say i love you today

What are you talking about, I didn't hear you clearly. "

Fang Nianyu wanted to laugh inexplicably.

But she tried to hold back.

"There's an exam coming up soon, you have to study hard, you know?"

Qin Sisi shrugged and said yes.

Mottled tree shadows followed her hair from under the treetops, leaving a dark shadow on her eyelashes. Her cheeks were red, and she seemed a little shy.

Fang Nianyu found it interesting: "Why is your face so red?"

Qin Sisi said shyly, "The sun is shining."

Fang Nianyu silently covered the book on her head: "I won't be drying it now."

Qin Sisi sighed: "Nian Nian, you are so kind to me, what if your boyfriend gets jealous when he sees you in the future?"

"No." Fang Nianyu pulled a few strands of hair from her head behind her ears, and gently whispered in her ear, "I'm sure I won't fall in love before you."

Qin Sisi smiled: "I hope so."

The place here is relatively quiet, usually no students come to play, and there are a few pink flowers blooming next to it, pink and tender.

Zhang Changsong came in from the aisle next to him at this moment, and frowned slightly as he watched the situation.

He was wearing a thin coat, and he looked handsome and handsome, with the feeling of a big brother leading the family.

When Qin Sisi saw him, she let out a oh, and said with a smile: "Student Zhang Da, why do you have time to come to me today?"

Zhang Changsong: "Why, this is your house? I dare to walk in your house without any hesitation!"

Fang Nianyu laughed out loud.

Zhang Changsong stared at him and closed his mouth.

Zhang Changsong scratched his hair vigorously: "I broke up with my girlfriend."

He looked slightly distressed, frowning.

Qin Sisi asked curiously, "How did you break up?"

"She said that I would not accompany her or buy her lipstick."

Zhang Changsong said aggrievedly: "Didn't I see that she still has a good look? The style has not been used yet and I want to buy a new one. I bought her a Chanel, she thinks it is expensive again... Let me go back."

"Go, go, try to apologize to her and see if it works. By the way, do you like her very much?"

"If you like it, it's okay to apologize. When two people are together, it takes time to communicate. Who told you to play basketball and play league all day instead of reading books. If it was me, I would break up. You know, you and the keyboard have been good for a lifetime of."

Zhang Changsong sat beside him, like a husky who couldn't be more wronged, Qin Sisi pushed him: "Come on, you are the only person who knows how wronged and sad you are, just say what you want, and cover it up like a girl." of."

She laughed and said, "Have you had fewer girlfriends in recent years?"

Zhang Changsong: "..."

See through, don’t say through.

After waiting for a while, he spoke slowly, as if he was brewing emotions before, he tilted his head and did not speak.

"Xu Zhiyan..."

"Xu Zhiyan was sentenced to life imprisonment by the court."

Qin Sisi raised her eyebrows, as if she was not surprised by the ending.

"Don't you want to say something?"

Zhang Changsong looked at her with a complicated expression.

Qin Sisi was overjoyed: "What can I say, I'm not a judge."

"But the judge is your relative!"

Zhang Changsong almost blurted out.

Otherwise, why did Xu Zhiyan come here to relax in such a low-key manner before?

"Okay, okay, Xu Zhiyan, I can only say that I tried my best, and he should be secretly happy if he didn't let him be sentenced to death, okay? He needs someone else to wipe his ass as an adult, don't you know the seriousness of this matter?"

Qin Sisi laughed softly: "It's not me who did the wrong thing, why should I be required to take the trouble to clear him of the crime?"

"He said he wanted to see you, one last time."

Qin Sisi stood up and stretched, then turned her head to look at Fang Nianyu, and smiled with her eyes bent: "Niannian, let's go back, I don't want to focus on certain things on rare Sundays."

"Let's go drink milk tea later. I heard that a new one has recently opened next to the school gate. The taste is very good, and the quality is cheap."

The author has something to say: Well, today I have time to code Braille again, the stand-alone machine is so painful ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, crying like a storm

☆、I miss you dead

In the end, Qin Sisi still went to see Xu Zhiyan.

Xu Zhiyan became haggard a lot, with stubble on his beard, his eyes were no longer as bright and clear as they were at the beginning, and he exuded a decadent aura.

Qin Sisi stood at the door and knocked.

