Wanderer

When Bai Yunqi wrote the signature "LiHua" on the last line of the answer sheet of the English composition, there were still 52 minutes before the paper was handed in.He didn't have the habit of checking. He pushed the answer sheets and papers aside and fell asleep.

He dreamed of a tall and thin man behind his back saying "Let's go", he couldn't keep up no matter what, and watched the figure disappear into the sky-high fire, and he jumped into the fire, suffocating like drowning.

The piercing electric bell rang, and he woke up suddenly. The invigilator stood on the podium and said cheerfully: "The exam is over, please stand up, and I wish you all a happy National Day in advance."

After the exam, No. [-] Middle School started the National Day holiday. Wen Hai got off work early and waited at the school gate. After receiving Bai Yunqi, he took someone to the supermarket. Neither of them liked snacks. After preparing some daily necessities, I checked out and got back into the car.

Wen Haibin started the car and said, "I told Bai Tong'an that he let you live with me at ease and come to see you when he is free."

The surprise came suddenly, and Bai Yunqi took a few seconds to react, and couldn't help but confirm: "Then I can live with you for a whole year?"

Wen Hai laughed, "If you go to university in this city, you can live there until you graduate with a Ph.D. I won't get married anyway...Of course, I mean, if you want to go to university."

This sentence contained too much information, and Bai Yunqi's brain, which was tired from the high-intensity exams, turned around a few times with difficulty, and the power was cut off with a "creak".

"Oh, since we're just talking about this matter, let's chat for a while." Wen Hai casually set up a trap, and slowly led the man into the trap, "Xiao Qi, why don't you want to go to college?" ?”

At first, Wen Hai asked this question in a tentative nature, and he didn't fully grasp Bai Yunqi's mind, but when he caught a glimpse of Bai Yunqi's panicked and forced calm eyes from the corner of his eye, this idea was rejected. Fully confirmed.

One second before, Bai Yunqi was immersed in the joy of being able to live with Wen Hai for a year, but the next second he was stuffed with a stringed grenade. Holding the grenade, he held the grenade anxiously and implicitly expected, his right hand died. He clutched the hem of his T-shirt tightly, and bit the tip of his tongue to keep himself from making a sound.

To his surprise, Wen Hai didn't lose his temper or chatter endlessly.This person first made clear his position - he and Bai Yunqi lived together for only one month, they were neither relatives nor relatives, they had no blood relationship, nor did they have any deep revolutionary friendship, if Bai Yunqi would recognize him as a friend , then they are just ordinary friends.

Bai Yunqi responded sullenly.

"I've seen your transcripts in the last semester of senior one, senior two, and senior three. The average is low, but the practicality is lower than the average. Your Chinese and English scores are average, but math and science are lagging behind. Later I found out that you are a student of physics and chemistry. Your grades have hardly changed, and you will always be within a few points of 70. The only time you did well in the exam, your school’s overall score in science and comprehensive science is relatively low, but you are still in the [-]s.” Wen Hai analyzed it unhurriedly. He said, "But after several exams in the second semester of the third year of high school, your grades began to plummet. Each time the exam was worse than the last time, and the whole line collapsed in the college entrance examination...Then the question is, Xiaoqi, how did you manage to do it for two years? Half of the scores have not changed, and why did you almost hand in a blank paper in the college entrance examination?"

He didn't intend to ask Bai Yunqi to answer, and continued: "But you have your own ideas, no matter what, I will not make wild guesses or comments on your behavior. It stands to reason that your birthday was already passed during the college entrance examination. As a As an adult, you can take full responsibility for your actions. As an outsider, I am not qualified to intervene. I asked Bai Tongan, and he said that you were unwilling to repeat the study at first, but you were forced to come over by him. Don’t blame yourself He, he is the kind of nice guy who does this for your own good, and based on his life experience, he probably doesn't understand why some people don't want to go to college. If it makes you difficult, I apologize to you on his behalf. "

Bai Yunqi sounded like a mosquito, "It's not that I don't want to go to college..."

"Well, I know what you mean." Wen Hai nodded, "I just want to discuss this matter with you."

