Wanderer

Seeing Bai Tong'an's calm expression when he talked about "two lives", Bai Yunqi understood that this guy probably thought he knew the truth. He killed a snake named "Wen Hai", so he sent the person away without showing his face, and when the next half day was greeted and sent, he kept thinking about it uncontrollably.

Today, Bai Tongan is with his family, and most of his daily contacts with Wenhai are through modern social software to attack each other personally, and Wenhai's leaders deliberately cultivate them, and the work is getting more and more stressful, and he is so busy, The number of times the two met and fought was far less frequent than before the little princess Bai was born, so Bai Tongan made the joke of "nine lives" for the first time in the more than a year since Bai Yunqi returned to China.

But on the day he went abroad, because the two of them indulged a little on "certain things" the night before, Wen Hai looked a little depressed, Bai Tong'an thought he was staying up late and working overtime again, and said, "You You are not afraid of breaking another one of your eight tails."

From the time he returned to China to the present, Bai Yunqi was sure that Wen Hai hadn't had any "terrible" troubles, and the rest was the two-year blank period when he went abroad. The temperament is like that again, although it is not possible to not contact once in ten days and a half months like before, but it is impossible to achieve the idealized goal of "long-distance relationship needs to keep in touch every day". They are still alive, they don’t make frequent phone calls, neither of them lives an easy life, but it’s boring to complain, they are doing their own things at hand, and they can pick up something that can make them happy while suffering, at least they know that they don’t Live the worst.

From the third year of junior year to the first year of overseas research, due to academic pressure and psychological problems, Bai Yunqi's precarious sleep quality finally collapsed across the board, and he often lay in bed and woke up from sunset to sunrise.He can basically memorize the chat records with Wenhai every day, from the beginning to the end, and he can't find anything wrong with Wenhai's tone, and the time to send "good night" is about the same , only a few times that he said that he had a cold or suffered a minor injury, and it can be seen in the video that there is no serious problem.

...Only the time when he "disfigured" was regarded as the most serious injury, but it was just a few more conspicuous scratches, how could it almost kill him?

Although Wen Hai intends to supervise the case of the car accident, on the day Bai Yunqi was discharged from the hospital, a wanted criminal who had been on the run for more than ten years after murdering a family of five in Tongcheng registered in a guest house in a small county in a neighboring province with a pseudonym and a fake certificate under surveillance by the police. And let it all out, the wanted criminal has strong anti-investigation capabilities, and when he sensed something was wrong, he stabbed the two auxiliary policemen who came to inquire into serious injuries and fled. Wen Hai was summoned by Babaili with the serious crime team. Day did not go home.

In the huge house, Bai Yunqi sat alone in the living room, hearing his own increasingly rapid heartbeat and panting.

With a flash in his mind, he remembered a joke that Wen Hai had said. At that time, he was in his study writing a legal opinion on the division of property in divorce to a woman received by the public welfare organization for domestic violence relief. The woman only said that when she first got married, she The husband promised her to register the house under her name. In fact, he had never seen what the real estate certificate looked like after more than ten years of marriage. The husband said that the house was his pre-marital property. It was a woman who drank too much on the wedding night. Said that the other party was farting, which made the mediator and Bai Yunqi dumbfounded.

Wen Hai laughed straight after hearing this, and patted the computer desk casually, saying that his property rights certificates of real estate and chattels, big and small, were all stored in the drawer of this desk, and he also brought a few passbooks and insurance policies. Don't forget to search here if the money is running away.

Walking to the drawer, Bai Yunqi's tongue smelled bloody. He lowered his head, only to realize that his hands were shaking so much that he could hardly hold the pull bolt.

After a whole day of bumping on the washboard road in the backcountry, Wen Hai's old bones were almost shaken by the tricycle, and he lay dead on the hard board bed in the guest house. He wanted to say hello to the left-behind child Bai Yunqi. It was connected within three beeps, and there was a soft "um" on the other side, but he stopped talking.

"Is the wound better?" Wen Hai asked, "Remember to take anti-inflammatory medicine."

"Ah."

"I have a clue here, and I can go back as soon as this Friday."

"Ah."