"Please come in."

Xu Zhiyan turned around and smiled at her: "Come in."

Qin Sisi is wearing a red dress today, with white high-heeled shoes on her feet, and a tens of thousands of bags in her hand.

Every move is quite sexy.

Xu Zhiyan laughed at himself: "I thought you wouldn't see me."

Qin Sisi put the bag on the table casually, then sat on the leather sofa, poured herself a glass of water and took a sip before putting it in her hand, looked up at him, and smiled slightly: "It seems that you are quite self-aware."

Xu Zhiyan: "I also don't want to ask why you didn't implement your promises. Those are useless now."

He was sitting opposite Qin Sisi, and next to him was a wide floor-to-ceiling window. The view was very wide at first glance. Under the blue sky, birds occasionally flew by, bringing a gust of wind. The tall buildings not far away were patchwork, and there were various office buildings and offices.

Qin Sisi turned the white teacup around.

"I heard Zhang Changsong, you want to see me, if you have anything to say, hurry up, I'm in a hurry."

She raised her hand and looked at the time: "I have an appointment today."

"Boy friend?"

Qin Sisi didn't know what kind of mood the person in front of her had when she said these three words, but it didn't matter to her anymore.

She shook her head: "No."

A smile suddenly appeared at the corner of Xu Zhiyan's mouth: "So you haven't found a boyfriend yet."

He sighed inaudibly: "It's all my fault."

Qin Sisi stared at him for a while, then suddenly said, "Why don't you ask me if I have a girlfriend?"

Xu Zhiyan was taken aback.

She was sitting there, two arms away from her opposite, as if separated by thousands of mountains and rivers at the moment, she was sitting upright, the red dress added a bit of beauty and charm to her cold face.

"I suddenly feel a little regretful."

He said, "If only I liked you more before."

Qin Sisi thought it was very funny, she chewed the phrase "If only I liked you more before" in her mouth and then spit it out: "I didn't expect that you are still the same, you will never reflect on your mistakes, only know Reminiscing about the past, I really don’t know how I fell in love with you before, maybe I was blind.”

"But I'm very happy." She looked into Xu Zhiyan's eyes word by word and said, "I'm really glad that you can spend your life in prison, and you can't harm more girls. You just have a good appearance. Forget it, now your parents can no longer protect you, how do you feel, are you happy?"

"—But I'm still a little unhappy. Why haven't you been sentenced to death?"

Qin Sisi wanted to curse him with the most vicious language, but a good education told her that this scumbag was not worth it.

It's not worth being angry for him, it's not worth having a little emotion for him, it's not worth it.

Xu Zhiyan's body froze slightly: "You hate me that much?"

"Hate?" Qin Sisi tilted her head and didn't understand his literal meaning, "I don't hate you. But I hate you and hope you die."

She picked up the teacup and drank a few more sips of tea, feeling slightly bitter in the mouth.

Lips and teeth stay fragrant.

"If you called me here today just to catch up on the old relationship, then I can only tell you that I don't want to. I don't want to talk to you. I feel sick to breathe the same air under this sky. If you still miss the old relationship If you have something to say, please tell me quickly, I don’t have that spare time to accompany you Moji understand?”

Qin Sisi brushed her hair, ready to stand up and walk out.

Xu Zhiyan grabbed his hand, his expression unpredictable.

Qin Sisi struggled to get rid of his hand, her eyes were slightly cold.

Xu Zhiyan paused for a while, and finally said, "What's the relationship between Gong Tingting and you? Does she like you?"

At that moment, Qin Sisi felt as if she had fallen into a cellar of ice, her whole body was filled with coldness. When the sun was shining brightly, she could even feel the hot and dry weather, her whole body was cold, and even her teeth were chattering slightly.

From the soles of the feet, the coldness continued to expand and spread to the brain along the beating heart.

Her mind went blank.

a while.

She folded her arms and yawned, with tears welling from the corners of her eyes.

Xu Zhiyan couldn't tell whether it was because he was sleepy with physical tears or because he mentioned this person.

He knew that he seemed to have stepped into a deep pit, and there were people waving at him with a shovel inside.

"You said Gong Tingting, what's the matter? Hasn't she been dead for a long time?"

