you are still on the long street
Added 41 point to Chapter 1 (3)
It was so powerful that I went to pick her up and found that her body was a little hot.
I'm flustered, I've heard it's easy to go wrong with a fever in such a young child.I hugged Yangyang, opened the bedroom door, and found that my sister was covering her face and crying.
I naturally guessed what she saw, but no matter how sad she was, she couldn't ignore her daughter. "Yangyang has a fever!! Sis! Yangyang has a fever!!!" I yelled at her, and the crying of the child in my arms became more shrill.I saw my sister slowly raised her head, her eyes out of focus.I kicked the table vigorously, and ran out with Yang Yang in my arms.
"Hospital...go to the hospital..." I went out to take a taxi and rushed to the nearest hospital.
At this time, it began to rain.I didn't bring an umbrella, so I could only take off my coat, put it on my head, and ran to the emergency department against the rain.
Fortunately, the rain was not too heavy, and my clothes were not soaked because of my coat. But sitting in the corridor of the hospital, the occasional wind still made me so cold that I couldn't help shivering.This season, many people come for infusions for colds, and there are no more wards, so I can only sit on a bench outside the ward with my Yangyang in my arms while I am being infused.Later, a nurse brought us a blanket, and I wrapped the blanket around Yang Yang's body, watching her breathing smoothly and falling asleep.
Looking at the soggy coat used to keep out the rain, I really want to smoke a cigarette, but this is a hospital and smoking is not allowed.
As soon as the next semester is over, I will take the college entrance examination.After the college entrance examination, I plan to enroll in a school in this city so that I can take care of my sister.Furthermore, several schools in this city are considered good.
I suddenly feel very tired and tired.Father and stepmother have their own lives, we are all grown children and should have our own paths too.But I actually have no vision for the future.
19 is old.
That idiot named Yan Ji came again.
He said that as a sophomore senior, he brought me to get familiar with the familiar environment, and then took me to hang out for a long time, talking about some things.
Even though it's annoying, I still have a soft spot for him.
Just handed me a bottle of water when he saw that I was half dead from military training, and I made up my friend!Although I thought so in my heart, some things he did really surprised me.
For example, bring me breakfast every day, eat lunch with me every day, and go for a walk in the small park of the school after lunch.Over time, when I wondered if he was gay like the guy named Lu Yang and was trying to woo me, he confirmed my thoughts.
That day, we took a walk after dinner again, and when we were tired, we sat down on the lawn, chatting about our respective club activities, and as we talked, he calmed down and kept looking at me.
We looked at each other for a while, I felt that the momentum was wrong, and was about to stand up, but he cupped the back of my head and kissed me.
My heart was beating so fast that I didn't push him away.
I think of the strange feeling that night a few years ago after seeing the man's messy clothes, which is the same as now.
Maybe, I'm gay too.
20 is old.
In the end, this relationship was just my own sinking.
By the time I saw him courting other boys in the same way, it was too late.
I secretly laughed at myself for giving my heart so easily, and I was a complete idiot.I couldn't satisfy Yan Ji's desire, so he found someone else.
I don't know why, but I can't give myself to him.After rejecting his hints again and again, perhaps, he already knew the result and lost interest in me.
For 27 days, I played guitar for him for 27 days, and sang songs I wrote for him for 27 days, to no avail.
If you lose it, you lose it, if you don't want it, you don't want it.
The young boy poured a glass of water on me and grinned with malice and sarcasm.My cheeks were hot, and it seemed that people around me were casting strange glances at me, and I felt their pointing fingers.
The wind is cold at night, but I can't feel it.
All the smiles and smiles of the past became blurred, and all the memories seemed to be blurred into a ball, and then slowly disappeared in the vortex.
I suddenly feel very cold.
I hugged the cold guitar, hard, without any heat, and nothing to warm me up.
stand up and let's go.
It's time to give up.
But I can't stand up.
At this time, someone patted my shoulder. I thought it was Yan Ji, and couldn't help but look up happily. What I saw was a blurry face, not Yan Ji.I tried to see clearly, but my head was dizzy.
"Go home and change your clothes, you should be sick after blowing for a while."
His voice was gentle.
The tip of my nose was sore.Now, there are only strangers who are willing to give me some care.He patted my shoulder again and said something to me, but I didn't hear clearly, my consciousness was quickly pulled away, and I fell down.
When I woke up, I saw a strange environment in front of me, but that face was very familiar to me.
It's that Lu Yang.
The Lu Yang that my sister likes.
I was picked up by him by accident.The kind of temperament on his body always makes people can't help but become relaxed, and I actually plan to hold on for a while.
"You passed out yesterday, and I took you back to my home. If it's convenient, tell me where your home is, and I'll take you back."
Was he so defenseless towards strangers?
"That..." He asked tentatively again.
"Let me lie down for a while, and I'll leave right away." I actually said such shameless words, and felt my cheeks get hot.
His house is very tidy, but a little small.I washed the clothes he gave me, stuffed another 500 yuan, wrote a note, and left.
Recently, my sister seldom watched the surveillance, maybe she let it go slowly over time, and shifted most of her attention to Yang Yang.Huo Guangxia came to look for his sister a few times, but her sister didn't want to see him, so she went to the apartment where Lu Yang lived to buy a house, planning to move there after finishing the decoration.
I didn't know what kind of evil I had, so I opened my sister's notebook.This camera is still working, perhaps with regular replacements.A sense of guilt rushed to my heart, I knew I was doing something wrong, but I still couldn't help looking at the monitor.
A young man appeared at the door of his house and rang the doorbell. I seemed to have guessed something, a little bored, and was about to turn off the computer when the door opened.Lu Yang pulled the man in forcefully, and then slammed the door shut, I knew what they were going to do next.I don't know how long it took until that man came out again.
As soon as I pressed the computer, I couldn't tell what kind of feeling it was.My sister likes this person very much, even to the point of obsession, why is this?How could she like such a person?Is it because of his face?
"How about we try?"
I don't know what kind of mentality I used to say this to him, it seemed like I was following the trend.
Back then, when Yan Ji said similar words to me, was he just playing around?
"Do you know what you're talking about? Kid." He smiled ambiguously, and my heart suddenly beat very fast.I don't know if this feeling is fear, I really want to run away immediately, but I unconsciously approach him.
That day, Yan Ji was also...but...
I touched his lips lightly.
It's over, I want to escape.
Just when I was about to laugh "hahahaha" and run out, he grabbed my head and gave me a deep kiss.
Hold!I've never had anyone stick out my tongue!
"I'm not interested in children, you go back."
Do you just want to express this? !
And you said I was a child? !
"I won't give up, Lu Yang——I remember you."
☆、Leaf Chang perspective 3
It's Yang Yang's birthday, and I planned to buy some gifts for her, but I didn't expect to see Yan Ji and his...boyfriend while walking on the street.
I wanted to hide, but he had seen me.
"Hi." I greeted him.
He smiled at me too.
Then we just passed each other.The boy named Chen Yichen held his hand, turned his head to look at me, and left a mocking smile.I was very sad to see his indifference and the things he did to others that were similar to what he had done with me, as if what belonged to me yesterday disappeared like that today.
I wish Yan Ji could turn around and hold my hand again, but it was impossible for him to do so.
"Come out for a meal." I lowered my head and sent the message, and by the time I regretted it, it was too late.
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"I think you should have been dumped. You want to stimulate your ex by falling in love with me, let him feel your importance, and then chase you back, don't you?"
He poked my scars without hesitation, and all the frustrations that had been revealed in front of him were clearly remembered.I was like a ridiculous clown in front of him.
He can choose a lot of people, and his dashing look makes me jealous.Like a fool, I frequently acted slumped in front of him for a relationship that was gone, and always did things that I didn't even know why I did.
"Extremely childish, she is just a child after all."
And his mother said that I am a child, after all these years, I am still just a child.
