On this day, Meng Qinghan was helping Zhou Min find a suitable variety show. Sun Tezhu said that the company had many marketing plans after filming criminal investigation dramas, but they were all with Zhong Yisheng.
Meng Qinghan specifically called Zhong Yisheng and went to the office to look for him.
In recent years, the company has not filmed criminal investigation dramas, so the planning cases are all overwhelmed.
It took Meng Qinghan a long time to find the outdated planning documents from the basket of documents under the bookshelf.
She dragged the basket directly to the edge of the sofa to watch.
Maybe it's because her time is too full every day, Meng Qinghan didn't expect that several years have passed since the last criminal investigation drama.
It is also reasonable for these plans to be thrown away to eat ashes, without any reference value.
But she found something else in the basket.
A pile of unsent letters.
Meng Qinghan originally thought it was some kind of commercial information, if it was full of expired stuff, then it doesn't matter if she read it.
She sent Zhong Yisheng a message:
[Be a good Meng: Can I take a look at this? 】
She took a picture and sent it.
Soon, Zhong Yisheng replied: 【Yes. 】
Meng Qinghan sent an emoticon package and began to open the envelope.
Not in a commercial format.
Ordinary letters written with a fountain pen.
Ink blots dry.
When Meng Qinghan saw the sharp writing, his heart was suddenly swallowed by scalding fire.
She paused.
The letters were organized by date, and she read them one by one.
Sunny on XX, XX, 2010
Going to high school.
without you.
XX, XX, 2010
My aunt watched a movie today and saw her cry for the first time.
"Covered Bridge"
Such definite love comes only once in a lifetime.
I'm sorry I couldn't hold back to look at you, you are in the shade, the leaves filter the brightest light on you.
Such definite love comes only once in a lifetime.
XX, XX, 2010
Go over the wall to watch your school's sports meeting.
You are running 2000 meters.
As long as I'm the one who brings you the water.
When she was in high school, Meng Qinghan loved to participate in sports. She couldn't stay idle and found time to exercise every day.
The only thing that can make her useful is the sports meeting.
On a clear day, all the teachers and students of the school participated in the opening ceremony in the playground.
Meng Qinghan heard that the school planned to lock the school gate, because not long ago the school next door sneaked in, and I don't know what the purpose is.
The deskmate said: "If it's a man, it's for the beauty. But it's a girl! She's so beautiful, and she studies very well! It's reasonable to suspect that she's an undercover agent sent by the next door. Think about it, that girl is harmless to humans and animals. It is impossible to have the heart to drive her out, if she copied back our school's management model, then the school next door will surpass us in the next exam."
Meng Qinghan didn't think so.
The school went crazy for a few days, but in the end they didn't catch the trouble in the school next door, so the sports meeting finally decided not to lock the school gate to facilitate the entry and exit of teachers and students.
When running two thousand, Meng Qinghan was almost the best.
Few people in the school can outrun her.
After the run, everyone watched her perform a professional stretching exercise, and the stretcher she had prepared was useless.
After stretching, she moved her legs appropriately and took the water given by her classmates.
At that moment, she was startled by an extremely strong gaze falling on herself.
But looking around, he couldn't find the owner of this line of sight.
On the first day after the end of the sports meeting, Meng Qinghan also joined in.
[The beautiful girl from the school next door is also here, is she an undercover agent! ! ! 】
[According to reliable sources, no! 】
[Could it be that she has a crush on the boys in our school? 】
[Come on, the quality of boys in their school is much better than ours. 】
Meng Qinghan then analyzed a few words, and after chemistry class, she quit the gossip center and listened attentively.
It seems that since then, everyone has regarded Christmas Eve as a big holiday.
This night is the day of couples spreading dog food.
Numerous underground romances were exposed that night.
Meng Qinghan heard a lot of gossip at the same table, the school committee and the sports committee got together, whoever confessed was rejected, a certain teacher got together with the students.
Not only that, but the deskmate also discovered news from other schools.
"The beauty student who came to our school for the sports meeting, I heard that she piled up a table with presents, and she received enough chocolates for the whole class to share."
Meng Qinghan just went to listen to gossip as a passerby, but for some reason, she felt a tingle in her heart.
XX, XX, 2012
Today is the municipal examination, you are in the examination room next door, I saw you.
I haven't recovered from my cold recently. I want to follow you, but I'm afraid of infecting you with the cold.
I wore a mask and hat and no one could recognize me.But you don't know me now, even if I stand in front of you, you won't recognize me.
Came out of the examination room and bumped into you.
you see me.
I was very nervous. After going downstairs... I looked back and found that you were on the second floor. Did you see me?
heard a word today.
I'm the ghost on the street and you're the one who smells me.
Hope you're looking at me, but don't.
I am afraid that you will recognize me, and I am afraid that you will not recognize me.
XX, XX, 2012
The municipal examination results came out, and our names were next to each other.
This is the closest I've ever been to you.
Today my aunt said she was going to worship gods and Buddhas, but I didn't want to go.
You are so good, but no one is willing to give you a stable life.
I want to, but I can't.
There are girls at school who use strokes in their names to count marriages, and I secretly counted us.
——The end of all hardships is rewarding.
can you?
I will.
Sunny day on XX, XX, XX
The college entrance examination tomorrow.
You rented a house near the examination room, and I'm right across from you.
I can see your busy figure.
My aunt said if I was thinking about someone, I didn't know how to tell her, I tried my best to express myself, but none of them could compare to looking at you.
I just discovered today that a look from you can resolve countless worries in my heart.
My aunt said, then go to the same university as her.
My aunt wants me to be a child, but I don't want to be a child, that's too helpless, I want to give you a lot.
In previous years, it would rain in the college entrance examination, but not this year.I saw you walking out of the examination room with your friends, and wanted to follow, but I didn't dare, for fear of scaring you.
Nan Zhuo persuaded me that we can't be together now because you care about me very much.
I used this sentence several times to comfort myself, and it seemed to work.
It would be great if I could have a photo with you.
I keep the little photo you gave me in my photo album. It’s not that I don’t want to carry it with me, but I’m afraid that I’ll accidentally lose it when I take it out. It’s equivalent to killing me half my life.
Xue Ci said that you saved me hundreds of dollars.
Her original words are as follows: Sister Han is afraid that you will be laughed at, so it is not enough to only have three meals a day.
She said, it was as if I had gone to Beijing to rush for an exam.
I rarely regret anything, but now I know that leaving Shexi was the worst thing I did.
Shouldn't have done that.
If only I stayed with you.
I don't need any wealth, I don't need any higher education.
I just want to be with you.
XX XX XX
You chose Qingda.
Xueci shares a bedroom with you.
I went to school with her, double bought everything, and helped you take care of everything.
XX XX XX
You go to the library.
I'll be waiting for you at the door.
Just take a look from afar.
XX XX XX
Xue Ci said that you went to the housekeeper's aunt and got the key to help her open the door.
I envy her one more thing.
She can live in the opposite bed with you, she can see you every day, and she is still being taken care of by you.
