Diary of my first love

When Trev came back, it was already full of stars outside.She is studying biological sciences, a sunrise industry in the 21st century, with bright prospects, but unfortunately it has not yet risen.

It can be very busy, or it can be very leisurely.Today is the time to be busy.

As soon as she got home, she first searched for Zhang Yu, and when she saw him lying safely on the bed in the bedroom, she finally let go of her worried heart.

No matter what the pain is, it is always the most difficult at the beginning. If nothing happens on the first day, the rest of the day will be easier.

She looked at the refrigerator, and there were only a few dry breads missing. She seemed to be able to imagine how Zhang Yu squinted his eyes and stuffed the bread into his stomach. If it wasn't for the need to maintain the necessary physiological functions, he probably wouldn't have gotten up at all. .

The next day, Cui Fu left early, and she thought that what Zhang Yu needed at the moment was not company, but a quiet time.

When he needs her, he just needs to say hello, and she will come.

……

Zhang Yu slept on the bed for a long time, it was dawn when he opened his eyes, and it was dawn again when he opened his eyes again.

As long as he slept, he dreamed as long as possible.

His will is very clear, and his dreams are clearly remembered.

These dreams seem to come from the memories buried deep under the cerebral cortex, so that Zhang Yu feels like walking around in his own memories.

The sky is always gloomy in the dream, except for getting to know Cui Fu and Lin Hao, the rest can be said to be lackluster.

A person's love can come for no reason, just like me to Zhang Zhi; a person's hatred can also have no reason, just like Lou Yang did to me.

The reason why Zhang Yu became as low-key and even inferior as today, emotionally cowardly and indecisive; looks cold and difficult to get in touch with... Most of the reasons are due to Lou Yang.

When he was in junior high school, Zhang Yu did not do well in the senior high school entrance examination. He was reported by others, and his handwriting was found in his clothes.

His dream was on that day, when he was told the bad news, he walked on the street in a daze, from the darling of heaven who had high hopes in the school to the scum of society who cheated on the exam, this change came too fast.

How did the cheat sheet with his handwriting get into his pocket, and how would he tell his eagerly expecting parents when he went back?

He didn't want to go back, but he couldn't find a place to dock temporarily. He was like a boat swept to the middle of the river by strong wind and waves, circling aimlessly on the water.

He walked to an alley with tall courtyards on both sides. This is a place where the sun does not shine, dark and damp, with moss glowing faintly blue. The end of the alley is a dead end.

Like the plot only in TV dramas, when Zhang Yu just wanted to go back the same way, a group of people suddenly poured in from the alley.

They were all teenagers under twenty, with thin arms and legs, but they all had colorfully dyed hair, and tattoos on their bare arms that they thought were scary.

Zhang Yu didn't know anyone here, except Lou Yang, who he thought was a very good friend.

There was a flash of understanding in his eyes, and the last trace of luck in his dark eyes was shattered.

"Lou Yang," Zhang Yu said, but the voice he made was not like his, rough and hoarse, his throat seemed to be worn away by the rough sand on the river bed, "I was looking for you."

Lou Yang and a leading boy did not know what to say. These people only surrounded Zhang Yu and did not do anything else.

Lou Yang walked straight towards Zhang Yu. He was still wearing the usual white jeans and a white T-shirt, but his demeanor and temperament had completely changed.

In Zhang Yu's impression, he was a shy and innocent child who would blush when someone teased him. Although he looked a little timid, when others spoke ill of Zhang Yu, he would also muster up his courage and speak with him. people argue.

Zhang Yu thought they were good friends.

The current Lou Yang, perhaps because Zhang Yu didn't notice it for a long time, his facial features opened up, and the childlike innocence and innocence disappeared from his face, replaced by an evil sharpness and an indelible gloomy look between his brows .

He seemed to know what Zhang Yu wanted to ask, leaned in front of Zhang Yu, and took a deep breath from his neck to his forehead like a pervert. After doing this, it seemed that his crazy desire had been temporarily relieved, and Lou Yang revealed Morbidly contented grin.

He squinted his eyes slightly, and admitted to himself: "That's right, I stuffed the cheat sheet that was searched for your exam, and I also told the teacher of the No. [-] Middle School the news." rivalry)"

Although it was unexpected, Zhang Yu still found it unbelievable to hear Lou Yang's confession, "Why did you do this, aren't we good friends?"

"Friend," Lou Yang sneered, and then looked at Zhang Yu tenderly, "Don't worry, I will tell you everything today."

Lou Yang stretched out his hand to reach Zhang Yu's chin, but Zhang Yu slammed it away, "Don't touch me."

Lou Yang swept away the hand that was shot red, smiled instead of anger, and said softly: "You are so nice, everyone wants to be friends with you, when you become my tablemate, you know how happy I am ?"

"You are really as good as I imagined. You will give me lectures and share delicious candy with me. After school, we will lie on the grass and watch the sunset, and then we will walk together for a while home."

Zhang Yu asked again in a deep voice: "Then why did you do this?"

Hearing Zhang Yu's question, Lou Yang lowered his head and squatted halfway. His long bangs covered his eyes, and he couldn't see his expression for a while.

"You ask me why," Lou Yang let out a weird laugh, it was more like crying than laughing, he suddenly raised his head, Lou Yang's facial features were twisted together, his voice gradually became crazy, like crazy Like a demon, "I just blame you for being so kind. You are like a high sun shining in all directions. I am just a dirty gutter under your sun. How can a gutter be friends with the sun? He will only try his best to make the sun Pulled down, sinking into the black dead sea, becoming as filthy as the sewer."

