[APH Mega Bu Ying Lu Zhong] Fools' Carnival

There is such a myth in ancient Greece. Narcissus, a beautiful boy, is arrogant and unrestrained. He refuses all the girls who show love to him continuously. He has no one to look up to except himself.Because of love and hatred, the love-lost water demon Ako cast a curse in front of the Nemesis, so that Narcissus would never be able to fall in love with others.Narcissus, who was cursed, came to the lake one day and saw his own reflection in the water, and suddenly fell in love with himself. He refused to leave his own shadow for a moment, and spent three days and three nights on the shore looking at himself in pity. Finally, because of love, he could not become Heartbroken, he stumbled and fell into the lake and never got up again.Since then, the place where he stood by the lake has been filled with elegant and beautiful white flowers called "Narcissus".

Matthew always thought the story was too cruel—first endowing a man with extraordinary beauty, then annoying him with love affairs with thousands of strangers, and finally making him fall in love with no one but himself.The innate ability may not be what the person wants, but the world holds him accountable, even if he lives alone, it is not enough to repay the debt, because he is also a normal person with emotional needs, and he cannot hope to become a monster to get rid of others accusation.

If fate has a scale to balance all living beings, then who will put the "God's Beloved" into the weighing pan?

When Matthew was 12 years old, Alfred raffled a video camera, which was their first video camera.Arthur was afraid that they would break the thing, so he used a protective cover to cover it tightly. Alfred was so excited at the time, he took it everywhere to shoot, but after the novelty faded, he used it More or Matthew.At that time, they had been playing curling for seven years, and the city's big competition was coming soon. Alfred, the ace of the school curling team, took Matthew to practice with him every day. Fortunately, Arthur prepared armor for them all.

At this moment, Matthew is in good health both physically and mentally. He has completely broken away from the chaos of eight or nine years old and has begun to enter adolescence.There was no one on the ice rink in the early morning when it was snowing, the sky was as clear as blue under the faint sunlight, a thick layer of snow had accumulated on the road, the doors and windows of every house were tightly closed, and icicles condensed like sharp blades under the eaves. If you pour a pot of hot water from time to time, it will turn into ice and snow in an instant.Alfred put on his mask and hit the first goal of the day. Matthew, who was familiar with the meaning, naturally intercepted it, and the sun rose slowly behind the two teenagers.

Matthew and Alfred's jumps are exaggerated. This year, they are almost 1.6 meters. What's more interesting is that they almost grow at the same time. Unfortunately, the nutrition can't keep up, and they are both slightly thinner.The childhood wardrobe could no longer hold these two, and the monster pulled an old double bed from someone else, Alfred on the lower floor, Matthew on the upper floor, but they still slept together from time to time, the two of them stretched out from under the covers. With two pairs of feet, it's hard to tell who belongs to whom.Also when letting down his hair after a shower, Arthur sometimes mistook Matthew for Alfred, Francis jokingly called them "two sides of a magic coin", meaning identical.

Another good thing that happened at age 12 was that Alfred's athletic awards went up and their pension benefits went up, and Matthew finally got rid of that damn job delivering cookies.As a result of the monsters going out frequently, Matthew and Alfred gained more freedom. Matthew didn't know when he got used to going in and out of church on Sunday. Personally, he felt like he had forgotten something, something very important, but since there must be a necessary reason for forgetting, it would be no good to force himself.This church was newly built, and there was an old church that was destroyed in an accident three years ago, and Matthew didn't know the specific situation.

Steve didn't like him going to church, they all came to the same conclusion that the church is a place of contradiction, the church in the movie is both a refuge and a disaster scene, a group of helpless people seek another innocent person to help them, although God has mercy Man, but who can sympathize with God?Matthew never prayed, at most he told God to be happy on a cloudy day and stop thundering on the ground-this sounds really rebellious.

Matthew has already finished reading the books and video tapes in the attic, and his happiest thing now is collecting leaves and going to the supermarket to taste them.The leaves are beautiful, each one has a special appearance, even the color is slightly different, Matthew and Steve's leaf album can be piled into mountains.Because dinner is usually not enough, Matthew and Alfred will keep changing the supermarket to try new products in the supermarket. When encountering limited supply of snacks, they will start to play a "twin trick". The other person gets another one, and then Alfred stepped forward to play hooligans: "Please give me one too." The counter lady will usually say: "I just gave it to you, this is one for each person .”

