half blind

After hanging up the phone, Zhou Nanchen asked, "Are you hungry?"

"It's okay, how about you?" Zhang Qing put the phone back in his pocket.

"A little bit. Shall I take you to something to eat?"

Zhang Qing smiled, "Aren't you going to cook yourself?"

"It's already ordered, and it will take another hour to buy and cook. I'm afraid you won't be able to handle it." Zhou Nanchen pointed to the front of the road, "There is a delicious home-cooked food in front, I promise, It tastes as good as mine."

"I've never seen someone so shameless like you in my life." Zhang Qing laughed.

The two walked towards the shop not far away, the sun at noon in spring was overhead, it was warm and comfortable.

"To be honest, I really didn't expect you to agree to fight with that group of people."

"I'll give you some face." Zhou Nanchen said, "If I don't follow along, they will probably ask you to drag me."

"Yes." Zhang Qing smiled.

After all, Zhou Nanchen is not the Zhou Nanchen he was in high school.If it were him in high school, he wouldn't think of the ways of the world at all, he would definitely do his own way, and he wouldn't care about other people's face or not.

"I didn't want to come at all." Zhang Qing sighed, "I really don't know where Yin Ling and the others get so much strength every day. They can still play until now after dancing all night. I'm going to lose my head after staying all morning."

"It's really not good if you don't come. When the filming starts, everyone else will get to know each other well. If you don't know anyone, it will be troublesome."

Zhang Qing looked at Zhou Nanchen in surprise, and the latter felt uncomfortable, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay." Zhang Qing made a movement of shaving his eyebrows, "I just want to 'impress' you."

Zhou Nanchen smiled.

The restaurant is not too far away, just a few steps away.Zhou Nanchen pushed open the store door, there were quite a few people eating in the store, and the business was booming.

"Hey, are you here?" The proprietress obviously recognized Zhou Nanchen, wiped her hands on the apron, and hurried over, "I haven't seen you for a long time, and I'm bringing friends to eat today?"

"Ah."

"Sit first, sit first, I'll get you the menu and see what you want to eat."

Zhang Qing and Zhou Nanchen sat down face to face, Zhang Qing couldn't see clearly, the menu naturally came to Zhou Nanchen.

"Two signature flavored eggplants."

Zhang Qing was taken aback, and said in a low voice, "Don't order it for me, I don't like eggplant very much."

Zhou Nanchen raised his lips: "Do you want to make a bet?"

Zhang Qing was taken aback, "What bet?"

"I bet you like the flavored eggplant from this store." Zhou Nanchen looked very confident.

"Okay." Zhang Qing laughed, "If you lose, give me a whole table full of Chinese people tonight."

Zhou Nanchen couldn't help laughing, "You are really persistent."

"Of course." Zhang Qing nodded seriously.

"Then if you lose." Zhou Nanchen thought for a while and said, "Just sign it for me."

"So simple?" Zhang Qing was a little surprised.

"Well, just sign it."

It didn't take long for two dishes to be served.Zhang Qing looked a little surprised at the things on the plate, they didn't look like eggplants at all.

"Taste it." Zhou Nanchen broke off the chopsticks.

Zhang Qing put a piece of crispy fried eggplant into his mouth, and the aroma permeated the whole mouth, making him almost swallow his tongue.

"How?" Seeing Zhang Qing's expression, Zhou Nanchen knew he had won.

Zhang Qing reluctantly swallowed the piece just now, "Damn it, is this eggplant? You must be lying to me."

"I didn't lie to you, take another bite."

Zhang Qing took another chopstick and tasted it this time, "Is it eggplant skin?"

"clever."

No wonder it's so delicious, and it doesn't have the eggplant flavor that he hates, Zhang Qing was so convinced.

"Okay, I admit defeat." Zhang Qing swallowed the eggplant in his mouth, took out a signature pen from his pocket, pulled out a napkin, signed something on it, and pushed it over, "Okay. "

Looking at the crumpled napkin, Zhou Nanchen was a little speechless, "Is this just perfunctory?"

"Who is perfunctory to you?" Zhang Qing said proudly, "After you put it away, you can still sell it for a lot of money on Hangxianyu."

Zhou Nanchen was speechless, and silently packed up the crumpled tissues.

During the meal, there was a little girl who was supposed to be the daughter of the proprietress. She was sitting on a small bench, holding a remote control in her hand and kept changing the TV station in front of her.

She changed more than a dozen channels in one go, but she couldn't find one she was satisfied with. Zhang Qing listened to various intermittent sounds coming from the TV while eating.

I don't know how long it took, but the little girl was finally satisfied and stopped on a variety show.

This time the voice from the TV almost made Zhang Qing bite his tongue.

"Speaking of which, everyone here today seems to be single. Is there any short story about first love that you can share with us?"

Fuck?Zhang Qing was a little shocked and turned his gaze to the TV in front of him. He couldn't see the picture on the TV clearly, he could only hear the voices of the people on the program.

However, his memory is unmistakable, this is a variety show that he himself recorded.At that time, the show talked a lot about first love and love. There were three groups of guests plus him, and the other two groups were much more famous than him, so most people didn't pay attention to him.

