I lost my memory after throwing the ball and running over the total crematorium

On the first day of April, He Jingnian was taken to a place by the voice of Yuan Ci.

Shen family.

There, He Jingnian met Shen Peng and Zhuang Manyin.

He was more relaxed than he imagined, and he even accepted his life experience calmly, as if he knew it a long time ago.

Surrounded by the Shen family, He Jing felt the feeling of being with his mother when he was a child for a long time.Although he is not used to it yet, he can tell that they love him very much.Especially Zhuang Manyin, she was very emotional. She rushed up to say the original speech, but when she saw him standing there, she suddenly burst into tears.

Only a mother who truly loves her child will shed so many tears for her child.

"Niannian, I was wrong too. I won't force you like that in the future. I won't ask you to change your name, and... I won't let you call me mom right away." Zhuang Manyin hugged him tightly, "As long as I can see that you are healthy and safe, and I don't care about anything else, and I don't need anything."

——Niannian, you are my mother’s sunflower. Seeing you is like seeing the sun. Only when the sun shines can my mother be happy.

Are all mothers like this?As long as your child is safe and healthy, there is nothing else you want.

He Jingnian thought about it, and it seemed that it was more than that. My mother often wanted more.

We want our children to study hard, get good grades, get into a good school, find a good job, and lead a good life.

I once asked my mother, can't I go to the market after going to bed later?Going to the stall so early every day is really hard work.However, my mother said, no way, because that is the time when the nearby residents come out to buy vegetables, and the business is the best.

My mother said that she wanted to sell all the fish and earn a little more money. With the money, she could go to school for each year and buy delicious food, milk, chocolate, and big cakes for each year.Oh, and also, Niannian's shoes are very old, so I have to buy another pair of good sneakers, as other children have, Niannian also needs to have them.

Mother is very greedy, she always wants her children to have many things.

My mother is also very stingy. I tried and tried the 50 yuan string of plastic gemstone necklaces, and finally put them back in their original place.

Bright gems, small shiny stones, rolling down from the fingertips and falling on the green grass, are sugar.

He picked up a candy, and someone thought he liked candies, so they brought all the candies in their pockets to him.

It turned out that at that time, God had already sprinkled hints at his feet.

The sound of "baby" did not mean that he had misunderstood him, but that he had been recognized from the very beginning.

——Mom, there are so many people on the playground, can you see me clearly when you stand so far away?

——Of course, no matter where or when, my mother can see Nian Nian at a glance.

He Jingnian twitched his eyelashes, and many pictures appeared in his mind, about the woman in front of him, about his mother.Those jumping chaotic pictures gradually overlapped and gradually became clear, as long as you stretch out your hand, you can touch it.

"Are you really... my mother?"

Zhuang Manyin wanted to nod, but looking at him, she suddenly seemed to lose her courage, but she shed more tears.

For so many years, her courage seems to be inexhaustible. Everyone tacitly agrees that Shen Tangyu will never be found again, and it is not even known whether she is still alive.Only she doesn't believe it, doesn't admit it, doesn't accept it.

People around her thought she was sick, but she knew she wasn't. She was just resisting, resisting the reality of losing her child, and resisting the world without Xiao Yu.She wants her child, she wants her child, and no one can take away her right to be with her child.

But now, all her courage disappeared in an instant, and she couldn't answer He Jingnian's question.

She could only say: "I'm sorry. I didn't take good care of you, I'm sorry."

He Jingnian's heart felt like a needle prick.

"You and my mother are very similar."

With tears in her eyes, Zhuang Manyin asked, "Is she nice to you?"

"Okay." He Jingnian's throat was choked, and he could only blow out fiery air to make mouth shapes, "She loves me so much, loves me very much, she is the person who loves me the most in this world."

"It's fine... It's fine." Zhuang Manyin wanted to laugh, but cried even more fiercely, "She also regards you as a baby, right? As the most important baby, right?"

He Jingnian nodded desperately, tears trickled down his cheeks and gathered into drops on his chin.Zhuang Manyin raised her hand to wipe his tears. Her white and beautiful hands were flawless and exuded a faint fragrance. They were completely different from her mother's hard-working hands, but had exactly the same temperature.

Zhuang Manyin just stared at him dazedly, and he also stared at Zhuang Manyin. They both saw the person they had been thinking about day and night in each other's eyes.

"Every year."

——every year.

"Mom loves you."

- "Mom loves you"

The time of more than ten years collapsed into a very small point, submerged in the falling tears.