Alfred pouted: "That's my brother pretending to be me, and I should get a copy too." The counter lady panicked: "I don't understand... Maybe you should discuss it with your brother."

Alfred squeezed out tears: "No, he has already finished eating, it's not fair, I want it too. Does it mean that we are the same as him because we look the same? This is too much!" The counter lady surrendered, Give him another copy.This method was tried and tested again and again, and both Matthew and Alfred escaped with a smile.They are not greedy for petty gains, they are just for fun.

Then it happened in November when I was 12, a month before the big game, Alfred was suddenly suspended.It happened suddenly. It is said that someone refused to admit defeat and reported Alfred. Regardless of whether there is evidence or not, the power of the other party is enough to ruin Alfred's reputation. Arthur persuaded Alfred not to fight back, but this is In Alfred's last competition in elementary school, he was finally promoted to the captain and wanted to be the first in the competition. Of course, things couldn't be let go.Matthew didn't know much about the actions Arthur had taken. He only knew that they were all in vain, and continuing forcibly would only put Arthur at a disadvantage.

When everyone was overwhelmed, Matthew remained silent.He could see clearly than anyone else that Alfred could no longer compete, but how should this unjust anger be put to rest?Maybe he should do something, secretly.

Famous people in history are often defeated by unknown people, and this is the beginning of honor.The report is not anonymous, and the other party intends to be provocative. Matthew and Steve took the bus to the other side of the city to find the man on the weekend. The other party thought he was Alfred. Matthew gave the other party a videotape, which read He and Alfred practiced in the morning. The other party looked at it for a while, and then invited Matthew to a double curling game. Matthew came here for this. He even brought the hockey stick. parents mistakenly thought that they were going to mess things up.

Although Matthew was just a training partner, people underestimated his ability too much. It wasn't that he couldn't make it to the school team, but he just refused because he didn't want to make mistakes and drag others down.It was the first time he played curling with others, and he realized that he was so agile when he could barely keep up with Alfred, so Alfred's strength can be imagined.The opponent is willing to bow down.

The kid didn’t mean anything malicious, and the other party explained that he was just not convinced why the ball kept running towards Alfred. He apologized, but Matthew refused to accept it. Instead, he bowed and apologized, saying, “I’m sorry, I’m not Alfred. De, my name is Matthew Williams, I'm just his sparring partner." And he walked away under the stunned eyes of the other party.This is simply the most beautiful moment in his life, but everything is for Alfred, he will not know what Matthew has done for him, Matthew is willing to do so.

Steve said, "There are some things only you can do."

After a lot of tossing, Alfred's game was still in vain. What he didn't understand the most was why the bad guy who reported him suddenly graciously appealed for him, and they even became friends in the end.Thinking of what he had done, Matthew couldn't help but hid under the covers and laughed, but Steve said: "If you have the energy to help him, why don't you help yourself?"

"Because I have you." Matthew rolled happily on the bed with Steve in his arms.They made a deal that no matter what happens, Steve will be with him forever—

If Alfred hadn't said that.

In the morning, all the luggage had been packed, Gilbert hugged each of them vigorously, Honda Ju was extremely shy, Feliciano raised his feet to kiss his cheek, Ludwig solemnly The ring he gave was worn on the index finger of his left hand.Ivan wrote a long letter and entrusted it to Natasha, the contents of which no one but he knew.Arthur was driving today. He counted all the things first, and then grabbed people back to the car one by one all over the yard. He also found a chick from Francis' pocket, and Francis burst into tears on the spot.Sure enough, Wang Yao got a car and drove it by himself, but for some reason Matthew ran into his car, while Alfred huddled behind Arthur's car and fiddled with the camera. Arthur thought they might have a little quarrel , leave it alone and they will reconcile naturally.

"Welcome to 'Shenzhou'." Wang Yao jokingly handed Matthew and Ivan a pile of vomiting bags, and Ivan had already prepared the blindfold, pillow and blanket.Matthew couldn't help but glanced at the other car through the car window, mentally feeling that he and Alfred were looking at each other, and turned his head uncomfortably.Wang Yao stepped on the accelerator and said very professionally: "Call me if you don't feel well."

