suddenly tired

Ji Sumian was originally a hard-working person who worked hard to make money. Recently, he suddenly didn't want to go to work. He gave Zhong Lei his room and went upstairs to sleep by himself, but he was reluctant to go upstairs every day. He clinged to him in the name of taking care of the wounded. In the end, they will all be chased away by Zhong Lei: "Young master, don't kiss, you have to get up early tomorrow."

He helped Zhong Lei drive the car back, still parked in the courtyard of the tavern, went home and told the process of washing the car, and when he talked about the dried blood on the seat, he couldn't help but shed a few more tears. Zhong Lei thought that this guy Why do you love to cry so much? No wonder you were treated like a girl when you were a child. I probably don't blame Zhao Xinyu for being naughty. It's him who behaved like this.

The time of recuperating at home is a rare long vacation for him in these years. Lao Fang also came to see him when he heard the news. Maybe he hadn’t seen him for a while. Lao Fang chatted a little bit and shared with him the recent situation of Xingyuan.Said that Xiao Chen bought a house with a yard on the first floor, and it is being renovated. The yard is converted into a large kitchen, which is convenient for him to cook breakfast and will not disturb his family’s rest. The house is not far from the apricot garden. Next time, we can go and see them together ; and talking about Lao Zhang’s family, he rented a small shop, changed his breakfast to three meals a day, and sold special raw fried food, and his business was still very good; and brother Yu, the furniture factory was completely closed down, but his His wood carving skills were appreciated by a handicraft shop, and he turned to become a wood carving master. His carving videos are very popular, and he plays a few live broadcasts from time to time, which greatly increases his income. He is both happy and confused. He has been doing it for almost 40 years, boring and time-consuming, why would anyone like to watch this...

Zhong Lei listened to these stories, it was like a past of his that ended abruptly and was continued with a happy ending.He remembered something and asked, "Do you have any news about Sister Liao?"

"Nope, what about you?"

"No." Zhong Lei paused for a moment, and then said, "It's good news. If she didn't contact us, it means that she didn't encounter any difficulties. She should be living well now."

Lao Fang nodded: "With craftsmanship and diligence, you will never go hungry."

"I guess she may be in a small town in the south of the Yangtze River now. The scenery is beautiful and the climate is mild, and people's mood will be much better."

"why?"

"Before Su Mian said that her craftsmanship is so good that she is very suitable for fine embroidery. On the day I sent her away, I told her that she could try it in a place with a developed textile industry."

"Well, that makes sense.—By the way, how is the kid doing?"

Zhong Lei was a little overwhelmed by his sudden question: "Ah? What...how is it? It's nothing, it's still the same, not bad."

Seeing his reaction, Lao Fang stopped asking, and smiled: "Do you know what it means to hide something?"

When Ji Sumian went home that day, he found a guest from afar in his home, a young lady with a big suitcase.

"Sister Wen." Zhong Lei said.

"Sister Wen, my name is Ji Sumian."

"Oh, hello, hello." She was very embarrassed, she didn't know whether she should stand up or not, she got up, looked at Zhong Lei, and sat down again, she was not so thorough in getting up and sitting down, which seemed very awkward.

However, her identity is even more embarrassing, she is Zhong Lei's ex-fiancee.

Zhong Lei was talking to her in the living room, and he didn't avoid Ji Sumian. Of course, Ji Sumian didn't want to leave either. The only person who felt uncomfortable in this space was Ding Wenyin.

"Wenyin, stop helping me take care of my parents. You don't owe them anything. You should have your own life."

"Uncle said... As long as you go home and get married, those things before will be treated as if they never happened."

"Oh, don't always say what they say, how about you? Have you ever thought about yourself?"

"I... I don't know." She looked up at Ji Sumian secretly, and wanted to say something, but she didn't say anything.

Zhong Lei looked at him, and Ji Sumian understood: "You talk, I'm going to take a shower first."

Ji Sumian left, but the two of them had nothing to say. After a long silence, Zhong Lei said, "Wenyin, don't like me anymore."

"Brother Lei... I know you don't like me, but I can't help it. Your family's money has already been spent on my brother's education, and he will get married after graduation. Our family really can't afford to pay you back. "

"It's not a matter of money. I used to... I gave them a lot of money I earned a few years ago. They won't ask your family for money."

"But my parents, your parents, the whole street, and even the whole county know that I married into your family, and they only think that you are busy with work so you can't go back."

"What? Don't they have internet? They don't know who I am? There was a lot of trouble before, and I don't believe that no one knows!"

"Brother Lei, you know that kind of small place at home, they only believe what they want to believe, and everything else is rumors."

Zhong Lei once again fell into a speechless situation.