Xu Zhiyan relaxed slightly: "That's right, I heard that she was ill before and didn't make it through. I don't know where she is buried. If I have time when I come out, I will go to worship."

Qin Sisi smiled, she thought it might be that Xu Zhiyan deliberately changed into bright clothes because he wanted to see her, and stood there for a long time to look at her.

"It's a pity. I don't know what year and month it will be when you come out. It's useless to tell you now."

She turned to go.

"and many more!"

Qin Sisi turned her head and looked at him: "Is there anything else?"

Xu Zhiyan opened his mouth, but didn't say anything.

Qin Sisi shrugged helplessly: "I have never loved, next."

"By the way," she said, "I wish you good food and drink in prison, and slowly wait for your sentence to be reduced. Of course, if you can reduce your sentence. Otherwise, when you grow old, you won't be able to pick up girls."

......

After Qin Sisi left for a long time.

Xu Zhiyan moved back to the room, lowered his eyes, took out a recording pen from his pocket, and opened it.

After Qin Sisi came, he listened to every sentence over and over again, finally stood up and yelled, and threw the recording pen on the ground forcefully.

"Ahhh!"

Suddenly, the recording pen was broken in half.

It's over, it's over.

Qin Sisi was in a good mood, so she specially bought herself a vanilla-flavored ice cream while eating and walking.

She bought a movie ticket not far from home, and walked in when the show started.

This movie is a horror movie.

There is an old saying in China that if you survive a catastrophe, you will have good fortune, but everything in it does not follow this law.

It's that he avoided the scythe of death this time, so he won't be so lucky next time.

Qin Sisi bought popcorn and coke, and ate them with relish.

In the dark projection hall, the handsome protagonist shook his head at the heroine, then hugged and told the heroine to go away.

After watching for a while, she suddenly felt a bunch of hot eyes hitting her face.

Qin Sisi looked left and right but didn't see the source of this gaze and had to give up.

After the movie was over, the waiter came forward and turned on the lights, signaling them to go out now.

Originally, I wanted to watch the tidbits, but Qin Sisi was a little unhappy, thinking that the waiters here were really disappointing.

"Wait a minute, I want to see the behind-the-scenes footage. I think it's scary, and I won't be able to sleep when I go back tonight."

A gentle, hoarse and slightly magnetic voice suddenly sounded, vaguely carrying a somewhat refined request.

Qin Sisi and that man were the only ones in the huge auditorium.

Unable to hold back, Qin Sisi quietly turned her head to look at him.

Why do you look familiar?

Qin Sisi was puzzled, and thought to herself: "This person looks familiar, have I met him somewhere?"

Just then the man looked over.

A few places away, the man smiled at her with warmth in his brows and eyes.

Qin Sisi turned her head abruptly, a red glow flashed across her cheeks.

Su, what a f***ing Su.

What the hell is this sacred.

When she came out of the movie theater, the man called to her: "Hello ma'am, can I leave a phone number?"

He was wearing a casual cyan sportswear and Adidas logo shoes on his feet. He looked like a rich man.

forgive me.Qin Si thought, I am so vulgar, I can only be called a rich person.

She held back a bit and said, "Okay."

After the two parties exchanged phone numbers, the man introduced himself: "Hello, my surname is Fang, and I'm alone Yu. Fang Yu is clean and sandy, and Fang Yu is full of vibes."

Qin Sisi: "..."

What kind of poem should she think of to reflect the force of her name?

Ah Fang is really strict.

After holding back for a long time, Qin Sisi uttered a few words with difficulty: "My name is Qin Sisi."

Fang Yu nodded lightly, stretched out his hand towards her, with a happy smile on his face: "May I ask Miss Sisi for a cup of tea?"

Qin Sisi: "Of course."

There is one near the tea house, which can be regarded as noble, and the decoration is antique, which has a romantic feeling of Wei and Jin Dynasties.

Qin Sisi ordered a cup of Pu'er and a cup of milk tea.

Sitting opposite her, Fang Yu could see his sharp-edged face as soon as he raised his head. It was like the most perfect finished product of the sculpture in the sky. His every move was graceful, elegant and wanton.

Although Qin Sisi was a little precocious, she was still a little uncomfortable with a man, a grown man.

