Agreed, let's not chase her!

It has been more than a month since my parents died.

The perpetrator couldn't afford the expensive expenses, and his family members disappeared without a trace after knowing the situation. No one could bear the expenses, so he had to give up and sentenced him to a few years in prison, and the matter was let go. No one asked any more.

It has been four years since I came to Zhucheng, but I still feel very unfamiliar with every brick and tile here, without any emotion.I took the 20 yuan that the perpetrator could only compensate, paid the utility bills, paid the rent, and bought some medicine and daily necessities. My parents probably wanted to go back to Yuncheng.We came to Zhucheng four years ago and stayed for four full years. My parents never bought a house in Zhucheng to settle down. Thinking of my hometown, the place where I have lived for decades, and the soul that has melted into the flesh and blood, I will take them back when I die.

I inquired about a cemetery park near my hometown in Yuncheng. Our hometown has a very good environment, lots of greenery, and strong human relations. Many big companies and entrepreneurs have targeted our home for projects, so the future economy will continue to rise. All in all, the cemetery is very expensive. It would cost 25 yuan to bury my parents together on the same land.

I also had the idea of ​​buying the house back in my hometown, but I have no money, no education, no decent job, and my expensive medical expenses. I can survive very well.

I have looked for many jobs, such as waiter, construction site, water mover, planter and retailer in the commissary, but in the end I didn't do it anymore.There are all kinds of people in the service industry, and there are all kinds of people. After encountering a lot of perverts, I was afraid. I thought about beating people up, and I really did. No place wants me anymore, I know, I offended people.

The construction site is too dangerous, and the boss will run away at any time, thankless, I left after working for a few days.Then move plumbers, it’s no good, too much work, long hours, and little money. Part-time workers and retail workers are not capable of rough people like me. I was scolded by the boss for a few days.

I remember that I seem to be the best student in the photography department of Yunda University, right?It’s just a few months before I can get my graduation certificate. I couldn’t find a serious job. Some companies and studios with a countertop shut me out without saying a word. Outside the society, It all depends on academic qualifications, someone told me so.

Finally, I finally found a job that satisfies me. It is stable and manages to eat, drink, drink, and live. It can even save me the money for renting a house outside. The salary is quite high, more than 3000 a month, but the work is very tiring. .That is on the assembly line of a private electric appliance company, making refrigerators.

This job does not require a degree, but only a physical examination form. My parents knew my attending doctor. I begged him to make a fake report on my report and deceived the HR manager in the factory. It is assigned to the side panel attachment OP line to produce old and new refrigerator side panels.I work twelve hours a day and pay 100 yuan per hour. New employees are led by old employees, and they start to survive as soon as they come. with.

"Our part is dedicated to the board. Before the board is installed, the tubes should be glued one by one with this film. Remember that there must be no mistakes, otherwise the refrigerator will leak after the power is turned on. Then our department is Three points, including you, we have a total of four people, one is responsible for holding the board, one is responsible for holding the tube, and two are responsible for pulling the film. There are six or eight tubes. The front one pulls as much as possible, and the rest stay Give it to the one near the assembly line, pull the rest and push it on the line, understand?" A woman who looked not much older than me took advantage of the slowdown of the assembly line and carefully explained to me that she was not from Zhucheng. He speaks with an accent from other places, and there are many dialects in it, and I don't understand the meaning of many words.

I was ignorant, so I followed her to do it according to the gourd painting, and it will be over time.

Later, the squad leader told me that the employees inside wanted to explain clearly, so they didn’t call those things by their real names. The so-called board is the side door of the refrigerator. There are many types of refrigerators. The two-door ones are fine. The models are 216, 186, 209... There are various types. The relative pipes, that is, the cold shower pipes also change with the models. Old employees are used to calling big pipes and small pipes. That's the membrane. Straighten it and it must completely cover the cold shower.He also praised me for being willing to work and not afraid of hardship, saying that there are very few young people like me who are willing to work hard.

I just smiled and didn't speak. It was probably the first time in my life that I was praised by someone, and it was at this time.When other people praise me, no matter how I hear it, I feel that there is irony in it.

Work is really tiring, at least for me, a person who has never suffered since childhood. My feet were already swollen on the first day, and my arms were so sore and sore. I had to stand for more than ten hours a day. There is no WIFI in the factory, and there are very few breaks. The life is monotonous and boring, and every day is numb and tired, repeating the things of the previous day.Maybe only in this way, I will not think about her, and I will not think about her in my heart.