The sweet-scented osmanthus in your school is blooming really well.
If possible, turning into petals, turning into leaves, and falling on the road you pass by is also a kind of reunion.
XX, XX, XX, sleet
Your birthday is coming soon.
Xue Ci said that you like Miss, I found a lot of Miss jewelry and clothes, picked the one that suits you the most, and let Xue Ci put it on your table.
If, if, if you can feel my presence... No, no, my first wish must be that Sister Han is in good health.
It's a good day, and I shouldn't bring up the past, but I probably won't be able to send this letter, so I'm here to talk to you about the BUG.
Nan Zhuo came to me again and said that the bug was trying to restore your memory.
I've always hated those high-ranking controllers.
They make it impossible for you to see the BUG, I thought about it, you should be best friends.
Fate is so wonderful, you have never even looked into each other's eyes, which means you have never known each other, but she has been following you, and you have become her.
Nan Zhuo said, she was born by the sea, her grandfather was a fisherman, she is very good at water, since she can save you, she shouldn't be washed away by the water.
She didn't want to live because she had no one to depend on.
If I hadn't met you, I would probably die too.
Nan Zhuo showed me BUG's diary, and I excerpted a bit, just for you to read:
[When I was young, I thought that adults have deep truths, so that I wanted to become a good person without education, and at the same time wanted to decorate myself with fairy tales about spoiled daughters.But when I became an adult, I suddenly felt that other people's likes and dislikes had already determined my life, and what I lost was nothing to lose.This is the price of my natural stupidity.Wisdom has always been rare, but God is stingy and never gave me any.
In the ghetto, the millionaire is as guilty as the girl who dreams of a gown.
If I see myself now as a child, that ugly girl with nothing, ignorance, and filth, a poor wretch that no one cares about, I won't like her, let alone be friendly to her.
So I forgive the boy who hit my forehead with a stick when I was young, which caused my forehead to grow on one side and smaller on the other. I forgive the adults who slandered me for stealing and compared me to a beast. I forgive all the bullying I received because I wore a skirt in the third grade. Ling, forgive my tablemate for beating me with a stool, forgive the homeroom teacher who ignored it, forgive the male student who molested girls on the only way to the toilet after class, forgive the constant criticism and disgust, forgive 'him How not to bully others' fallacy, forgive the people I hate and the people I love for bullying me.Since then, after dissecting my spirit, I have formally reconciled with myself and live a new life with new people. 】
This is the diary she wrote after she was kidnapped.
I think of a sentence, every writer has an unfortunate childhood.
I saw her injured muscles and bones from her words.
She is a good girl.
XX XX XX
Make up the girl's diary.
[I am somewhat famous in the village.
At that time, there was no wave of divorce, but my mother was mentally ill, and my father divorced her.
As a woman, I love my mother.
But as a mother, she is really not qualified.
She doesn't like me because I wasn't pretty when I was a kid.
Of course, this unsightly appearance does not mean that it is ugly, but that it is dirty and messy.
Probably so.
The children in our village all take a bath once a week, we play in the mud together every day, we are all the same people.
But mom and dad are in big cities, they love to be clean and take a bath once a day.
Every time they go home, grandparents will clean up the house in silence.
This is not a reunion, this is a health bureau inspection.
I am not human inside and out.
I love cleanliness too much, and my children and friends will hate me, because it is not recommended to take a bath once a day in our village.
I don't like cleanliness, my relatives don't love me and despise me.
I was caught in the middle, and even a piece of grass had to laugh at me.
In the second grade, several village primary schools jointly held June [-]st in the next village.
Mom gave my sister a few dollars and asked her to watch the excitement.
I'm still a performer.
Unfortunately, I suffered from heatstroke, and I didn't even have money to buy water. My mouth was so dry that I wanted to drink my own blood.When I recalled this incident later, I was even more convinced that I was actually a good person, because many people would make the opposite decision at this time. When they were thirsty, they would just grab other people’s water or drink from others. of blood.I am still a good person.
At that time, there was an elderly teacher in the village school. Seeing that I couldn't hold on, he asked a bullock cart to take me home.
On the way back, all I could think about was that I could drink water and sleep.
But the truth is, I was blocked at the door of my house.
Mom and Dad asked me with ferocious faces, why my sister hasn't come back yet, she is a child who grew up in the city and is not familiar with this kind of remote countryside, why didn't I bring her back together, what should I do if something happens.
I don't remember being dizzy that day. I just remember being blocked by my parents at the gate. Two middle-aged people wanted to dig into my brain and questioned me, where did my sister go, and why didn't I come back with my sister.
I didn't feel anything at the time. I don't know if it was because of the values rooted in my heart since I was a child, I felt that the elders could inflict violence on the younger generations wantonly, or the illness took all my attention.
Later, how did I know that this incident was more like violence? It was because when I recalled it afterwards, I found that the spectators on that day included not only people from our village, but also people from neighboring villages. Everyone was on a hill near their home. Looking up here, watching this unnameable scene.
My grandfather is still alive, but everything in the family is decided by the second son, who is my father.
Therefore, grandpa and grandma stood under the willow tree outside the door and watched me being treated like that. There is no irony here, but just stating the facts.
They must not have noticed I was suffering from heat stroke.
There are so many people watching the fun all around.
And I am the protagonist of the big scene.
After that, the old teacher cried to others, saying that if he was there at that time, he would definitely teach my dad to be a man.I am grateful for his kindness, because I can't imagine that people will cry for me after I die, and I am touched when people cry for me before I die.
But at that time, my family restricted my thoughts, thinking that I was not good, that I was too bad, so I blamed myself for several years.
Occasionally I bring this up and ask my relatives to help me get justice.
but,
The thing they ask me the most is how do you remember that.I thought they were going to teach me to be open-minded, but I didn't know that this was the most deceitful lie I had ever seen in my life.Just because the perpetrator will always pass the blame, and when you mention it, it will definitely accuse you of being a small belly.
The more realistic reason is that the reason why my relatives are my relatives is because I am a child born to my father. They are related to my father first and then to me.
I was young at the time, and I couldn't figure out the priority. When I proposed to seek justice from my parents, I was violently rejected.
They were violent against me so much that I even took it for granted. At that time, I thought that all the children in the world were as pitiful as me.
So when I see kids I just want to give them a hug, and of course if I have marshmallows, I give them a marshmallow each.
A few years later, my grandfather passed away, and my father took my younger brother home to attend the funeral.
My brother loves to play, I took him to my cousin’s house to play, he liked my cousin even more, so he didn’t want to go home with me. I liked it, so I went home alone, and decided that my brother was not so stupid that he couldn't find the way home. After all, even a three-year-old baby would know how to walk from my cousin's house to my house.
But after I went back, my father and the uncle who always claimed to treat me like his own son blocked me out. The same place and the same scene happened a second time, this time asking me where I left my brother .
From that day on, I seemed to understand a little bit about my situation.
