Autobiography of a paranoid patient

(One)

I slept with a man I had just known for seven days.

This man is still my tenant.

Wait a moment.

I am not a duck.

No!

(two)

I'm just an ordinary florist, and I especially like Fendra roses.

why?

There is no why.

Ok.

Say something hypocritical.

It was the moment I saw him that I fell in love with this flower.

champagne.

It's like a funeral and like a wedding.

Say what you want.

(three)

How things developed to this point, I thought about it, or I can only say, I don't know.

After all, I don't think he can see me and my body.

Of course, I'm jealous of him.

(four)

The day he came the weather was very bad very bad very bad.

rainstorm.

It rained heavily all day.

It's a pity that it happened to be a festival like 520, and the store was really busy.

Correct.

It was my fault that I missed his message.

So when he showed up at the store, I was dumbfounded.

(Fives)

I held a large bouquet of Fendra roses, and I could only see him from the top of the flowers with my neck up.

Pushing open the glass door would ring the wind chimes I hung, and I subconsciously turned my head away.

My hand loosened, a few roses fell out, and the thorns scratched my fingers.

I think there must be blood.

But not important.

(six)

He held a black long-handled umbrella in his hand.

Water still gathered at the tip of the umbrella, dripping down in a series.

It was really raining outside, but he covered himself well.

The hair on the forehead was not messed up, the trousers were straight, and the shirt was crisp.

And those eyebrows, like two undulating mountains.

He stretched out his hand towards me, and when I looked down, I saw the knuckle fingers holding the flower in my arms.

Inevitably, the back of his hand slid across my lower abdomen along the fabric.

So itchy.

I lowered my eyes and felt his breath so close to mine.

It seems that you can kiss it as soon as you look up.

(Seven)

I made him wait for me for a long time.

I keep my guests waiting for a long time.

Take him home through a small alley.

The sky is full of dark clouds, so dark and so quiet.

Only the sound of us walking.

He followed me with my back turned to him.

But I can picture his umbrella.

The tip of the umbrella points straight to the ground.

(Eight)

I take him back to my house.

It was dark in the corridor, and the old lights were dim. I took out the keys, and there were flower shop and round card-shaped bus cards hanging on a bunch of keychains. When I took them out, they rang in my palm. There was a lot of noise.

The key and the deadbolt kissed, and I pushed open the old door.

For the first time, I felt so shabby in my well-decorated hut.

Not good enough for him.

Not good enough for him.

At this moment, I just hope he doesn't leave.

do not go.

(nine)

I squatted down and found a new pair of men's slippers in the shoe cabinet—the ones meant for the tenants.

When I got up, his fingers covered the corner of my clothes and pulled down gently.

"Your clothes." He retracted his fingers.

If it weren't for his flat tone, I would have mistaken this move for some kind of hint.

But he just wanted to pull the clothes for me, maybe because I think my thin back is too ugly.

"Thank you," I said, squatting down again, kneeling on the ground with one knee, and pushing the slippers to his feet, "I prepared them for you."

I can carefully see his shirt and trousers today.

The straight trousers hang down, and underneath are a pair of shiny leather shoes.

It is the noblest object in the whole house.

(ten)

I showed him the room that belonged to him.

"I'm going to rent it out," he said.

At that moment, my restless heart finally gained a little peace.

I asked him as calmly as possible: "How long do you plan to rent for?"

He looked at me with his head tilted, his hands in his suit pants, and the corners of his lips slightly hooked, "July."

It's as if he changed his mind temporarily because of something.

He repeated flatly: "I will rent until July."

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Can it be changed to this?