He Jingnian fell into Zhuang Manyin's arms, slowly, very strangely, for too long, really too long since he was hugged by his mother, so long that he couldn't remember the feeling of being loved by his mother.

Zhuang Manyin gently stroked the hair on the back of his head, "From now on, Niannian will never be alone again, Niannian is a child with a mother, and her mother will protect you and hold you in the palm of her hand like your other mother Be a baby."

"However, I haven't been a mother for too long, so I must not do as well as her. But, I will learn, as long as it is for you, I can do anything."

"At least, every year, with mother, you can be a child forever without taking any responsibility, and you can act like a baby as you want."

He Jingnian leaned against this warmth, chanted to Zhuang Man, and also to He Wenxiu, slowly closed his eyelashes, and said in a low voice, "Thank you, mother."

After looking forward to it for more than ten years, finally he could hear his child call "Mom" for real. Zhuang Manyin wept with joy and was so happy that he didn't know how to love his baby.However, when he caught a glimpse of the man who had been silently watching He Jingnian, his joy gradually cooled down, and his face gradually hardened.

He Jing said in a young voice: "Mom, you just accept him."

Zhuang Manyin's heart suddenly softened, but she was really embarrassed.She has already seen Yuan Cisheng's terrifying attachment, this attachment can no longer simply be called love, if he continues to disagree with him being with He Jingnian, God knows what crazy things he will do.

However, she really couldn't nod.When she thought that her child would spend her whole life with such a man, she was afraid for him.

"Let's eat first." Zhuang Manyin took He Jingnian's hand, "Have a good meal with mom. Your father and I have been looking forward to this reunion dinner for years."

On the dining table, there are a lot of rich dishes, each one is made according to He Jingnian's taste.However, there was no tableware for Yuan Cisheng on such a long dining table, and there was not even his chair beside it.

He Jingnian quietly tugged on the hem of Yuan Cisheng's clothes, motioning him to sit on his side, but Zhuang Manyin quickly pushed him onto the chair.

"Manyin, don't do this." Shen Peng couldn't help but said, "Today is such a good day, don't pursue the past, everyone has their own difficulties. Besides, isn't Niannian much better now? He can stand in front of us in good spirits, thanks to Ci Sheng's care of him."

Zhuang Manyin glanced at him, "Why do you like to speak for him so much, huh? You spoke for him when he took Niannian away without saying a word, and now you speak for him! Since you can understand him so well , then the two of you go out and live alone. Me and Niannian, our mother and I live better without you!"

Shen Peng was angry, but he didn't dare to be angry, he just said: "I was wrong, so I won't say anything, okay?"

"I didn't let you talk in the first place." To her husband, Zhuang Manyin frowned coldly, but when he saw He Jingnian, his eyes were full of tenderness. "Niannian, what do you want to eat? Mom will make it for you."

He Jingnian was holding the rice bowl, chewing the delicious meal, but he couldn't taste it at all, and he was so overwhelmed by the meal.He had been thinking about what to say so that Zhuang Manyin could accept the original speech, but Zhuang Manyin really wanted to know his thoughts, so he never gave him the chance to say it.

In the evening, Zhuang Manyin saw that the original speech still had no intention of leaving, so he took the initiative to issue an order to evict the guest.The original voice didn't insist here, and left after politely saying goodbye.She turned to look at He Jingnian, sure enough, He Jingnian was looking at his back with reluctance in his eyes.

She sighed secretly.

He Jingnian temporarily stayed at Shen's house.The Shen family kept his room all the time, as if they were waiting for him to come back anytime.The room is warmly and beautifully furnished. Considering that he is pregnant now, the big bed is especially soft and comfortable, lying on it is like being trapped in a soft cloud.

However, He Jingnian tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.Accustomed to the solid feeling of being hugged by a man every night, he is now wrapped in the quilt by himself, feeling cold all over and empty in his heart.

He simply got up and got out of bed. He walked to the window to look at the scenery outside. Zhuang Manyin specially arranged his room in the best location. Outside the window was a beautiful garden with cherry blossoms floating in the dark night.

The wind blows in the spring night, and the petals fall like a shower.

He Jingnian saw, across the fence of the courtyard, Yuan Cisheng was standing there, looking up in his direction.Snow-white face, messy curly hair, the night is so dark and so dark, but there is a glimmer of light in his eyes.

A sour hot air gushed out of his throat, and even his chest seemed to be blocked by something hot.Until now, he seems to have suddenly realized that he likes the original speech voice much more than he imagined.I like it, I like it very much, I like it beyond measure.

Now, he is in his real home, longing for a warm home for a long time, his parents love him very much, but the original words are not there, and he can't stand it for just one night.He wanted to run down immediately, without shoes on, just flew into his arms with bare feet.

