I can't say it, I love you

"Ryuya, are you free later?"

"It might not work after a while." Liu put the book into the bag and smiled apologetically. "Sorry, Qingying."

"Every time I ask you, I always say something is wrong. Why? Got a girlfriend? I'm a busy man." Qing Ying said with an expression of wanting to gossip, carrying her schoolbag on her back.

"Not really. Let's go out together another day. Let's do this first." Liu also picked up his schoolbag and ran out of the classroom.

"Jingle---"

"Welcome. Liuya, you are reporting to the bookstore again today." Kazuki stepped forward and opened the wooden door.

Seeing Kazuki, Ruya's lips overflowed with a smile.

Kazuki stretched out his hands to mess up his black hair, and said with a smile, "I always feel like you've been running here a lot lately."

"Is there?" Liu also narrowed his eyes and looked happy.

"You're like my cat who likes to be petted." He went to the bar and took the tall glass from the cup holder. "I'll drink my new special fruit tea for you today."

"I thought this was a bookstore." Liu also smiled and sat on the high chair.

"It's a bookstore, that's right, it's just that Liu is also my special customer." Kazuki winked at him.

Liu also propped his cheeks, watching him skillfully wash, peel and dice the fruit.Squeeze the juice and pour it into a glass with a few cubes of ice.

"Here, add more lemon, sour and healthy." He smiled and pushed the cup in front of Ruya.

"Thank you." Liu also took a sip and almost spit out the tea in his mouth. "...Hi! It's so sour!" His face was twitching uncontrollably.

"Hahaha──" Seeing his expression, Kazuki immediately lay down on the table and laughed. "Liu, Liuya...your expression..." Liuye's previous expression floated in his mind again, and he laughed again.

"It's so sour." Liu also had a bitter face. "I don't want to drink anymore, I'll give it back to you."

"So you're afraid of acid." He Shu took the cup and drank it down.

"Is there the one from last time?" Frowning, he watched him drink up those "horrible liquids".

"Last time? I made many kinds for you to drink. Which one do you say?"

"Well... it's the first time you made it for me to drink. It's sweet and sour, with an apple flavor." He recalled.

"I see."

It was getting dark outside the bookstore, but inside the bookstore was filled with a warm and bright atmosphere.

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The downpour of rain outside rattled the glass windows, and the sound of the rain was accompanied by the sound of thunder.

"Heshu." A wet figure rushed into the shop.

"It's raining heavily, isn't it?" He looked up, and immediately saw a soaked chicken standing at the door, dripping water and laughing dryly.

"Why didn't you ask me to pick you up without an umbrella?" He Shu wiped his wet hair with a towel.

"I want to say that it's so close anyway, so I have to run. But I didn't know that the rain would suddenly fall so heavily, and it was still drizzle after leaving the school gate." Liu also complained.

"In summer, thunderstorms are easy in the afternoon, so remember to bring an umbrella next time."

"Oh." Liu Ye replied lazily on the chair with his feet curled up.

"What are you thinking?"

He didn't respond, just stared blankly at the floor.

Knowing his personality, He Shu didn't ask any more questions.Picking up the hair dryer, he gently fiddled with his hair.

Liu also closed his eyes, feeling Kazuki's slender fingers running back and forth through his hair.

"Really, very few people come to the bookstore."

A muffled voice floated up from below, He Shu was taken aback for a moment, and said with a smile, "So this is an inconspicuous bookstore."

"But I saw it right away."

"That's because I'm here." He winked mischievously.

"Don't put gold on your face." After giving him a blank look, Liu Ye burst out laughing.

"By the way, how did you do in the exam?"

"The test was terrible." Liu Ye replied with some displeasure, fully expressing that he was worried about this matter.

"Didn't you study hard?"

"You can't say that, just because you're absent-minded, you'll miss some questions that shouldn't be wrong." He frowned impatiently.

"I can't do it again in the next exam, can I?"

Liu also looked up at him, waiting for his next words.

"If you don't understand or miss something in class, I will be your free tutor at the bookstore after school."

"So free?"