I fell into confusion, I don't know if what I said or did was just as he said, to get revenge on Yan Ji.
Under my persecution, he performed a play with me.I once had unrealistic hopes for Yan Ji, but Lu Yang snatched all my attention.
When he touched me, my body was getting hot.I don't want to continue, I don't know what will happen if I let him go.But my body fought against my will, and I actually had a desire for such a move from him.
He handed me a cigarette, and at that moment, Yan Ji was no longer in my mind.
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"Is it possible for me and Yan Ji?"
"I don't feel any pleasure."
These are all the truth, I told him this in the hope that he could tell me the reality, I wanted to try to forget about Yan Ji, put an end to these messy relationships, and return to a normal life.
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If I had known that he was a more dangerous person than Yan Ji, I would have stayed away from him from the very beginning.
When I slammed on that door, it seemed that I had no strength in my whole body.I pressed the elevator button hard, hoping to escape from here immediately.
"Yeah, that's what I need. If you want to give me something, just sleep with me once after the matter is over."
What is he saying?What did he think of me? !
It turns out that he is no different from Yan Ji, I knew it early on, but I still get closer and closer to him, asking for trouble.
I didn't see him, and I didn't send him any more messages.
I want to extinguish the little hope that once ignited in my heart at once, so as not to repeat the same ending again.
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He went to find someone else, this time it was probably a new bed partner.
I sneered for a while, thinking that this cheap self is really ridiculous.
I called him twice and he didn't answer.It's a good thing he didn't answer, otherwise I wouldn't know what to say.
To me, Lu Yang is just a passerby.I do the same with him.
I turned on my phone, scrolled through the news, and suddenly realized that I hadn't deleted Yan Ji, and naturally he hadn't deleted me either.It's just that in his dynamics, there is no bit by bit with his new boyfriend, which is not like his style.
Just set it to make me "invisible".
I opened the private album, and there were more than 100 photos in it, all of which were me and Yan Ji.That trip to a scenic spot, we took a photo together, he made a rabbit ear on my head, and we all laughed happily.
The photo interface disappeared, and it was a call from Lu Yang.
He didn't speak immediately, there was nothing to say between us.After a few seconds, he said: "Yesterday, I'm sorry."
yesterday?Is it what he said yesterday?
He has nothing to apologize for, it's my fault.
I pressed "Back" and the photo appeared in front of my eyes without hanging up the phone.
"Yan Ji... wants to reconcile with me, should I agree to him?"
Oh, how is it possible.
If this is the case, will I still be like now, only looking at the photos alone and recalling those memories that were sweet but now make me painful?
"Promise, don't you like him? Then promise." He answered quickly.
Hurry to get rid of the relationship with me.
What am I thinking.
That man went to his house very often, maybe he was no longer a bed partner.If I continue to read it... I need to show my face.
Why bother with other people's lives.
But that day, I actually received another call from him.
"Come pick me up...I'm at xx hotel...come..."
Why did you ask me to pick him up?
Doesn't he already have a boyfriend?
I felt a little irritable, and just about to hang up the phone, I heard a few coughs coming from over there.He seemed very drunk and spoke incoherently.
Damn, bastard.I put on my coat, picked up the car keys and rushed to the address he said.When he arrived, he was indeed drunk to a pool of mud, and the wine table was also a mess.Many people have been picked up, and there are not many people left.After his colleague knew that I was here to pick him up, he helped him onto my back.
It's fucking heavy, this man.He was already taller than me. Although it was difficult to see through his clothes, the muscles on his body were real and dead.
I threw him on the seat, buckled him up, and went to drive.After a while, the car was filled with the smell of alcohol.
"You really stink." I glanced at him, but he was fast asleep.
When I arrived at his house, I fished for the keys on him for a long time, and finally got him to his bed.I was about to help him take off his coat, but he grabbed my hand.
Is he going to wake up?Wouldn't that be embarrassing.
However, he didn't wake up, and he didn't let go of my hand.His hands were very hot and strong, and there was a thin layer of calluses on the palms.It took me a long time to get his hand off, and I didn't dare to touch him again.Just tuck him in the quilt casually and plan to leave.
Just as I was about to go out, I breathed a sigh of relief, walked back, and deleted the record of calling me tonight from his mobile phone, and accidentally deleted all the records of tonight.Forget it, anyway, he can't remember when he wakes up.
When I left his house, I took a look at the camera.
Still filming.
My sister had a big fight with Huo Guangxia and moved to that apartment completely.I went to help her pack for a few days and found that she didn't bring much.
It's rare for her to have any interest in focusing on one thing, and I do my best to help her.She wanted to decorate her new home more warmly. Although she hadn't lived in the small house for a long time, it was already full of the taste of home.
My sister wanted a full-length mirror in her bedroom, so I went to the market to help her see it.When I was looking for a mirror in the furniture market that could match the style of my sister's new home, I saw Yan Ji again, this time, he was alone.
I didn't bother to think about how to face him, I looked down at my phone, trying to pretend I didn't see him.
Instead, he greeted me.
"Hi." I responded politely and was about to walk away, but he grabbed my arm and asked, "Have dinner together?"
What is he going to do?Crazy.
"Okay." I agreed to him.
I am confused.We had some drinks and somehow he took me to the hotel.I was out of my mind and let him hold me like this.I was pushed onto the bed by him, and before I could get up, he bullied me and pushed me up.
He bit my lip, I looked at the face that made me think about it day and night, grabbed his hair, imitated Lu Yang, and kissed him deeply.
In this case, let's continue to do it.
It's messed up, it's all messed up.
His breathing was very rapid, he was gnawing on my body, and he was muttering something, which I couldn't hear clearly.
He came up again, bit my ear, and called softly a few times: "Xiaochen...Xiaochen..."
I pushed him away violently, slapping him across the face.He was stunned by me, I don't know if he is sober.
"I|fuck|you|mom!" I yelled at him and punched him in the face again.
"Ye Zichang! You are enough!" He was also angry.
I pushed him aside, got dressed, opened the door and rushed out.
Are you all fucking sick? !Is the brain growing in the lower body?
I was running on the street with no direction, and suddenly felt that the street was so long that it had no end.
The author has something to say: Chong Duck!
☆、Leaf Chang perspective 4
Today is New Year's Eve, and the days go by quickly.
After that day, I wanted to delete everything about Yan Ji, but I couldn't do anything about those photos.Those memories from the past are all real, and they are real and warm me.I looked at the "Are you sure you want to delete the selected photos" prompt, and finally clicked "Cancel".
what do i want
It's fucking funny.
I deleted his social accounts, and all his activities disappeared before my eyes.I'm deceiving myself, the old Yan Ji is still there.
After sending a copy-and-pasted New Year message to all my contacts, I kept refreshing the news. There are many interesting people in my circle. Just watching their random news can make me happy for a long time. Really A bunch of people with an interesting soul.
"Chengcheng! Come and help cook!" My sister poked her head out of the kitchen.
"Okay!" I put down my phone and walked to the kitchen, Yang Yang also followed.As a result, the meal that can be prepared in 10 minutes took twice as long.Although I have tried my best not to make trouble... My sister looked at me with a disgusted expression.
I shrugged helplessly.
She said: "You are not as good as Yangyang."
I laughed and cursed: "Get out."
After eating, my sister thought I was in the way and didn't let me wash the dishes, so I collapsed on the sofa and prepared to fatten up. I took out my mobile phone to check the news, and a photo of instant noodles appeared in front of my eyes.
It was sent by Lu Yang.
[Me on the last day of this year. 】
I couldn't hold it back for a while, and laughed out loud. I just had a meal, and I laughed so hard that my stomach hurts.I went to the kitchen, got some leftovers, put them in a lunch box, and put them in plastic bags. "Yangyang!" I called out, and Yangyang ran in thumpingly: "What are you doing?"
"Take this to your Uncle Lu, does Uncle Lu's family know?"