"Every year."

He Jingnian didn't seem to hear it.

"Niannian." The voice sounded louder again.

Only then did He Jingnian come back to his senses in a daze. Zhuang Manyin was looking at him with a gentle and sad smile on his face.

"Why don't you sleep so late?"

"I can't sleep..." He Jingnian said in a low voice, his mind was in a mess, thinking about the original speech.I don't know if he has gone back, don't just stand there stupidly.

"Come on, come to Mom." Zhuang Manyin waved to him, He Jingnian leaned into her arms, Zhuang Manyin lowered his head, and kissed his hair, "What are you thinking?"

He Jingnian shook his head.

"Niannian, I am your mother, you can tell me whatever is on your mind, and I am willing to listen to whatever you say." Zhuang Manyin squeezed his shoulders, and was quiet for a while, "Do you just like that person so much?"

He Jingnian was taken aback for a moment, his face slowly turned red.

Zhuang Manyin sighed, "I really don't understand, what do you like about him?"

He Jingnian thought for a while, blushed and muttered, "He...is just fine."

Zhuang Manyin blurted out, "What's so good about it?"

"He... has a very good personality, gentle and kind, very cheerful, likes to make friends, everyone likes him very much." He Jingnian couldn't help showing an intoxicated smile, "Besides, he is very caring, He especially likes small animals. He told me that he has a curly-haired puppy, which wags when he walks, and is extremely cute.”

Zhuang Manyin's expression gradually became strange, "Niannian, what are you talking about?"

"Huh?" He Jingnian looked at her in a daze.

Zhuang Manyin hugged him again, pondered for a moment, and said: "Niannian, let me make a random analogy. If you are dreaming now, everything is fine in the dream, but what if one day, you wake up from the dream?" , you find that the reality is completely different from the dream, that person, the original speech said he...is not the same as you imagined, then what should you do?"

He Jingnian was a little puzzled, "How could it be different?"

Zhuang Manyin was silent for a long time before opening his mouth: "Every year, more than ten years have passed, you have grown up, and he has also grown up."

He Jingnian smiled and nodded, "I know."

"I mean..." Zhuang Manyin moved her lips, but looking at He Jingnian's eyes full of happiness, she finally endured the rest of the words, and only asked him, "Niannian, you are with him, Are you really happy?"

"Happy." He Jingnian curled his lips, "As long as I see him, I'm happy. I don't even need to meet him. As long as I think of him, I'm happy."

Zhuang Manyin touched his cheek, "As long as you are happy, mom will be happy. Mom just wants you to live well."

"I know." He Jingnian was slightly embarrassed, but said firmly, "I also really want to be with him, and I don't want to be separated from him for the rest of my life."

When he was talking, Zhuang Manyin kept staring at him, and at the end, he sighed slowly, "Okay, Mom knows it all."

She hugged He Jingnian into her arms and stroked his hair, "What should I do? Mom really has nothing to do with you."

The next day, Yuan Ci's voice came, holding his daughter in one hand, and carrying a gift in the other, dragging his family and his family, looking like a son-in-law coming to the door.

Shen Peng dared not open the door for him, for fear of being scolded by Zhuang Man.Fortunately, Zhuang Manyin came out by himself, with a tense expression on his face.

Shen Pengjin looked at the two nervously, and whispered to his wife: "Don't get excited, just talk if you have something to say."

Zhuang Manyin glanced at him, not angry but pretentious.

"Grandma." At this moment, Gao Gao stretched out her chubby arms towards Zhuang Manyin, and said sweetly, "Hug."

Zhuang Manyin's expression changed a few times, but he softened, and carried the little girl in his arms.

Seeing that Yuan Cisheng followed up naturally, Shen Peng secretly breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that it's okay, it's okay, father depends on daughter.

He Jingnian was overjoyed when he saw the original speech, but he didn't dare to appear too happy.After all, just because Zhuang Manyin was willing to let him in, it didn't mean he was really accepted.

For fear of embarrassment, Shen Peng said that GaoGao had just finished school from kindergarten, so he must be hungry, so why not eat first, and talk at the dinner table if there is anything to do.

"Okay, that's fine, how about letting Xiao Yuan show us something?" Zhuang Manyin took a sip of tea leisurely, "It's not so easy to be our son-in-law, and there are all the rules that should be followed. You can go up and down the hall The kitchen is the most basic…”

Before he finished speaking, Yuan Cisheng had already rolled up his sleeves, put on his apron, and walked towards the kitchen proactively.

