haphazard

Xu Yu went to find old man Jiang. He carried the wine he promised last time without knocking on the door. He skillfully walked into old man Jiang's kitchen, opened the mechanism, and entered the medical room.

When he was a child, his adoptive mother brought him here many times to treat his throat, so he was very familiar with it.As for the sudden dumb thing, the adoptive mother once mentioned that when the heavy rain picked him up, he had a high fever and became dumb.But he didn't believe it, because it was in his hazy memory.His mind would flash back to him lying on the operating table, his limbs numb and unable to move.Then I saw a sharp scalpel dazzled by the light.Turning around again, I saw the neon lights of Xinqiushui District in a daze, and I couldn't remember any more.

Every time he thinks about it, it makes his brain ache.He couldn't put into words the feeling, but he guessed everything wasn't that simple.

Later, his adoptive mother discovered that he was secretly studying the plan of how to sneak into the Xinqiushui District, and ordered him several times.Every time these things are mentioned, the expression is very serious, and there is always a trace of guilt in the eyes.

There is something hidden here.

Xu Yu wanted to find out.

But the adoptive mother forbade, and even...begged him.

He will never forget that day.

It was also raining like this at that time, and the weather gradually turned cooler.

He was still in high school at the time when he was suddenly notified that his mother was dying.

He was hurriedly sent to the ward by the teacher, and saw the once high-spirited woman lying on the bed with a haggard face, looking out the window with a dull face.Seeing him coming, his complexion became much rosier, and he even wanted to get up.

Xu Yu hurried over to help him, but she grabbed his hand and said out of breath, "Xu Yu, after all these years, I have suffered for you. I don't have much inheritance, you will have to rely on yourself in the future." She didn't care whether Xu Yu came back, she paused and continued, "I know you're secretly looking into that matter, Xu Yu, mom doesn't have any unfinished wishes, there is only one... about that matter, Can you stop checking."

He still remembers that his adoptive mother hurt his hand bones after she said this passage.

Seeing that he didn't return, he continued, with a pleading look on his face. "Xu Yu... don't blame mom, I'm doing it for your own good. You don't know that nothing will happen to those things, so I beg you..." As he spoke, he wanted to delay The body as thin as a dead tree wanted to kneel down.

Xu Yu repeatedly grabbed her back to support her and sighed.After obediently pressing her on the hospital bed, he let go of his hand and said, "I see, I will... I promise you." ]

The adoptive mother got Xu Yu's promise, and instantly felt relieved. She nodded and smiled slightly, as if her wish had been fulfilled, and repeated: "That's good... that's good... cough cough cough!!!" Before finishing He coughed violently, as if he was going to cough up his lungs.

In less than two seconds, the adoptive mother tilted her head abruptly, her eyeballs seemed to protrude from her skinny face, her eyes were locked in front of her, as if she saw something.Then it seemed that he didn't bring it up in one breath, and fell straight back, closing his eyes.

The whole process was very fast, in less than three seconds, and I went.Xu Yu thought it was pretty good in retrospect. At least dying like this would relieve her a lot of pain. She had been tortured by the disease for long enough.

Xu Yu thought he would be sad to see her die, but he didn't shed a single tear, he just watched her in a daze.At that time, he was not yet eighteen, and he might have stayed in the old Qiushui area for a long time, so he didn't seem to be so in awe of death.Maybe he was sad, but Xu Yu couldn't remember how he felt at that time.After all, ten years have passed since now, no matter how painful things are, they will be worn away by time, making a person numb and indifferent.

If he really wanted to think back, he only remembered that the people from the hospital rushed in and squeezed him to the corner for the last rescue. After half an hour, the rescue was declared invalid and the patient died.I remember that when I was sent to the crematorium to be burned, the makeup on my face seemed to have a bit of the same complexion as before.It should have passed, otherwise I wouldn't remember it so clearly.

Accompanied by his unforgettable, the last wish she made of him is his chains and knots.

But the more people can't get anything, even if they promise, they still can't help paying attention, watching, and discovering.And with a little bit of hope, I can't help but reach out and hold it.

Some things look like they've been buried alive, but those are rotten to the bone.Close your eyes, you can't see anything, but the moment you touch it, you will instantly remember its shape and use.Xu Yu was such a person.Sometimes he himself felt that there was a madness in his body, but it was suppressed.When the time comes, he will desperately break free, and then he may really have to break his promise.

He lowered his eyes and looked at the wine in his hand, feeling a little sorry.He hasn't visited her grave for a long time, is it necessary to go this year, after all, it will be the winter solstice in a few days.As the new year approaches, it is indeed necessary to visit in the past.Thinking about it this way, I calculated the time, and felt that I could take the time to go there recently...

"Hey, what are you thinking?" The old man Jiang suddenly interrupted him, leaned on his seat, and lit a cigarette for himself, "I've been looking out of my mind since I entered the door, what's wrong? Uncomfortable?" As he spoke, he glanced down, saw the pot of wine, and even his tone was filled with a smile, "Yo, I didn't expect you to bring it, I thought you were just talking. Tsk, I have to say that your mother brewed it. Wine really suits my appetite. Hey, I’m really greedy for her craftsmanship after not drinking it for so many years. Why didn’t you inherit her good craftsmanship? It’s a pity, a pity...”

Xu Yuwen passed the wine to him, pulled over to find a place and sat down directly, saying: [I keep my word. ]

Old man Jiang took the wine, wiped the bottle like a baby, then lifted the lid and smelled it. A strong aroma of wine wafted in the basement instantly.He took a deep breath of the aroma of the wine, and said intoxicated: "This taste is right." Then he looked behind him and looked at him suspiciously, "Why are you here alone this time, where is your new best friend? "

Xu Yu frowned, waved his hands and said, "What's your new friend, can you talk?" ]

"Isn't it?" The old man Jiang was a little disappointed, "It shouldn't be, I never miss people. Hey, you brought two people to me in total, one is the boy from the Tong family, and the other is the one who brought you that day. You are a silly boy from the Xinqiushui District. If no one is close to you, then you are really useless. Why don’t you even have a relationship when you are not young? When I was your age, how many young boys and girls chased me .”

Xu Yu was a little speechless, [First of all, Tong Lianwei and I have never been together before, even if he meant that, I didn't either.Second, the little devil was brought to you because of his complicated identity, and you know it in your heart, so don't make fun of me.Finally, if you are really young and so many people are chasing you, why are you still an old bachelor? ]

"Hey, you brat, don't you need to clean up?" Old man Jiang couldn't help raising his hand after reading the last sentence he said, and then put it down and sighed, "You don't understand." He sat back on the chair , took two puffs of cigarettes silently, and said: "You are also 26 years old. Although I have no right to control you, after all, I was friends with your mother before she was alive. I still hope that you can find a daughter-in-law early to make life look forward. Every time I see you It’s the kind of idleness with no desires, thinking that you will leave this world sooner or later.”

"Xu Yu, I've watched you grow up. There are some reasons why some things can't be touched." Old man Jiang looked at him and flicked the cigarette ash. Send that man away, although I don't know his background, but all the people in Xinqiushui District come here with a purpose."