The helplessness of the carousel

29.

After dismissing Jung Yunho and Minwoo, I returned to my and Chunjin's home without staying for a moment.But, standing outside my house, I panicked for no reason.

"Zin'er?"

Pushing open the door, there was a faint smell of blood coming from the room.An even stronger panic than the accident in Chunjin crept into my heart, and when I walked into the bedroom, my hands trembled uncontrollably.

"Jin'er? Jin'er!"

Chunjin lay quietly on the bed, as if he had lost the ability to struggle, his limbs bound by handcuffs were worn out, and the blood left traces on Chunjin's white skin, which was so dazzling.However, what really terrified me was Chunjin's face...

The bloodstains dripping from the eyes, ears, mouth and nose, the widened eyes have lost focus, the beautiful eyes that once fascinated me have lost the brightness they should have, and the slack pupils can't print my anxious face, just blank As I opened my eyes, the color of life dissipated from my pupils little by little, and my heart seemed to be pierced by countless needlepoints...

In a hurry, he untied the handcuffs that bound Chunjin, wrapped Chunjin's slowly losing temperature body with a quilt, and hugged him tightly in his arms.

"Ning! Go to the hospital!"

The lights during the operation were always on, and I was restless outside the operating room.

I was 8 years old, after I killed the first person, I never felt such timidity again, it seems that nothing can make me feel scared, only Chunjin, every time he has an accident, I will be afraid, afraid that the god of death will take away his life.

On the way to send Chunjin to the operating room, I watched the little face of the person in my arms lose its color a little bit. On the pale skin, the blood flowing out of the eye sockets was so eye-catching. I really felt scared. The person inside is so light, so light that even a gust of wind can blow him away, I can only hold him tighter, I am afraid that the god of death will take him away from my arms...

"Pu Chunjin, you are not allowed to leave me! Without my permission, you are not allowed to die before me!"

In Chunjin's ear, I kept repeating this sentence, my domineering, the first time I was so powerless...

The temperature of the person in my arms is getting lower and lower, and the breathing is getting lighter and lighter. I try my best to warm him with my own body temperature, tear off my shirt, and stick Chunjin's pale face to my chest.I remember before, Chunjin always liked to lie on me and listen to my heartbeat. He said that only in this way can he be sure that I am real and not his dream...

"Chunjin...you are not allowed to leave me! No!!!"

The face is a little wet, is it tears?

No!It will not be tears!No one can make me cry!No one can!

After wiping the water on his face indiscriminately, the lights in the operating room finally went out...

"Doctor, is Chunjin alright?"

My voice trembled a little, I was really scared, I was afraid that the doctor would say something that would make me sad...

"The patient's condition is very bad. We performed gastric lavage on him, but the medicine has already caused a lot of damage to his body. The patient even has bleeding from the seven orifices. For the specific situation, we can only do it after the patient wakes up. Further examination. By the way, has the back of the patient's head been severely injured?"

"Yes…"

"The patient seems to have experienced transient blindness before, and you have to be prepared that the patient may be permanently blind."

On the hospital bed, Chunjin was still asleep, and beside the hospital bed, I sat blankly, looking at Chunjin's Junxiu face, the blood dripping from the corners of my eyes had been wiped clean, without the blood embellishment, Chunjin's face looked even paler under the moonlight.

"Jin'er, did I do something wrong?"

Caressing Chunjin's hair, I was a little confused, whether everything I did to Chunjin was wrong.It's not that I can't see the harm I caused Chunjin, but it seems that I can't do it if I want to let Chunjin go.

There are inexplicable emotions surging in my heart, I can't distinguish clearly, I can't understand...

I don't think I will be trapped by the game I created by myself. In this game, I am the operator from the beginning to the end, watching the joys, sorrows and sorrows of the players.

This is my game, even if there are some accidents, it's not enough to make me fall into...

It's just pity, after all, it's a pet that has been with me for so long...

Lips gently brushed Chunjin's bloodless face...

My pet, don't leave without my permission!