She nodded and jumped out.
"Is there no food for Lu Yang?" My sister asked beside the sink.
Hearing what she said, I couldn't help laughing again, and said, "Go and see what he posted by yourself."
I found that post, and I haven't watched it for a few minutes, and there are already so many comments.
Oh, so many people are willing to cook for him.
Does it make sense for me to do this?
Not long after, he sent a "thank you", and I felt a little ashamed, and immediately replied "my sister asked me to send it".
I'm so annoying.
When it was almost time for dinner, my sister suddenly asked, "Is Lu Yang celebrating the New Year alone? Why don't you call him to our house?"
"I want to ask you to call it yourself." I threw myself on the sofa and played games.
I just looked up and found that she was changing shoes, and she really went there.
Really awkward, we sat next to each other.
Fortunately, there is Yang Yang who relieves the embarrassment.
Even when I was eating, I couldn't get my mouth in.
Oh shit.
Are you talking so happily?
Lu Yang, can you be so close to anyone?You guys had a great chat.There are so many people around who are willing to care about you, one can come after one leaves.To be honest, I am a little jealous of him, and a little envious of him.
I dragged him out for what reason?Oh, and buy beer.
"What's the matter?" He is the only one who is so indifferent to me, and yes, he already has a boyfriend.
That day, I went to his house to give the so-called gift "from Yan Ji".The boy seemed to like him and cared about him just as much.
"Talk alone." What to talk about, talk, what to talk about.
I was about to chat some other words to ease the embarrassment in front of me.His phone rang.
It's from my boyfriend.
He glanced at me as if showing off, then smiled and continued his flirty chat. "I miss you." As soon as this sentence came out, it was the biggest ridicule to me.
Why does this man see every time I fail?
I was completely crazy, hooked his neck and kissed him.
He pushed me away angrily, and this time, he was really angry.
At that moment, I suddenly wanted to cry.
"Didn't you reconcile with Yan Ji?" He was questioning me.
When I thought of that lie, my heart felt even more tingling. What the hell was I doing? I must be the one who is really sick.
"Yeah, I'm still on good terms with Yan Ji..."
That night was ridiculous.
I did a lot of absurd things, broke the cans, smashed the messy things in my heart that tortured me every day.For a moment, I felt that I was very relaxed, and then I felt that I might as well die immediately.
He was gentle, but despite that, I will never forget the experience of that night.
He is no longer indifferent to me, it seems that after this night, everything has changed.Sure enough, you are the same, what you long for is just the pleasure at that moment.What am I now?His bed partner?
Therefore, he is so gentle to every bed partner.
Sooner or later, I will fall into his tenderness.
But I am afraid that it is impossible for me like this to get his eternal tenderness.If it's just a relationship like going to bed, sooner or later, he will get tired of it.Then I can only walk away, just like with Yan Ji, everything is just a reincarnation, I repeat the same results over and over again.
"You don't care about me, who are you? Didn't you just sleep once? Don't push your nose on your face."
What he said was just angry words, but it was so real and harsh.Didn't you just sleep once?
"Ye Zichang, what am I?" He asked me this question for the first time, pretending to be careless.
I like Yan Ji.
Yes, it was Yan Ji from before.
Don't let me get thrown off again because of another person.
I can not stand it any more.
I hinted to myself again and again, but every time I couldn't help the temptation, I rushed to his warm territory.He seems to be able to confuse people's hearts. Once he has tasted the sweetness, he can't help being addicted.
He likes to hold my hand very much, and every time he pretends to be careless, he wraps my hand quietly.
I like the feeling of him holding my hand, the steady and safe feeling.His hands were not very warm, but after touching me, the warm current seemed to be generated out of nowhere, flowing to my whole body, ravaging my constantly shaking nerves.
He is not only like a reliable partner in love, but also like an elder who always takes care of me.Everything about his frivolity in the past seemed to be an illusion, but now he is the real him in front of my eyes.
He can tolerate my willfulness and unreasonable troubles, and I don't have to be careful by his side.And he occasionally acts like a baby, which makes me deeply doubt who is the kid.
Once, he went to a social event and drank a lot of wine. When I went to pick him up, he kept staring at me, as if he would see me wherever I went.I went to help him up. Although his steps were sloppy, he didn't put too much weight on me. He swayed back and forth as he walked, like a naive goose.
Like the last time I picked him up, I stuffed him into the car, fastened his seat belt, and when I was about to get into the driver's seat, he pulled me onto him.
"You...didn't fasten my seat belt...." His hand was on my back, and I couldn't get up. Standing bent over like this, my back felt a little sore.
"It's okay, are you an idiot?" I struggled to get up, although there were not many people on the road, but I still felt ashamed when I saw it.
His hands clasped my body tightly, the strength in his arms was terrifying.He slurred: "Crack! It's on!" Then he hugged me tighter with his arms.
If this continues, my waist will be broken.
I had no choice but to peck him on the mouth, and coaxed softly: "Yangyang, be good, let go of brother."
It didn't work, he started biting my mouth instead.
I had no choice but to twist his thigh, and leaned closer to him and threatened: "If you don't let go, I'll twist it in the middle."
He changed into an innocent expression and looked at me with his eyes open.
"Fuck! Can't you understand human language?!" It was useless to try hard and soft, I could only yell at him.This time, he finally let go.
Ah, my waist is going to be crippled...
I straightened up and walked around to the driver's seat with my waist supported. When I got in, he was still looking at me with aggrieved eyes.
It's over, this look.
I pulled his head over and kissed his lips vigorously, my tongue was actively stirring inside, touching and entangled with his, and when I was almost out of breath, I let go of him and said with a smile: "That's enough Yet?"
He raised his eyebrows, closed his eyes and fell asleep.
Mouth full of alcohol, don't find out that I'm "drinking"...
When he sat next to me in his tracksuit, I couldn't tell reality from dream.
He obviously had no experience with this major, but he still listened very seriously.His hair is shaggy, not as meticulous as he usually is at work.Wearing the sportswear on him, he was full of vigor and vitality.At that moment, I hoped that he could sit next to me like this every day and accompany me through the days and nights of my university.
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That day, he was very angry.
I've never seen him so angry.The vicious words kept whipping me and making me feel scared.Only then did I know that in his heart, he was also full of insecurity.
What were we before?
Is it really just a bed partner?
When I left, I felt disoriented again.
There is still that sticky feeling on the face, and it stings a little when the wind blows.Another gust of wind blew at me with some dust, and I couldn't open my eyes.
It is said that as long as you shed tears, you can flush the sand out of your eyes.
I squatted down slowly, buried my head in my knees, and cried like no one else was there.
I'm an asshole.
How I wish he could stand behind me, pat me on the shoulder, and smile softly: "Ye Zichang, you're home."
But I let him down.
Every day after that, I was thinking about what kind of feelings I had for him.I am reluctant to leave him, is it just because of the warmth he can give me, or just because of the fear of loneliness after I lose it?
If the answer is yes, I am destined not to be with him for long.
Rather than waiting for the parting to be near, it is better to break it as soon as possible.
I want to fight so much, so much.
But no one came to pick on me, and I was just fucking sulking at myself.
In school, I inadvertently passed by the road that I used to walk with Yan Ji.When I was walking this road alone, there was always someone beside me, and every time I turned my head to look, he would disappear into the void again.
Is it Yan Ji?
I asked myself.
This time I deleted the photos, I clicked "OK" without hesitation, and then I was completely relieved.
The number of times I walked this road was more frequent, and this road that should have been full of memories was blank in my mind.I have forgotten many things that I remembered deeply before, and even this road has become strange.
I have walked many roads, many streets, but I never remember much. One road, once passed, passed, and the things that happened on it also dissipated with forgetting, and no longer existed in my mind.
It has rained, and there is still water on the grass, and even the air is full of the smell of rain.
I want to go back.