"That's only for you, it's not for everyone." He cleaned up the wet towels and sundries on the table.

"Only...to me?" Kazuki's words caused a wave of self-consciousness in his heart.

"By the way, the day after tomorrow is your birthday, right?"

"Hmm. What's wrong?"

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"Mizuki, let's go play golf together today and then go home."

"I'm really sorry, there's nothing I can do today." Liu Ye clasped his hands together and bent down apologetically.

"Every time I ask you, you either say you have something to do or you don't listen at all. To be honest, do you have a girlfriend?" After speaking, he embraced him and turned his fists to Ruya's head.

"Pain, pain, pain! I don't have it. You idiot Qingying!" Liu Ye laughed and cursed as he struggled away from him.Go straight to the school gate.

"Hey, wait, I haven't packed my schoolbag yet."

Liu also approached the school gate, and a brown-haired boy in the uniform of Sawa High School was leaning against the concrete wall of the school gate.

"Heshu?"

Kazuki smiled and patted his head. "Is this a surprise?"

Suddenly, a pleasant voice came from behind Ruya. "Yo, isn't this Ruya?"

Liu Ye stood there tense, unwilling to turn around to confirm the owner of the voice.

"Why, you found a new lover so soon." En hooked his shoulder, not caring that her voice was enough to make everyone who approached the school gate turn their heads.

"Please shut up..." Liu also closed his eyes weakly.

"Saka's? Top quality." Hirano stroked his chin, his eyes looking at Kazuki's school uniform gleamed maliciously.

"He Shu, can you please leave for a while? I'll go to you after I finish the matter." Liu also showed a somewhat uneasy smile.

"Is it all right?" Kazuki looked at Hirano with a smirk, worried.

"It'll be fine, don't worry." Liu also patted his arm.

Kazuki Yiyan stood outside the school gate of Rinpoche, but still looked at Ruya worriedly.

Liu also took a breath, and met En's eyes.

"Why did you show that look? I really like how you used to be weak." En said slowly.

"It was you who killed my tenderness for you."

En ignored Liu Ye's harsh words, hooked his thin lips, and brought his face close to his ear, his magnetic voice softly brushed Liu Ye's ear. "Is that person your lover?"

"No." Liu also clenched his fingers nervously.

"Then does he know that you like the special hobby of boys?" After En finished speaking, his fingers dragged Ruya's chin. "If, now I kissed you, how would he feel about you?"

Liu also reflexively shifted his gaze to Kazuki standing at the school gate.

"Look at me." En pulled his face back forcefully, and a smile of unknown meaning surfaced. "It's fun. How would he look at you who can kiss a man? Surprised, unbelievable, or disgusting?" He enjoyed watching Liu Ye's face gradually fade away.

"Let go." Liu also pushed his hand away, but En wrapped his arms around his waist.

"I'm looking forward to it." After finishing speaking, a kiss was pressed heavily.

Ben's lips were cold, not as warm as ever.Because, the current En is kissing herself with a playful mood.

Liu also struggled, tears of shame and anger kept rolling down, En let him go, and Liu lowered his head.

After school was over for a long time, the students had already left the school gate, and the surroundings were empty, but Ruya felt ashamed as if there were people standing around, because he saw Kazuki.

He knew that Kazuki also saw himself.

Tears blurred his vision, and also blurred Kazuki's face.

Faintly, he saw the figure of Heshu getting closer.

Flow also closed his eyes.

In the darkness, he heard the voice of Kazuki.But he felt that this person was not He Shu, and the voice was very cold, without any warmth at all.

"Enough is enough, I don't know why you want to humiliate him like this, but please stop."

En just showed an indifferent expression, and when he walked past Liuya, he left a word. "His reaction was beyond my expectation."

"Please don't come near me again."

Liu also clenched his fingers tightly, and he still couldn't relax until En's figure left his sight.

Kazuki patted him on the shoulder and loosened his clenched fingers.

Liu also looked up at him, and he was taken aback by Kazuki's expression.

There was no disgust, no repulsion, it was a very gentle and worried expression.