"One of your parents is a business executive, and the other is a famous ancient scholar. As for me, my parents are just insignificant workers in the factory."

"The candies you give me are all imported from abroad. If there are any new digital products on the market, your parents will always buy them for you first, and then give me a set by the way."

"I..." Zhang Yu stretched out his hand, he wanted to say: My family is not a wealthy family, the candies I give you are all selected, some are from abroad, but definitely not many; the set for you is not mine. My parents bought it by the way, but I bought it myself after saving for a long time, but Zhang Yu didn't say anything after all, and slowly withdrew his hand, there is nothing else to say.

"Your grades are so good, the teacher can understand it once you tell me, but I, even if you tell me several times, I still don't understand; you can play the piano and oil painting, but I can't do anything. I can't compare to anything You, nothing is as good as you."

Lou Yang asked: "Do you know what others will say about me when you are a friend?"

Zhang Yu: "What?"

Lou Yang imitated the voices of the two girls. Girl A: "Lou Yang is stupid and short. It is said that he is a kind of free tuition. Why is he always walking with Brother Zhang Yu?"

Girl B: "Brother Zhang Yu is so good, no matter who is his deskmate, he will take care of others like this. Lou Yang is neither male nor female, who will be friends with him? Brother Zhang Yu is just because of the teacher's affection." Only then did I take care of him more, only he himself regarded himself as a piece of material."

Zhang Yu closed his eyes wearily, exhaled a long breath, and looked at Lou Yang, "Just because of a few words from others, do you think I am friends with you out of face? Didn't I tell the teacher later that Are you continuing to be your deskmate?"

Lou Yang didn't seem to see Zhang Yu's pain, sneered, stretched out a finger, and shook Zhang Yu, "It's not just that, it's more about jealousy, jealousy comes out of nowhere, the better you treat me, I will The more I feel that it is charity, I am jealous of what you have, and I wish I could replace it with my own body."

"So, I'm going to destroy you."

Zhang Yu looked at Lou Yang coldly, without saying a word.

Lou Yang circled around Zhang Yu, and then came back directly opposite him. He stretched out his middle finger and stabbed Zhang Yu hard in the heart. He stopped suddenly, at the position in front of Zhang Yu's clothes.

Lou Yang looked directly into Zhang Yu's eyes and showed an embarrassed smile, "You know, for outstanding people, there are always many people who are jealous, no matter how good you play the piano, they only think you are I'm pretending. Jealousy is inexplicable."

"We asked someone to spread rumors, saying that you look down on those from poor families or poor grades." Lou Yang put a hand on Zhang Yu's shoulder, and smiled very hard, "Then, they believed it. They actually believed it gone."

"Then, I picked out a love letter written to you by someone else and posted it on the school's bulletin board."

Zhang Yu: "You did this too?"

Lou Yang patted Zhang Yu's shoulder, as if to comfort him, "Yes, I just didn't expect that the girl I picked had such a strong reaction that she transferred schools within a few days."

"But it's better this way. We said this because you don't like girls who can't control themselves. It's a lesson for them. Those girls who keep saying they like you will turn against each other one by one and make up your fault."

"Look at how cheap their liking is, as long as a small provocation," Lou Yang whispered in Zhang Yu's ear like a seductive and depraved demon, snapping his fingers crisply, "like it will collapse."

Lou Yang opened his arms, embracing the victory of nothingness, turned his head to look at Zhang Yu, with an inexplicable smile, "Just like that, the you everyone loves turns into the you everyone hates, and everyone isolates you , Mocking you, when you approached, they broke up; when you left, they reunited. And as long as I pretend to be you talking, you will regard me as the only partner."

"Fake?" Zhang Yu asked.

"As you heard." Lou Yang replied politely.

"Are you finished?"

"Probably that's all." Lou Yang tilted his head, as if he was thinking. If you ignore the provocation on his face, this gesture is quite cute.

A fist hit the corner of Lou Yang's mouth fiercely, knocking him to the ground with great force, and then Zhang Yu threw himself on him, hitting Lou Yang hard with his fists like rain.

The people around didn't expect that Zhang Yu, a handsome guy who looked so fragile, would dare to hit someone, and they didn't react for a while. When they grabbed Zhang Yu and pulled him away, Lou Yang's face had already been beaten into a pig's head.

Lou Yang wiped the blood from his mouth, spit out bloody saliva, smiled wickedly, and punched Zhang Yu in the abdomen. Lou Yang's eyes were full of disdain, the kind that Lou Yang didn't want to see.

You should be desperate, you should be in pain, and you'd better beg me for mercy. You are a loser, a fool who has been played around by me, why dare you look down on me.

Enraged by Zhang Yu's eyes, Lou Yang beat Zhang Yu with both hands and feet, beating him indiscriminately, until the leader of the teenagers frowned, fearing that something might happen, and motioned for his brothers to hold Lou Yang.

Lou Yang just woke up like a dream, staring blankly at his fist and looking at Zhang Yu, he seemed bored, waved his hand, and shouted: "Enough is enough."

Lou Yang left, and a group of people left.

A man was wading in the alley, as if dead, motionless, except for a continuous coughing and crying-like sobs to prove that he was still alive.

Next to his head is a moss, the original faint blue color has a touch of bloody color, like a flower watered by blood.

Zhang Zhi, I suddenly thought of you, probably no one will treat me better than you.

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