Where are you going back?
I turned around, the road was behind me, and standing in front of me was Lu Yang.
He was wearing sportswear, smiling like the sun in midsummer.I realized that it was him who was always by my side.
It is him that I long to stay with me all the time.
"I probably really... fell in love with you."
【THAN】
The author has something to say: That’s all for Ye Guanyuan
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☆, the daily life of those four years
"Smooth..."
"Ok?"
"Smooth!"
"Ah."
"Yezi Chang!"
"Ah."
"Do you think you should get up?" Lu Yang wanted to lift Ye Zichang's quilt, but was pulled tightly by Ye Zichang.His whole body was hung on the quilt, this "whole", Lu Yang spent a long time trying to separate them.
"It's agreed to take Yangyang for an outing today." Lu Yang saw that the hard one was useless, so he could only use the soft one, and whispered beside him: "Yangyang is looking forward to today, since yesterday..."
"I can't get up, who is to blame." Ye Zichang's eyes opened a crack, and they closed immediately after a while, turning their backs to Lu Yang.
Lu Yang sighed, got up from the bed, shook his head, and said, "Okay, I'll take Yangyang there, you can sleep at home by yourself."
Yang Yang put on the new little skirt that Lu Yang bought for her, put away the things she wanted to bring, and put them in the little pink schoolbag.Lu Yang walked towards Yang Yang with a smile and helped her comb her hair.
"Where's uncle?"
"Uncle will be here soon."
"Lazy pig."
Lu Yang couldn't hold back, he burst out laughing with a "puchi", and when he looked up, he saw Ye Zichang leaning against the door frame with a dark face.
"Smelly Yangyang, you're talking ill of me again, right?" As he spoke, he walked towards Yangyang, pinched her face, but was kicked by Yangyang.
"Give up, you can't beat Little Princess Yangyang." Lu Yang raised his eyebrows with a mocking smile on his face.
Ye Zichang waved and said, "Come here, let's fight."
"Didn't you fight yesterday?" Lu Yang smiled.Ye Zichang suddenly had nothing to say, wishing to seal Lu Yang's mouth.
"You guys fought yesterday?! Why didn't I know?" Yang Yang suddenly turned his head and was pulled into the braid, "It hurts!"
Lu Yang smiled and said nothing, rubbing Yang Yang's head.
Finally, it was the weekend when both of them were free, and since they hadn't gone out together for a long time, Lu Yang didn't want to waste time at home.Instead of doing nothing at home, why not take your wife and children (?) out to enjoy the scenery of early spring.
It's still early to climb the mountain, and the air I inhale makes my nasal cavity feel irritated.Fortunately, Yang Yang was wearing a small cotton skirt and a pair of not-thin pantyhose, otherwise she would have been yelling cold and refusing to get out of the car.
"I can't walk anymore..." Yang Yang complained.
"Come on, it's almost halfway." Lu Yang slowed down and took Yang Yang's hand.
"Lazy pig." Ye Zichang made a grimace at Yang Yang, Yang Yang stomped his feet angrily, ran towards Ye Zichang, and kicked him.
Just as Lu Yang wanted to speak, they had already run away.
Lu Yang thought to himself: It's nice to be young.
They laughed like this for 10 minutes, and neither of them could move.
Lu Yang turned around and looked at the two exhausted people behind him, showing a helpless smile: "It's only half way."
Ye Zichang raised Erkang's hand: "Hugh...take a break."
Lu Yang had no choice but to take them to a pavilion on the side of the road to rest for a while.
Yang Yang wanted to sit between them, full of childishness.Ye Zichang glanced at Lu Yang, then stood up from the stone bench, went to sit next to Lu Yang.
"Uncle, what are you doing?" Yang Yang asked.
"I had a fight with your Uncle Lu yesterday, and I want him to apologize." The pavilion they were in had its back facing the hillside, so Ye Zichang stretched his hand behind without fear, and pinched Lu Yang's waist.
Lu Yang's expression changed slightly, he didn't say anything, he glanced at the people coming and going on the road, gave up the idea of doing evil, and just scratched Ye Zichang's waist politely.
Yang Yang seemed to have gotten used to the behavior of these two people, and ran to the back of the pavilion to pick flowers and play.
After resting for a while, the three continued to walk up.After a while, Yang Yang seemed to see his classmate and ran over with a smile.
"Oh? It's a little boy?" Ye Zichang stood beside Lu Yang, looking at the little boy. He was a little chubby and looked very cute.Lu Yang laughed twice, and said, "Why are you so on guard, Yang Yang won't run away with others."
Yang Yang and the little boy chatted for a while with a smile, Lu Yang and Ye Zichang also greeted the little boy's parents, and started chatting by the way, although it was just to respond to the topic of the little boy's mother.
After chatting for a while, Yang Yang turned around and said to Lu Yang, "Uncle Lu, I want to go to Xiao Nuo's house to play."
The little boy echoed: "My house is so much fun!"
Lu Yang smiled and said, "Will it trouble you?"
The little boy's mother said: "Come on, so that Xiao Nuo won't have any companions at home, it's only fun when the kids are together, right?"
Lu Yang glanced at Ye Zichang, and Ye Zichang agreed first: "Okay."
"Who said just now that Yang Yang wouldn't run away with someone?" Ye Zichang raised his eyebrows and said.
Yang Yang had already followed the little boy, leaving Lu Yang and Ye Zichang staring at each other on the road.
"Let's go." Lu Yang took Ye Zichang's hand, intending to continue on the road.
The sun has come out, the sun shines through the dense shade of the trees, and sprinkles on the cement road for tourists to go up the mountain, and the mountain gradually becomes warmer.There were many people on the road, looking at those gray-haired old people who insisted on exercising, Lu Yang only felt admiration.
"Tell me, when we get old, can we still be as energetic as them?" Lu Yang asked.
"You have to be more energetic than them." Ye Zichang squeezed Lu Yang's hand, and said, "I want to drink water." Lu Yang took out a bottle of mineral water from his backpack and handed it to Ye Zichang, who Said: "Unscrew it for me."
"Are you a little princess?" Lu Yang couldn't help laughing, while twisting the bottle cap for Ye Zichang.
"When you get old, I'll help you unscrew it." Ye Zichang raised his head to drink enough water, and then handed the bottle to Lu Yang.After Lu Yang took it, he also took a few sips, and deliberately licked the place where Ye Zichang drank, and said, "I'm not much older than you."
"Old fox." Ye Zi said with a smile.
After returning home from the mountain, Lu Yang went into the kitchen to cook, Ye Zichang also followed.
"You go out." Lu Yang showed a look of disgust.
"Teach me how to cook." Ye Zichang took out the apron and tied it on Lu Yang.
"Forget it, it's good if you know how to fry tomato scrambled eggs." Lu Yang washed the dishes, took out the cutting board, and prepared to chop the vegetables.
"You want to cook for me for the rest of your life?"
"I admit it, I can't starve you."
Ye Zichang hugged Lu Yang from behind, his chin just rested on Lu Yang's shoulder.Now, the man's collar smells of clean, crisp laundry detergent, and some remnants of men's perfume from work.His back is strong and broad, and when you lean on it, it is immediately reassuring.
"Aren't you going to take the postgraduate entrance examination? Go study." His voice was very low, with a slight smile.
Ye Zichang slowly let go of the hands holding him, and walked a few steps backwards.How many people have seen Lu Yang busy in the kitchen?
I'm the only one who's seen it.
Ye Zichang thought so.
Ye Zichang went back to the study and took out a box in the drawer, which contained some unattractive cookies.
Lu Yang likes to eat sweets.
Lu Yang doesn't like others to give him expensive things.
Ye Zichang always remembered.
Ye Zichang always wanted to give something to Lu Yang, so he made these cookies himself.Ugly is a bit ugly, but after all, it is made according to the tutorial, and the taste is actually not bad.