But for her, who doesn't like to be cowardly, holding on to the idea that she can't uplift others' prestige and destroy her own morale, she resolutely implements a dignified, mature and sexy woman who stands like a loose seat and sits like a bell...

Let's talk about women for now, even though I'm still underage.

Obviously, the other party also saw the signs, and told her jokes while telling her to relax.

Qin Sisi couldn't relax a bit, she was exhausted from fighting wits and courage with Xu Zhiyan not long ago, she finally said that after going to a movie, she didn't expect to drink tea again now, her spirit was a bit overwhelmed.

Fang Yu pursed his lips slightly, smiling heartily.

"Do you like watching the Grim Reaper series?"

Qin Sisi said modestly: "It's okay, it's okay."

Fang Yu: "My friend said that this series of movies is okay. I came here to watch it today. I didn't expect it to be really good."

Qin Sisi really wanted to roll her eyes, but I just bought a ticket casually.

But she maintained her image and said proudly: "I think it's okay, but it's a bit bloody."

She was wearing a red dress, and it was rare for her to sit upright on a chair and act like a caring person. She took a sip of the milk tea handed over by the waiter, and her movements were very small.

Fang Yu chatted with her for a while, and saw that Qin Sisi was a bit embarrassed, so he proposed to see her next time.

Qin Sisi nodded and said yes.

......

It was almost five o'clock when I got home.

Qin Sisi happily ran into the kitchen and hugged Fang Nianyu, rubbing against her back lightly, her warm breath made Fang Nianyu itchy.

Fang Nianyu is cooking dinner.

The apron tied to Kawaii moved uncomfortably: "Why are you back so late?"

Qin Sisi put her chin on her right shoulder, shrugged her eyes and said aggrievedly: "You didn't tell me to come back earlier."

☆, do not do things

Fang Nianyu shook his head: "I didn't go back today."

From Qin Sisi's point of view, Fang Nianyu has her head slightly lowered, her eyelashes are long, her forehead, bridge of nose, stretches all the way to her thin and pale lips, followed by her delicate chin and thin neck along her white, small and delicate collarbone , gathered together into the unspeakable deeper depths.

The white shirt covered up all the beauty and corruption.

Qin Sisi suddenly felt a sense of guilt hidden deep in his heart.

——This person doesn't know anything, she doesn't know that she likes her, and she doesn't know why she likes to play with her.

She only knew that she had a friend, and someone was willing to share all the joys, sorrows and joys with her, but she didn't know how evil that person approached her with the idea of ​​letting her go to hell together, and even the unspeakable love in her heart. Careful thinking is exposed during the day and has nothing to hide.

In front of Xu Zhiyan, she was arrogant and disdainful, and she didn't even want to give him a little bit of charity. She said a lot of lies today, only this sentence: Why don't you ask me if I have a girlfriend? It's true, All the emotions that cannot be seen in the sun are exposed.

Qin Sisi hugged her for a while and said, "Nianyu, I feel a little pain in my heart."

Fang Nianyu turned around and looked at her nervously, worried: "What's wrong?"

Qin Sisi stared at her deeply, and after a long time, she slowly laughed: "It's okay, Nian Nian, I really like how you look nervous."

Fang Nianyu glared at her.

Qin Sisi let go of her waist, stepped back half a step, and said softly after she turned around.

"Nian Nian, what will you do if one day you find that the people around you have an attitude that may make you feel sick?"

"Will you alienate her?"

"No. The big deal is just to say a few words. There are too many people who have disgusting thoughts towards me, but if I want to hate them one by one, then I will be very tired."

Qin Sisi laughed: "That's right, Nian Nian, when can we have dinner, I'm a little hungry."

......

I don't know why recently, the wind is a bit tight.

When Qin Sisi just came out of the toilet and entered the classroom, the students in the class were all talking about it.

Qin Sisi caught a gap and asked her deskmate.

The deskmate was looking up at the ceiling with blank eyes, Qin Sisi touched his shoulder: "What happened?"

Hong Youjun seemed to be considering his words, and he didn't speak for a long time.

Finally, there is a classmate who seems to know the inside story, why don't you have to question him?

Qin Sisi developed her gossip thoughts to the extreme, and asked, "What happened?"

"As far as I know, it seems that there are two men who couldn't help kissing in the toilet, and were reported as a small report. Now one of them is facing persuasion... I don't know the specifics, probably That’s right, I’ve also heard it from others.”