He Jingnian stood up and wanted to help him, but Zhuang Manyin pressed him down, "What are you doing, mom is helping you to make rules for him."

Shen Peng was helpless, "What age is it, why do you still engage in feudal things?"

Zhuang Manyin glanced at him.

As expected of Shen Peng, who has been disciplined for many years, he immediately stopped talking.

"Grandma, hug me." Gao Gao tugged at Zhuang Manyin's sleeve.

Zhuang Man chanted "hey" and hugged the little girl to his lap, thinking that the boy in the original speech could do it well, raising the girl to be fat and white.

"Grandma, grandma, does GaoGao's dress look good?"

Zhuang Manyin smiled and narrowed his eyes, "It's pretty."

"Is the cake's bow pretty?"

"It's beautiful."

"Is the little bunny cute?"

Zhuang Manyin kissed her little cheek, "It's pretty, all of them are pretty."

Gao Gao blinked her big eyes, "It's all made by Dad."

Zhuang Manyin's expression froze for a moment.

He Jing coughed young, "He is also in charge of the children's homework."

Zhuang Manyin stopped talking, and said bluntly after a while: "It should."

Yuan Cisheng finished dinner in a shorter time than everyone expected. He lifted the silver plate cover one by one, seven dishes, one soup, and two desserts.

Zhuang Manyin was like a strict supervisor, observing the past carefully one by one.

She is a person who has very high requirements for food, clothing, housing and transportation. The cook and pastry chef hired by the family are all Michelin-starred.Looking at the dishes made by Yuan Cisheng, they are indeed very beautiful in appearance, not inferior to those at home, and the appearance control is quite satisfactory.

Shen Peng has already boasted first.

She glared at her husband dissatisfied, what is the hurry, I don't know how it tastes.Picking up a chopstick and putting it in her mouth, she savored it carefully, and finally came to a conclusion reluctantly: All right, pass the level.

"Come on, Cisheng, you have worked hard. You have been busy until now. Sit down, let's eat." Shen Peng was afraid that his wife would say something like "son-in-law cannot eat at the table at our house", so he hurriedly greeted Yuancisheng sit down.

Yuan Ci sat down in a dignified manner, ate politely, and only picked up the food in front of him.Taking advantage of Zhuang Manyin's inattention, He Jingnian secretly picked up a piece of ribs for him.

Shen Peng watched silently from the side, thinking it was really strange, how could Yuan Cisheng, such a powerful figure in the business world, come into their house like a bitch-in-law?

After a meal, it's getting late.Zhuang Manyin only said that he would stay here to live here, and he didn't speak a word to Yuan Cisheng during the whole process.Yuan Ci said goodbye to them, and when he was about to leave, He Jingnian quietly followed him, hugged him, and stroked his hair to express his comfort.

The original speech said: "Kiss me."

He Jingnian leaned up and kissed him on the cheek.

"On the other side too."

He Jingnian kissed him again.

"GaoGao wants to kiss you too." GaoGao found them, and ran over quickly, successfully attracting Zhuang Manyin who was about to feed her fruit.

The atmosphere was a little awkward for a while.

He Jingnian rushed away with a red face, "Okay, okay, you can go back, be careful on the road."

Yuan Ci's voice didn't move, he turned his head and looked at Zhuang Manyin, with hesitation in his eyes.

"What's the matter?" Zhuang Manyin asked, "Speak up if you have something to say."

The original speech fell silent, and the knuckles slowly clenched into fists. "I want to talk to you." He looked straight at Zhuang Manyin, "Just you and me, let's talk alone."

He Jingnian didn't know what Yuancisheng and Zhuang Manyin were talking about. Anyway, the two talked for a long time that night.When he came out of the room, Zhuang Manyin's eyes were very red and swollen. When he saw him, he almost shed tears again.

He Jingnian was very worried, thinking that there was some conflict between the two of them again, but Zhuang Manyin only said that he told her what had happened in the past few days, which made her feel distressed.Moreover, what was even more unexpected was that after this night, Zhuang Manyin seemed to gradually accept the original voice.Of course the relationship can't be said to be very good, but they also tacitly agree that he is their son-in-law.

He Jingnian asked Zhuang Manyin secretly why she changed her voice from the original speech.

"It hasn't changed. Until now, I still don't think he is suitable for you." Zhuang Manyin was silent, "But, every year, you have to believe that everything he does now is to hope that you can be less More sorrow, more happiness, even if there may still be unavoidable ups and downs in the future."