When preparing for lunch, he carefully took out the box and placed it in front of Lu Yang's desk, his eyes wandering
I'm flustered, I've heard it's easy to go wrong with a fever in such a young child.I hugged Yangyang, opened the bedroom door, and found that my sister was covering her face and crying.
I naturally guessed what she saw, but no matter how sad she was, she couldn't ignore her daughter. "Yangyang has a fever!! Sis! Yangyang has a fever!!!" I yelled at her, and the crying of the child in my arms became more shrill.I saw my sister slowly raised her head, her eyes out of focus.I kicked the table vigorously, and ran out with Yang Yang in my arms.
"Hospital...go to the hospital..." I went out to take a taxi and rushed to the nearest hospital.
At this time, it began to rain.I didn't bring an umbrella, so I could only take off my coat, put it on my head, and ran to the emergency department against the rain.
Fortunately, the rain was not too heavy, and my clothes were not soaked because of my coat. But sitting in the corridor of the hospital, the occasional wind still made me so cold that I couldn't help shivering.This season, many people come for infusions for colds, and there are no more wards, so I can only sit on a bench outside the ward with my Yangyang in my arms while I am being infused.Later, a nurse brought us a blanket, and I wrapped the blanket around Yang Yang's body, watching her breathing smoothly and falling asleep.
Looking at the soggy coat used to keep out the rain, I really want to smoke a cigarette, but this is a hospital and smoking is not allowed.
As soon as the next semester is over, I will take the college entrance examination.After the college entrance examination, I plan to enroll in a school in this city so that I can take care of my sister.Furthermore, several schools in this city are considered good.
I suddenly feel very tired and tired.Father and stepmother have their own lives, we are all grown children and should have our own paths too.But I actually have no vision for the future.
19 is old.
That idiot named Yan Ji came again.
He said that as a sophomore senior, he brought me to get familiar with the familiar environment, and then took me to hang out for a long time, talking about some things.
Even though it's annoying, I still have a soft spot for him.
Just handed me a bottle of water when he saw that I was half dead from military training, and I made up my friend!Although I thought so in my heart, some things he did really surprised me.
For example, bring me breakfast every day, eat lunch with me every day, and go for a walk in the small park of the school after lunch.Over time, when I wondered if he was gay like the guy named Lu Yang and was trying to woo me, he confirmed my thoughts.
That day, we took a walk after dinner again, and when we were tired, we sat down on the lawn, chatting about our respective club activities, and as we talked, he calmed down and kept looking at me.
We looked at each other for a while, I felt that the momentum was wrong, and was about to stand up, but he cupped the back of my head and kissed me.
My heart was beating so fast that I didn't push him away.
I think of the strange feeling that night a few years ago after seeing the man's messy clothes, which is the same as now.
Maybe, I'm gay too.
20 is old.
In the end, this relationship was just my own sinking.
By the time I saw him courting other boys in the same way, it was too late.
I secretly laughed at myself for giving my heart so easily, and I was a complete idiot.I couldn't satisfy Yan Ji's desire, so he found someone else.
I don't know why, but I can't give myself to him.After rejecting his hints again and again, perhaps, he already knew the result and lost interest in me.
For 27 days, I played guitar for him for 27 days, and sang songs I wrote for him for 27 days, to no avail.
If you lose it, you lose it, if you don't want it, you don't want it.
The young boy poured a glass of water on me and grinned with malice and sarcasm.My cheeks were hot, and it seemed that people around me were casting strange glances at me, and I felt their pointing fingers.
The wind is cold at night, but I can't feel it.
All the smiles and smiles of the past became blurred, and all the memories seemed to be blurred into a ball, and then slowly disappeared in the vortex.
I suddenly feel very cold.
I hugged the cold guitar, hard, without any heat, and nothing to warm me up.
stand up and let's go.
It's time to give up.
But I can't stand up.
At this time, someone patted my shoulder. I thought it was Yan Ji, and couldn't help but look up happily. What I saw was a blurry face, not Yan Ji.I tried to see clearly, but my head was dizzy.
"Go home and change your clothes, you should be sick after blowing for a while."
His voice was gentle.
The tip of my nose was sore.Now, there are only strangers who are willing to give me some care.He patted my shoulder again and said something to me, but I didn't hear clearly, my consciousness was quickly pulled away, and I fell down.
When I woke up, I saw a strange environment in front of me, but that face was very familiar to me.
It's that Lu Yang.
The Lu Yang that my sister likes.
I was picked up by him by accident.The kind of temperament on his body always makes people can't help but become relaxed, and I actually plan to hold on for a while.
"You passed out yesterday, and I took you back to my home. If it's convenient, tell me where your home is, and I'll take you back."
Was he so defenseless towards strangers?
"That..." He asked tentatively again.
"Let me lie down for a while, and I'll leave right away." I actually said such shameless words, and felt my cheeks get hot.
His house is very tidy, but a little small.I washed the clothes he gave me, stuffed another 500 yuan, wrote a note, and left.
Recently, my sister seldom watched the surveillance, maybe she let it go slowly over time, and shifted most of her attention to Yang Yang.Huo Guangxia came to look for his sister a few times, but her sister didn't want to see him, so she went to the apartment where Lu Yang lived to buy a house, planning to move there after finishing the decoration.
I didn't know what kind of evil I had, so I opened my sister's notebook.This camera is still working, perhaps with regular replacements.A sense of guilt rushed to my heart, I knew I was doing something wrong, but I still couldn't help looking at the monitor.
A young man appeared at the door of his house and rang the doorbell. I seemed to have guessed something, a little bored, and was about to turn off the computer when the door opened.Lu Yang pulled the man in forcefully, and then slammed the door shut, I knew what they were going to do next.I don't know how long it took until that man came out again.
As soon as I pressed the computer, I couldn't tell what kind of feeling it was.My sister likes this person very much, even to the point of obsession, why is this?How could she like such a person?Is it because of his face?
"How about we try?"
I don't know what kind of mentality I used to say this to him, it seemed like I was following the trend.
Back then, when Yan Ji said similar words to me, was he just playing around?
"Do you know what you're talking about? Kid." He smiled ambiguously, and my heart suddenly beat very fast.I don't know if this feeling is fear, I really want to run away immediately, but I unconsciously approach him.
That day, Yan Ji was also...but...
I touched his lips lightly.
It's over, I want to escape.
Just when I was about to laugh "hahahaha" and run out, he grabbed my head and gave me a deep kiss.
Hold!I've never had anyone stick out my tongue!
"I'm not interested in children, you go back."
Do you just want to express this? !
And you said I was a child? !
"I won't give up, Lu Yang——I remember you."
☆、Leaf Chang perspective 3
It's Yang Yang's birthday, and I planned to buy some gifts for her, but I didn't expect to see Yan Ji and his...boyfriend while walking on the street.
I wanted to hide, but he had seen me.
"Hi." I greeted him.
He smiled at me too.
Then we just passed each other.The boy named Chen Yichen held his hand, turned his head to look at me, and left a mocking smile.I was very sad to see his indifference and the things he did to others that were similar to what he had done with me, as if what belonged to me yesterday disappeared like that today.
I wish Yan Ji could turn around and hold my hand again, but it was impossible for him to do so.
"Come out for a meal." I lowered my head and sent the message, and by the time I regretted it, it was too late.
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"I think you should have been dumped. You want to stimulate your ex by falling in love with me, let him feel your importance, and then chase you back, don't you?"
He poked my scars without hesitation, and all the frustrations that had been revealed in front of him were clearly remembered.I was like a ridiculous clown in front of him.
He can choose a lot of people, and his dashing look makes me jealous.Like a fool, I frequently acted slumped in front of him for a relationship that was gone, and always did things that I didn't even know why I did.
"Extremely childish, she is just a child after all."
And his mother said that I am a child, after all these years, I am still just a child.