"Why..." He was full of doubts.

But Kazuki took out a cardboard box from his schoolbag and gently opened it.

"Happy birthday."

After finishing speaking, a black mug came into Ruya's eyes.

"so beautiful……"

The silvery-white shooting star was lightly sprinkled on the black cup surface, seeing this, Liu immediately understood.

"I really don't know what gift to choose for you, but seeing this cup reminds me of the night when we first met and watched the meteor shower together." He Shu scratched his hair in a little embarrassment.

"I like it very much." He looked up and said with a smile.

"...It's fine if you like it." He breathed a sigh of relief. "Then now, I'll take you to a place." He smiled mysteriously.

Liu also knew that Kazuki had indeed seen everything, but pretended nothing happened and said nothing.

He is grateful to He Shu for his silent consideration and warm care.

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"Hey, Kazuki, have we arrived yet?" Liu also supported his shoulder, his voice was a little tired.

"Hurry up." He accelerated the speed of riding, and felt that the little guy behind him looked like he was about to fall asleep. "You catch me, it's dangerous to fall off the car later."

"Oh... I'm holding on tight." He drooped his head and woke up again.

He Shu had to stop the car on the side of the road.

"What are you doing?" Ruya rubbed his eyes, watching Kazuki put his own schoolbag on the iron back seat.

"Sitting on my schoolbag, your butt won't hurt. Otherwise, it would be too dangerous for you to stand, and you would have fallen asleep just now." After fixing the schoolbag, he stepped on the bicycle. "Come on up."

Liu Ye sat down obediently, but he didn't know where to grab his hands.So hold the little handle under the seat cushion.

"Aren't you afraid of falling? Catch me." He Shu laughed.

"Oh..." He immediately grabbed the corner of Kazuki's uniform.

"Ryuya, I mean, this way." He said, moving his hand to his waist.

"Ah..." Ruya's face turned red quickly.

"If you want to sleep, hug me. Then, don't drool on me."

"I don't know how to drool." He stared at him.

After confirming that he was seated, He Shu continued to ride.

The cool evening breeze gently brushed Liu Ye's skin, his eyelids gradually became heavy even though he was a little sleepy.

Feeling some weight on my back, I hooked my lips with the tree, and relaxed the movement of cycling.

"Ryuya, we're here." He gently shook the little guy behind him who slept until the sky fell and didn't even know it.

"Well……"

"You want to sleep your birthday off like this?" he teased.

"I'm awake." Liu Ya half-opened his eyes, and rested his head on Kazuki's shoulder again.

"Then I'll go first, you stay here and continue to sleep."

"I'm awake, really awake." He yawned big, stretched himself, and ran after Kazuki. "Where are you taking me?"

He Shu didn't answer him, but just led him down a stone spiral staircase.

The steps are covered with thin fine sand, and the cool wind blows up the tip of Liuya's nose, bringing the salty taste of the sea.

"Could this be... the beach?"

"Smart boy." He made a gesture of appreciation with the tree. "But that's not the point."

"Otherwise?" Liu also sat down on the beach.

"Secrets, it's not fun to tell them."

"As long as you're happy." He pouted. "What's for dinner? I'm hungry." Liu Ye showed a rare arrogant look.

"Master Ruya, tonight's dinner is a picnic." Kazuki also cooperated very well.

"Puchi! Are you serious?"

"Of course, wait for me, I'm going to a nearby store to buy things for barbecue."

Liu Ye hurriedly got up and said hurriedly, "I'm going too."

Thinking he was being childish, he comforted him: "I'll be back soon."

"I don't like being alone."

Heshu stroked his hair and took him by the hand. "If you want to follow, then come."

The two got on their bicycles again, went to a nearby merchant to buy barbecue supplies, and then turned back to the beach.

"Heshu." Liu also sat on the beach and looked at another person who was trying to start a fire.

"what?"

"Is that bookstore yours?"

"No, the bookstore is owned by my friend's father. I want to say, since I have nothing to do, it's not bad to work there." He let out a big breath. "The fire is ready, ready to roast."