A few days later, the Shen family held an unprecedentedly grand banquet, announcing grandly that the long-lost young master Shen Tangyu had finally returned.At the banquet, He Jingnian naturally became the focus of attention, surrounded by the guests in front of the towering crystal champagne tower, surrounded by stars.

Everyone looked at him and couldn't help but envy him.In Yuan's family, he was already the treasure held in the palm of Yuan Ci's voice like pearls and jade, and now he has transformed into the real young master of Shen's family.Their circle is also divided into ranks, and they have always thought that he is a sparrow climbing a high branch, but they don't think that he is a phoenix, the existence of the tip of the pyramid, the more expensive the more expensive, the more expensive it is.

In the second half of the banquet, Shen Tangfeng came.He rushed back from abroad overnight, full of travel and dust.These years, Shen Peng has to take care of his wife, look for children, and devote a lot of energy to the business field, which is really difficult. Fortunately, Shen Tangfeng has been helping to take care of it.Now, Shen Peng has handed over several of the most important companies of the Shen family to him, letting him do his business.

Zhuang Manyin had no objection to this.After all, those properties belonged to the Shen family, not her natal family, and the final decision rested with the husband.And she understands her husband's hard work over the years, and his consideration of handing over the business to a suitable successor.

Most importantly, Niannian has returned.Now that every year and everything is enough, her heart can be relaxed, and she doesn't have to hold back her heart all the time.She can finally let go of the fact that Shen Peng brought Shen Tangfeng home back then.

Zhuang Manyin rubbed the corners of her eyes lightly, making the blurred vision clear again.She saw that Shen Tangfeng was standing there upright, and Shen Peng was asking him about his business abroad.The young man's back is tall and straight, and his side face shows a calm expression, and he can't see the shadow of the black and thin monkey-like boy at all.

The kids are all grown up.

"Tangfeng." She called out.

Shen Tangfeng turned his head and walked towards her, "Mom, what's wrong?"

Zhuang Manyin smiled and shook his head, "It's nothing, I just want to tell you that you must take care of your body even after you are busy with work."

Shen Tangfeng was slightly taken aback, "Yes, I will."

Zhuang Manyin looked at him, "Many things have changed. We can only let the past pass. I hope you can continue to be like this. Looking forward, your father has high expectations for you. You must Don't let him down."

Shen Tangfeng showed his usual light smile, "I know."

"There are some things that won't change." Zhuang Manyin paused, "Even if Nian Nian has come back now, you are still a child of our family."

"Tang Feng, thank you for being by our side these past ten years."

The smile on Shen Tangfeng's face slowly disappeared, replaced by an indescribable emptiness, as if he didn't know what expression to make at this moment.

Zhuang Manyin put her arms around his shoulders, and gave him a light hug, "I have something to say, not only to your elder brother, but also to you."

Shen Tangfeng moved his thin lips, "What?"

"Welcome home."

Shen Tangfeng twitched his crow's eyelashes, and with a trembling hot voice, for the first time, he spoke the truth to this woman who had raised him for more than ten years.

"Why can't it be me?"

"When I was young, I wished I was your real child. I wanted to be Shen Tangyu. I asked myself countless times, why can't it be me?"

"Now, why can't it still be me?"

"Why... the original speech..."

Zhuang Manyin condensed his fingers slightly, but still lifted them up, stroking his hair strangely.

"Even if your father and I didn't lose Niannian at the beginning, I think we would be willing to let you be a child of this family."

"So, there's no reason why it can't be you. On the contrary, we all feel good because it's you."

Shen Tangfeng's pitch-black pupils trembled, and gathered a clear light again.It was words full of tenderness and kindness that he had never heard before, but it made his eyes almost wet when it fell into his ears.

"I'm sorry." He apologized in a low voice, each word rolling over the tip of his tongue heavily, to his parents, and to the lover who had never been his lover.

When He Jingnian came over, he saw Shen Tangfeng staring at him deeply, and said with red circles, "It's good to have you back, brother."

It sounded like a well-intentioned sentence that would be said during a big reunion, but He Jingnian felt that he was about to cry in a second.

"I don't know why, but I seem to be more used to you calling me Niannian." He Jingnian smiled shyly, "If you don't mind, I still hope you can call me Niannian, is that okay?"

"Every year."

Shen Tangfeng did as he did, and the moment he yelled out, it really felt like a shocking year, and tears welled up in his black eyes.

"That's great, every year."

He Jingnian asked him in a daze, "What's so good?"

"Finally, it's great to be with the person I really like." Shen Tangfeng held back his tears, showing the usual clear smile, "Niannian, bless you, it's great to finally wait for Liao Xia."