I fell into confusion, I don't know if what I said or did was just as he said, to get revenge on Yan Ji.
Under my persecution, he performed a play with me.I once had unrealistic hopes for Yan Ji, but Lu Yang snatched all my attention.
When he touched me, my body was getting hot.I don't want to continue, I don't know what will happen if I let him go.But my body fought against my will, and I actually had a desire for such a move from him.
He handed me a cigarette, and at that moment, Yan Ji was no longer in my mind.
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"Is it possible for me and Yan Ji?"
"I don't feel any pleasure."
These are all the truth, I told him this in the hope that he could tell me the reality, I wanted to try to forget about Yan Ji, put an end to these messy relationships, and return to a normal life.
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If I had known that he was a more dangerous person than Yan Ji, I would have stayed away from him from the very beginning.
When I slammed on that door, it seemed that I had no strength in my whole body.I pressed the elevator button hard, hoping to escape from here immediately.
"Yeah, that's what I need. If you want to give me something, just sleep with me once after the matter is over."
What is he saying?What did he think of me? !
It turns out that he is no different from Yan Ji, I knew it early on, but I still get closer and closer to him, asking for trouble.
I didn't see him, and I didn't send him any more messages.
I want to extinguish the little hope that once ignited in my heart at once, so as not to repeat the same ending again.
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He went to find someone else, this time it was probably a new bed partner.
I sneered for a while, thinking that this cheap self is really ridiculous.
I called him twice and he didn't answer.It's a good thing he didn't answer, otherwise I wouldn't know what to say.
To me, Lu Yang is just a passerby.I do the same with him.
I turned on my phone, scrolled through the news, and suddenly realized that I hadn't deleted Yan Ji, and naturally he hadn't deleted me either.It's just that in his dynamics, there is no bit by bit with his new boyfriend, which is not like his style.
Just set it to make me "invisible".
I opened the private album, and there were more than 100 photos in it, all of which were me and Yan Ji.That trip to a scenic spot, we took a photo together, he made a rabbit ear on my head, and we all laughed happily.
The photo interface disappeared, and it was a call from Lu Yang.
He didn't speak immediately, there was nothing to say between us.After a few seconds, he said: "Yesterday, I'm sorry."
yesterday?Is it what he said yesterday?
He has nothing to apologize for, it's my fault.
I pressed "Back" and the photo appeared in front of my eyes without hanging up the phone.
"Yan Ji... wants to reconcile with me, should I agree to him?"
Oh, how is it possible.
If this is the case, will I still be like now, only looking at the photos alone and recalling those memories that were sweet but now make me painful?
"Promise, don't you like him? Then promise." He answered quickly.
Hurry to get rid of the relationship with me.
What am I thinking.
That man went to his house very often, maybe he was no longer a bed partner.If I continue to read it... I need to show my face.
Why bother with other people's lives.
But that day, I actually received another call from him.
"Come pick me up...I'm at xx hotel...come..."
Why did you ask me to pick him up?
Doesn't he already have a boyfriend?
I felt a little irritable, and just about to hang up the phone, I heard a few coughs coming from over there.He seemed very drunk and spoke incoherently.
Damn, bastard.I put on my coat, picked up the car keys and rushed to the address he said.When he arrived, he was indeed drunk to a pool of mud, and the wine table was also a mess.Many people have been picked up, and there are not many people left.After his colleague knew that I was here to pick him up, he helped him onto my back.
It's fucking heavy, this man.He was already taller than me. Although it was difficult to see through his clothes, the muscles on his body were real and dead.
I threw him on the seat, buckled him up, and went to drive.After a while, the car was filled with the smell of alcohol.
"You really stink." I glanced at him, but he was fast asleep.
When I arrived at his house, I fished for the keys on him for a long time, and finally got him to his bed.I was about to help him take off his coat, but he grabbed my hand.
Is he going to wake up?Wouldn't that be embarrassing.
However, he didn't wake up, and he didn't let go of my hand.His hands were very hot and strong, and there was a thin layer of calluses on the palms.It took me a long time to get his hand off, and I didn't dare to touch him again.Just tuck him in the quilt casually and plan to leave.
Just as I was about to go out, I breathed a sigh of relief, walked back, and deleted the record of calling me tonight from his mobile phone, and accidentally deleted all the records of tonight.Forget it, anyway, he can't remember when he wakes up.
When I left his house, I took a look at the camera.
Still filming.
My sister had a big fight with Huo Guangxia and moved to that apartment completely.I went to help her pack for a few days and found that she didn't bring much.
It's rare for her to have any interest in focusing on one thing, and I do my best to help her.She wanted to decorate her new home more warmly. Although she hadn't lived in the small house for a long time, it was already full of the taste of home.
My sister wanted a full-length mirror in her bedroom, so I went to the market to help her see it.When I was looking for a mirror in the furniture market that could match the style of my sister's new home, I saw Yan Ji again, this time, he was alone.
I didn't bother to think about how to face him, I looked down at my phone, trying to pretend I didn't see him.
Instead, he greeted me.
"Hi." I responded politely and was about to walk away, but he grabbed my arm and asked, "Have dinner together?"
What is he going to do?Crazy.
"Okay." I agreed to him.
I am confused.We had some drinks and somehow he took me to the hotel.I was out of my mind and let him hold me like this.I was pushed onto the bed by him, and before I could get up, he bullied me and pushed me up.
He bit my lip, I looked at the face that made me think about it day and night, grabbed his hair, imitated Lu Yang, and kissed him deeply.
In this case, let's continue to do it.
It's messed up, it's all messed up.
His breathing was very rapid, he was gnawing on my body, and he was muttering something, which I couldn't hear clearly.
He came up again, bit my ear, and called softly a few times: "Xiaochen...Xiaochen..."
I pushed him away violently, slapping him across the face.He was stunned by me, I don't know if he is sober.
"I|fuck|you|mom!" I yelled at him and punched him in the face again.
"Ye Zichang! You are enough!" He was also angry.
I pushed him aside, got dressed, opened the door and rushed out.
Are you all fucking sick? !Is the brain growing in the lower body?
I was running on the street with no direction, and suddenly felt that the street was so long that it had no end.
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☆、Leaf Chang perspective 4
Today is New Year's Eve, and the days go by quickly.
After that day, I wanted to delete everything about Yan Ji, but I couldn't do anything about those photos.Those memories from the past are all real, and they are real and warm me.I looked at the "Are you sure you want to delete the selected photos" prompt, and finally clicked "Cancel".
what do i want
It's fucking funny.
I deleted his social accounts, and all his activities disappeared before my eyes.I'm deceiving myself, the old Yan Ji is still there.
After sending a copy-and-pasted New Year message to all my contacts, I kept refreshing the news. There are many interesting people in my circle. Just watching their random news can make me happy for a long time. Really A bunch of people with an interesting soul.
"Chengcheng! Come and help cook!" My sister poked her head out of the kitchen.
"Okay!" I put down my phone and walked to the kitchen, Yang Yang also followed.As a result, the meal that can be prepared in 10 minutes took twice as long.Although I have tried my best not to make trouble... My sister looked at me with a disgusted expression.
I shrugged helplessly.
She said: "You are not as good as Yangyang."
I laughed and cursed: "Get out."
After eating, my sister thought I was in the way and didn't let me wash the dishes, so I collapsed on the sofa and prepared to fatten up. I took out my mobile phone to check the news, and a photo of instant noodles appeared in front of my eyes.
It was sent by Lu Yang.
[Me on the last day of this year. 】
I couldn't hold it back for a while, and laughed out loud. I just had a meal, and I laughed so hard that my stomach hurts.I went to the kitchen, got some leftovers, put them in a lunch box, and put them in plastic bags. "Yangyang!" I called out, and Yangyang ran in thumpingly: "What are you doing?"
"Take this to your Uncle Lu, does Uncle Lu's family know?"
She nodded and jumped out.