Liu also put it on the grill immediately, and when he was about to spread the aluminum foil, He Shu reached out to stop it.

"What are you doing?"

"It will taste better if it is not spread, and the smoky taste will seep in."

"Is there something wrong?" Liu Ye looked at him suspiciously.

"Just try it and you'll know."

After a while, Heshu gave him a shiitake mushroom.

"There is no barbecue sauce." Liu also stared at the white mushrooms in his hands.

"Don't put that kind of thing on it. Sprinkle some pepper and salt to taste its original sweetness."

He stared dissatisfiedly at the shiitake mushrooms sprinkled with salt and pepper on the fork.

"Eat, eat and see. It's really delicious." While persuading him, Kazuki had already eaten a few salted and shiitake mushrooms.

Seeing him eating like that, Liu also took a bite of the shiitake mushroom.

"It's so sweet." He looked at Kazuki in surprise.

The natural sweetness of shiitake mushrooms spreads in the mouth, and this taste is very fresh for convection.

"I'll just say it."

"Don't just eat it secretly while you're talking." Liu Ye quickly snatched the plate from his hand, and immediately stuffed several into his mouth.

"You are too much!" Kazuki yelled, and then comforted himself: "It's okay, I still have green peppers."

"I want to eat too."

"I gave you all the mushrooms." He stared at him unconvinced.

"I don't care, it's my birthday today."

"Okay, okay, the birthday star is the biggest. I'll give it all to you." He Shu put all the green peppers on his plate aggrieved.

Seeing his expression, Liu couldn't help but laugh out loud.

"I'm just kidding! Ah──" He forked a piece of green pepper and brought it close to Kazuki's mouth.

Heshu stuttered, smiled and said, "If you were a girl, I would definitely like you very much."

When Liu Ye heard it, his heart skipped a beat.

If I were a boy, would you still like me?

This sentence overflowed his lips, but was forcefully suppressed by Liu Ye.

"I... go wash my hands." He panicked and wanted to escape the ambiguous atmosphere.

He squatted on the beach, the seawater flooded his ankles, his hands in the cold water, dazed.

Saying that with the tree was just a joke.

So what?

I am a boy.

For things like feelings, I don't have enough confidence to get myself into it anymore.

"Ryuya, what kind of fish are you touching? The sliced ​​meat is ready." The call from behind interrupted his wild thoughts.

"Here we come." He replied and wiped his hands.

Looking at Kazuki's smiling face, Liu couldn't help but lowered his head.

"Kazuki, can the mug you gave me be left in the store?"

"Okay, what are you going to do?" He looked up in confusion.

"It's just that if you make juice in the future, you can use that."

"Oh, yes." He readily agreed.

Liu also raised the corners of his mouth, a very gentle and gentle smile.

"The barbecue is almost done, I need to turn off the fire."

Liu also looked at Kazuki in confusion.

"It's almost time." He tapped his watch.

He Shu filled a pot with seawater and poured it into the fire.

The lingering smoke drifted into the air, and Ryuya stared at Kazuki's movements with his chin propped up.

"What the hell are you doing?"

"We'll find out later." He sat down next to Liu Ya and took out his coat from his schoolbag. "Will it be cold?"

"It's okay." He shook his head, but took the coat and hugged it tightly to his chest.

He Shu smiled and patted his head: "Pay attention to the sky."

Ruuya obeyed and looked up at the night sky intently.

When the silver streams slid across the clean night sky, the beautiful arcs were like the tears left by the streams on his cheeks, he moved his eyes to He Shu's side face looking up at the starry sky.

"Is it... a meteor shower?"

"Happy birthday, Ruya." Kazuki smiled warmly at him, putting his hands on the top of Ruya's head and ruffling his hair.

"Thank you..." Liu also hugged the jacket on his chest tightly, and it exuded a faint fruity fragrance, which belonged to Heshu.He took a deep breath, wanting to possess the sweet fragrance.

"This is the best birthday I've ever had." Liu also raised the corner of his mouth.

Love, quietly sprouting in Ruya's heart.