I miss you by the stars

Jiang Yi trembled all over, turned around and touched the switch on the wall to press it.

Ye Xingzhou was sitting there leaning on a silver cane, dressed in black gauze, and there was a faint scent of sandalwood from his body.The sudden lighting of the overhead light illuminated her brow bone, and a shallow scar was looming.

Jiang Yi's heart was still beating, Ye Xingzhou always appeared when people were most defenseless, like a black crow, and like a silent ghost.

Jiang Yi looked at her and said nothing.

Ye Xingzhou sat under the red painting of You You, the messy lines and crazy colors reflected her face.

She stood up, with no expression on her jade-like face, but as she walked, the silver crutch in her hand thumped, thumped, and hit the wooden floor heavily, as if slamming hard on the heart.

Every time she took a step, Jiang Yi's heart trembled.

Until she walked in front of Jiang Yi, a pair of gloomy eagle-like eyes met Shang Jiang Yi's reddish eyes: "Are you crying?"

She lowered her head and sneered: "You still cry? Will you cry for others?"

Ye Xingzhou stretched out his hand to grab Jiang Yi's wrist, and Jiang Yi shook again. Ye Xingzhou hadn't touched her for so many years, it seemed like a tacit understanding between the two.

Ye Xingzhou squeezed her wrist tightly and asked, "Your heart has been faked for so many years, isn't it?"

Jiang Yi closed his eyes: "No."

She also thought that her heart was dead, starting from that incident nearly ten years ago.

But Yuxi was an accident.

Yu Xi, like Zhu Zhen, has a vigorous and barbaric vitality that makes Jiang Yi come back to life in Zhu Zhen like a withered flower.

Ye Xingzhou's hands were so cold, completely opposite to Yu Xi's scorching heat.

Finally Ye Xingzhou shook off her hand: "Do you remember that it's time to visit her grave? Do you dare to face her? She will hate you and you will go to hell."

******

Three days later, teacher Qin Lin from the student office called Yuxi to the student office.

"Why don't you come and respond to me about the special scholarship?"

Yuxi bowed her head in silence.

She has received too much cold stare since she was a child. She doesn't know who is a nest of snakes and rats and who is colluding. She doesn't know if she will react in exchange for a cold slap from reality.

But Qin Lin's steady voice comforted her: "Get ready to change counselors."

Yuxi looked up.

Qin Lin said: "The school has already decided to expel the former counselor in your class. Also, the school will report the behavior of Jin Xiaoning's parents to the education system."

"Don't worry." Her eyes behind the glasses were burning, looking at Yu Xi: "As long as you get good grades in the final exam as usual, the special scholarship should be yours, and it must be yours."

Gentle and firm, quiet and stable, even though the world is full of filth, the meaning of respecting the teacher and respecting the way is echoed at this moment.

Yu Xi's heart settled down: "Thank you teacher."

Qin Lin reminded her: "Don't fight in the future, it is the most unwise way to control violence with violence."

Yuxi nodded.

She walks alone in the world with bare hands and nothing to rely on.She gradually turned herself into a sharp blade, and a woman with peach blossom eyes could be her gentle scabbard.

But her scabbard doesn't want her.

Qin Lin asked: "How do you think about the matter of continuing to exchange in the UK next semester?"

Yu Xi said truthfully: "I'm still thinking about it."

Can't make up my mind.

"Schools cannot help students make any decisions." Qin Lin couldn't help reminding: "But this is a rare opportunity, and it is also an opportunity that has never been seen before brought by the rapid development of the country's aerospace industry. You understand ?”

Yuxi nodded.

"Okay, then go back and think about it carefully." Qin Lin said, "Don't let the school down."

In the evening, Yu Xi and Meng Chenchen went to the cafeteria to line up for dinner. The two junior sisters in front of them were chatting and gossiping loudly, but they turned their heads inadvertently, and saw Yu Xi standing behind him, with red ears, and immediately turned around to stand obediently like the two rabbits.

One of them tugged at the corner of the other's clothes, and the other knocked her hand off nervously.

Meng Chenchen looked amused.

When he brought the dinner plate to the table with Yu Xi and sat down, Meng Chenchen propped his face and let out a long sigh.

Yu Xi threw out a question mark with his expression.

Meng Chenchen explained: "I'm worried about those school girls, they won't be able to see you from next semester."

Yu Xi lowered his head and stuffed a piece of cabbage into his mouth: "Not necessarily."