"Persuade?"

"Well, it seems that a student in the top five has sex with an ordinary classmate. Now the parents of the two parties are blocking the principal's office, asking for an explanation."

Qin Sisi didn't seem to turn her head around.

"What do you want to say?"

She's a little confused, what are you doing?gay?

What is the situation!

Hong Youjun leaned next to her and whispered, "Why does the mother of the boy with good grades want that person to pay for mental damage? Anyway, it's not a good thing."

Qin Sisi was stunned for a while: "You don't seem to be too interested in this matter? Don't you think it's disgusting for two men to kiss together?"

"It's a little bit, but I think, even if the two men are really together, you can control yourself, kiss in the school men's bathroom, if you are really so horny, it would be good to open a room, just in front of 'all eyes' It’s disgusting to do things down.”

Qin Sisi agreed casually, stood up and was about to go out, but someone grabbed her wrist.

She turned her head and saw that it was Fang Nianyu.

Fang Nianyu frowned slightly: "Class is about to start, where are you going?"

Qin Sisi just looked at her like that, and within a few seconds she felt a bit chilly.

She turned around and came back to sit, sitting on the bench, sitting on pins and needles.

She really wanted to know the follow-up, including what happened to those two people afterwards, such as whether they dropped out of school, was it one person or two people?

Even though doctors have said that homosexuality is not a disease, why is it so disdainful, discriminated against and filled with malice by so many people?

Qin Sisi let out a deep breath, thinking that she should not be too bold recently, the little flame that had just prepared a confession died down like being splashed with cold water.

After a while, when the heat of this matter finally subsided, Qin Sisi learned about the follow-up situation.

She didn't dare ask Zhang Changsong for any news, for she was afraid that if she didn't pay attention, she would miss out.

The one with good grades is still in school, and still maintains his personality as a top student, as if nothing happened around him, and the other male student seems to have disappeared from the world, although sometimes people still talk about him, but in the end everyone The topic gradually decreased.

The school keeps making repeated orders not to allow students to fall in love, but they can't stop their love, so they can only be sparse and not blocked.

"Hey! What are you thinking?"

Said that Cao Cao Cao Cao arrived.

Zhang Changsong ran up to her with a gust of wind.

Summer is about to enter, wearing a thin white shirt, very relaxed.

The plastic playground on the playground was broken and was being repaired. He hadn't run or practiced in the past one or two months, so he took advantage of half an hour to play ball to relax.

Qin Sisi was lying on the seat, in the shade of the trees, the sun was scattered and mottled, and the warm and clean light coming out of the gaps seemed to be pilgrimage light constantly back and forth on her face.

Zhang Changsong raised his head and took a sip of cold water.

Wiped the corner of his mouth for a while and sighed: "Why do you seem to be a different person recently, and you don't arrange me anymore."

Qin Sisi put the book away from her face, raised her head and laughed mockingly: "You are M, right?"

She looked at Zhang Changsong's frowning brows with doubts in her eyes.

"By the way, you seem to be alone recently? Where's your girlfriend? Didn't you reconcile with her?"

Zhang Changsong sat down on the bench with a "bah", wiped his face and said, "She's having trouble."

"By the way, where is Fang Nianyu?"

"She? She's gone home."

"No wonder."

"what?"

Qin Sisi looked at him suspiciously: "What did you say?"

"I say!"

Zhang Changsong looked into her eyes, and said word by word, "No wonder you've been at a loss lately."

"Do you like her?"

☆, leave note

Sitting in front of the computer today, I can’t calm down, have no inspiration, and the words I write are dry and lifeless and soulless. I won’t update today, sorry

☆、I want to accompany you

"..."

Qin Sisi suddenly suffocated, she saw her own reflection in Zhang Changsong's eyes, there seemed to be a slight playfulness on her half-smile face, all the anguish, confusion and tension of fear of being discriminated against were perfectly hidden there In the pure black eyes, people can't tell the real from the fake.

She smiled slightly: "I don't know."

She neither denied nor admitted directly, but she could not use this to minimize Zhang Changsong's suspicion.

Zhang Changsong took down her book and put it aside, staring into her eyes, as if he wanted to look into her eyes like this.

"I'm telling you, Qin Sisi."

