Dream or truth...

Chapter 4

"What's the matter?" Looking at Chunzi's hesitant appearance, Yu Xiang suddenly had a bad feeling.

Could it be related to the mountain ?I don't know why this idea came up suddenly.

Junko struggled for a long time, his eyes showed a not-so-obvious smile when he saw a certain direction, then he suddenly and quickly kissed Yuxiang on the face, turned and ran into the house.

Surprised by the sudden kiss, Yuxiang stood still for ten seconds, and did not come back to his senses until the sound of closing the door.

I touched the place where I was kissed just now, and recalled it for a while, but I didn't feel anything at all.

Kissed by Kawashima, there is no feeling.

Then I remembered the sweet and heart-pounding taste when I kissed Ryosuke's lips in the dream that could almost be faked.

If it's Ryosuke...

etc!Mountain  is a friend!friend!How can you have such an idea!

Even if he has a girlfriend, he will unconsciously think of Ryosuke. Is there really something wrong with me?

Laughing self-deprecatingly, turned around, but froze instantly.

"YA... Shan?! Why are you here?!"

Isn't it normal to be kissed by a girlfriend?Why do you suddenly feel guilty when Shan  sees it, as if you were caught cheating?

Is it because Ryosuke, who is standing there with his dog, has an almost sad expression on his face?

"I took Kuu and KUUKI out for a walk... just passing by..." Ryosuke lowered his eyes, and his long eyelashes concealed all the sadness.

In fact, it was because I was a little unwilling, but didn't know what to do, so I took Sora and KUUKI out for a walk, and walked along the road to Yuxiang's house unconsciously. I didn't expect to meet Yuxiang, but I didn't expect Will see that scene.

Kawashima lowered his head shyly, then suddenly kissed Yuxiang.

Yuxiang... didn't refuse.

Then Yuxiang smiled, the kind of sweet and happy one that only people in love would show; the kind of smile that Yuxiang never showed because of himself...

In fact, even if it is just once, I want to see Yuxiang smile so softly and sweetly because of himself, because I hope that the other party can like me too.

But that's impossible.

Yuxiang likes girls, sweet, lovely and gentle girls, no matter how beautiful and excellent he is, Yuxiang will not like himself.

Because I am a boy.

Although I know Johnny's ambiguity and official distribution policy, even though I have accidentally seen the fandoms written by fans, but illusions are only illusions after all. Forbidden same-sex love is not something that can be exposed to the sun.Fans who are keen on YY now, how many of them can accept it calmly when they know that their favorite idol really likes the same sex?The self who was once praised high, maybe, will become filthy in an instant, right?

But, I like Yuxiang... I have been yearning for him since a long time ago, because I don't want to lose to him and want to stand by his side, so I practice hard.When we met for the first time, I felt that the other party was a shining existence. When I really became relatives and friends with him, I felt like a dream.

It was a long time later that I realized that I fell in love with Yu Xiang, who is also a boy. It's not that I never struggled, but this feeling of liking couldn't be reduced by half anyway. I tried to suppress it, but found it more and more difficult to control.

"Shan, what do you think of Kawashima?" After walking in silence for a long time, Yuxiang finally couldn't help breaking the heavy atmosphere.

"...Huh? It's okay..." Does Yu Xiang care about what her friends think of her?Already worried that she will not be accepted?Already... do you care so much...

"Then, Shan~ Do you... like her?"

Did not answer Yuxiang, Yamada just lowered his head: "Yuxiang-kun can find a girl he likes, and the other girl happens to like you, which is very lucky, but Yuxiang-kun must be careful, don't forget the rules of the game, if you are caught Find……"

If it is found out, Yu Xiang's career will definitely be greatly impacted, and he will definitely be asked to break up, right?In any case, after all, I still hope Yuxiang can be happy.

"...I will pay attention, it won't affect JUMP." Although he clearly knew what Shan said was right, but for some reason, he just felt empty in his heart, as if he had lost something.

"NE, Shan, next day off, come with us to the playground."

"……it is good."

"Hmm~ As expected, I like the bento made by Shan the most~"

"...Well, leave it to me."

Sure enough, it is impossible to refuse Yuxiang, because I don't want to see his disappointed expression, and I hope to see his energetic smile no matter what.