"What did you say?" Meng Chenchen was startled: "Isn't that what Teacher Qin told you to go to the student office today?"

"Yeah." Yu Xi said, "I'm still thinking about it."

"She was thinking about it when she asked you last time, why have you been thinking about it for so long!" Meng Chenchen slapped the table anxiously: "What are you hesitating about such a good opportunity!"

Yu Xi didn't know what she was hesitating about.

Obviously Jiang Yi has already rejected her, right?

******

There are still three days until Christmas, Yu Xi received a call from Shu Xing: "Are there any arrangements for Christmas?"

Yu Xi replied, "I'm going to the library."

In fact, it’s not necessary to go to the library, it’s just that Yu Xi has entered the university and gradually knows that Christmas has a special meaning. She doesn’t want to give Shu Xing any unrealistic hopes, so she doesn’t want to go out with Shu Xing on Christmas .

Shu Xing also didn't mean to be reluctant: "It's not necessarily Christmas, or tomorrow, I want you to accompany me to Mengshan. I have a sketch, which needs to be realistic but not completely realistic. It is also a relationship between two groups of plants. I'm not sure about the positional relationship, can you trouble the university bully to help me take a look?"

Yu Xi looked at the little flower that Shu Xing had stuffed on the desk: "Yes."

Every time she was gentle with Shu Xing, it was the cowardly villain in her heart who was clamoring.

Why can't Jiang Yi...be gentle with me?

******

There was no class the next morning, Shu Xing originally said that he would pick up Yuxi by car, but Yuxi said no, see you at the foot of the mountain by subway.

Walking to the appointed place, I happened to see Shu Xing running from afar, saw Yu Xi smiling and said: "I also came by subway, it's quite warm."

The two walked up the mountain together.

Shu Xing asked Yu Xi: "Have you ever been to Mount Meng?"

Yuxi shook his head.

Shu Xing: "Mt. Meng has a beautiful view. The maple leaves in autumn are very famous. There were many people at that time, but now that the maple leaves have fallen, there are fewer people." Pointing to the distance, he introduced: "There is a cemetery, built like a scenic spot. Same, it is the most expensive cemetery in Beicheng."

Today is cloudy and the air is full of cold smell.Beicheng has become dusty, because Mount Meng is also dusty, like the green paint in a painter's brush is oxidized, turning into a decaying bleakness.

It seems that all time and space are integrated in it, and the past and the future cannot be seen clearly, and everything is gray.

The two walked to the top of the mountain, and Shu Xing took out the pre-drawn drawing: "It's these two plants. The positional relationship in my painting is like this, but I always feel that something is wrong."

The two plants in front of me are probably varieties of holly, which rarely look green and lovely in the dusty winter.Yu Xi told Shu Xing that she miscalculated the relationship between plant size and location distance, and took out another set of formulas to calculate, and gave Shu Xing two plant locations.

Shu Xing Dawu: "So that's how it is." Then he asked Yu Xi: "It's already here, I want to draw on the real thing again, can you wait for me for a while?"

Yu Xi nodded, looked around, found a tree and sat down, leaning against the trunk and taking out an English book.

Shu Xing was painting quietly at first, but after a while, it was almost noon, and she seemed to be tired from painting, so she put down her brush and rubbed the back of her neck to chat with Yu Xi: "In this way, I will paint and you wait for me, as if I have returned to Zhuzhen .”

Yuxi moved around, in the darkness, even the cars driving on the mountain road seemed like ink condensed on rice paper.Yu Xi said: "I wish the town's winter is not so gray."

In the end it was the South, a little bit of green lighted, as if there was still hope for everything.

Shu Xing threw an apple to Yu Xi: "Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, I wish you a happy holiday in advance."

Yu Xi took it accurately, and said to Shu Xing, "Thank you."

Shu Xing is indeed the kind of girl who is very comfortable to get along with.She has a gentle appearance and a cheerful personality, and the Christmas gifts she gives will not be so expensive that they will cause pressure, and even her paintings will not arouse the most uncomfortable emotions in Yu Xi's heart like the paintings of You Er.

Shu Xing also took out an apple to eat.

Yu Xi bit the apple: "That."

Shu Xing: "Huh?"

Yu Xi hesitated a little: "Can I ask you something?"

"You want to ask about Sister Ran." Shu Xing smiled generously: "It's nothing, you can ask, I said we can easily be friends."

Yu Xi: "She and Ye Xingzhou have been together for almost ten years, why do you say she was taken care of by Ye Xingzhou?" Yu Xi paused: "They didn't fall in love?"