I still remember that before my grandfather died, he didn’t recognize anyone as if he had lost his memory. He curled up on the kang head alone, surrounded by many relatives, and then those relatives volunteered to ask grandpa who they were and did they recognize them?
I don't quite remember what Grandpa said, whether I do or don't, because my memory is overwhelmed by the next thing.
The cousin of my second aunt's family pulled me over, and asked my grandfather whether she recognized this person with a smile. At that time, my grandfather had a little gas in his nose, and then said in a tone of contempt or disgust: This is that bastard. How can I not recognize it.
After I heard it, I was so ashamed and angry that I was lying on the pit with my upper body in a posture of a junior begging for love, but my face was already buried in my arms and weeping secretly.
Then raised his face, everyone has already changed the topic.I ran to the bathroom and cried for a while, and my cousin came to see me again. She might think that I was wronged, but I didn’t feel anything at that time. When I was young, I could accept everything, but I couldn’t accept parting. It was this cousin. , I just started to learn English when I was in the third grade, maybe I was stupid, I didn't understand when she taught me the topic, and then she slapped me in the face, but I still didn't feel anything, even took it for granted, it was me Stupid, I don't understand this topic, she hit me for granted.
She left my house that night, and I missed her, so I cried while watching the law lecture.
I wrote it like this, looked at it with the eyes of a bystander, and I can roughly analyze it. If my family can solve the problem in the way of novel conception, then I am the cannon fodder who promotes the development of the story. A girl born out of Shen was raised by her grandparents, paving the way for the following storylines. In short, I was never the protagonist, so the joy, anger, sorrow and joy are so indifferent.
Later, I gradually understood and began to think about myself, so I cared about those injuries. I remember my grandma told me not to blame my father, because someone wanted to adopt me back then, but my father did not agree. My father bought a train ticket. When I asked her and my grandfather to take me back to the Northwest, he bought a standing ticket. I stood there for days and nights, and when I saw an empty seat, I hurried over to sit for a while. She felt that my father had paid a lot for me.
Once again I am persuaded.
Yes, my father could have given me away. My original destiny was to be the second daughter born in a patriarchal family. The basic setting was to give away and live a life of scantily clad, but my My father didn't do that, he just didn't love me, he didn't treat me as a junior, what did he do wrong, can I reprimand him from a modern point of view, saying that if he doesn't want to raise, he shouldn't have children?He didn't want to have a baby, he just wanted a boy, and I was just an accident that shouldn't have happened.
I can't blame it.
I have no reason.
I believe that I will never get an apology until I die.
Because no one will feel indebted to me.
I can remember very little.
But recently, I suddenly remembered someone.
In the ten years before my life, my family has always lived in an old house. It is said that my grandfather bought it at a low price. It is windy and rainy.
There is only one room in the house where people can live. Before I was five years old, I lived with my grandparents. After watching the news at night, I watched CCTV TV series. I have forgotten the specific series.
Once, the children in our village were playing together at the lotus pond. It had just rained, and the soil on the ground was so soft that as long as you continued to pat it with the right force, it would become the tender skin of a beautiful woman.
During the play, an older playmate began to guide us, instructing us to make houses and toilets, people and animals. Everyone laughed and laughed, and everything seemed beautiful.
After three o'clock in the afternoon, I felt hungry, so I went home and took some cakes to eat, but I felt that it was too dry to eat, so I crushed them and put them in the pocket of instant noodles. happiness.
Going back to the fun scene, my playmate asked me for instant noodles. You may not understand, but we all regarded instant noodles as a delicacy like Kobe beef at that time.
I felt a little ashamed, because my family was really poor, and it wasn't instant noodles.
But I told him straight up.
He didn't believe it, and he began to insult me, saying that I was stingy, and I had no choice but to take out the leftovers from home and give him the leftovers. I can tolerate everything else about me, but he actually said something about my grandpa and me. She said that I slept with my grandparents, and my grandpa would do that to me and I would do that to my grandpa.
I didn't have access to sex education at all at the time, and I didn't know what he meant, but it still shocked me. His words made me feel ashamed, and I couldn't face the men in my family anymore.
My grandfather, my uncle, my father and my younger brother.
I don't know why he said that, whether he said that to everyone or just me, but he hurt me because my grandpa was a sacred being in my heart, he was knowledgeable but silent, he would use Protect me in his own way, although he may resent and worry about me who has nothing to do before he dies.
I feel cruel.
When I started school and learned a little bit about the world, I fantasized that I would also see a sincere, poor, dirty girl like me in that day. It was impossible for me to ask her for anything or say such ugly words. Some people Thoughts are designed for martyrdom. Maybe one bad word can be answered by another bad word for others, but for me, that is not possible.
Why can he do such a thing, how could he have the heart to do such a thing to me.
He was out of school when I started school.
I met him once, and asked him why he scolded me so much at that time.
He said he scolded casually, everyone usually scolds people like that, but he actually asked me, why do I care so much?Is it true.
No matter how much I showed compassion, I still couldn't forgive.
He can't understand, no one can understand the malice I received when I heard that.
I have never told anyone about this matter, and have been silently seeking a solution.Once I read a Buddhist book and said that as long as I don’t have anything in my heart, his words won’t work.
I was thinking that this was definitely compiled by the Buddhists for self-consistency. The author should indicate that the reader must be XX or older and have read XX Buddhist scriptures to be serious.
I have not yet received an education. I am curious by nature and think by nature. I don’t know what is right or wrong. He guided me like that. If I don’t feel shame or hate, I can only go on the road of crime.
But a person like him has a happy family.
The only regret is that he didn't read, but he can say such vicious words to me, how can he still read?Civilization and barbarism have always run counter to each other, haven't they?
I've suffered some shame because I didn't have parents, not an exaggeration, if people with modern values think it's not rude for a few boys to take off another boy's pants and mine and run away after school at noon.
I remember the boy's shy and embarrassed expression at that time, and the numbness in his eyes that was used to being bullied stung me.
Later, I once wanted to escape the place where I lived for more than ten years, but God somehow misinterpreted my meaning and caused me to be trafficked.
The escape I imagined was to go to university, but the escape that God bestowed on me was to let me be trafficked.
The incident of being abducted has long been foreshadowed.
When I didn’t know how old I was, a sand truck passed by my house. I was brushing flowers and butterflies in the grass garden. The driver stopped the car and ran towards me. I ran away, and realized later that it was a human trafficker.If I didn't realize the crisis that day, I don't know what my life will be like in the future.
But I don't think it's too bad.
I went to a friend's house to learn how to ride a bicycle, and accidentally fell off the asphalt road. I thought I would fall into a cliff, but was saved by a tree pit.I pushed the adult bicycle up and saw a thin layer of fog at the bottom of the cliff. What if life came to an end then?
I am so lucky, there seems to be someone guarding me in the dark, and I am usually safe and sound when I should be killed.
But luck always runs out.
I was trafficked.
I can't remember how it happened, it seems to be a rainy night.
During that time, there were chicken thieves in the village, and chickens from many families were stolen.