Xu Wannan.

This name seems to be baked into the depths of my soul. Whenever I return home after suffering outside, in the dead of night, I can't restrain my heart from missing her.She protects me so well, when I am self-willed, she allows me to be self-willed and helps me deal with the mess, so that if I suffer a little bit of grievance now, I will not be able to bear it, and will beat people regardless of the consequences , and then hid in a place where no one could see and cried after suffering.

No one will come to clean up the mess for me anymore, I have to bear all the scourges myself, after leaving my parents and Xu Wannan, I have become nothing, and even more useless, just a useless piece of trash.

I left her for the good of Xu Wannan. Look at me. I have bad habits and a bad temper. I also like to fight. I don't know how many years I can live.

If Xu Wannan sees me now, even if she still wants me, I don’t want to go back. I can’t be so selfish, maybe the four years I’ve been away are enough for Xu Wannan to forget about me as a bastard and start a new life , if I go back in such a reckless manner, won't it destroy her new happiness again?

Maybe I've been running away for a long time, no one will remember me, everyone, they won't remember.

Thinking back to the year and a half when I was with Xu Wannan, I was really bad to her, I couldn't coax her, and I let her get angry when she was angry, I didn't try to coax her, On the contrary, she, as long as I wrinkle my eyebrows a little, she will be obedient and try her best to please me.

Xu Wannan is so kind, why didn't I find out earlier?If I knew how good she is, I would treat her well and spend more time with her. She can do whatever she wants, but unfortunately I have too little time, too few days to be with her, everything, too little up.

That kind of life has lasted for two years. I had an accident in the factory, which was actually not serious, but the falsification of my health report was exposed. For me, the rules in the factory are strict, and employees have no right to object.

Fortunately, the money was not short. I guess the squad leader saw me as pitiful and said something to the higher-ups. Among the money sent to me, there was an extra 400 yuan.

After leaving the factory, I became a vagrant again, without a job or a place to live.If I lose my job, I can look for it again, but the house, after only two years, even the rent has increased many times. If I can’t find a job with a stable salary and a good job, I will have serious problems with eating and drinking. .

Fortunately, I no longer need to buy those expensive medicines, which saves a lot of expenses. It's not that the disease is cured, but the doctor told me that there is nothing he can do, and the medicines are useless long ago.

It's good, that guy doesn't even know how unpalatable and bitter the medicine he prescribed is.

The money in my hand seems to be about the same. I saved a lot of money by saving food and money. I went back to Yuncheng without hesitation, bought a cemetery, and buried my parents' ashes in it. After spending half a day in front of my parents' tombstones, I caught the afternoon train and went to the city center.

The rent in Yuncheng hasn't risen to sky-high prices, and I can still afford it. After I settled down, my first thought was not to find a job, but to go and see Xu Wannan.

Xu Wannan's family is a person of status. I used to think so. Knowing that her father is the chairman of the Xu Corporation, it is very likely that Xu Wannan will go to work in the Xu Corporation after graduation.I didn't see her when I went there on the first day, and I didn't see her on the second day, neither on the third day, nor on the fourth day... I saw her.

She is still so good-looking, I can't see her face clearly because of the distance, but her figure is still the same, she is still so slender, her hair is still neatly done, but she has changed her clothes, into a professional small suit, her temperament Even more prominent, even if I can't see the face I can still think of what a beautiful person she is.

I think I must be crazy, I don’t look for a job, and I just like to sit in the coffee shop opposite the main gate of Xu’s and stare at the door of the company in a daze.I want to take a look at Xu Wannan, just take a look. Today I think so, and tomorrow I think the same way. I want to take a look at her every day. After meeting Yuncheng, many dead things in my heart began to appear. Burning, feverish, my soul is alive.But since then, I have never seen Xu Wannan again.

Maybe this is fate. Xu Wannan and I are destined to have no fate. Thinking about my own immortal body, I don’t want to be hypocritical anymore. I have no money, no job, and soon I will have no place to live. I have A rich sibling, why would I go out of my way not to find her?

I made it clear to myself that I was just looking for Wang Jing, I would never chase after Xu Wannan, never!

It's agreed, I won't chase her.

The author has something to say:

This is Lu Yu's last perspective.

Lu Yu: Look, I didn't chase her, did I?

Wang Jing: Xu Wannan has no bottom line!There is actually a backtracking operation...

Thank you Manatsu’s Lei, I’ll be more careful with you (?-ω-`)