Shu Xing: "You really want to know? It's a very heavy story to tell."

Yu Xi rubbed the soles of his feet against the withered grass on the ground: "Well, tell me."

"Actually, I don't know much. I heard some bits and pieces from my cousin." Shu Xing said, "Actually, almost ten years ago, Sister Ran first met President Ye's sister. If you say no, Mr. Ye’s sister died later.”

Yu Xi was taken aback.

"Speaking of which, Mrs. Ye's sister is buried in that cemetery." Shu Xing pointed not far away: "Her sister's name is Ye Guanshan, and she is the adopted daughter of the famous Jianing Group."

Yu Xi thought the name was familiar, and looked up at Shu Xing for a moment.

Shu Xing nodded: "Well, it's Guan Shan, the director who filmed Sister Ran's debut film. Her surname is actually Ye. And Ye Xingzhou, Mr. Ye, was not actually surnamed Ye before she was found by the Ye family at the age of 15."

******

Yu Xi was walking on a small path at the top of the mountain, the wind was even colder, her fingers were slightly red from the cold, and when she moved a little, she felt a stiff feeling.

She kept holding the unfinished half of the apple in her hand, did not throw it away, and did not continue to eat it. The apple seemed to grow in her hand, and she stared at the oxidized and yellowed teeth marks in a daze as she walked.

Her mind is full of Shu Xing's words just now——

"Guanshan passed away in an accident after filming "Sword Spirit". No one knows what the accident was."

"Sister Ran has been with Mr. Ye since then. I don't know if it's because of Guanshan. The two of them have never been in a relationship. They also said that Mrs. Ye gave many of Sister Ran's resources. It seems to be more accurate to keep it as a nurturing one.”

Yuxi's throat was dry.

No matter what relationship Guan Shan had with Jiang Yi in the past, it is conceivable that she is a very important person to Jiang Yi.That's why Jiang Yi often has such deep affection, a dense sadness, like a fog that cannot be dissolved.

So, did Jiang Yi stay with Ye Xingzhou because of the view of the mountain, or did he not stay with Ye Xingzhou because of the view of the mountain?

Yu Xi heard herself asking with a dry voice: "Does she love Ye Xingzhou?"

Shu Xing tilted his head to look at Yu Xi.

Yu Xi: "What?"

Shu Xing smiled: "You are only 20 years old, two years younger than me, why do you always talk about whether you love it or not?" She stroked the edge of her drawing paper, and pressed the flat corner: "I love you!" It's a heavy word."

Yu Xi thought, maybe she and Jiang Yi are the kind of people who set the clock in their lives.

Because when I was very young or very young, I experienced too many things.A heart that should have fluttered with youth, was dragged back to the ground by those past events, and was ground on the ground, giving birth to a thick cocoon.

If it is not a heavy word like "love", it is not enough to pierce the thick cocoon.

Yu Xi has loved Jiang Yi for two years, and she has no doubt that she can love Jiang Yi longer.

The crux of the problem is, does Jiang Yi love Ye Xingzhou?She has been with Ye Xingzhou for almost ten years, but it seems that she is very afraid of Ye Xingzhou.

She is not happy.

Shu Xing shook her head: "Who knows. In fact, no one knows about Sister Ran and Ye Xingzhou, after all..." She blinked: "Mr. Ye is so fierce, who dares to ask."

Yu Xi remained silent.

Shu Xing suggested to her: "Go to the cemetery for a walk. Have you been studying too hard recently? You look very tired."

Yu Xi didn't know how she got to the cemetery.

view mountain.

She thought about the name of the female director.In fact, shortly after the release of "Sword and Spirit", this female director had an accident. Her only masterpiece, it was only after her accident that it really became popular.There are not many interviews about Guanshan on the Internet, and Yuxi found only one video. The interview was only 10 minutes long, and he seemed to be a very gentle and refined person.

It's quite different from Ye Xingzhou.

Yu Xi thought about looking at the mountains, and looked into the cemetery.

The cemetery is not big, surrounded by a black cast-iron fence. There are no gray stone steles that are common in general cemeteries, but small steles one after another, hidden in a field of evergreen plants in winter.

Yu Xi walked outside the fence, and couldn't read the writing on the stone tablet clearly, so he couldn't tell which tombstone belonged to Guanshan.

The cemetery was empty. After walking for a while, I saw two people standing in front of a tombstone, both wearing black coats.