My grandma and I plan to protect our chickens.
No one thought that stealing the chicken was just a cover, and the traffickers just came here to work because the mountains were high and the water was far away.
They probed every household and singled out me.
I was captured.
Fortunately, the chicken was unharmed.
I don't think my family will be saddened by the fact that I was arrested. Blood relationship is too metaphysical.
It was only after I read ancient novels that I realized the importance of the word "favored". I am a junior who is not favored, so of course other relatives will not stand by my side.
After being sent to Meng's house, I received unprecedented preferential treatment.
If others know my thoughts, they will probably criticize me, but I can only state the facts. No one cares about what I want to eat, let alone whether I am sick or not.
Although I know that Meng Ke cares about me just to hurt me doubly.
I seem to be living in a place where oxygen is scarce, and I can't breathe every day.
I actually feel like a trafficker who cares about me.
How pitiful I must be, how lacking in love.
Who the hell am I.
As far as I know, my parents didn't look for me.
If I hadn't been trafficked, I should be in fifth grade.
After reading the news, my hometown was calm and there was no report.
I was so forgotten.
Sometimes I think, if this kidnapping came earlier, then I would not remember the past and suffer double damage.
I hate textbooks, I hate fairy tales.
Why so much emphasis on parental love.
Is it because most parents are so great that the less great parents are reported?
Has anyone ever thought about this matter? When these deep-rooted thoughts are planted in a child's mind, how much courage will she have to admit that she is not loved in the future?
How hurt it must have been for her to have the courage to refute what was printed in a book!
If 'education' is only for educating those who have a lot of love from birth, they can kill me directly.
I have every reason to suspect that there is an element of flattery in textbooks glorifying parents.
Meng Ke gave me a lot of skirts, and he would let countless bodyguards follow me when I went out, but those bodyguards seemed to be invisible, anyway, as long as I didn't run away, they wouldn't come out.
Once at the mall, a boy whistled at me.
Before I could react, the boy had already been knocked to the ground by the bodyguard.
I actually... actually felt a sense of security.
Is it wrong or right for me to be a private property?
Without Meng Ke, I would have been arrested and trained in the clubhouse, and I would have become an item that millions of people could have.
I actually started to appreciate him.
But buying and selling are the same crime!
Retaining the last sliver of sanity, I began to analyze my life.
If I hadn't been kidnapped...
I am not superior in intelligence, and I am not valued at home. I am about the same as the girls in the same village. After finishing junior high school, I was arrested and sold for money to marry and have children.Isn't this another kind of trafficking?
yes?
These questions have troubled me for a long time.
Until I knew Meng Ke's secret.
—He runs a trafficking syndicate.
I have little knowledge, and I don't know that a lot of data analysis tables and regional survey documents are needed for trafficking.
When the truth was presented to me, I was extremely shocked.
All the advanced technologies of the entire Meng family are designed for trafficking.
The scary thing is that many entrepreneurs who can be named are involved.
I often see them appearing in financial magazines, talking to reporters, saying that they want to make the domestic economy take off and let the people live a better life.
I suffered from insomnia for several days.
Fake, all fake.
Meng Ke didn't know that I already knew everything about him.
The way he looked at me was so gentle, he didn't feel that he could be my father at his age, and he treated me as his own property with peace of mind.
He was very good to me and never tortured me.
That's why I don't hate him for myself.
Every time he seemed to see another person through me, he was kind to me as if he was making up for something.
He told me that it was to make up for the ten years that I have not received love.
I do not believe.
He gave me a new name and I got used to it very quickly.
I often think, my life sucks, what about other trafficked people?
They could have been safe and sound.
I can't imagine a person being tortured by so many people.
I am more and more afraid of Meng Ke.
I thought about killing him, but this trafficking group is no longer run by him alone, and the network of relationships behind him is intricate.
It's not good if you act rashly.
I'll be in high school soon, so maybe I can take the opportunity to find some helpers.
Just now Meng Ke told me that he was going to Shexi to find someone and asked me to go with him.
This is the end of the diary, I can't take it away, I will be found out. 】
Meng Ke received news from your mother at the time, and he thought they could be reunited.
You know what happened next.
In fact, I am in the same category as her.
We are too similar.
I'm just luckier than her because I met you.
XX XX XX
Three days passed and I finally found you.
I have imagined countless scenes of meeting, but I did not expect this to be the case.
As long as you are there, everyone will be safe.
Everyone was sent to the hospital for examination, and you didn't remember the stab wound in your abdomen until the evening.
XX XX XX
You said, so you look like this.
We added WeChat.
Your first circle of friends is: Come and meet me.
You told me without hesitation that this sentence was meant for me.
Nanzhuo came to look for me again.
She seems less indifferent than before.
She said that she finally understood why BUG should protect you.
I don't think anyone will think bad of you.
XX XX XX
We almost kissed.
I haven't kissed you yet.
I remember when you were in junior high school, you helped me burn the stove, and we even slept in the same bed.
XX XX XX
Went to Shexi to buy sesame curd buns.
This is your favorite food.
I want to give you everything.
XX XX XX
You are starting to stay away from me.
The near-kissing scene that night was all the more unreal.
XX XX XX
Nan Zhuo said that the closer you are to me, the more uncomfortable you will be.
I dreamed of Shexi again.
In fact, I shouldn't always miss Shexi, you didn't have a good time in those days.
I wish you well.
XX XX XX
Our room was next door for the startup conference.
You come to me and tell me to run a film and television company.
Xueci said that you have been helping me.
I am very sad, I should have loved you, but I have received so much care from you.
XX XX XX
Meng's bottom digging is almost done.
want to find you.
XX XX XX
today is my birthday.
Just called vaguely.
She said that her sister wants to be safe every year.
Maybe it's because I miss you so much, even when I hear this sentence, your face will appear in front of my eyes.
She asked me if I met anyone tonight, and I wouldn't have told her normally, but I miss you so much, as if I could see you if I told her.
You definitely don't know, I vaguely saw your photo in my photo album.
She said you are so cute.
After twelve o'clock, my birthday is over.
repair:
I have something very important to tell you,
I love you, and my wish this year is still to wish you good health.
XX XX XX
Dinner today.
Both Xue Ci and Jiang Mi are there, your eyes never stop on me.
I should have been braver instead of seeing you disappear.
I have a hunch that this time we will be separated for a long time.
Many people in the restaurant know you.
repair:
You are too dazzling.
XX XX XX
I saw you and Zhong Yueming on the news.
Nanzhuo said that you are trying not to be controlled.
I hid at home and didn't go out for a long time, and I didn't deal with the company's affairs.
Xueci came to me, and she asked me if I knew Q of Hearts.
She showed me the bracelet.
The awareness of BUG can block the monitoring of the system.
Xueci said that all you think about is me.
XX XX XX
Meng Shi disappeared.
Not sure what you're going to do.
I want to keep you.
It's selfish, I know it.
Your thoughts are confused, Nan Zhuo said that the system is replacing your memory, and the person you love will become Zhong Yueming.