The three cars set off in a single file, across the city. "Carnival of Fools" and "Rocket Parade" had previously reached an agreement and decided to continue to act together until they found the plane.The square in the city center was very lively, they stopped the car to have a look, it turned out that someone was holding a wedding, decorated with colorful fake flowers everywhere, the disabled bride and groom helped each other to walk the long red carpet, in front of everyone Watching the exchange of rings, the children of the orphanage stood neatly on the steps and sang in a chorus, and the grey-haired old man burst into tears.The time for farewell has long passed, Wang Yao did not roll down the car window, he hid in the car to watch over his children.

At the same time, Matthew noticed a bright red, which was Meg standing on the periphery of the crowd. She raised her feet and clasped her hands, looking so yearning for happiness.The bride was about to throw bouquets, the crowd was commotion, the girls especially raised their hands excitedly, Alfred wanted to get out of the car to join in the fun, but Arthur and Francis tacitly grabbed his arms from left to right and turned back Tuo, said in unison: "The lucky ones are not allowed to steal other people's luck!"

The bouquet of pink roses flew high, drawing a graceful arc in the air, causing countless people to scream enviously.Matthew quickly looked back, and heard Ivan whisper: "I dreamed yesterday that a girl in red caught it."

After a while, the screams of the crowd died down, and the convoy embarked on a journey amidst salutes and singing.Matthew closed his eyes, and seemed to see Meg holding a rose of the same color as her cheek with joy, she was like an angel.The more he thought about it, the more out of breath Matthew felt, the more he felt pain somewhere in his heart, as if a piece was missing.He looked up out of the window and saw Alfred on the opposite side open the window, and Alfred knew he was looking there.Alfred made a gesture only they could understand: I love you.

At that moment, Matthew forgave Alfred for finding fault with him last night.

The convoy went north along the coast, the roadside was surrounded by mountains, the forests were getting denser, the grass was lush, and a group of geese passed by in the sky, Arthur had to pay attention to whether there would be any animal popping out of the road suddenly.Francis was playing with the whack-a-mole machine given by Gilbert. Alfred flipped through Matthew's "A Tale of Two Cities" when he was free. Said: "It's a shame that Matthew can see this kind of thing."

"This is the difference between people." Arthur rolled his eyes.Alfred leaned against the car door with a thoughtful expression: "Let me tell you, do you know what Matthew's mysterious notebook is?"

"Who knows, it should be a diary." Francis guessed.Alfred held his head and kept silent for a rare time. He breathed out on the car window, drew two stick figures in the white mist, and then stretched out his hand to erase them. After thinking for a while, he finally drew a looming stickman. Butterfly, Matthew once told him that the ancient Greeks believed that the soul of a person is a butterfly, and the real self will emerge from the cocoon only after the body dies.Alfred kept his hand on the window, and through the glass, in the opposite window was Matthew.

Matthew took out his notepad and discovered something new: You may not know anything about a person despite living together for more than ten years. ——S·W

This sentence stung Matthew. He knew that he had lied a lot and concealed a lot of things, but most of them were not for himself. Even so, he was not sure if he was right.Ivan unpacked a packet of biscuits and gave each to Matthew and Wang Yao. Wang Yao chewed the food and said inarticulately: "So what... it just so happens that you two are here, this opportunity is not lost, and we will Come have a patient seminar."

"Study cough... yes?" Matthew almost choked to death.Wang Yao said firmly: "Self-service is also required for medical treatment. It's just right, starting from Matthew, please tell me if you have any discomfort recently?" In the Chinese song "Evening Fragrance", Wang Yao's understanding and unquestionable eyes stayed on Matthew. Matthew was trapped in the elegant singing and had nowhere to escape. He took off his shoes and sat cross-legged on the sofa and sighed: "...know I said yes. I accidentally fell into a pit in an earthquake before, and it became transparent once, and I often think about things in my childhood and get distracted... That's all."

"Don't fool me, just find something about your childhood." "Okay... Alfred and I separated after we were born, he was with my father, I was with my mother, and my mother disappeared when I was four years old Alfred was there and I knew he was my brother the first time I saw him, and he was shocked. We started living together, and my father drank a lot, but he didn't beat us. Beating the women who brought them home, we were locked in the utility room or thrown out of the house, and Alfred took my hand and went nearby to buy ice cream, the money was picked up from the floor of the house. Then my father disappeared."