He has been staring directly at the road ahead all the way, not looking at Bai Yunqi at all, and now he condescends to glance at him, and said in a business-like manner: "First, if you really don't want to go to college , I will help you with the withdrawal procedures. You don’t have to worry about anything. You can continue to live in my house for a full year, or you can leave now. You are in trouble. Second, if you still want to go to university, start taking the exam well after this holiday, and make sure that every exam, including the college entrance examination, is your true level. Regarding the cost of going to college, your account is now at Mr. Bai’s house , it is more difficult to apply for a student loan. I can help you pay for all the necessary expenses for your college education, including basic living expenses, and you will repay it to me within 15 years after you graduate from college... Well, you can treat it as an interest-free loan Well, in this way, you and the Bai family don't have any economic relationship, what do you think... Hey brat, I'm driving a car, let it go!"

Bai Yunqi let go of Wen Hai's arm, and sat stiffly on the seat, his palms were sweating layer after layer, and he felt his whole body trembling.Didn't he know that there are so many ways out of life, as long as he is willing to live, he can always get by, but he didn't expect that he was ready to overcome all obstacles and roll the nails, but someone suddenly opened up a broad road for him, like that hopeless future It has become another world.

"Don't think there's anything to bother me. I don't plan to get married and I don't need to save money. My parents don't need me to support them, so I should just invest in you." Wen Hai dispelled Bai Yunqi's last worries, "Let's talk about me I grew up eating the meals at Bai’s house, and I haven’t paid for a few meal tickets, so I should help you.”

As he said that, he slammed on the brakes and parked the car gracefully, "When I applied for the college entrance examination, I made a mess, and my family and school were in trouble, so I used to be your comrade-in-arms, that's what happened, you go back and take care Think about it... take that bag of lettuce, don't think that you don't need to eat it in the car, let's go, go home."

"Brother Wen," Bai Yunqi called out to him, "Why...why aren't you planning to get married?"

"There are many reasons. It's good to live alone." Wen Hai said nonchalantly, "And I'm gay, even if I'm planning to get married, the law doesn't recognize it."

Today's last blockbuster bomb fell to the ground, blowing Bai Yunqi's face into blossoms. He realized that his expression should be quite stupid now, but he was still dumbfounded uncontrollably: "You...you..."

Wen Hai frowned: "Do you know anything about homosexuality?"

Bai Yunqi intuitively felt that this topic was a very sensitive topic, but Wen Hai's attitude was too casual, as if he was talking about today's weather, and he said uncertainly: "It seems...not too..."

"Well, it's really nothing, it's just that someone likes people of the same gender as me." Wen Hai took out the key to open the door, and caught a glimpse of Bai Yunqi's hesitant expression, "Your brother also knows about this... Living?"

Bai Yunqi shook his head hastily.

"I didn't want to tell you, but since you're going to live here for a year, you'd better make it clear so there's no misunderstanding." Wen Hai held the door and motioned Bai Yunqi to go in first, "It's also my fault for not coming in earlier. Tell me, do you mind this?"

Bai Yunqi was afraid that he would continue with the sentence "If you mind, you should go live with your brother's house", so he hurriedly expressed his position: "It's okay, although I don't know much about it, but...it really doesn't matter."

Wen Hai nodded, with a real smile on his face: "Actually, if there are a few more people who think like you, it's really nothing...Come in, and give me the things."

In this way, Bai Yunqi officially settled down in Wenhai's family, and lived a senior year of high school "keep your ears off the outside world, and only read Wang Houxiong". , half of it is related to "normal" and "innate", half is related to "mental illness" and "AIDS", and there are a few blurry pornographic animations.

In a sexually repressed society, everything is like a joke with a time bomb. People laugh and avoid it. Some people say they accept it but don’t understand it, and some people say they understand it but don’t accept it. In fact, Most of them still didn't understand or accept it, they just said it condescendingly, with a high tone, as if to forgive someone's sins.

Bai Yunqi has always been an outlier. He lives in the place abandoned by urbanization. Ignorance and poverty have locked the people there in a longer time. The sex there is more repressed and at a loss. Children want to know but don’t know what to do. Dare I know, I secretly picked up the pornographic magazines that were thrown in the trash and covered my eyes to read them. Boys read them, girls read them too. Boys laughed when they saw them, and girls cried when they saw them. Parents found out and pulled their collars The beating with his trousers stripped off, he had to curse at the same time, scolding hoarsely, bloody and bloody, as if he had never done those things.