I don't know what to do anymore.
XX XX XX
Uncle Jiang called me today
Meng Qinghan specifically called Zhong Yisheng and went to the office to look for him.
In recent years, the company has not filmed criminal investigation dramas, so the planning cases are all overwhelmed.
It took Meng Qinghan a long time to find the outdated planning documents from the basket of documents under the bookshelf.
She dragged the basket directly to the edge of the sofa to watch.
Maybe it's because her time is too full every day, Meng Qinghan didn't expect that several years have passed since the last criminal investigation drama.
It is also reasonable for these plans to be thrown away to eat ashes, without any reference value.
But she found something else in the basket.
A pile of unsent letters.
Meng Qinghan originally thought it was some kind of commercial information, if it was full of expired stuff, then it doesn't matter if she read it.
She sent Zhong Yisheng a message:
[Be a good Meng: Can I take a look at this? 】
She took a picture and sent it.
Soon, Zhong Yisheng replied: 【Yes. 】
Meng Qinghan sent an emoticon package and began to open the envelope.
Not in a commercial format.
Ordinary letters written with a fountain pen.
Ink blots dry.
When Meng Qinghan saw the sharp writing, his heart was suddenly swallowed by scalding fire.
She paused.
The letters were organized by date, and she read them one by one.
Sunny on XX, XX, 2010
Going to high school.
without you.
XX, XX, 2010
My aunt watched a movie today and saw her cry for the first time.
"Covered Bridge"
Such definite love comes only once in a lifetime.
I'm sorry I couldn't hold back to look at you, you are in the shade, the leaves filter the brightest light on you.
Such definite love comes only once in a lifetime.
XX, XX, 2010
Go over the wall to watch your school's sports meeting.
You are running 2000 meters.
As long as I'm the one who brings you the water.
When she was in high school, Meng Qinghan loved to participate in sports. She couldn't stay idle and found time to exercise every day.
The only thing that can make her useful is the sports meeting.
On a clear day, all the teachers and students of the school participated in the opening ceremony in the playground.
Meng Qinghan heard that the school planned to lock the school gate, because not long ago the school next door sneaked in, and I don't know what the purpose is.
The deskmate said: "If it's a man, it's for the beauty. But it's a girl! She's so beautiful, and she studies very well! It's reasonable to suspect that she's an undercover agent sent by the next door. Think about it, that girl is harmless to humans and animals. It is impossible to have the heart to drive her out, if she copied back our school's management model, then the school next door will surpass us in the next exam."
Meng Qinghan didn't think so.
The school went crazy for a few days, but in the end they didn't catch the trouble in the school next door, so the sports meeting finally decided not to lock the school gate to facilitate the entry and exit of teachers and students.
When running two thousand, Meng Qinghan was almost the best.
Few people in the school can outrun her.
After the run, everyone watched her perform a professional stretching exercise, and the stretcher she had prepared was useless.
After stretching, she moved her legs appropriately and took the water given by her classmates.
At that moment, she was startled by an extremely strong gaze falling on herself.
But looking around, he couldn't find the owner of this line of sight.
On the first day after the end of the sports meeting, Meng Qinghan also joined in.
[The beautiful girl from the school next door is also here, is she an undercover agent! ! ! 】
[According to reliable sources, no! 】
[Could it be that she has a crush on the boys in our school? 】
[Come on, the quality of boys in their school is much better than ours. 】
Meng Qinghan then analyzed a few words, and after chemistry class, she quit the gossip center and listened attentively.
It seems that since then, everyone has regarded Christmas Eve as a big holiday.
This night is the day of couples spreading dog food.
Numerous underground romances were exposed that night.
Meng Qinghan heard a lot of gossip at the same table, the school committee and the sports committee got together, whoever confessed was rejected, a certain teacher got together with the students.
Not only that, but the deskmate also discovered news from other schools.
"The beauty student who came to our school for the sports meeting, I heard that she piled up a table with presents, and she received enough chocolates for the whole class to share."
Meng Qinghan just went to listen to gossip as a passerby, but for some reason, she felt a tingle in her heart.
XX, XX, 2012
Today is the municipal examination, you are in the examination room next door, I saw you.
I haven't recovered from my cold recently. I want to follow you, but I'm afraid of infecting you with the cold.
I wore a mask and hat and no one could recognize me.But you don't know me now, even if I stand in front of you, you won't recognize me.
Came out of the examination room and bumped into you.
you see me.
I was very nervous. After going downstairs... I looked back and found that you were on the second floor. Did you see me?
heard a word today.
I'm the ghost on the street and you're the one who smells me.
Hope you're looking at me, but don't.
I am afraid that you will recognize me, and I am afraid that you will not recognize me.
XX, XX, 2012
The municipal examination results came out, and our names were next to each other.
This is the closest I've ever been to you.
Today my aunt said she was going to worship gods and Buddhas, but I didn't want to go.
You are so good, but no one is willing to give you a stable life.
I want to, but I can't.
There are girls at school who use strokes in their names to count marriages, and I secretly counted us.
——The end of all hardships is rewarding.
can you?
I will.
Sunny day on XX, XX, XX
The college entrance examination tomorrow.
You rented a house near the examination room, and I'm right across from you.
I can see your busy figure.
My aunt said if I was thinking about someone, I didn't know how to tell her, I tried my best to express myself, but none of them could compare to looking at you.
I just discovered today that a look from you can resolve countless worries in my heart.
My aunt said, then go to the same university as her.
My aunt wants me to be a child, but I don't want to be a child, that's too helpless, I want to give you a lot.
In previous years, it would rain in the college entrance examination, but not this year.I saw you walking out of the examination room with your friends, and wanted to follow, but I didn't dare, for fear of scaring you.
Nan Zhuo persuaded me that we can't be together now because you care about me very much.
I used this sentence several times to comfort myself, and it seemed to work.
It would be great if I could have a photo with you.
I keep the little photo you gave me in my photo album. It’s not that I don’t want to carry it with me, but I’m afraid that I’ll accidentally lose it when I take it out. It’s equivalent to killing me half my life.
Xue Ci said that you saved me hundreds of dollars.
Her original words are as follows: Sister Han is afraid that you will be laughed at, so it is not enough to only have three meals a day.
She said, it was as if I had gone to Beijing to rush for an exam.
I rarely regret anything, but now I know that leaving Shexi was the worst thing I did.
Shouldn't have done that.
If only I stayed with you.
I don't need any wealth, I don't need any higher education.
I just want to be with you.
XX XX XX
You chose Qingda.
Xueci shares a bedroom with you.
I went to school with her, double bought everything, and helped you take care of everything.
XX XX XX
You go to the library.
I'll be waiting for you at the door.
Just take a look from afar.
XX XX XX
Xue Ci said that you went to the housekeeper's aunt and got the key to help her open the door.
I envy her one more thing.
She can live in the opposite bed with you, she can see you every day, and she is still being taken care of by you.
The sweet-scented osmanthus in your school is blooming really well.
