suddenly tired

Ji Sumian went to meet Chen Jialan and communicated with him about his plan. The shares would not be sold, but he would not take over the company directly. The current board members were in charge of the company's operations. He needed to finish university in Australia.Chen Jialan expressed her understanding and would cooperate with him to handle the corresponding documents.

Continuing to study was the condition that Zhong Lei negotiated with him to go to Australia together.

Zhong Lei was so obsessed with getting him to finish college that he was so obsessed, Ji Sumian didn't understand, but later he revealed something, saying that he always felt regretful, but life doesn't always go one after another. Is it composed of piles of regrets, how can there be a flat and spacious highway that can go on forever.But then he gradually understood that he would talk about school life more or less on weekdays, and when he talked about school, he would be more or less nostalgic, not to mention that it was hard to let go if he was forced to stop. will appear more aggrieved.Zhong Lei felt regretful, like a stick in his throat.

"Brother Lei, when did you form a strategic alliance with my dad?" Ji Sumian asked on the car home.

"What did he tell you?"

"He didn't say much, he just said he met you, and more than once."

"A few days after your mother finished her funeral, I once sent a passenger there. I didn't know what to think, so I wanted to meet him. I applied and said that I was his child's lover."

"Huh? Is this okay?"

"Originally it was not possible. I asked Lao Fang for help. He contacted the apprentices he had taught before. Your father performed very well there, and I passed the approval without any problems."

"How did he react when he saw you?"

"It looked very kind, didn't say a word, looked at me from top to bottom, and smiled. I don't know what I'm laughing at."

"I know what he's laughing at."

"what?"

"Remember what I told you, my mother said that a lover must first have a good character, secondly be kind to me, and secondly..."

"Ok?"

"Live well."

Zhong Lei was startled, he almost didn't react, he slammed on the brakes, almost rear-ending.

"I'm fucking your parents too open, why are you talking about this?!"

"Sex education in my teenage years was taught by the two of them in turn, and sometimes they discussed together, talking about specific feelings—"

"Okay, okay, I don't want to know about this." Zhong Lei interrupted him.

"Brother, you are blushing." Ji Sumian approached him and whispered, holding back a laugh, and brought the topic back, "And you go there often?"

"Well, I go often."

"Talk about me?"

"Yes, tell him about your recent situation. Sometimes when you have more time, he will also ask me and my family."

"Has he... said anything to make you unhappy?"

"No, or I can't see it. Your father used to be in the officialdom, and he was used to not showing his emotions."

"Oh, it's fine if you don't."

"But he talked about himself. He knew there would be such a day, but he just hoped that this day would come as late as possible. It would be nice if you could take care of your mother after graduation."

Ji Sumian forced a smile: "How could this kind of thing go according to his own expectations, and he even planned a timetable?"

"It's just a fluke. He also talked about Xiaoyu's mother, saying that she had no choice but to flee back then. When she received the news, the situation was already very serious. If she didn't leave, several of them would go in together , the children are still young..."

"Well, I actually didn't hate her. After all, my dad really committed a crime, and he wasn't wronged. Heh, he talked to you a lot, and he didn't tell me about these things. "

"It's only half an hour each time, and I can't actually say much."

"Brother Lei, thank you."

"Actually, he loves you very much. He didn't propose to meet you, but every time I talk about you, he listens very attentively. The corners of his mouth are raised, and he can't suppress it. He is from the heart. Missing you, I heard that you work two jobs for your mother, the distress on his face cannot be concealed, and he feels ashamed of you."

"I know. After we leave, we will continue to talk to him on the phone."

Ji Sumian's feelings for his father are very complicated. A respected and beloved person was suddenly found to have violated the law, which directly or indirectly caused the tragedy of family ruin and death. He felt somewhat resentful in his heart. He also expressed this meaning in this meeting.Ji Yifeng looked very sad. He said that the first time he accepted other people's property was the son of the vice president of the brain hospital who wanted to enter the medical system. At that time, Su Wanyi happened to live in the psychiatric department. A door that was manipulated by teasing. "Papa was wrong," he said. "You have to remember that once you lose your integrity, it's hard to get it back."

Finally it was time to go.

Later, Ji Sumian had forgotten how he felt at that time. After all, he was not traveling abroad. He left the East China Sea this time, and he might not come back for a long time. It was like a lively bonfire was burning in his mind, and beeping, beeping, popping out. With new ideas, he took Zhong Lei to see the elementary and middle schools he attended, and said that he could not remember many interesting childhood stories told by his parents.During this time, there is still a lot of preparations to be done, such as applying for schools and visas, resignation handover, renting out of houses, and saying goodbye to relatives and friends. He is busy and excited.

Later, Zhong Lei deeply remembered the mood at that time. He mustered up the courage to go home, cooked a table of dishes for his parents, and talked openly about his growth process.When I was in junior high school, I found that I only had feelings for boys. I felt that I was a monster, and I was very scared. I was afraid of my physical and mental feelings, but I didn’t dare to tell anyone. I said that the chemistry teacher in high school was very kind to him, and he gave him extra lessons alone. From time to time, he made explicit hints, touched and flirted intentionally or unintentionally, but one day he suddenly appeared with his girlfriend, and he was so painful that he almost started to harm himself; there was also Xu Chen who met later.In these years, he has no friends, and he has not met the same kind. He has survived by himself. He has always felt guilty towards his parents, but he no longer expects to be accepted. It’s just that he is about to start another journey in his life, and he always wants to be serious with his parents. Say goodbye, just don't break up unhappy.

"Did dad say anything?" Ji Sumian asked.

"He ate the dishes I made and said they were not bad. With this skill, he would not starve to death when he went abroad."

"Ah? It's not this. What about the two of us being together?"

"He is a stubborn person. If he doesn't understand, he doesn't understand. If he doesn't accept it, he doesn't accept it. Not all children come out with a happy ending, and real life is not a warm movie. Let's seek common ground while reserving differences. At least he will have a few drinks with me now. Talk about something else."

On the last night in Building 11, Qijing Lane, Ji Sumian dragged Zhong Lei to sit on the stairs. At first Zhong Lei was reluctant and kept hiding, saying, "Don't, I'm afraid of it." Laugh, or stick to it.

Sitting silently in the middle of the steps, they inevitably remembered what had happened and what had been said here, and approached slowly, as solemnly as their first kiss.The night lights on the stairs are also sensory, flickering on and off, they can see the light in each other's eyes, and even admire each other's shadows.

On the way, I stopped in Hong Kong for two days to visit Ji Sumian's aunt, and then flew to Sydney.The flight time of this flight is expected to be more than nine hours. Before takeoff, there was a period of restraint and excitement. Everyone was busy in a very small space, such as packing luggage, finding seats, and communicating with flight attendants.Ji Sumenan sat down early, and he could tell from the line of people who were on business trips and who were traveling, and as the school was approaching, there were many foreign students, and he could see his mood back then from their faces. The worry of the unknown future is intertwined with the arrogance of the proud son of heaven, making him seem childish and at a loss.

For Zhong Lei, this journey is different from his countless previous boardings. It is like an early afterlife. His previous life was either bright or ordinary, and he has already pressed the pause button. The right thing is the next chapter of life. Holding the hands of the people around him, he felt that there had been a sign in the dark, and they would walk into the new residence hand in hand, and they would never have to say goodbye.