"... Xiaoqi?" Wen Hai faintly felt something was wrong, "What's wrong with you? Are you okay?"

Bai Yunqi was leaning on the sofa and sitting on the cold floor of the living room, holding a stack of inspection reports in his hand, each inspection item contained three cold letters of "HIV", followed by two words—" Negative".He also had an HIV occupational exposure appraisal report by his hand. "Level [-] exposure, mild source of exposure" was written in the conclusion column as lightly as a feather. Below it were the signatures of the doctor and Wen Hai, signed two years ago. .

"Didn't you ever think about telling me?" He closed his eyes tremblingly, "[-]-day medication period, six antibody tests, and a full [-]-month inspection cycle, didn't you ever think about telling me when you were suffering? "

How ridiculous, Wen Hai’s last HIV antibody test, he received the test report three days before he returned to China, and then he told Wen Hai that if you don’t come to pick me up on the plane the day after tomorrow, I’ll buy a ticket and fly straight to the Sahara, Wen Hai While Hai was talking about being good, little ancestor, you are awesome, he took the last verdict from the doctor.

There was a dead silence over Wenhai, and even the sound of breathing was suppressed to the minimum. After a long time, he said: "What's the use of telling you other than to make you frightened?"

Bai Yunqi laughed back in anger, suppressing the anger that was squeezed to his lips, and said more helplessly: "I'm useless, so why don't you tell me?"

The question that was deliberately avoided was caught off guard and brought to the light. Wen Hai was inexplicably agitated because of the tense and tired spirit of the case, and replied in a bad tone: "Mother, did you tell me about Baikang's affairs?"

"Is this the fucking thing?!" Bai Yunqi finally roared, "Wen Hai! You almost died before the fuck! Do you know that I almost lost everything!"

Wen Hai was aroused by his sudden roar, and the fire that had been simmering since the car accident was revived, and he said coldly: "You mean that I should notify you in advance when I am going to die, Get you ready?"

Bai Yunqi seemed to be stuck in the neck, and the sound of breathing stopped rapidly.

"Then I will inform you in advance that I will die. Not only will I die, but I should die before you according to my age and physical condition. Are you satisfied? Accept the fact."

"...What did you say?" Bai Yunqi was stunned in disbelief, "Accept what fact?"

"Accept the fact that I will always leave you." Wen Hai said, "The fact is that everyone will die, and everyone will watch others die. We will all die and we will not die on the same day except for natural and man-made disasters."

There was a loud bang on the loudspeaker, and the phone disconnected abruptly.

Wen Hai put down the phone expressionlessly and rubbed his ears, guessing that Bai Yunqi must have smashed the phone.

Bai Yunqi not only smashed the phone, but also smashed everything he could see. The porcelain plate and water cup shattered to the ground, dozens of thick reports were thrown high, and snow-white paper was scattered all over the sky. It is not only like a cold corpse, but also like a sacrificial coin.

Standing in the ruins, he remembered what Wen Hai said in the hospital that day.

"I'm not mad at you, I just don't understand how things got to this point..."

What a cheap thing people are, how many people are so difficult to live and breathe, if God really has eyes, how can he drive people to such a desperate situation?

There's nothing to celebrate about escaping death, it's fucking almost dying.

The anger that had nowhere to vent burned Bai Yunqi's heart ached, but underneath the boiling blood was a biting chill, and even the wounds that had just scabbed for a few days all collapsed due to strenuous exercise, and blood dripped down the sleeves and trouser legs A drop fell on the white tiles.Severe pain and numbness were intertwined. He raised his head like a walking corpse, and everything he could see was the mess of a typhoon passing through. The so-called "house rules" were hung on the only wall that survived the disaster.

Oh, the house rules, it turns out they have rules.

They have rules: First, they love peace and do not use any violent means to resolve conflicts between the two sides, including but not limited to unconventional violence such as self-abuse and cold war.The two have a clear distinction between public and private, and do not blame the other party for business affairs, including but not limited to clients, colleagues, parties and their families who are idiots and filed a case at 03:30 in the morning.[-]. Have something to say, and do not use various insulting words to attack each other, including but not limited to greeting their close relatives and self-abuse.