If possible, turning into petals, turning into leaves, and falling on the road you pass by is also a kind of reunion.
XX, XX, XX, sleet
Your birthday is coming soon.
Xue Ci said that you like Miss, I found a lot of Miss jewelry and clothes, picked the one that suits you the most, and let Xue Ci put it on your table.
If, if, if you can feel my presence... No, no, my first wish must be that Sister Han is in good health.
It's a good day, and I shouldn't bring up the past, but I probably won't be able to send this letter, so I'm here to talk to you about the BUG.
Nan Zhuo came to me again and said that the bug was trying to restore your memory.
I've always hated those high-ranking controllers.
They make it impossible for you to see the BUG, I thought about it, you should be best friends.
Fate is so wonderful, you have never even looked into each other's eyes, which means you have never known each other, but she has been following you, and you have become her.
Nan Zhuo said, she was born by the sea, her grandfather was a fisherman, she is very good at water, since she can save you, she shouldn't be washed away by the water.
She didn't want to live because she had no one to depend on.
If I hadn't met you, I would probably die too.
Nan Zhuo showed me BUG's diary, and I excerpted a bit, just for you to read:
[When I was young, I thought that adults have deep truths, so that I wanted to become a good person without education, and at the same time wanted to decorate myself with fairy tales about spoiled daughters.But when I became an adult, I suddenly felt that other people's likes and dislikes had already determined my life, and what I lost was nothing to lose.This is the price of my natural stupidity.Wisdom has always been rare, but God is stingy and never gave me any.
In the ghetto, the millionaire is as guilty as the girl who dreams of a gown.
If I see myself now as a child, that ugly girl with nothing, ignorance, and filth, a poor wretch that no one cares about, I won't like her, let alone be friendly to her.
So I forgive the boy who hit my forehead with a stick when I was young, which caused my forehead to grow on one side and smaller on the other. I forgive the adults who slandered me for stealing and compared me to a beast. I forgive all the bullying I received because I wore a skirt in the third grade. Ling, forgive my tablemate for beating me with a stool, forgive the homeroom teacher who ignored it, forgive the male student who molested girls on the only way to the toilet after class, forgive the constant criticism and disgust, forgive 'him How not to bully others' fallacy, forgive the people I hate and the people I love for bullying me.Since then, after dissecting my spirit, I have formally reconciled with myself and live a new life with new people. 】
This is the diary she wrote after she was kidnapped.
I think of a sentence, every writer has an unfortunate childhood.
I saw her injured muscles and bones from her words.
She is a good girl.
XX XX XX
Make up the girl's diary.
[I am somewhat famous in the village.
At that time, there was no wave of divorce, but my mother was mentally ill, and my father divorced her.
As a woman, I love my mother.
But as a mother, she is really not qualified.
She doesn't like me because I wasn't pretty when I was a kid.
Of course, this unsightly appearance does not mean that it is ugly, but that it is dirty and messy.
Probably so.
The children in our village all take a bath once a week, we play in the mud together every day, we are all the same people.
But mom and dad are in big cities, they love to be clean and take a bath once a day.
Every time they go home, grandparents will clean up the house in silence.
This is not a reunion, this is a health bureau inspection.
I am not human inside and out.
I love cleanliness too much, and my children and friends will hate me, because it is not recommended to take a bath once a day in our village.
I don't like cleanliness, my relatives don't love me and despise me.
I was caught in the middle, and even a piece of grass had to laugh at me.
In the second grade, several village primary schools jointly held June [-]st in the next village.
Mom gave my sister a few dollars and asked her to watch the excitement.
I'm still a performer.
Unfortunately, I suffered from heatstroke, and I didn't even have money to buy water. My mouth was so dry that I wanted to drink my own blood.When I recalled this incident later, I was even more convinced that I was actually a good person, because many people would make the opposite decision at this time. When they were thirsty, they would just grab other people’s water or drink from others. of blood.I am still a good person.
At that time, there was an elderly teacher in the village school. Seeing that I couldn't hold on, he asked a bullock cart to take me home.
On the way back, all I could think about was that I could drink water and sleep.
But the truth is, I was blocked at the door of my house.
Mom and Dad asked me with ferocious faces, why my sister hasn't come back yet, she is a child who grew up in the city and is not familiar with this kind of remote countryside, why didn't I bring her back together, what should I do if something happens.
I don't remember being dizzy that day. I just remember being blocked by my parents at the gate. Two middle-aged people wanted to dig into my brain and questioned me, where did my sister go, and why didn't I come back with my sister.
I didn't feel anything at the time. I don't know if it was because of the values rooted in my heart since I was a child, I felt that the elders could inflict violence on the younger generations wantonly, or the illness took all my attention.
Later, how did I know that this incident was more like violence? It was because when I recalled it afterwards, I found that the spectators on that day included not only people from our village, but also people from neighboring villages. Everyone was on a hill near their home. Looking up here, watching this unnameable scene.
My grandfather is still alive, but everything in the family is decided by the second son, who is my father.
Therefore, grandpa and grandma stood under the willow tree outside the door and watched me being treated like that. There is no irony here, but just stating the facts.
They must not have noticed I was suffering from heat stroke.
There are so many people watching the fun all around.
And I am the protagonist of the big scene.
After that, the old teacher cried to others, saying that if he was there at that time, he would definitely teach my dad to be a man.I am grateful for his kindness, because I can't imagine that people will cry for me after I die, and I am touched when people cry for me before I die.
But at that time, my family restricted my thoughts, thinking that I was not good, that I was too bad, so I blamed myself for several years.
Occasionally I bring this up and ask my relatives to help me get justice.
but,
The thing they ask me the most is how do you remember that.I thought they were going to teach me to be open-minded, but I didn't know that this was the most deceitful lie I had ever seen in my life.Just because the perpetrator will always pass the blame, and when you mention it, it will definitely accuse you of being a small belly.
The more realistic reason is that the reason why my relatives are my relatives is because I am a child born to my father. They are related to my father first and then to me.
I was young at the time, and I couldn't figure out the priority. When I proposed to seek justice from my parents, I was violently rejected.
They were violent against me so much that I even took it for granted. At that time, I thought that all the children in the world were as pitiful as me.
So when I see kids I just want to give them a hug, and of course if I have marshmallows, I give them a marshmallow each.
A few years later, my grandfather passed away, and my father took my younger brother home to attend the funeral.
My brother loves to play, I took him to my cousin’s house to play, he liked my cousin even more, so he didn’t want to go home with me. I liked it, so I went home alone, and decided that my brother was not so stupid that he couldn't find the way home. After all, even a three-year-old baby would know how to walk from my cousin's house to my house.
But after I went back, my father and the uncle who always claimed to treat me like his own son blocked me out. The same place and the same scene happened a second time, this time asking me where I left my brother .
From that day on, I seemed to understand a little bit about my situation.
I still remember that before my grandfather died, he didn’t recognize anyone as if he had lost his memory. He curled up on the kang head alone, surrounded by many relatives, and then those relatives volunteered to ask grandpa who they were and did they recognize them?
