I still can't forget her

I admit that my mind was blank at the time. I never expected that Park Chulong would confess his love so suddenly. This should be considered a confession, right?

It took a long time for my brain to start working again, Park Cholong likes me?I can't believe it, but these words clearly appear on the screen, telling me it's true

"But...why?"

"I admit that I can't accept the closeness of boys because of some things that happened when I was young. In addition, when I left home to study, I was ready to be alone, but... I met you, I am very happy I was able to get this friendship, but it didn’t take long for me to realize that there was something wrong with my feelings for you.”

"I found that although I was still independent, I was very dependent on you. I watched you block all the things I didn't like to do for me, I watched you negotiate with the teacher for me, and I watched you bring me something from outside the school every day. , I am very happy in my heart. I care about you and what you think of me, so I was very anxious after knowing that you misunderstood me in the third year of junior high school, and then I asked Zheng Eunji to send you a letter for the first time, but that letter, Bomi, you may not understand.”

"Although I was caught by my parents when I wrote the letter, but my parents just asked who I wrote to, and after knowing it was you, they just asked me to learn from you. You are so good that even my parents know."

"..."

Park Chulong replied with many and long messages, but I didn't bother to read them at all. I only knew that my heart was in a mess and I didn't know what to do.When I really experienced it myself, I realized that doing it is not as easy as it said

Do I like Park Chorong? I must. Even I myself know that this kind of liking is different from liking for others. Just look at Zheng Eunji. But how much of this difference is there? I don’t know. , and am I ready to be as public as Zheng Eunji? Obviously not, I only found out today that Park Cholong likes me. As for the letter that Park Cholong said, I will wait until later After rummaging through the boxes and cabinets, I found out what the phrase "My Heart to You" really meant

Can I admit that I like Pu Chulong? Can I confirm that this liking is what the world calls love? I never doubt that two girls can have love. I know that I treat her differently, but Park and I Is it really love between Chulong?

I won't wait until I have full financial independence like Eunji to tell my parents, if I'm really the same kind of person, I don't want my other half to live in a lie, I want him to be with me It's fair and aboveboard, not only in front of friends, but can I admit to my parents that I like a girl, even I don't know if it's accidental or I'm not interested in boys at all, if my parents force me, I can also be firm Don't move, I don't know my heart, all this happened too fast, I can't organize my heart at all

Maybe it was because I didn't reply for too long, so Pu Chulong thought I disagreed, but she still didn't want me to embarrass her

"Bomi, you don't have to be embarrassed, just pretend you haven't seen this tonight."

But I'm not at all embarrassing whether I really like her, but how much I can bear for myself and her. I don't want to be an irresponsible person, let alone her, but I don't want us The relationship between the two will deteriorate because of this incident, I don't know what to do

"I was just thinking about something"

"At this stage, it's better for us to be friends"

But I never thought that Pu Chulong is such a woman, she has her pride, she didn't force me out of her world, but she didn't take the initiative to interact with me anymore, even if I took the initiative to find her, I It can also be seen that she has no intention of chatting with me at all. We are not in the same school, let alone in the same city. I don't even know the specific address of her school. I don't know where else to find her, and I don't know what to do. Only by working hard can we repair the relationship between us. The most ridiculous thing is that I don't know whether I should repair this relationship that I can't even figure out.

Except for Zheng Eunji, I can't think of anyone else who can discuss this with me. Fortunately, she didn't blame me for telling her 'secret' to others. She just listened to me quietly and was silent for a long time, "I don't know. Bomi, this is your own business, I suggest you look into your own heart first."

Yes, this is my own business, no one can decide for me at all, and no one can help me share it.But I don't want to think about it at all. It's not that I don't want to take it, I don't dare to take it. I don't dare to let Pu Chulong accompany such an unreliable person like me to waste my youth to take it. I don't want to delay her

In the end I also fell asleep in the confusion of thoughts, this matter seems to be so gone, if it is possible...

But the next day Zheng Eundi sent me a screenshot, it was the status that Pu Chulong posted in the middle of the night last night

"Your heart goes to water"

And the moment I saw these four words, I thought of the end of the letter, "My heart is to you", ha, I wanted to laugh, but tears welled up in my eyes, Park Chulong must be I'm very disappointed, she must be in pain, but this time, I can't comfort her for what caused her pain

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"Your heart goes to water"

When I woke up, my mind was full of these four words. Also, if these four words were not deeply ingrained in my mind, how could I accidentally type these four words in the message I sent the day before yesterday? How did Eunji know so quickly that this status was related to her?

I quickly returned to reality from the dream, otherwise I don’t know how long it would take me to regret it so many times over the years

It’s rare that the alarm clock hadn’t sounded when I woke up, and it was still early before I went to work when I finished washing and getting dressed, thinking about walking around, I arrived at the gate of the junior high school, and just in time, I met the head teacher at that time

"Bomi?"

"It's me", even though the head teacher's voice is full of uncertainty, I am still grateful that he still remembers my name after so many years, "Teacher, are you going to class?"

"Yes", the class teacher looked at me, "Long time no see, much quieter than before, are you working now?"

"Hahaha", I laughed a few times, I was famous for being mischievous when I was young, "Not long after graduating from S University, now I work in a research institute"

"Pumi is still amazing." The class teacher nodded with satisfaction and appreciation, "Pumi, are you here today? If you have time, how about going to the class with me?"

"Oh, I just came here for a stroll, so I came in to have a look, I didn't expect to meet you here", I smiled, "But I have to go to work later, maybe there is not enough time, I will spare time next time Specially to see you"

"You can continue to read that line. Next time you come, call the little girl Pu Chulong. Didn't you have a good relationship back then? I haven't seen her for a long time. I really miss her." The head teacher said and asked Go, "then I'll go to class first"

When I heard her name, my smile froze on my face almost instantly. Fortunately, the head teacher had already turned around, and before she left, I quickly said, "Okay teacher, you go slowly."

After sending the person away, I was still a little dazed, and walked into the campus somehow. Maybe the guard saw me chatting with the class teacher just now, but no one came to stop me, so I just walked to the playground

There are also some children running, presumably to prepare for the physical test.I still remember that when I first met Pu Chulong, her physical strength was not good, so every morning when I did morning exercises, I would run beside her so that I could give her a hand when necessary. Under my supervision, Pu Chulong's physical strength gradually Followed up, she has excellent endurance, and at the end of the super long training route, she seemed to be more comfortable than me

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"Ha, Bomi, why are you so weak?" Park Chorong smiled brightly and looked at me who was panting

"Who says I'm weak? It's because your endurance is too strong." I calmed down and retorted, "Besides, it's not all because of me training with you."

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Why do you think of this again!I'm a little angry with myself, obviously I can't control myself not to miss her these years, what's going on recently, I think of her frequently, presumably it's because I met on the trip before and met again later

I rubbed my temples and looked at my watch, it was time to leave, turned around and met her

"Park Chulong, you..."

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