His deep voice was a little hoarse: "If you do this again, I will tell you ~ Mom to let you transfer schools."

He did have the capital to change a girlfriend for a few days, and his magnetic voice sounded particularly doting and gentle, without any threat at all.

Qin Sisi stared at him for a while, but decided to speak out what was in her heart.

"I really don't know if I like her or because I have a little bit of sincere love. You may look ridiculous, but that's what I want to explain. I really don't know."

"I remember you used to have a female classmate named Tingting, right?"

Zhang Changsong stroked his chin thoughtfully and said, "Did you transfer your debt to her to someone else? Look at how long you have been with Fang Nianyu, and you feel that you like her. At that time, I didn't see you treating Tingting." Interested?"

Qin Sisi smiled wryly.

"What I can be sure of is that it is definitely not the debt to her that you think. What's more, I don't think I owe anything. I help her when she is sad and desperate. Besides, I am not the culprit. It has nothing to do with me. ?”

From the beginning to the end, she was just an outsider.

Although the final outcome is not good.

Zhang Changsong sat down, where she often sat with Fang Nianyu, and smiled softly.

Qin Sisi was a little irritable and didn't know what he was laughing at.

"Sure enough, you are still the same. If you don't go to see a doctor, why do you feel more and more serious now?"

"You don't remember that he had a crush on you? You don't remember that the person who violated her was your ex? Or are you rejecting this fact from the beginning?"

Zhang Changsong's voice was not loud, but it was enough to attack people's hearts. Qin Sisi seemed to be caught up in his few questions, and it took a few seconds before he hurriedly ended the topic with an understatement "maybe."

She really didn't want to stretch too much on this topic.

Seeing this, Zhang Changsong didn't force her, raised his hand to look at his watch, stood up and said, "Sisi, class is about to start, let's go to class."

......

After the midterm exam, Qin Sisi basically didn't see Fang Nianyu much except in class.

She kept looking at the empty table that had been empty for a week from her seat, and no one who looked left and right came. It was early in the morning, and it was already dawn. Qin Sisi couldn't help asking her deskmate: " Fang Nianyu, do you know what's going on? Why haven't you come to school for several days?"

Her deskmate frowned a little uncertainly and said, "It seems that she was injured and hospitalized."

Where are you hospitalized?Qin Sisi felt that her head was on the verge of being dizzy, so she caught his deskmate and kept asking, "Why are you hospitalized?"

"A few days ago, I went to the bathroom and passed by the office and heard what the head teacher said. I don't know exactly what's going on."

In the afternoon, Qin Sisi asked the class teacher for a leave of absence, and then went to her home.

Fang Nianyu's aunt was at home, the door was open, and she was sitting by the door eating sunflower seeds.

There are melon seed shells all around, which is a bit messy.

Her eyes were sharp, and when she saw Qin Sisi from afar, she stood up and waved to her, and when she got closer, she asked, "Did you come to see my family, Nianyu?"

She spoke too normally, not like Fang Nianyu's relatives, but like an insignificant person.

For some reason, a sudden disgust seemed to take root and swell, and it seemed to be uncomfortable even looking at people.

Qin Sisi said hello politely, and then asked, "Which hospital is Sisi in?"

A gleam flashed in Wang Cuiping's eyes: "The water is hanging in a small clinic not far from here. If you want to see her, I will take you there."

Go around and go through various winding alleys to reach the destination.The clinic is in the middle, and there is a wooden sign with the words "clinic" hanging on one side of the door.

Wang Cuiping pointed forward: "This is it, you go in, I'll go back first."

Qin Sisi thanked her, then walked in, there was a person at the door wearing ordinary clothes, who was dispensing medicine for someone, the movement was very smooth, a piece of paper was twisted slightly by his hand, and it became a very convenient bag, he raised his eyes slightly , glanced at Qin Sisi: "What's wrong?"

Qin Sisi showed a very shy smile: "I'm here to find someone, where is that Fang Nianyu?"

He pointed upwards.

Qin Sisi went up to the second floor and found Fang Nianyu lying on a snow-white bed~, the quilt was very thin, but it was just right, the wrist was leaking out, some needle holes were clearly visible, and the pale blue veins appeared on the skin of the arm, pale and weak.