I don't quite remember what Grandpa said, whether I do or don't, because my memory is overwhelmed by the next thing.
The cousin of my second aunt's family pulled me over, and asked my grandfather whether she recognized this person with a smile. At that time, my grandfather had a little gas in his nose, and then said in a tone of contempt or disgust: This is that bastard. How can I not recognize it.
After I heard it, I was so ashamed and angry that I was lying on the pit with my upper body in a posture of a junior begging for love, but my face was already buried in my arms and weeping secretly.
Then raised his face, everyone has already changed the topic.I ran to the bathroom and cried for a while, and my cousin came to see me again. She might think that I was wronged, but I didn’t feel anything at that time. When I was young, I could accept everything, but I couldn’t accept parting. It was this cousin. , I just started to learn English when I was in the third grade, maybe I was stupid, I didn't understand when she taught me the topic, and then she slapped me in the face, but I still didn't feel anything, even took it for granted, it was me Stupid, I don't understand this topic, she hit me for granted.
She left my house that night, and I missed her, so I cried while watching the law lecture.
I wrote it like this, looked at it with the eyes of a bystander, and I can roughly analyze it. If my family can solve the problem in the way of novel conception, then I am the cannon fodder who promotes the development of the story. A girl born out of Shen was raised by her grandparents, paving the way for the following storylines. In short, I was never the protagonist, so the joy, anger, sorrow and joy are so indifferent.
Later, I gradually understood and began to think about myself, so I cared about those injuries. I remember my grandma told me not to blame my father, because someone wanted to adopt me back then, but my father did not agree. My father bought a train ticket. When I asked her and my grandfather to take me back to the Northwest, he bought a standing ticket. I stood there for days and nights, and when I saw an empty seat, I hurried over to sit for a while. She felt that my father had paid a lot for me.
Once again I am persuaded.
Yes, my father could have given me away. My original destiny was to be the second daughter born in a patriarchal family. The basic setting was to give away and live a life of scantily clad, but my My father didn't do that, he just didn't love me, he didn't treat me as a junior, what did he do wrong, can I reprimand him from a modern point of view, saying that if he doesn't want to raise, he shouldn't have children?He didn't want to have a baby, he just wanted a boy, and I was just an accident that shouldn't have happened.
I can't blame it.
I have no reason.
I believe that I will never get an apology until I die.
Because no one will feel indebted to me.
I can remember very little.
But recently, I suddenly remembered someone.
In the ten years before my life, my family has always lived in an old house. It is said that my grandfather bought it at a low price. It is windy and rainy.
There is only one room in the house where people can live. Before I was five years old, I lived with my grandparents. After watching the news at night, I watched CCTV TV series. I have forgotten the specific series.
Once, the children in our village were playing together at the lotus pond. It had just rained, and the soil on the ground was so soft that as long as you continued to pat it with the right force, it would become the tender skin of a beautiful woman.
During the play, an older playmate began to guide us, instructing us to make houses and toilets, people and animals. Everyone laughed and laughed, and everything seemed beautiful.
After three o'clock in the afternoon, I felt hungry, so I went home and took some cakes to eat, but I felt that it was too dry to eat, so I crushed them and put them in the pocket of instant noodles. happiness.
Going back to the fun scene, my playmate asked me for instant noodles. You may not understand, but we all regarded instant noodles as a delicacy like Kobe beef at that time.
I felt a little ashamed, because my family was really poor, and it wasn't instant noodles.
But I told him straight up.
He didn't believe it, and he began to insult me, saying that I was stingy, and I had no choice but to take out the leftovers from home and give him the leftovers. I can tolerate everything else about me, but he actually said something about my grandpa and me. She said that I slept with my grandparents, and my grandpa would do that to me and I would do that to my grandpa.
I didn't have access to sex education at all at the time, and I didn't know what he meant, but it still shocked me. His words made me feel ashamed, and I couldn't face the men in my family anymore.
My grandfather, my uncle, my father and my younger brother.
I don't know why he said that, whether he said that to everyone or just me, but he hurt me because my grandpa was a sacred being in my heart, he was knowledgeable but silent, he would use Protect me in his own way, although he may resent and worry about me who has nothing to do before he dies.
I feel cruel.
When I started school and learned a little bit about the world, I fantasized that I would also see a sincere, poor, dirty girl like me in that day. It was impossible for me to ask her for anything or say such ugly words. Some people Thoughts are designed for martyrdom. Maybe one bad word can be answered by another bad word for others, but for me, that is not possible.
Why can he do such a thing, how could he have the heart to do such a thing to me.
He was out of school when I started school.
I met him once, and asked him why he scolded me so much at that time.
He said he scolded casually, everyone usually scolds people like that, but he actually asked me, why do I care so much?Is it true.
No matter how much I showed compassion, I still couldn't forgive.
He can't understand, no one can understand the malice I received when I heard that.
I have never told anyone about this matter, and have been silently seeking a solution.Once I read a Buddhist book and said that as long as I don’t have anything in my heart, his words won’t work.
I was thinking that this was definitely compiled by the Buddhists for self-consistency. The author should indicate that the reader must be XX or older and have read XX Buddhist scriptures to be serious.
I have not yet received an education. I am curious by nature and think by nature. I don’t know what is right or wrong. He guided me like that. If I don’t feel shame or hate, I can only go on the road of crime.
But a person like him has a happy family.
The only regret is that he didn't read, but he can say such vicious words to me, how can he still read?Civilization and barbarism have always run counter to each other, haven't they?
I've suffered some shame because I didn't have parents, not an exaggeration, if people with modern values think it's not rude for a few boys to take off another boy's pants and mine and run away after school at noon.
I remember the boy's shy and embarrassed expression at that time, and the numbness in his eyes that was used to being bullied stung me.
Later, I once wanted to escape the place where I lived for more than ten years, but God somehow misinterpreted my meaning and caused me to be trafficked.
The escape I imagined was to go to university, but the escape that God bestowed on me was to let me be trafficked.
The incident of being abducted has long been foreshadowed.
When I didn’t know how old I was, a sand truck passed by my house. I was brushing flowers and butterflies in the grass garden. The driver stopped the car and ran towards me. I ran away, and realized later that it was a human trafficker.If I didn't realize the crisis that day, I don't know what my life will be like in the future.
But I don't think it's too bad.
I went to a friend's house to learn how to ride a bicycle, and accidentally fell off the asphalt road. I thought I would fall into a cliff, but was saved by a tree pit.I pushed the adult bicycle up and saw a thin layer of fog at the bottom of the cliff. What if life came to an end then?
I am so lucky, there seems to be someone guarding me in the dark, and I am usually safe and sound when I should be killed.
But luck always runs out.
I was trafficked.
I can't remember how it happened, it seems to be a rainy night.
During that time, there were chicken thieves in the village, and chickens from many families were stolen.
My grandma and I plan to protect our chickens.
No one thought that stealing the chicken was just a cover, and the traffickers just came here to work because the mountains were high and the water was far away.
