect."

Feng Yao: "You don't have to be particularly ideal, just take your time and don't rush."

therapist:"……"

Feng Yao: "Is there any other way? Be gentler."

The therapist had no choice but to introduce a few more methods. Feng Yao didn't even want to cure him. After all, Gu Xiao was slowly getting better. He believed that as long as he persisted, Gu Xiao would recover sooner or later. Self-confidence, giving up treatment is not good, and finally they finalized a plan with the therapist, Gu Xiao will come to the institute twice a week to receive psychological counseling until the first course of treatment is over.

During this period, the empire launched a drug attack plan.

The trial site was the recently occupied lost ground. The reagents were spread by drones, and before the snakemen even had time to defend, they were disintegrated by the overwhelming deadly droplets. The empire won without a fight. At this point, the counterattack was officially launched.

The empire began to send out troops, the anti-drug reagents entered the stage of mass production, the military helicopters over the capital came and went frequently every day, and the frontlines continued to report good news. In this autumn when everything is dying, everything seems to be improving.

After an autumn rain, the weather turned cold, but the comfortable warmth of the end of summer still remained in the bedroom. Feng Yao rarely woke up early in the morning, turned over and hugged Gu Xiao, and wanted to go back to sleep, but found that Gu Xiao woke up. earlier than him.

Feng Yao: "Why so early?"

Gu Xiao: "Check something."

Feng Yao got into Gu Xiao's arms, leaned against his chest, and looked sleepily at the screen: "The cemetery... are you going to visit the grave today?"

"Well, go and have a look." Gu Xiao glanced at the time, hugged Feng Yao, lowered his head and kissed his forehead, "It's too early, go in the afternoon."

Feng Yao rubbed his eyes, and buried half of his face into Gu Xiao's neck.

Gu Xiao asked: "Sleep a little longer?"

Feng Yao groaned lazily, Gu Xiao put the tablet on the bedside and coaxed Feng Yao to sleep.Feng Yao was so sleepy that he lay on Gu Xiao's body, kissed him on the side of his neck, and subconsciously whispered, "I love you."

In recent days, Feng Yao has told Gu Xiao that I love you many times every day. Gu Xiao didn't know what kind of habit this was. pass?"

Feng Yao: "That has to be said, anyway, I love you."

Gu Xiao rubbed Feng Yao's head, couldn't help but kissed him twice, and said softly, "I know, go to sleep."

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The treatment process must focus on the past, but basically everything has been explained before, and it would be a bit procrastinating to write it again, so try to omit it as much as possible.