a day on thursday

My lover Luo Mu:

Zhan Xin'an.

I always say that April is the best time for Rongnan sunshine, so good that every leaf is bright, so good that if you say you miss me, I will run towards you.

I am very selfish, Luo Chaomu, I have to be one step ahead of you in everything. I used to say that no matter what it is, I would rather have others look at my back than look at others. I am willing to be accepted by others, and I am not willing to look at others.

I was sick, actually quite serious, no one knew, I didn't tell anyone, I thought I could have a little more time, but it seems that I still haven't taken it.However, the two of us are beyond the mundane, such a long-lasting relationship, the two of us seem to have never argued, you are like the moon, always so gentle, I am the sun, the sun you can see when you look up.It can't be sunny all year, so there must be cloudy days, but even though you can't see the sun on cloudy days, the sun is shining because of the sun, but the clouds are too thick to block it.

I am very sorry, the sun will still rise tomorrow, and I will love you forever.

Doan the last time

your lover Li Sixi

That year Li Sixi was 25 years and eight months old, and we were together for five years.

I don't know how to answer your letter, and I don't want to answer this letter of yours, which was not mailed to me, even with a stamp on it.

It was Shen Wei who brought me this letter.

So far away, two hemispheres, Shen Wei gave me a bag and two tickets to your idol's concert, saying that you can't come and let Shen Wei come over, or I picked him up at the airport, I saw Shen Wei At that time, I really can only describe it as being busy and dusty. What a good mixed-race boy, he was crushed by your work. He was wearing a suit and a tie. The tie was still half loose, and he was wearing a black one. The overcoat looks like he was in a hurry to catch the plane, with messy hair like a chicken coop.Fortunately, the young man is 1.8 meters tall, and his appearance is also online.Otherwise it is unimaginable.

I am really puzzled that you are willing to give Shen Wei a ticket, obviously two tickets, the location is good, if you come, we will go to see it,

I'm really curious why you can't come, I'm very angry.But I'll take a good look at it for you.

I made a video for you, but you refused, it’s really a bug, this time your own idol didn’t even watch it, it’s a change of sex.

Shen Wei looked at me at the time, hesitant to speak, as if she wanted to tell me something but dared not, "Isn't this her bag? Why is it so heavy, did she stuff gold bars into it? Did she get rich?"

I took the handbag handed over with one hand, weighed it, and asked Shen Wei jokingly.

He just scratched his head, hesitant to speak.

He didn't dare to let me know about something, and it was not a good thing.I seem to have a little hunch in my heart, but I dare not think in that direction, I am afraid.

But I still couldn't help asking Shen Wei, I knew it in advance.

I took a deep breath, "Let's talk, Li Sixi must come by herself when she has time. She has a temper. If she doesn't come by herself, she won't give it to others. Don't say anything. Come for her. Shen Wei, tell me What happened to me, Li Sixi?"

Shen Wei looked down at me, we teachers are the most "observant" of students, his expression at that time couldn't fool me, something happened.

"While I'm still talking to you properly, if you don't tell me that I called Li Sixi and Xin Ji, I'll ask myself."

"Don't hit me, Sister Luo, really don't hit me."

Shen Wei held down my hand holding the phone with a flustered expression.

"Go ahead."

"Sister Luo, my elder sister is gone."

"what!?"

My hand was holding onto Shen Wei's wrist, a little tight, and he was in pain.

"say it one more time."

"Sister, it hurts, it hurts, let go, let go."

I let go of my hand, Shen Wei shook her hand and breathed out.

He paused for a moment, looking into my eyes.

"Li Sixi, dead."

"Oh" I agreed.

"My sister left something for you and asked me to give it to you."

Shen Wei took out a small box from his pocket, very delicate, a ring box.

I opened it, and there was only a small ring, just the size of my left ring finger, not too big or too small, just right.You said before that you bought a ring on a business trip to Amsterdam, and it should be this one. It looks quite ordinary, without lettering. It’s not as good-looking as the Alice ring I bought for you.

The ring is not ordinary, and the city you brought it back to is not ordinary, nor are you, and I know all your love.

Until I get and wear this ring, November 28th, I don't think I will ever meet a soul mate in my life.

I didn't cry, but took out my cell phone and called Xin Ji, without saying hello, I just said, "Is it true?"

There was no answer for a long time... After a while. "yes."

It was Xin Ji's voice, calm and calm, and his speech was refined.I think he should have considered it for a long time before speaking, because I trembled when I heard him speak for the first time.

I accept the message he sends me.All of a sudden, I was brought back to reality from quietness.The concert scene is really lively and noisy.

You sang hard on the stage, and the fans cheered very hard. I watched your idols shine on the stage.The surrounding singing was hot, Shen Wei and I didn't speak, just sat there for almost three hours, I didn't listen to what the concert was like, but at that time, my mind was full of you, Li Sixi.

If I cry, you will spare no effort to laugh at me, saying that there are no tears in great sorrow, it is all a lie.I think of you looking at the ring on your right hand and still crying, I really want to have you by my side, like ten years ago, the person sitting next to me is you, you just need to sit next to me, I allow you to ask me the same For math problems, you are allowed to tell me your Chinese poems, you are allowed to say that your idol is handsome, and you are allowed to tell me that you love me in person.

I sat there and looked at the ring and cried. Shen Wei knew you were sick. He knew more than I did. As a result, a mixed-race guy in his early twenties also cried. The fans next to him hurriedly asked what was wrong. Can't say a word.

Your fans of idols are called Doraemon, I have seen it, tissues, snacks, everything is handed over to us, such a big bag of Langweixian, and your favorite Haribo soft candy, it is you Favorite peach flavor.Another fan gave me a stuffed bear, which she said would make people happy.I remember you like bears, and I like rabbits.When you were in your third year of high school, you started collecting Bowen bears crazily. I can’t even remember how many you had.That is, seven years ago, Li Sixi, you were only 25 years old. At the age of 25, it became your whole life, and then let me go through my whole life with endless regrets for you.

I think it's definitely not me crying to attract attention, it's Shen Wei crying to attract attention, a big man, a handsome mixed-race man in a suit, crying like someone robbed his wife while watching the concert.Well, just like that, it successfully attracted the attention of the audience on and off the stage. The people on the stage looked directly at us, watching us cry sadly.

If the sun and the moon rotate, the years change, spring goes and autumn comes, and I walk in front of you, Li Sixi, will you recognize me?

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The author has something to say:

The ending is really not happy.

We're also really not perfect.