Ding Wenyin is right. Some things cannot be explained at home, such as sexual orientation, such as your inner feelings. You are not qualified to express your pain in front of your parents. They will say that you have food and drink, and you know what pain is. Unable to explain their unusual relationship status, they just call it bullshit.

The county has a set of ecology in the county. The relationship between neighbors and neighbors is both close and alienated. I hope everyone is good and envy better people. I can’t tell what kind of life attitude it is. As for marriage, the family has negotiated it. Even if it's settled, what's the opinion of the person involved?What opinions can the parties have, whose life is not like this, the relationship is always cultivated after the beginning of life, not to mention that they grew up together, there is absolutely no objection...

So Zhong Lei left home and never went back.

He thought for a while, then changed his mind and said to Ding Wenyin: "Have you ever thought about it, even if I go back and be with you, we can't do that kind of thing, and I can't give you a complete love like other men. affection, or give you a child."

Ding Wenyin bowed his head and remained silent.

"Wenyin, don't let that family trap you, it's not fair to you."

"Brother Lei, I understand, but I... didn't continue my studies after graduating from high school. They said that going to college is useless. I don't know if I can find a job to support myself after leaving home."

Zhong Lei smiled and said, "Do you know how many people in this city who are not as educated as you are living well?"

He told Ding Wenyin about the people in the apricot garden, about Xiao Chen's family, and about sister Liao's experience, "These people are more difficult than you, there is no reason why you can't support yourself."

Ding Wenyin seemed to have gained some confidence, and she asked timidly, "Then why don't I go back?"

"Of course. I will help you find a house and teach you how to find a job. Have you forgotten that when you were a child, you ran to my house for help when you encountered anything."

Ding Wenyin showed a rare smile: "Yes, you are willing to help me with anything."

"Don't worry, I will always be your big brother. If you have a boyfriend in the future, you have to bring it to me first. Only with good character can you fall in love."

After placing her upstairs, Zhong Lei held Ji Sumian's hand: "I'll start from the beginning, first make sure you don't get angry."

"I'm not angry. Don't talk about my ex-fiancee. Even if I'm an ex-wife, it doesn't matter to me. Your past is over. I understand that."

"Well, you are good. Her family and mine are neighbors. They grew up together and have a good relationship. She has a younger brother who is patriarchal and spoiled. She has a bad character and bullied her since she was a child. I always He helped Wenyin stand out every time. At that time, he didn't dare to say anything, but afterwards, he bullied him even harder in private. In short, he was a poor girl who was not seen by the family. Later, when he grew up, the family said otherwise. The children got engaged and got married. My family’s conditions are not bad, and I gave her family a sum of money, which is considered a bride price. But I didn’t know about it. I was already in college at the time, and she hadn’t graduated from high school. I knew Of course I didn’t agree afterwards, I knew my orientation, but I couldn’t explain this to my parents, even if I came out in front of them, they would all think I was playful, as long as I had enough fun.”

Zhong Lei sighed: "I can't explain clearly."

Ji Sumian squeezed his palm: "It's not easy for you. When I told my mother that I like boys, guess what my mother said?"

"what?"

"She said that wasn't the point."

"Huh? Gender is not the point, what is the point?"

"My mother is punk. She said that gender is not important, and everything else is not important. Your emotions are the most important. No matter who you fall in love with, you must be worthy of your feelings."

"My mother is so transparent! - But my parents don't think so, they don't understand so they can't accept it at all."

"I was fine for the first few years after graduating from university, but then... something went wrong at work, and after staying home for a while, they brought up the matter of getting married again. I even thought about staying at home and talking to Wen To marry Yin, to be the person my parents hoped for, but as long as such thoughts appear in my mind, it is like dying, not the kind of death that comes to an end, but a living death."

Ji Sumian rushed forward and put her arms around his waist: "I understand, brother Lei."

Rubbing his hair, Zhong Lei went on to say: "And I can't hurt Wenyin, her family is already like that, if she is forced to marry a homosexual again, her life will be miserable. So I told his family , Otherwise, the marriage contract will be broken, and then her uncle will beat her. He casually picked up a stick and swung it over, hey, right here—" He pointed to the scar on his chin, "Several stitches were done. "

Ji Sumian didn't let him go on, and he was so distressed that he was about to cry again.A rumor of a "fraudulent marriage" that year caused him to disband the band, withdraw from the public eye, and hide in a dark corner of a strange city, leading a seemingly peaceful life, but in fact he was lonely and hard to let go.

He pushed Zhong Lei down on the bed, leaned on his chest like a cat, lightly pecked his chin, and asked, "Is the injury serious? Is there any other injury besides here?"

"No, but now there is a problem, your leg is pressing on the wound, hiss—it seems to be split..."