She closed her eyes, her eyelashes rested peacefully on her thin eyelids, surrounded by dark shadows, her hair drooped slightly, and some of it hung in front of her forehead.

Qin Sisi just looked at her like this for a while, until Fang Nianyu slowly opened his eyes as if he had a feeling.

Qin Sisi stepped forward and smiled, "Why didn't you tell me when you were sick? What's the matter?"

Fang Nianyu was slightly startled, but quickly came to his senses, lowered his head and said softly, "I don't want you to worry."

"It's just a cold."

The sky by the window is gradually darkening, mixed with coolness and coolness, the night under the night always comes so unexpectedly, even the circulation of the air cannot be felt, and the gloomy brings the dullness of the storm.

Qin Sisi took a deep breath.

"I'll sleep here tonight and stay with you."

Fang Nianyu looked behind her: "Where's my mother?"

"She took me to this place and then went back." Sitting beside her bedside, seeing her thin cheeks and pale expression, Qin Sisi felt a little pain like being pricked by a needle.

"Have you eaten yet? I'll go buy you something to eat."

"I don't really want to eat."

Fang Nianyu shook his head with a smile, slightly bent his eyebrows, and pressed the corners of his lips hard to keep from curling up: "I didn't expect you to come back to see me, I'm very happy."

She doesn't seem to be very good with words.

They just said similar things over and over again.

Qin Sisi sighed, thinking why this girl makes people feel distressed.

"Nianyu, can you tell me if you have something to do in the future? I'm very worried."

As soon as the voice fell, Fang Nianyu lowered her head. After such a toss, the originally soft and beautiful lines became a little bit more angular, a little stinging, the darkness under the night, the still air, and even the voice of the doctor downstairs. It was so bleak.

The incandescent lamp left a silhouette on her face, the slightly pursed corners of her lips, and the bruises on her wrists, all of which seemed to be enlarged to the point where they could not be ignored.

Qin Sisi whispered: "Are you in a bad mood recently, can you tell me why?"

Fang Nianyu looked up at her abruptly, then smiled gently: "There's nothing wrong, don't worry too much. You can't sleep well here, go back to sleep."

Her gesture of refusal was indeed a bit sad.

Qin Sisi was stunned for a moment, and said aggrievedly: "Can't I worry about you?"

Fang Nianyu turned his head sideways and stopped looking at her.

In fact, that gesture was really a rejection, I didn't want to talk to her, I didn't want to see her, and I didn't want to have any verbal, physical, or facial interaction with her.

Qin Sisi's body froze slightly.

She felt that it was too obvious that she wanted to take an unusual and difficult road in the future, but she couldn't drag her sweetheart who didn't know anything.

She doesn't have that right, and she doesn't have that ability to protect the other party.

That road will be reviled, disrespected and misunderstood by thousands of people, and even like the school leaders, students will be asked to drop out of school.

Nianyu's future is still long. I can't ruin myself, and also ruin my future, studies and family for the rest of my life.

Qin Sisi looked at Fang Nianyu's snow-white neck, and for the first time in her heart questioned her future path.

I shouldn't be like this. I should be admitted to a university and choose a good major. When I enter the society in the future, I can also add some glory to my experience.

But why don't I do it?

Do you have a family business waiting to be inherited?

Obviously, no.

Do you have enough skills to make others look up to you?

Obviously, no.

Then do you have the ability to keep your sweetheart from being blamed by thousands of people?

......

Qin Sisi stood up, walked to the window and looked outside.

Few people pass by in the narrow alley, even thieves are unwilling to come here. The bluestone road spreads to the dark distance with a little bit of moonlight, as if there is a flood of beasts, which makes people fear and panic.

She stretched out five fingers, and then looked at it carefully.

The five fingers do not touch the spring water, the slender and round fingers have a dark side and a warm light, and there is not even a callus on the fingers.

How beautiful, she thought, what should I draw?

Fang Nianyu sat up and looked at her.

She couldn't move her right hand, and she felt a little cold all over her body.

She was really cold, and she didn't get better after a few days of infusion, but there was a trend of getting worse.

"Sisi, it's cold outside, come here. If you really want to sleep here with me, tell the doctor and bring a thick quilt. The toilet is a little to the east."

She coughed in a low voice, feeling panic-stricken.