They probed every household and singled out me.
I was captured.
Fortunately, the chicken was unharmed.
I don't think my family will be saddened by the fact that I was arrested. Blood relationship is too metaphysical.
It was only after I read ancient novels that I realized the importance of the word "favored". I am a junior who is not favored, so of course other relatives will not stand by my side.
After being sent to Meng's house, I received unprecedented preferential treatment.
If others know my thoughts, they will probably criticize me, but I can only state the facts. No one cares about what I want to eat, let alone whether I am sick or not.
Although I know that Meng Ke cares about me just to hurt me doubly.
I seem to be living in a place where oxygen is scarce, and I can't breathe every day.
I actually feel like a trafficker who cares about me.
How pitiful I must be, how lacking in love.
Who the hell am I.
As far as I know, my parents didn't look for me.
If I hadn't been trafficked, I should be in fifth grade.
After reading the news, my hometown was calm and there was no report.
I was so forgotten.
Sometimes I think, if this kidnapping came earlier, then I would not remember the past and suffer double damage.
I hate textbooks, I hate fairy tales.
Why so much emphasis on parental love.
Is it because most parents are so great that the less great parents are reported?
Has anyone ever thought about this matter? When these deep-rooted thoughts are planted in a child's mind, how much courage will she have to admit that she is not loved in the future?
How hurt it must have been for her to have the courage to refute what was printed in a book!
If 'education' is only for educating those who have a lot of love from birth, they can kill me directly.
I have every reason to suspect that there is an element of flattery in textbooks glorifying parents.
Meng Ke gave me a lot of skirts, and he would let countless bodyguards follow me when I went out, but those bodyguards seemed to be invisible, anyway, as long as I didn't run away, they wouldn't come out.
Once at the mall, a boy whistled at me.
Before I could react, the boy had already been knocked to the ground by the bodyguard.
I actually... actually felt a sense of security.
Is it wrong or right for me to be a private property?
Without Meng Ke, I would have been arrested and trained in the clubhouse, and I would have become an item that millions of people could have.
I actually started to appreciate him.
But buying and selling are the same crime!
Retaining the last sliver of sanity, I began to analyze my life.
If I hadn't been kidnapped...
I am not superior in intelligence, and I am not valued at home. I am about the same as the girls in the same village. After finishing junior high school, I was arrested and sold for money to marry and have children.Isn't this another kind of trafficking?
yes?
These questions have troubled me for a long time.
Until I knew Meng Ke's secret.
—He runs a trafficking syndicate.
I have little knowledge, and I don't know that a lot of data analysis tables and regional survey documents are needed for trafficking.
When the truth was presented to me, I was extremely shocked.
All the advanced technologies of the entire Meng family are designed for trafficking.
The scary thing is that many entrepreneurs who can be named are involved.
I often see them appearing in financial magazines, talking to reporters, saying that they want to make the domestic economy take off and let the people live a better life.
I suffered from insomnia for several days.
Fake, all fake.
Meng Ke didn't know that I already knew everything about him.
The way he looked at me was so gentle, he didn't feel that he could be my father at his age, and he treated me as his own property with peace of mind.
He was very good to me and never tortured me.
That's why I don't hate him for myself.
Every time he seemed to see another person through me, he was kind to me as if he was making up for something.
He told me that it was to make up for the ten years that I have not received love.
I do not believe.
He gave me a new name and I got used to it very quickly.
I often think, my life sucks, what about other trafficked people?
They could have been safe and sound.
I can't imagine a person being tortured by so many people.
I am more and more afraid of Meng Ke.
I thought about killing him, but this trafficking group is no longer run by him alone, and the network of relationships behind him is intricate.
It's not good if you act rashly.
I'll be in high school soon, so maybe I can take the opportunity to find some helpers.
Just now Meng Ke told me that he was going to Shexi to find someone and asked me to go with him.
This is the end of the diary, I can't take it away, I will be found out. 】
Meng Ke received news from your mother at the time, and he thought they could be reunited.
You know what happened next.
In fact, I am in the same category as her.
We are too similar.
I'm just luckier than her because I met you.
XX XX XX
Three days passed and I finally found you.
I have imagined countless scenes of meeting, but I did not expect this to be the case.
As long as you are there, everyone will be safe.
Everyone was sent to the hospital for examination, and you didn't remember the stab wound in your abdomen until the evening.
XX XX XX
You said, so you look like this.
We added WeChat.
Your first circle of friends is: Come and meet me.
You told me without hesitation that this sentence was meant for me.
Nanzhuo came to look for me again.
She seems less indifferent than before.
She said that she finally understood why BUG should protect you.
I don't think anyone will think bad of you.
XX XX XX
We almost kissed.
I haven't kissed you yet.
I remember when you were in junior high school, you helped me burn the stove, and we even slept in the same bed.
XX XX XX
Went to Shexi to buy sesame curd buns.
This is your favorite food.
I want to give you everything.
XX XX XX
You are starting to stay away from me.
The near-kissing scene that night was all the more unreal.
XX XX XX
Nan Zhuo said that the closer you are to me, the more uncomfortable you will be.
I dreamed of Shexi again.
In fact, I shouldn't always miss Shexi, you didn't have a good time in those days.
I wish you well.
XX XX XX
Our room was next door for the startup conference.
You come to me and tell me to run a film and television company.
Xueci said that you have been helping me.
I am very sad, I should have loved you, but I have received so much care from you.
XX XX XX
Meng's bottom digging is almost done.
want to find you.
XX XX XX
today is my birthday.
Just called vaguely.
She said that her sister wants to be safe every year.
Maybe it's because I miss you so much, even when I hear this sentence, your face will appear in front of my eyes.
She asked me if I met anyone tonight, and I wouldn't have told her normally, but I miss you so much, as if I could see you if I told her.
You definitely don't know, I vaguely saw your photo in my photo album.
She said you are so cute.
After twelve o'clock, my birthday is over.
repair:
I have something very important to tell you,
I love you, and my wish this year is still to wish you good health.
XX XX XX
Dinner today.
Both Xue Ci and Jiang Mi are there, your eyes never stop on me.
I should have been braver instead of seeing you disappear.
I have a hunch that this time we will be separated for a long time.
Many people in the restaurant know you.
repair:
You are too dazzling.
XX XX XX
I saw you and Zhong Yueming on the news.
Nanzhuo said that you are trying not to be controlled.
I hid at home and didn't go out for a long time, and I didn't deal with the company's affairs.
Xueci came to me, and she asked me if I knew Q of Hearts.
She showed me the bracelet.
The awareness of BUG can block the monitoring of the system.
Xueci said that all you think about is me.
XX XX XX
Meng Shi disappeared.
Not sure what you're going to do.
I want to keep you.
It's selfish, I know it.
Your thoughts are confused, Nan Zhuo said that the system is replacing your memory, and the person you love will become Zhong Yueming.
I don't know what to do anymore.
XX XX XX
Uncle Jiang called me today
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