"Is there no food for Lu Yang?" My sister asked beside the sink.
Hearing what she said, I couldn't help laughing again, and said, "Go and see what he posted by yourself."
I found that post, and I haven't watched it for a few minutes, and there are already so many comments.
Oh, so many people are willing to cook for him.
Does it make sense for me to do this?
Not long after, he sent a "thank you", and I felt a little ashamed, and immediately replied "my sister asked me to send it".
I'm so annoying.
When it was almost time for dinner, my sister suddenly asked, "Is Lu Yang celebrating the New Year alone? Why don't you call him to our house?"
"I want to ask you to call it yourself." I threw myself on the sofa and played games.
I just looked up and found that she was changing shoes, and she really went there.
Really awkward, we sat next to each other.
Fortunately, there is Yang Yang who relieves the embarrassment.
Even when I was eating, I couldn't get my mouth in.
Oh shit.
Are you talking so happily?
Lu Yang, can you be so close to anyone?You guys had a great chat.There are so many people around who are willing to care about you, one can come after one leaves.To be honest, I am a little jealous of him, and a little envious of him.
I dragged him out for what reason?Oh, and buy beer.
"What's the matter?" He is the only one who is so indifferent to me, and yes, he already has a boyfriend.
That day, I went to his house to give the so-called gift "from Yan Ji".The boy seemed to like him and cared about him just as much.
"Talk alone." What to talk about, talk, what to talk about.
I was about to chat some other words to ease the embarrassment in front of me.His phone rang.
It's from my boyfriend.
He glanced at me as if showing off, then smiled and continued his flirty chat. "I miss you." As soon as this sentence came out, it was the biggest ridicule to me.
Why does this man see every time I fail?
I was completely crazy, hooked his neck and kissed him.
He pushed me away angrily, and this time, he was really angry.
At that moment, I suddenly wanted to cry.
"Didn't you reconcile with Yan Ji?" He was questioning me.
When I thought of that lie, my heart felt even more tingling. What the hell was I doing? I must be the one who is really sick.
"Yeah, I'm still on good terms with Yan Ji..."
That night was ridiculous.
I did a lot of absurd things, broke the cans, smashed the messy things in my heart that tortured me every day.For a moment, I felt that I was very relaxed, and then I felt that I might as well die immediately.
He was gentle, but despite that, I will never forget the experience of that night.
He is no longer indifferent to me, it seems that after this night, everything has changed.Sure enough, you are the same, what you long for is just the pleasure at that moment.What am I now?His bed partner?
Therefore, he is so gentle to every bed partner.
Sooner or later, I will fall into his tenderness.
But I am afraid that it is impossible for me like this to get his eternal tenderness.If it's just a relationship like going to bed, sooner or later, he will get tired of it.Then I can only walk away, just like with Yan Ji, everything is just a reincarnation, I repeat the same results over and over again.
"You don't care about me, who are you? Didn't you just sleep once? Don't push your nose on your face."
What he said was just angry words, but it was so real and harsh.Didn't you just sleep once?
"Ye Zichang, what am I?" He asked me this question for the first time, pretending to be careless.
I like Yan Ji.
Yes, it was Yan Ji from before.
Don't let me get thrown off again because of another person.
I can not stand it any more.
I hinted to myself again and again, but every time I couldn't help the temptation, I rushed to his warm territory.He seems to be able to confuse people's hearts. Once he has tasted the sweetness, he can't help being addicted.
He likes to hold my hand very much, and every time he pretends to be careless, he wraps my hand quietly.
I like the feeling of him holding my hand, the steady and safe feeling.His hands were not very warm, but after touching me, the warm current seemed to be generated out of nowhere, flowing to my whole body, ravaging my constantly shaking nerves.
He is not only like a reliable partner in love, but also like an elder who always takes care of me.Everything about his frivolity in the past seemed to be an illusion, but now he is the real him in front of my eyes.
He can tolerate my willfulness and unreasonable troubles, and I don't have to be careful by his side.And he occasionally acts like a baby, which makes me deeply doubt who is the kid.
Once, he went to a social event and drank a lot of wine. When I went to pick him up, he kept staring at me, as if he would see me wherever I went.I went to help him up. Although his steps were sloppy, he didn't put too much weight on me. He swayed back and forth as he walked, like a naive goose.
Like the last time I picked him up, I stuffed him into the car, fastened his seat belt, and when I was about to get into the driver's seat, he pulled me onto him.
"You...didn't fasten my seat belt...." His hand was on my back, and I couldn't get up. Standing bent over like this, my back felt a little sore.
"It's okay, are you an idiot?" I struggled to get up, although there were not many people on the road, but I still felt ashamed when I saw it.
His hands clasped my body tightly, the strength in his arms was terrifying.He slurred: "Crack! It's on!" Then he hugged me tighter with his arms.
If this continues, my waist will be broken.
I had no choice but to peck him on the mouth, and coaxed softly: "Yangyang, be good, let go of brother."
It didn't work, he started biting my mouth instead.
I had no choice but to twist his thigh, and leaned closer to him and threatened: "If you don't let go, I'll twist it in the middle."
He changed into an innocent expression and looked at me with his eyes open.
"Fuck! Can't you understand human language?!" It was useless to try hard and soft, I could only yell at him.This time, he finally let go.
Ah, my waist is going to be crippled...
I straightened up and walked around to the driver's seat with my waist supported. When I got in, he was still looking at me with aggrieved eyes.
It's over, this look.
I pulled his head over and kissed his lips vigorously, my tongue was actively stirring inside, touching and entangled with his, and when I was almost out of breath, I let go of him and said with a smile: "That's enough Yet?"
He raised his eyebrows, closed his eyes and fell asleep.
Mouth full of alcohol, don't find out that I'm "drinking"...
When he sat next to me in his tracksuit, I couldn't tell reality from dream.
He obviously had no experience with this major, but he still listened very seriously.His hair is shaggy, not as meticulous as he usually is at work.Wearing the sportswear on him, he was full of vigor and vitality.At that moment, I hoped that he could sit next to me like this every day and accompany me through the days and nights of my university.
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That day, he was very angry.
I've never seen him so angry.The vicious words kept whipping me and making me feel scared.Only then did I know that in his heart, he was also full of insecurity.
What were we before?
Is it really just a bed partner?
When I left, I felt disoriented again.
There is still that sticky feeling on the face, and it stings a little when the wind blows.Another gust of wind blew at me with some dust, and I couldn't open my eyes.
It is said that as long as you shed tears, you can flush the sand out of your eyes.
I squatted down slowly, buried my head in my knees, and cried like no one else was there.
I'm an asshole.
How I wish he could stand behind me, pat me on the shoulder, and smile softly: "Ye Zichang, you're home."
But I let him down.
Every day after that, I was thinking about what kind of feelings I had for him.I am reluctant to leave him, is it just because of the warmth he can give me, or just because of the fear of loneliness after I lose it?
If the answer is yes, I am destined not to be with him for long.
Rather than waiting for the parting to be near, it is better to break it as soon as possible.
I want to fight so much, so much.
But no one came to pick on me, and I was just fucking sulking at myself.
In school, I inadvertently passed by the road that I used to walk with Yan Ji.When I was walking this road alone, there was always someone beside me, and every time I turned my head to look, he would disappear into the void again.
Is it Yan Ji?
I asked myself.
This time I deleted the photos, I clicked "OK" without hesitation, and then I was completely relieved.
The number of times I walked this road was more frequent, and this road that should have been full of memories was blank in my mind.I have forgotten many things that I remembered deeply before, and even this road has become strange.
I have walked many roads, many streets, but I never remember much. One road, once passed, passed, and the things that happened on it also dissipated with forgetting, and no longer existed in my mind.
It has rained, and there is still water on the grass, and even the air is full of the smell of rain.
I want to go back.
Where are you going back?