"Don't laugh, I was innocent at that time, and I even folded little stars for that boy." The female guest on the field said lively, "Then when I got angry, I poured it all down the toilet."

There was a lot of laughter on the show, and a piece of relaxing music was added later, the male guest immediately interjected and said, "He must regret it now."

The host shifted the topic to Zhang Qing, "Then what kind of story does Qingqing know?"

Zhang Qing still remembers that the day when the program was recorded was very cold and there was moderate snow falling outside.

Unfortunately, the air conditioner in the recording studio was broken, so a group of people had to record the program with smiles on their faces while enduring the cold.

That day Zhang Qing kept holding his arms in his seat and caught a cold after returning home.Later when the show started, Zhang Qing saw himself in the camera, and felt rather lonely than cold.

"When I was in high school, I actually fell in love for a while." Zhang Qing said embarrassedly.

A certain guest on the same stage whistled, and everyone turned their playful eyes on Zhang Qing.

"Hey, what are you doing?" Zhang Qing pointed at the guest jokingly, "Pretending to be so innocent, it's like you haven't even dated in high school."

"Normal, normal." Another guest said with a smile, "The relationship at that time was the best."

"I don't know which girl is so lucky." The host laughed.

"It's amazing to say that I first met him online, and after chatting for a while, I found out that he is actually my classmate." Zhang Qing rubbed the bridge of his nose embarrassedly, "Anyway, it's a coincidence. It’s kind of like the plot of a novel.”

"It's romantic." Someone teased.

"We have been together for two years, quite a long time." Zhang Qing smiled, "I didn't know who told the teacher about us. Anyway, I still don't know who said it. Because at the time I only told two or three good friends about it.”

Everyone suddenly stopped talking when they heard this, and the jokes disappeared. Everyone was listening to Zhang Qing's speech carefully, and the studio suddenly became quiet.

"After the teacher found out, he ran to find our parents. My parents beat me up when they found out. They didn't let me go out for a month. Later, I climbed out of the window and ran out. After I ran out, I went to find As for him, he couldn’t get through on his cell phone, and there was no one at home, and he couldn’t be found anywhere. I didn’t know he had transferred to another school until school started, and I didn’t know where he transferred to.”

The silence in the studio lasted for another two or three seconds before the host asked, "Then you guys..."

"I haven't met since then, and I don't know why he ran away without saying anything." Zhang Qing smiled, "I didn't contact him after that, and I gradually forgot about it."

"Ah, what a pity." The guest said regretfully, "This is too... how to say that word, 'difficult to understand'."

Zhang Qing suddenly felt that his chest was terribly tight, he couldn't sit here anymore, he felt that he would go crazy if he stayed there for another second.

When he stood up, he was startled by the loud noise made by his desk and chair.

"Zhang Qing." Zhou Nanchen also stood up immediately, stretched out his hand as if trying to grab his arm, but endured it, and finally put it down, "You..."

"I'm going to the toilet." Zhang Qing said succinctly, "Don't follow me."

He didn't give Zhou Nanchen a chance to refuse, so he turned around and walked inside.Because the speed was too fast, he staggered and almost tripped over the stairs.

"Oh, be careful." The proprietress was taken aback by Zhang Qing as she was carrying the dishes for an unknown table, "The toilet is at the corner of the upstairs corridor."

But Zhang Qing didn't even have the mood to respond, and went straight upstairs.Before he walked into the bathroom, tears rolled down from his eyes uncontrollably.

He lied on the show.

Countless times, every minute, every second, he wished he could forget him.

Every minute, every second, he wished that he would no longer recall that midsummer night, no longer recall every day and night he had experienced with him, and no longer take the knife named Zhou Nanchen to his heart. goug out.

Have you ever had a heart-piercing pain just thinking of someone's name?

Zhang Qing supported the edge of the sink with both hands, shedding tears while feeling as if his lungs were about to be emptied.

For a moment, Zhang Qing felt that he was like a machine running under load. The long years had punched holes in his body. Now, he was so fragile that he could no longer turn.

Not long after, the toilet door was pushed open.

"Go out." Zhang Qing's first voice was a little hoarse.

The person who walked in did not move.

"Get out!" Zhang Qing raised his voice, and the second voice was loud and powerful.

Zhou Nanchen opened his mouth, "Zhang Qing..."

"Don't fucking call me!" Zhang Qing was furious, and pushed Zhou Nanchen hard, "You can't finish! You have to follow me when I fucking piss, are you a stalker?"

Zhou Nanchen didn't speak.

"Did you come to see my joke?" However, Zhang Qing couldn't stop like a brake failure, and said like a machine gun, "You came to see how I cried like a fool about what happened six or seven years ago? That's fine. , look, watch enough! See how this idiot is crying for you, ah!"

Zhang Qing felt ashamed. He had lived half of his life, and he had never been so embarrassed in his twenty years of life.If there was a crack in the ground right now, he thought he could slip through it until the end of the world.

Zhang Qing actually hoped that Zhou Nanchen could say something, even if he got angry, or even fought him.But he was silent, for a while, only Zhang Qing was breathing clearly in the small space.

