suddenly tired

This is bound to be a very difficult birthday.In fact, before disappearing from the public eye, his birthday was an unbelievable one, because the band was formed on his birthday during his junior year, which was the anniversary of Rock and Earth.The rock and soil had a brief brilliance, like a shooting star, a burning fire that only existed in one's own heart, and it didn't shine so brightly in the sky full of stars.In three or four years, after a few famous songs, they disbanded and did not contact each other. Maybe others are still in contact, except Zhong Lei.

His name in the band is Ke Wen, which is the transliteration of the author's name of a book he likes very much.Although he studied in the business school, Zhong Lei likes to hang out in the liberal arts school. Sometimes he attends their classes, and sometimes he goes to the library. He doesn’t look like he’s in a band at all, but like a nerd. Later, these accumulations were used in his in the lyrics written.Writing love is "the seed on the other side of the rainbow, kissing the lost planet", writing youth is "the eagle perches in the clouds, the morning light is dazzling, the guardian ship of dreams", and writing confusion is "the way grass and trees pursue eternity, using incomprehensible words Write unreadable poems", these words were buried with the end of a farce.

He was also world-weary when the accident happened, but he also clearly understood that the reason why some things are unknown is that there are always unexplainable cruxes, just like washing clothes with blood. , the shame he brings will outlive him.

He also reads private messages on Weibo now. Many years have passed. Those who cursed him at that time have long forgotten about it. The momentary indignation will not last long. Instead, some people who always remember him greet him occasionally, bringing a little happiness Well, it was also for this reason that he did not close the private message, leaving a glimmer of life for his past self.There is a girl with a cute profile picture in his fan list, who will share her life every week or two. Today she also sent a birthday greeting: Teacher Ke Wen, happy birthday.How are you?I work, a bit busy, but very fulfilling, it feels great to work hard to make money, and taking responsibility is not a stressful thing, but motivated, and maybe I met a lot of people who helped me, so it’s not so Hard.I hope you can also meet kind people, have a stable and peaceful life and a happy family, have food, drink and love...

He finished reading, smiled, did not reply, extinguished the last cigarette, and entered the house.

"Brother Lei, Miss Xiaoyu got drunk. I let her sleep upstairs and come home tomorrow, okay?" Ji Sumian asked cautiously when he saw him enter the door.

"okay."

"Then can I squeeze with you?"

"Ah? You want... to sleep downstairs?"

"Then where would I sleep?"

Zhong Lei thought that a 20-year-old boy should not cling to his girlfriend, is this guy so innocent?It's not easy to say it directly, so I can only agree: "Oh, okay."

The two lay side by side on the mattress, and Ji Sumian was so nervous that he lay himself in the mummy's position, with his hands crossed and pulling the corners of the quilt, motionless.Zhong Lei is not as unnatural as he is, but he is also uncomfortable. He is kind to this boy, at first he only pities him, then he adds some appreciation, and then... there is a little bit of innocence, but Ji Sumian seems to be a A boy with a normal orientation, sunny and enthusiastic, usually rushes into a group of beautiful girls at work, with ease, not to mention Zhao Xinyu... He fell asleep in such chaotic thoughts, but was kicked awake by the people around him .

Ji Sumian was struggling, breathing fast, Zhong Lei pushed him: "Hey, wake up."

Taking a deep breath quickly, Ji Sumian woke up, but still immersed in panic, and called "Brother Lei" in a trembling voice. Zhong Lei's heart softened again, and he reached out to pat him, "It's okay, go to sleep."

"Hmm~" It was the voice of this little puppy again, "I can't sleep anymore."

"Have a nightmare?"

"Ah."

"Dream what?"

"Dream... When I first returned to China, I felt very sad, but I don't know why many relatives and friends helped me. They went to the airport to pick me up and accompany me. I was very happy, but later found that none of them had facial features and no details. , it’s just that the existence I imagined is not real, and I’m still alone and helpless…”

"Hey, it's quite scary without facial features."

"No, it's not scary, it just feels lonely, and I still feel lonely when I wake up."

"Little white-eyed wolf, didn't I help you?"

"So when I woke up and saw you just now, I felt much better. The whole world is much better."

"...Okay, you, go to sleep."

Ji Sumian didn't listen to him, instead she came to his side and hugged his arm tightly, like a drowning person hugging driftwood: "Brother Lei, you are my friend, right?"

The sensation in Zhong Lei's arm didn't know whether it was amplified or cleared. It was hot and numb. Facing the child who woke up from a nightmare and asked for comfort, he couldn't say anything else, he could only agree: "Yes."

"Well, that's enough."

"...Actually, many people can be friends. You know Xiao Chen well, and Lao Fang is also a good person. Although the people here are not rich, they are all honest. Besides, the girl upstairs is also...your friend Is it?"

"Yeah that's right."

"And your colleagues, they all seem to have a good relationship with you..."

"Brother Lei, the last time I went to the marketing department to help out, they asked me to play basketball together. I didn't know that the top floor has a helipad and a basketball court. You said it's so high, if the ball falls, nothing will happen. .”

"You still play basketball at your height? Are you in the junior group?" Zhong Lei blurted out.

Throwing off his arm, Ji Sumian turned his back to him, there was no light, and his angry face could not be seen clearly, but Zhong Lei knew what it looked like just by imagination, like a spring breeze, he fell asleep with a smile.