Now is not the time to sweep the grave, probably the death day of the owner of the tombstone is coming.

Yu Xi was afraid of being disturbed, so she walked lightly.

But soon, she smelled a familiar scent, that extravagant, alienated perfume smell that she had always disliked, mixed with a bitter sandalwood scent.

Yu Xi's heart was pounding, and she hid in a bush, with her back against the gray brick wall between the fences.

It turned out to be Jiang Yi and Ye Xingzhou.

Is there such a coincidence?

Yu Xi felt that she should leave immediately and hide here, like a voyeur with no sense of morality.But she could hear Jiang Yi and Ye Xingzhou talking in a low voice, which made her unable to move away no matter what.

It was Ye Xingzhou who was talking: "Ran Ge, tell her in front of her, do you love me?"

There was a long silence, only the cold winter wind shaved Yuxi's ears.

Ye Xingzhou: "If you don't love me, no one will love me."

After a pause, Jiang Yi's voice came: "Love."

Her voice was the usual coldness after returning to Beicheng, wrapped in the cold winter wind, like waves lapping on the black rocks on the coast and being washed into powder, overwhelmingly penetrated into Yuxi's ears.

Crashing, Yu Xi raised her hand to touch her ear, she felt that it was wet there, and her heart was also wet.

At this time, the two people in the cemetery began to move around, as if they were about to come out of the cemetery, their short boots and silver walking sticks rubbed against the withered yellow grass, making a rustling sound.

Yu Xi ran away.

When the word "love" came out of Jiang Yi's mouth, she was swept from a barren hill in Beicheng into an unknown ocean wave at the end of the world, beating her, enveloping her, and letting her go from inside to outside. Damp outside.

She ran wildly on the mountain, tripped over the roots of an old tree that were half exposed to the ground, and almost fell, but she couldn't stop.

She waved her arms desperately, breathing heavily like she was trying to survive.

The too cold winter wind got into her throat, like swallowing a knife.

But no matter how she ran, how she ran, she couldn't escape the waves chasing her.

She is like a person who is almost drowning, and urgently needs a bonfire to dry her wet heart and save her rapidly losing body temperature.

She ran in a daze, and a figure in front of her came towards her.

After walking very close, Yu Xi realized that the man was Shu Xing.

Shu Xing was startled when he saw Yu Xi running wildly: "What's the matter? I saw that you haven't come back for so long, I thought you were lost, and said I came to look for you..."

Yu Xi had to stop, panting heavily.

"Hey, what's the matter with you?" Shu Xing's voice was dry and warm.

She was not wearing white today, but a warm orange coat, which looked like a bonfire burning on the dusty mountain.There was still the huge echo of the sea waves in Yu Xi's ears, buzzing, making her mind feel dull, so that when Shu Xing reached out to hold her hand, she was stunned for a while and did not react to avoid it.

"Why are your hands so cold?" Shu Xing said.

Shu Xing's hands are very warm and dry, just like the bonfire that Yu Xi longed for, with the smell of warm orange blossom hand cream.

But she is not Jiang Yi.

Just when Yu Xi was about to withdraw his hand, there was a sound of footsteps approaching, Shu Xing turned his head and called first: "Sister Ran, Mr. Ye."

Yu Xi withdrew her hand, and turned to the two of them together with Shu Xing.

Jiang Yi's eyes obviously stopped on Yu Xi's hand held by Shu Xing, but when Yu Xi pulled his hand, her eyes quickly moved away.

Yu Xi didn't know why she forced herself to look directly at Jiang Yi and Ye Xingzhou.

Both of them were wearing black, standing side by side, but separated by an ambiguous distance of two punches.Jiang Yi's body language is far from Ye Xingzhou's. In the past, Yu Xi would interpret this avoidance as "fear", but now she is standing opposite the two, but she feels that both of them are engulfed in a faint black mist.

They were both detached and mournful, their collars smeared with fine yellow pollen from a recent grave visit, so they looked like a good match.

Ye Xingzhou said, "Why are you here?"

"I'm here to sketch." Shu Xing was a little embarrassed: "Today is the day you come to see Dao Ye, I should remember, the school has been a little busy lately..." She took out her mobile phone: "I ordered a bouquet of flowers for delivery."

"No need." Ye Xingzhou's voice was as cold as her face, and also like today's wind: "Don't disturb her, your cousin doesn't have the habit of sending flowers either."

Shu Xing shyly took back the phone: "Okay."

Jiang Yi looked down at the withered grass on the ground.

