my neighbors

Gentleness: "I'm afraid that you will be very tired going back and forth every day. It will take a long time for you to prepare a meal every time, which will delay your study. I didn't ask you not to come back. I don't know if I like you or not. , so I want to try to separate for a while first. But it won't work."

He stared at me, smiling the first smile I've ever seen back in reality:

"Sorry, I can't do it."

I can not do it.

"Stop talking about going back to your subconscious mind! Losing it again... I can't do it!"

Is this... a confession?If there is nothing wrong with my ears, if my mind can still function clearly at this moment—Si Mu he——

"No, no, it's impossible." My head finally cleared up a little, and the heat on my face didn't decrease at all, "Why do you say that? I used to be mentally ill, and the six years I was with you didn't--no impression, I..."

Suddenly I couldn't go on anymore, and the words Captain Zuo said to me with a smile on the day I just woke up suddenly appeared in my mind——

"Si Mu, that kid, who stays by your bedside almost every day, but he doesn't feel bored. The way you look in your eyes is clearly the way you look at your lover."

I'm his, the only, the only, the only friend.Like a precious treasure.

I can have many other things, and he only has me.

Among those people's scornful or mocking eyes, I was the only one who gave him the most sincere and defenseless smile without knowing it.

How dark and dangerous the world was to Si Mu.Because of loneliness, I long to be loved and understood.Disappointed because of longing.It is disappointment that makes a person who is as cold as ice, who doesn't fit in, who doesn't want to show his feelings to others, but who wants to be heard.

He wants to tell the world that in fact, I am the same as you, and I am also a human being, and there should be no more discrimination, ridicule or even harm.

And why am I not?Feared by peers, ostracized, and used as a synonym for violence.Because of fear, so external repulsion.Because of exclusion, so more and more lack of care.Because of the lack of love, there is me, a me who can be happy if you just give me a little love, a me who is lonely and wants to be close to others.

I want to tell the world that I am not violent, I am just a child who lacks love.

Please, please don't think of me as a "different".

Then the two heterogeneous people met and comforted each other in the best way possible. If there is no love, at least I will love.

What about my neighbors?If Lao Wang hadn't been blinded by hatred because of lack of understanding, he would be a kind and kind person; if Zhou Huai hadn't been driven by desire because of lack of self-control, he would have been popular because of his food and musical talent. If Bai Bing hadn't violated her conscience because she cared about other people's opinions, her kind heart would have turned her into a truly beautiful person; if Hu Sou hadn't been impulsively breaking through her own morality because of irrationality, She will be a good mother and a good sister-in-law next door; if Zheng Shutang hadn't distorted his character due to jealousy, he would be a brave man who dares to face the world.

If they hadn't possessed all of the above...they wouldn't kill people, and wouldn't lose direction and hope because of society, and become sick and distorted.

A person's life is made up of constant encounters.I believe that one day I will be able to meet them again and meet them beautifully, because I believe in "humanity".Si Mu and I let go of our hatred and unwillingness towards the society and others, so why can't they let go?I know the kindness of human nature, why should I continue his ugliness?

These five "neighbors" of mine undoubtedly taught me the best lesson in my life.

I woke up the next day with a drunken headache that still wouldn't go away.I slept in Si Mu's arms, safe and peaceful.Opening his eyes, he was suddenly blinded by the dazzling light.After I got used to it a little, I saw the sunshine in the room, soft and bright.I haven't seen such a scene for a long time, and I was very moved for a moment.

I experienced a long winter in my dream, and after six years, I finally ushered in a warm spring that I could touch.

Looking at Si Mu who was still sleeping soundly, I smiled, neither bright nor charming, but it was joy from the heart and as bright as the morning sun.

The encounter with you, the encounter with you, is the most splendid spring in my life.

We meet in winter and end in spring.This is the story of me and my neighbors.

The main article is over.

Fanwai·Si Mu's World

The World of Mu

"Have you finished answering the questionnaire?" The female doctor looked gently at the boy in front of him. His immature little hand was holding the pen, and his writing posture was still a little jerky, as if there was an inexplicable distortion, but the female doctor didn't care too much.