After beating and scolding those people, the remaining grief and anger in their hearts had no place to vent, so they scolded Bai Yunqi's grandma, telling her to clean up her dirty things, so as not to dirty the eyes of her children, cursing and cursing again He scolded Bai Yunqi, saying that the pornography magazine was brought out by Bai Yunqi from home, and the eggs were indeed the reserve army of chickens.

But Bai Yunqi's grandma didn't shy away from these things. She asked Bai Yunqi, do you want to know what those people are doing?

Bai Yunqi actually didn't want to know, but he didn't dare to say it. In front of his grandma, he didn't dare to say anything, didn't dare not say anything, didn't dare to live or die, so his grandma told him, bloody The clarity and clarity of pure beast/desire and the need for human reproduction.She described those desires as unadulterated with love, she couldn't tell love, half of her love in this life was given to a man, and the other was given to that man's daughter, one of them died, and the other would be better off dead than alive. She is disappointed.

As a victim of that era, what he knew and what he didn't know were kept secret, and no one could tell which was worse. They were not as calm as a widow, and Bai Yunqi followed her.

This issue has not been entangled for too long. After all, whether he is gay or straight, Wen Hai always looks ready to die alone. care.

Halfway through the National Day holiday, Bai Tongan, who had been working from dawn to dusk for more than a month in a foreign country, traveled across the ocean to Haiti to return to his hometown, and took a taxi directly to Wenhai's house, which is closer to the airport, to grab a meal.

Wen Hai was busy with the drug trafficking and murder case these days, so he didn't have time to play games with him, so he kicked him out after eating.When he was about to leave the house, Bai Tong'an was dying, and Qian reminded Wan Wan: "Mosquito, I didn't entrust my brother to you to let you take him to grow mushrooms at home, give me some snacks."

Wen Hai supported the door frame with one hand, and said casually: "If you lose your mind, something will happen." As soon as he finished speaking, his face changed. Facing Bai Tong'an with the usual expression, he cleared his throat and turned away, " I didn't mean that."

Bai Tong'an sighed deeply, raised his hand and rubbed Wen Hai's hair.

The normally noble and glamorous Police Officer Wen is like an elementary school student who has made a mistake. He obediently lowers his head to let Bai Tongan lick his soft and slippery hair. That golden retriever was a fight, and he accidentally became addicted to it. After rubbing it for half a minute, he scratched his dandruff, and wiped it on Wen Hai's T-shirt in a blink of an eye.

Wen Hai: "..."

Bai Tong'an was dishonest, and squeezed Wen Hai's face again: "I know, you're fine too, don't make my brother into your virtue... Oh, by the way, you told me about his schoolbag that time I bought him a backpack, but I forgot it in the car, come with me to get it."

Wen Hai nodded, turned around to get the keys, his wandering eyes met Bai Yunqi standing at the corner of the entrance and the restaurant corridor, the child squinted his eyes and walked towards the coffee table, yawning, and asked : "Brother Wen, are you going out?"

"Get something." Wen Hai responded, grabbed the key and rubbed the center of his brows, feeling something was wrong.

The explosion completely ruined Wen Hai's health. In June this year, he squatted in a rainstorm and developed acute pneumonia. He coughed so much that he vomited blood and almost died in the car that took him to the hospital.The driver at the time, Bai Tongan, who had been a professional for 30 years, saw that his face was not right, and thought he was not feeling well, so he raised his hand and touched his forehead reflexively: "What's wrong? Have a fever again?"

Wen Hai patted his hand away, "It's okay."

After Wen Hai and Bai Tong'an's footsteps disappeared, Bai Yunqi stared at his fingertips silently.He first confirmed that the scene just now was not his hallucination, then he clenched his fists tightly, and a few veins popped out on the back of his pale hand.

Afterwards, he took a cup of hot water and drank it down in one gulp while the cup was still steaming, but his internal organs were instantly cooled by the cup of hot water.In the unspeakable anxiety, he put down the water glass heavily, turned around and went back to the study.

The bottom of the glass and the wooden coffee table made a muffled "boom", and disappeared into the empty room in an instant.