Yu Xi's eyes were also lowered, and only then did she see that she was holding the small half of an apple that she hadn't finished eating in her hand, and the bite marks had oxidized and turned yellow, like a hopeless and decaying autumn.

Ye Xingzhou said: "Then let's go first."

Shu Xing immediately said: "Goodbye Mr. Ye, goodbye Sister Ran."

Jiang Yi stood still, Ye Xingzhou called her: "Let's go, Ran Ge."

Yu Xi consciously stood aside and made way for the way down the mountain. The apple juice was sticky and cool on her fingers, and the bite mark on the apple was like a wound, which made the sour juice in her heart overflow.

Jiang Yi started to move, her short boots rustling across the dry grass.

She passed by Yu Xi, and brought a burst of fragrance that Yu Xi didn't like very much.

She kept her eyes lowered and said something in a low voice.

Yu Xi didn't hear clearly: "Huh?"

Jiang Yi's voice was still very low: "Your shoelaces are untied."

Yu Xi lowered her head and pulled one corner of her mouth, looking at her untied shoelaces in embarrassment.

You ran too fast just now.

A defeated deserter who has thrown away his helmet and armor.

Jiang Yi left with Ye Xingzhou.

******

Only Lie Liefeng remained on the mountain, as well as Yu Xi and Shu Xing standing opposite each other.

Shu Xing asked her: "Do you still eat apples?"

Yuxi shook his head.

Shu Xing took the apple out of Yu Xi's hand, found a nearby trash can and threw it in, turned back and asked Yu Xi, "Are you cold? Let's go down the mountain quickly."

She took Yuxi back to the place where she was painting just now, packed up the easel and brushes, picked up Yuxi's backpack and handed it to her, and took her down the mountain.

******

Shu Xing brought Yu Xi to a tea restaurant.

The door was covered with a thick cotton curtain, and when you opened it and got in, there was a burst of warm air blowing in your face.In fact, it was already past the meal time, and there was no one in the cafeteria. Shu Xing ordered two casserole porridge and a pot of hot tea.

Yu Xi: "I invite you."

Shu Xing smiled: "Okay."

The two sat and waited for the porridge, and turned on the heater for a while, Shu Xing gradually felt warmer, so he took off his coat, but Yu Xi was shaking all over, and couldn't get warm no matter what, so he wrapped himself in his dark down jacket and kept on.

The porridge finally came, Shu Xing pushed a bowl in front of Yu Xi: "Hurry up and drink some."

A few mouthfuls of warm porridge fell into Yuxi's stomach, and Yuxi felt a sense of warmth in his stomach, finally shaking less violently.Shu Xing sat across from her drinking porridge and didn't say anything, only the sound of porcelain spoons clinking against the porridge bowl.

Yu Xi gradually slowed down a bit, and pulled down the collar of the down jacket that had been pulled high to the neckline, and opened a small opening.

Shu Xing didn't start talking until then: "It was so embarrassing just now, I've been chatting with you, but I still didn't realize that today is Director Ye's death day... What kind of brains am I?"

Yu Xi lowered his head to drink the porridge.

She once wondered how it happened by coincidence. Shu Xing asked her to go up the mountain, and she met Jiang Yi and Ye Xingzhou on the mountain.But now it seems that Shu Xing is completely ignorant, it's her villainous heart.

Shu Xing is not an actor, how could his acting skills be so good.

She will only be fooled by one person's acting skills.

Seeing that she was silent, Shu Xing changed the subject: "You were reading an English book just now? Do you have any plans? Do you plan to go abroad for postgraduate study in the future?"

Yu Xi: "No."

Shu Xing held the porcelain spoon and looked at her.

Yu Xi lowered his head, staring at the minced chicken in the porridge bowl.

After a long time, she looked up, and the buzzing in her ears was still ringing, and the old Hong Kong-style love songs in the store couldn't cover it: "I will continue to go to England as an exchange student starting next semester."

Shu Xing's eyes brightened: "Is it such a coincidence? Did I tell you that I'm going to study in England as well?"

Yu Xi was taken aback: "You said before that you were going to open a studio..."

"Open in England." Shu Xing smiled: "Cook something you like while going to school, young people, don't be afraid of being busy at all."

Yuxi nodded.

His eyes fell under the table, the scattered shoelaces were in a mess, and he was trampled out of mud.

It's like an embarrassing joke.

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感谢在2022-05-2016:47:02~2022-05-2114:54:29期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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