"Sisi, do you seem to be asking for leave?"

She had nothing to talk about, so she could barely suppress the restlessness in her heart.

Qin Sisi looked at her without speaking.

"Don't be unhappy," Fang Nianyu opened the bed and was about to get out of bed, but was held down by Qin Sisi. She saw that there was only a trace of a smile on her lips and tried to smile, "Sisi, don't be unhappy. I really just had a cold, nothing else."

Qin Sisi covered her with a quilt, put a pillow under her waist, and asked her to sit in a comfortable position.

"Good, read it."

"Nian Nian, rest well, I'll be here with you tonight, if you have anything to say, you can tell me quietly, don't be afraid that I will alienate you because of this, and hate you because of it, you know, I don't Will do."

This sentence seemed to give her great comfort.

Fang Nianyu was stunned for a moment, the corners of his mouth moved slightly, but in the end he didn't say anything, just smiled and shook his head: "It's okay."

☆, cooking by myself

It took a long time for her to know what Fang Nianyu was hiding from her back then.

At that time, the final exam was just over, and after the exam, there was a song playing on the radio. After a song was over, a deep and vicissitudes of life sounded.

"Taking advantage of today's opportunity of leaving school and facing a wonderful summer vacation, I am here to announce a piece of good news. The following students who have won awards in a writing activity held by the Ministry of Education this year, please come to the principal's office to collect them immediately Award."

"Third Prize: Hu Haiqing, Qu Huang, Bai Xiaoxiao

Second Prize: Xie Chengfei, He Jiaming, Xu Chong, Liu Xiaoshan, Jiang He, Hong Youjun

First Prize: Gong Jiajia.It is worth emphasizing here that Gong Jiajia, who won the first prize in our school this year, her work "Waiting for the Wind" was published by the youth magazine in the next issue of "Youth" and bought out at a price of one hundred thousand words , if any students want to read it, please pay attention to the Weibo of young people.I wish all students a happy holiday. "

Qin Sisi could no longer hear what was said later, and Fang Nianyu's reserved smile suddenly flashed in his mind.

She turned her head to look at Fang Nianyu.

Fang Nianyu sat upright, looking straight ahead, even with a slight smile.

From Qin Sisi's point of view, she didn't react at all, her eyes drooped slightly, her side face had soft lines, her small and delicate nose, her slightly raised lips, except for a little blood color, other basic expressions were normal .

After school, Qin Sisi called her to stop: "Nian Nian, wait a moment."

Zhang Changsong stood by and waited, Fang Nianyu turned to look at her, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

The three of them walked side by side.

Zhang Changsong is the tallest, followed by Fang Nianyu.

Qin Sisi walked last.

Fang Nianyu seemed to have lost some weight again. Her body, which had been mended at Qin Sisi's house for a while, seemed to have shrunk, and she quickly became a slender and thin girl.

He didn't speak much along the way.

Qin Sisi had no choice but to give up because of Zhang Changsong, but she whispered into Fang Nianyu's ear and said, "Nianyu, I'll go to your place tonight."

"No," Fang Nianyu's answer was fast and ruthless, and a bit unexpected. Seeing Qin Sisi's surprised face, she felt that what she had said was a bit too much, so she could only suppress it a little, and whispered, "I'm here with you tonight. Go to sleep, I will tell my mother."

"Humph"

As soon as the words finished, Zhang Changsong sneered: "Fang Nianyu?"

"Is that your mother? Your parents have been dead for many years, and they didn't let you be nepotism. "

Fang Nianyu's face froze slightly.

In an instant, the blood faded from her face.

After a while, she seemed to want to say something, her eyelashes trembled, she tried her best to suppress all the fear and uneasiness in her heart, pinched her hand vigorously, and managed not to lose her composure in front of them.

Qin Sisi glared at Zhang Changsong, and pulled her away from Zhang Changsong.

"Sisi, listen to me, it's not like that."

Fang Nianyu slowed down for quite a while, then held Qin Sisi's hand back, breathing quickly: "Sisi, listen to me."

Her face looked too pale, and the only thing with a little blood was excitedly wanting to talk and explain what was forced out.

Qin Sisi stroked her soft but not pure black hair, thinking in her heart that the iron should be struck while it is hot, and the dripping water from her mouth would not stop.