In fact, Zhang Qing has always hated Zhou Nanchen's silence.

It's not that he hates his character.He can understand that a person who loves painting does not like to socialize with others, and he also respects that many people often remain silent in groups because of their introverted personality and poor speech.

But Zhang Qing knew in his heart that Zhou Nanchen was not like this at all.

The first time he got bored with Zhou Nanchen's silence was on the basketball court.

Perhaps out of hypocritical sympathy, when Zhang Qing found out that Zhou Nanchen had no friends in class, he couldn't help but want to pull him in.

In the end, he felt that this person really didn't like sports, and he always lay down on the table to draw pictures between classes. If he continued like this, his health would definitely go wrong.

Zhou Nanchen looked so tall, he couldn't play basketball very badly, right?With this in mind, Zhang Qing would pull Zhou Nanchen to play basketball with him from time to time.

Of course, Zhou Nanchen's astonishing athleticism soon shocked everyone present.

However, Zhou Nanchen's becoming a "school grass" also started when he was dragged out to play basketball by Zhang Qing.

At first, it was just a few girls passing by to watch, and then it was passed on from ten to ten. At some point, the whole school knew that "there is a handsome guy who plays basketball very badly in the first year of high school", and since then, Every time Zhou Nanchen played basketball, there was a group of people watching.

And this incident caused a moderate storm among the boys who played basketball together.

Thinking about it now, it was only natural for those boys to be jealous.High school is the age of hormonal outbreaks. Every boy is eager to show himself in front of girls. Many people practice hard for the sake of girls looking at themselves.As a result, Zhou Nanchen suddenly appeared out of nowhere. Not only was he a half-baked guy who couldn't play basketball at all, but he also won all the attention of the girls in the audience—it was indeed quite hateful.

At that time, there was a boy named Li Jun who hated Zhou Nanchen the most.It is said that it was because the girl he liked not only rejected him, but also fell in love with Zhou Nanchen, and every time he came to watch Zhou Nanchen play.

Therefore, Li Jun always aimed at him intentionally or unintentionally when he was playing. It was not obvious at first, but then it became more and more serious, until one time the ball in his hand aimed directly at Zhou Nanchen's head and threw it over.

"Be careful!" the sharp-eyed Zhang Qing yelled immediately, Zhou Nanchen staggered, was hit by the ball on the shoulder, and fell into the mud.

Zhang Qing immediately ran to Zhou Nanchen's side to check his injuries. Although he didn't hurt any bones, he had a large bruise.And he slid forward for a long time because of the fall, and his knees were bloody.

The ball came menacingly, and with great force.If Zhang Qing didn't stop him in time and let the ball hit Zhou Nanchen's head, the consequences would be unimaginable.

All of Zhang Qing's blood rushed to the top of his head at that time, and his rationality was cut off at this moment.He rushed forward and grabbed Li Jun by the collar, "You fucking want to kill someone?"

"How the hell did I know he was so stupid!" Li Jun was obviously frightened by Zhang Qing's aura, but he still yelled loudly, "Is there a problem with me passing the ball to my teammate? If he can't catch it, it's my fault." wrong?"

This dispute immediately attracted everyone's attention, whether they were players or onlookers, they all locked their eyes on them.

However, Zhou Nanchen, who was the victim, remained silent and didn't say a word.He just stood up silently from the ground, patted the dust off his body, and checked the injury on his knee.

"Zhou Nanchen!" Zhang Qing stared fiercely at Zhou Nanchen, "What did you say?"

Zhou Nanchen sighed, "I fell on my own. Sorry, I really don't know how to play basketball."

silence.

From then on, Zhang Qing hated Zhou Nanchen's silence.

His silence is not due to fear, introverted personality, or social awkwardness, but because he sees everything and does not justify.Knowing that someone has been targeting him and being hurt because of it, he still chooses to remain silent.

It was as if he didn't care whether he was hurt or not.

Zhang Qing helped Zhou Nanchen on the way to the infirmary, holding back his anger.

"Why don't you speak?" Zhang Qing asked angrily.

"I said it." Zhou Nanchen said casually, "I did fall down, and I really don't know how to play basketball."

"Is this the point?" Zhang Qing raised his voice and said, "That bastard Li Jun threw the ball at your head! Why do you seem to have no opinion at all?"

Zhou Nanchen was silent for a while before he opened his mouth and said, "Even if we fight with him, it's meaningless, right?"

Zhang Qing was taken aback.

"Even if you quarrel, fight, express your dissatisfaction, the world will not change according to your ideas. Even if you argue with him, he will not suddenly stop hating me." Zhou Nanchen turned his head and looked at the distant Looking at the basketball court, "Arguing will make things very troublesome, so it's unnecessary."

No need.

He was not reticent because he was not good at words, but he felt that it was unnecessary.Anyway, no matter what you say, others can't understand you, so just don't say it; anyway, no matter what you do can't change the status quo, then don't do it.Zhou Nanchen has always been thinking like this.

It's a really exciting way of thinking.

It was so in the past and it is so now.