But Ji Sumian couldn't fall asleep for a long time, he lied to Zhong Lei, the dream he had just now was not what he described at all.What he dreamed was a puppy, very cute, who walked around him and played ball with him. Just as he was about to hug the puppy and go to Zhong Lei to ask if he could keep it at home, Zhong Lei disappeared and called He didn't answer, and he couldn't find it. Seeing him fidgeting, the puppy leaned its head over to his hand, licked his face, and put its tail in his hand for him to play with, Ji Su Mian hugged it, but suddenly realized that it was not a puppy at all, but Zhong Lei, and what he was holding in his hand was not a tail either.

He woke up with a shock, turned his head and saw Zhong Lei lying beside him, froze immediately, covered in cold sweat.

It's all Zhao Xinyu's fault, it's nothing to talk about prostate surgery!

Hearing the breathing of the people around him gradually slowed down, Ji Sumian turned around to look at him. It was still dark and he couldn't see clearly. He could only see a silhouette, his closed eyes, and the curve of his nose. , look at his slightly pursed mouth, look at his smooth chin, his beard is very sexy... Even before midsummer, the cicadas in his mind had already started to sing, and it was unbearably hot.

After a few episodes of rain, the real summer has arrived. It will be a year since Ji Sumian returned to China. He is getting more and more used to the life in Xingyuan Village, and his life is gradually going step by step.He would visit his mother in the hospital on weekend mornings, and chat with her, as if she could hear and understand her, but he never visited his father, and only talked on the phone once a month. My father is still as calm and peaceful as before, but he is determined not to let Ji Sumian go to meet, "This is not a good place, and I don't want you to see me now." He said so.Ji Sumian didn't insist, and was still the sensible child in his father's mind, but he just missed him very much.

After Zhong Lei sent Ji Sumian to class this Sunday afternoon, he bought some vegetables and went home. As soon as he parked the car, he met Sister Liao, who happily introduced his younger brother and cousin to him, Sister Liao I usually work in a dry cleaner, and I am busy from morning to night, so I rarely have any free time. Maybe her relatives came, and the boss gave her half a day off.

However, Sister Liao's joy did not last until the end of the day. Ji Sumian came back from get off work and was eating when he vaguely heard someone arguing. He gnawed a piece of ribs and ran to the door to have a look. Well, eat well!"

"No, Brother Lei, it seems that someone is crying."

"I actually heard the cries of this wax gourd. It said that I was so delicious that I was abandoned to watch the excitement."

"Oh~" Ji Sumian obediently went back and sat down.

At this moment, a sharp cry came from outside: "Help——"

Zhong Lei threw down his chopsticks, and pressed Ji Sumian's shoulder that was about to get up: "You stay still, don't go out."

"Brother Lei, you—" He still stood up, trying to chase him out.

"You dare to come out and try!" Zhong Lei turned around at the door and said this.

It was the first time Ji Sumian saw such an expression, he was as cold as ice, not angry and pretentious.

He lay on the window sill and looked out, but he couldn't see anything, he could only hear some noise, someone talking loudly, but he couldn't hear what he said, and there were a few dogs barking, which made him feel uneasy, but Not long after, Zhong Lei came back, and Lao Fang was with him.

"What happened, Brother Lei?"

"Sister Liao's two relatives want to take her back to her hometown."

"Didn't she...run away? Will she be caught back?"

"So I don't want to, but I can't help it. Those two people are not from her husband's family, but brothers from her own family."

"Ah? My brother and brother want to send her back to her husband's house? Why?"

Zhong Lei looked at the problem child and didn't bother to explain it to him. He just said "You don't understand the things in the countryside, don't ask", and went out to smoke with Lao Fang.Ji Sumian also followed.

"She is like this, is it useful to call the police?"

Lao Fang thought for a while: "There is a problem with calling the police. If her family members report her missing when she runs out, they will notify the local police station when she is found."

"That's really helpless. This is someone from her own family, obviously forcing her to go back."

Ji Sumian was burning with anxiety: "How can you put it so lightly? Sister Liao may never come out again after going back like this. She will definitely be beaten or even locked up!"

After he finished speaking, the two people in front of him were noncommittal, took a puff of cigarette tacitly, and then spit it out at the same time. Sister Liao's crying and scolding could be heard in their ears, and they seemed to be unable to do anything except smoking.

"Brother Lei, Uncle Fang, is there really nothing I can do? If I can't call the police, I'll find someone, my father's former secretary, and ask what to do, can I help her, or, or fight with them!" Ji Su Burmese was incoherent, and he was about to rush out, but was caught by Zhong Lei, "It's useless, it's useless to find anyone, the old Fang said that calling the police is not the best way. You go? Who can you beat if you go? Individuals are not good stubble."

Ji Sumian shook off his hand: "Then watch Sister Liao being taken away like this? Her natal family has given up on her, so why not go back, she will be beaten to death every minute!" His voice was full of tears, He grabbed Zhong Lei's hand again, "Brother Lei, Sister Liao is so nice. She helped me mend my clothes overnight and even taught me how to wash shoes. Can't you really save her? You don't know me and you help me like this Too much, Sister Liao...can you help her too..."

Zhong Lei was silent, but saw a person running over from the alley, it was Xiao Chen.

"Brother Lei, Sister Liao is crazy. She wants to fight them desperately. She won't leave even if she dies. Go and see!"

"Fuck!" Zhong Lei threw down the cigarette bitterly, "Let's go, save people first!"