I turned around, the road was behind me, and standing in front of me was Lu Yang.
He was wearing sportswear, smiling like the sun in midsummer.I realized that it was him who was always by my side.
It is him that I long to stay with me all the time.
"I probably really... fell in love with you."
【THAN】
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☆, the daily life of those four years
"Smooth..."
"Ok?"
"Smooth!"
"Ah."
"Yezi Chang!"
"Ah."
"Do you think you should get up?" Lu Yang wanted to lift Ye Zichang's quilt, but was pulled tightly by Ye Zichang.His whole body was hung on the quilt, this "whole", Lu Yang spent a long time trying to separate them.
"It's agreed to take Yangyang for an outing today." Lu Yang saw that the hard one was useless, so he could only use the soft one, and whispered beside him: "Yangyang is looking forward to today, since yesterday..."
"I can't get up, who is to blame." Ye Zichang's eyes opened a crack, and they closed immediately after a while, turning their backs to Lu Yang.
Lu Yang sighed, got up from the bed, shook his head, and said, "Okay, I'll take Yangyang there, you can sleep at home by yourself."
Yang Yang put on the new little skirt that Lu Yang bought for her, put away the things she wanted to bring, and put them in the little pink schoolbag.Lu Yang walked towards Yang Yang with a smile and helped her comb her hair.
"Where's uncle?"
"Uncle will be here soon."
"Lazy pig."
Lu Yang couldn't hold back, he burst out laughing with a "puchi", and when he looked up, he saw Ye Zichang leaning against the door frame with a dark face.
"Smelly Yangyang, you're talking ill of me again, right?" As he spoke, he walked towards Yangyang, pinched her face, but was kicked by Yangyang.
"Give up, you can't beat Little Princess Yangyang." Lu Yang raised his eyebrows with a mocking smile on his face.
Ye Zichang waved and said, "Come here, let's fight."
"Didn't you fight yesterday?" Lu Yang smiled.Ye Zichang suddenly had nothing to say, wishing to seal Lu Yang's mouth.
"You guys fought yesterday?! Why didn't I know?" Yang Yang suddenly turned his head and was pulled into the braid, "It hurts!"
Lu Yang smiled and said nothing, rubbing Yang Yang's head.
Finally, it was the weekend when both of them were free, and since they hadn't gone out together for a long time, Lu Yang didn't want to waste time at home.Instead of doing nothing at home, why not take your wife and children (?) out to enjoy the scenery of early spring.
It's still early to climb the mountain, and the air I inhale makes my nasal cavity feel irritated.Fortunately, Yang Yang was wearing a small cotton skirt and a pair of not-thin pantyhose, otherwise she would have been yelling cold and refusing to get out of the car.
"I can't walk anymore..." Yang Yang complained.
"Come on, it's almost halfway." Lu Yang slowed down and took Yang Yang's hand.
"Lazy pig." Ye Zichang made a grimace at Yang Yang, Yang Yang stomped his feet angrily, ran towards Ye Zichang, and kicked him.
Just as Lu Yang wanted to speak, they had already run away.
Lu Yang thought to himself: It's nice to be young.
They laughed like this for 10 minutes, and neither of them could move.
Lu Yang turned around and looked at the two exhausted people behind him, showing a helpless smile: "It's only half way."
Ye Zichang raised Erkang's hand: "Hugh...take a break."
Lu Yang had no choice but to take them to a pavilion on the side of the road to rest for a while.
Yang Yang wanted to sit between them, full of childishness.Ye Zichang glanced at Lu Yang, then stood up from the stone bench, went to sit next to Lu Yang.
"Uncle, what are you doing?" Yang Yang asked.
"I had a fight with your Uncle Lu yesterday, and I want him to apologize." The pavilion they were in had its back facing the hillside, so Ye Zichang stretched his hand behind without fear, and pinched Lu Yang's waist.
Lu Yang's expression changed slightly, he didn't say anything, he glanced at the people coming and going on the road, gave up the idea of doing evil, and just scratched Ye Zichang's waist politely.
Yang Yang seemed to have gotten used to the behavior of these two people, and ran to the back of the pavilion to pick flowers and play.
After resting for a while, the three continued to walk up.After a while, Yang Yang seemed to see his classmate and ran over with a smile.
"Oh? It's a little boy?" Ye Zichang stood beside Lu Yang, looking at the little boy. He was a little chubby and looked very cute.Lu Yang laughed twice, and said, "Why are you so on guard, Yang Yang won't run away with others."
Yang Yang and the little boy chatted for a while with a smile, Lu Yang and Ye Zichang also greeted the little boy's parents, and started chatting by the way, although it was just to respond to the topic of the little boy's mother.
After chatting for a while, Yang Yang turned around and said to Lu Yang, "Uncle Lu, I want to go to Xiao Nuo's house to play."
The little boy echoed: "My house is so much fun!"
Lu Yang smiled and said, "Will it trouble you?"
The little boy's mother said: "Come on, so that Xiao Nuo won't have any companions at home, it's only fun when the kids are together, right?"
Lu Yang glanced at Ye Zichang, and Ye Zichang agreed first: "Okay."
"Who said just now that Yang Yang wouldn't run away with someone?" Ye Zichang raised his eyebrows and said.
Yang Yang had already followed the little boy, leaving Lu Yang and Ye Zichang staring at each other on the road.
"Let's go." Lu Yang took Ye Zichang's hand, intending to continue on the road.
The sun has come out, the sun shines through the dense shade of the trees, and sprinkles on the cement road for tourists to go up the mountain, and the mountain gradually becomes warmer.There were many people on the road, looking at those gray-haired old people who insisted on exercising, Lu Yang only felt admiration.
"Tell me, when we get old, can we still be as energetic as them?" Lu Yang asked.
"You have to be more energetic than them." Ye Zichang squeezed Lu Yang's hand, and said, "I want to drink water." Lu Yang took out a bottle of mineral water from his backpack and handed it to Ye Zichang, who Said: "Unscrew it for me."
"Are you a little princess?" Lu Yang couldn't help laughing, while twisting the bottle cap for Ye Zichang.
"When you get old, I'll help you unscrew it." Ye Zichang raised his head to drink enough water, and then handed the bottle to Lu Yang.After Lu Yang took it, he also took a few sips, and deliberately licked the place where Ye Zichang drank, and said, "I'm not much older than you."
"Old fox." Ye Zi said with a smile.
After returning home from the mountain, Lu Yang went into the kitchen to cook, Ye Zichang also followed.
"You go out." Lu Yang showed a look of disgust.
"Teach me how to cook." Ye Zichang took out the apron and tied it on Lu Yang.
"Forget it, it's good if you know how to fry tomato scrambled eggs." Lu Yang washed the dishes, took out the cutting board, and prepared to chop the vegetables.
"You want to cook for me for the rest of your life?"
"I admit it, I can't starve you."
Ye Zichang hugged Lu Yang from behind, his chin just rested on Lu Yang's shoulder.Now, the man's collar smells of clean, crisp laundry detergent, and some remnants of men's perfume from work.His back is strong and broad, and when you lean on it, it is immediately reassuring.
"Aren't you going to take the postgraduate entrance examination? Go study." His voice was very low, with a slight smile.
Ye Zichang slowly let go of the hands holding him, and walked a few steps backwards.How many people have seen Lu Yang busy in the kitchen?
I'm the only one who's seen it.
Ye Zichang thought so.
Ye Zichang went back to the study and took out a box in the drawer, which contained some unattractive cookies.
Lu Yang likes to eat sweets.
Lu Yang doesn't like others to give him expensive things.
Ye Zichang always remembered.
Ye Zichang always wanted to give something to Lu Yang, so he made these cookies himself.Ugly is a bit ugly, but after all, it is made according to the tutorial, and the taste is actually not bad.
When preparing for lunch, he carefully took out the box and placed it in front of Lu Yang's desk, his eyes wandering
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