This was originally scribbled by the two of them when they were bored after they were given a small whiteboard with "Three Chapters of the Covenant" printed on it to catch up with the supermarket promotion.They drafted together in Chinese, Bai Yunqi translated English, Wen Hai translated Russian, and posted them on both sides of the whiteboard with post-it notes. The last time Bo Tongan and his wife visited, they added French and Japanese versions. Colorfully pasted on the pure white wall, it was as lively as the Eight-Power Allied Forces.

Bai Yunqi sat staring at the whiteboard for a long time, took a deep breath when the moon rose into the sky, stood up silently, picked up the document bag thrown on the ground and put it on the table, and began to clean up the wreckage that he had made .

In addition to those inspection reports, knowledge letters, reimbursement forms, etc., Wen Hai also put his notarized will and a letter that could barely be regarded as a "suicide note" into that file bag. Bai Yunqi voluntarily helped others to review After writing so many wills, I never thought that I would know nothing about the wills of the person next to my bed. Wen Hai is a poor ghost who bears the name of a son-in-law. Most of the property was bequeathed to him, and a small part was left to A private orphanage, the recipient's surname is Qi, which seems to be a girl's name.

The letter was written to Bai Yunqi. Although it didn't look like it was going to be mailed, at least it said "Received by Bai Yunqi" on the envelope. It said it was a letter, but it was clearly a suicide note, and it was not included in film and television works or romance novels. Those touching or crying, Wen Hai’s suicide note is the same as his own. First, he narrates what happened in a cold and concise manner. When he was arrested, he fought with the suspect who held a knife. Both of them suffered bloody injuries. The suspect tested positive for HIV. He was exposed occupationally. It is a bit humane or conscientious. This person noted in the back that the infection rate of occupational exposure is not high, the probability is a few thousandths, and now the medical technology is so advanced. Developed, even if he is really infected, as long as no other complications are caused, he should still live for a long time.

But for some reason, Bai Yunqi saw the subtext of these few words as "I can kill you with such a small probability and such a high survival rate, so don't be sad, it's all life."

Sure enough, in the next paragraph, Wen Hai began to say that although this time there may be no danger, but in the future "in case" he has any accidents, what should he do with those trivial things behind him.He repeated the distribution of the inheritance, because most of the notarized relationships have been brought up, but he specifically stated that if Bai Tong'an is not willing to take back his shares in his company, then he will trouble Bai Yunqi to take back this part of the shares. The annual dividends are donated to a private orphanage. The orphanage is now managed by Qi Jian's widow and her daughter. He has never known what capacity he should use to visit them. This is the last thing he can do to repay Qi Jian.

The tone of this "suicide note" is alienated throughout, and in the end, I didn't say who I was grateful for, who I resented, or what regrets I had in my life. It can be summed up in seven words: "I live, I live, and I die."

It really seemed like he could write it.Bai Yunqi sat on the sofa with his head propped up, shook the large envelope, and another piece of white cardboard slipped out, with light silver dark lines printed on it, which were roses and nightingales.

He felt vaguely familiar, and suddenly remembered the New Year's Eve many years ago, the girl holding a large bouquet of roses, the cheering crowd, the fireworks all over the sky, and the kiss in the dark.

"Sir, will you buy a bouquet for your lover?"

"Sir, don't you want to write something to your love? I have a card here."

Bai Yunqi tried his best to identify those beautiful curves on the paper, not in English, not like German and French... He thought of Wen Hai saying that he had learned Russian, and immediately went to get the mobile phone lying on the ground. The screen of the mobile phone was broken into pieces. Spider web, unable to turn on the computer for a long time, he hurried to the study to open the notebook, looking for Russian letters one by one according to the "special symbols" on the input method. , the humanized modern search engine has given the closest option.

"I loved you; love, perhaps not yet

Completely extinguished in my heart.

But I don't want it to bother you anymore,

I don't want to cause you any more sorrow.

I loved you silently and hopelessly,

My torment was sometimes jealousy, sometimes shyness.

I loved you so sincerely and so tenderly,

May God give you someone else as steadfast as I am. "

May God give you someone else...

"I will always leave you."

...and as firm as iron like me.

——Ялюблютебявсемсердцем

I love you.

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