The female doctor thought this was an ordinary child at first, but this child must not be underestimated. He is only six years old, and the questionnaire shows that he is already at the level of a fourth-grade elementary school student. He can flexibly perform four arithmetic operations and solve simple the equation.

"Very good, good boy!" The female doctor patted the boy's shoulder excitedly, "Doctor Si, your child is really good, did he learn all this knowledge by himself?"

Si Zhou took the boy's soft little hand, and said with a smile, "Thank you, he taught these by himself. To be honest, I was also surprised. I will trouble you this time." So handsome... The female doctor silently wiped his face. Spoil, Si Zhou's wife died of dystocia when she gave birth to this boy. This single father brought a child, and he has never seen him find another woman to date and marry. His charm is too great.

But the word "you" expresses the feeling of unfamiliarity to the fullest, and the female doctor knows that she is out of luck.

"No trouble, no trouble at all." She waved at the two of them, "Go slowly."

Si Zhou lowered his head and asked the quiet boy, "Xiao Mu, have you finished reading the fourth grade textbook?"

The boy nodded slightly, with no expression on his face.Si Zhou smiled at him and said, "Then when you go back tonight, Dad will give you a test. If you pass the test, you will have to skip a grade." Although he was smiling "kindly", there was no smile in his eyes, only full of ambition.

The boy hesitated for a long time before saying, "...Dad."

"I don't want to skip a grade."

Si Zhou's face darkened, he stopped, and looked down at the boy who was not as tall as his waist: "Si Mu, listen to your father, you know all that knowledge, what are you still doing in that grade? It's just a waste of time .Listen to Dad, only by skipping a grade can you learn more and become a person who will make a difference in the future, understand?"

The boy continued unwillingly: "I understand. But Dad, I want to be a normal person."

"Impossible," Si Zhou raised the corners of his mouth mockingly, "You have been born with such an unusual talent, so you are destined to be an unusual person. From now on, you must learn to be ambitious and ambitious. Men are real men!"

These words made the boy hang his head, and the next words to argue were swallowed back.He shrank his slightly exposed wrist back into his sleeves in fear, and as long as he rolled up his sleeves a little, he could see bluish-purple marks, and the pain caused by these marks almost made it so painful for him to hold a pen and write.It was his classmate who beat him with his fist, and he still remembered the disdainful face of the person who beat him: "What's wrong with genius, you are a freak! Disgusting freak!"

When he was four years old and just started primary school, he could only cry and keep crying.But crying can't change anything, he has to go home after wiping away his tears, and when he gets home, he has to take the medicine himself, no one cares about him, no one likes him, no one understands him, no one talks to him.Over time, Si Mu developed this indifferent personality, and began to be indifferent to everything around him, even if he was beaten, he didn't show any expression, as cold as a machine.

None of his peers liked him.Until that day, when Si Mu was taken home by Si Zhou as usual, he suddenly saw a policewoman holding a little boy on his arm, talking and laughing along the way. The boy was about the same age as him, and his face was full of happiness.But he only has indifference, which is full of indifference all over his body. The liveliness and agility of a boy of this age can't be found in him at all.

Suddenly, the boy inadvertently glanced over and collided with Si Mu's eyes in the air.Si Mu was taken aback, and no one looked away for a while.The boy stared at Si Mu for a while, then suddenly showed a defenseless smile, revealing his cute little canine teeth.Then he turned around and continued chatting with the policewoman.

But that smile hit Si Mu's heart directly, and his clever brain that he was proud of suddenly froze. It was the first, the first peer to smile at him!Even after many years, that smile left a deep and indelible imprint on Si Mu's heart.

Since that time, Si Mu had someone to look forward to after school every day, but unfortunately he never saw this boy again until before the college entrance examination.

Si Mu has an excellent brain.Relying on this, he jumped farther and farther, and suffered more and more damage.When he was about to turn 12 years old, he had already entered the third year of high school in [-].Among a group of well-developed and tall boys, Si Mu really looked too weak, and at this moment he attracted the most malicious bullying.Those boys took him to the toilet and beat him up.