"Do you miss them?" Wang Yao asked, and Matthew shook his head.Ivan put his fist in front of his mouth, and his eyes moved back and forth between Matthew and Wang Yao quietly, looking innocent, but Wang Yao's cold voice sounded immediately: "Next, Ivan." Ivan also crossed his legs and hugged the pillow and said: "...There is nothing else but meeting Nata. Please don't force me..." Ivan was rarely resigned.

"Well, continue." Wang Yao didn't intend to let Ivan go easily.Ivan had no choice but to continue: "I used to like to eat Piccologi, the kind with mayonnaise in it, but this kind of dish will never appear in the nursing home. I tried to sneak into the kitchen to see what they used to make it. I drank such an unpalatable meal, and then I drank vodka for the first time when I was eight years old, and when I woke up, I found that I had been lying in the toilet for a whole day, and no one noticed." Matthew laughed "poof" When he came out, his eyes were narrowed, and he said "sorry" sincerely.Wang Yao showed a satisfied smile: "That's right, tell everyone happy." Ivan couldn't help thinking: Is this person a devil...

"In the next round, you are not allowed to tell jokes and play side-balls. I am very strict." Wang Yao said solemnly, "Next is me. In the 90s, I was in Las Vegas. When helping the association to collect funds there, I found the most destructive alien as far as I know. Generally speaking, aliens with destructive power are extremely rare, and that person was restrained by us as a dangerous person. According to our Test, his intuitive ability is to make the things he touches vibrate, so as to achieve the purpose of destruction, he can destroy granite with just one finger. At the same time, he also shows a typical alien mental illness-depression , paranoia, split personality, etc. It took me half a year to establish communication with him, but fortunately he has no tendency to attack. This is only a physical ability, and the spiritual ability is more complicated. Because of the ability to go berserk and become a vegetative or even dead example everywhere."

Matthew fell silent, and Wang Yao continued: "From then on, I found that all powerful aliens will have psychological problems, no matter whether the person's life is happy or not—of course most of them are unhappy—so ordinary people treat us with dissatisfaction. Trust is justified. I hope that through science, this situation can be changed. Yiren must begin to pay attention to their mental state and accept formal regulation." The atmosphere in the entire carriage became gloomy, and Wang Yao smiled: "Why? Already? I'm done, Matthew, go ahead."

Matthew curled his lips, he always felt that Wang Yao just wanted to hear gossip: "We were later adopted by Arthur's aunt. To be honest, it was not a very pleasant experience. At that time, I almost did all the work that all the children in Chicago did. All the time, Alfred was always missing work, so I smuggled the broccoli for dinner onto his plate." Matthew laughed, and it was Ivan again:

"I used to try to murder my maniac next door because he was always making noise in the middle of the night dressed as a werewolf. I planned to put rat poison in his tea, but failed, and then I thought about pushing him when I was older Go downstairs..." Ivan only showed a pair of eyes from under the pillow, looking terrified.After discussing like this for most of the day, the topic became more and more deviated, but the smiles on the faces of the three became more and more.As the sky darkened, they parked the car and planned to make do with the night in the car. Alfred opened the sunroof and shouted angrily: "Why don't you sleep, get up and look at the stars!"

Everyone else opened the skylight and looked up. The starry sky in the wilderness was as bright as ever, and the same was true for the creatures on the earth hundreds of millions of years ago.Alfred stretched in the cold wind: "Since I'm here, maybe there will be shooting stars tonight!"

"Stop putting gold on your face." Arthur threw a clean coat to Alfred.Alfred stepped on the sofa and yelled ambitiously: "Wait, I will go to the moon one day!" Feliciano not far away waved excitedly: "Take me, take me!" take me..."

"It's really noisy." Ivan commented, he just wanted to enjoy it quietly.Matthew stared intently at Alfred who climbed onto the roof of the car. His dark back merged with the night sky, as if he was about to ride the wind back to the moon in the next moment. From the very beginning, Matthew noticed that he was An unusually exuberant vitality, as if he took away part of the vitality from Matthew, but I don't know how to explain it, Matthew fell in love with him the first time he saw him, maybe earlier, they were still lying in the womb This inseparable feeling is doomed when you fall asleep in the middle of the night.It is said that twins are the same soul split in two, and Matthew is more inclined to think that although they are two souls, they will eventually be united.The image of Alfred raising his hands high and flying high in the darkness was branded in Matthew's eyes.

Matthew knows nothing about the world, he only knows that they are in love.