I'm a scumbag

I didn't even think things through and was about to rush out the door with a knife in my mouth.Yes, I'm going to kill that brute, whatever the consequences.

I think my fierce gaze must have betrayed me, Han Yu suddenly hugged me from behind after being dazed for more than ten seconds, "What are you going to do?"

"Let go!"

"You misunderstood, he didn't abuse me, it was just a lesson, because I was leaving, he was very angry..."

"I tell you to let go!"

"I'm telling the truth, he really didn't touch me! He's been very polite to me in Gu's house for the past few days, but he was angry with me when I said I was going to leave this morning. You know his temper ...These injuries just look scary, but they are nothing at all..."

"Enough! I turned around and squeezed Han Yu's shoulders, wishing I could smash him to pieces, "Do you understand, I..." My gums were bitten until they were bleeding, and I Unable to utter a complete sentence. Unable to tell him in words, I don’t care about those things, I only care about him, and I can’t and won’t allow anyone to hurt him even the slightest bit!

Han Yu was frightened silly by my appearance, and looked at me in horror.At this moment, I couldn't express what I wanted to say to him at all, so I slammed him away and rushed out the door.

There was a plop, and the sound of bones colliding with the concrete floor came from behind. Han Yu was pushed down by me, and I was also frightened. "Xiaoyu!...I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I, I didn't mean it."

"It's okay, I didn't hurt from the fall."

With this posture, he firmly grasped my hand and refused to let it go again. He said to me earnestly, "The Gu family has been kind to me in nurturing me, and he can be regarded as my brother..."

"You treat him like an older brother, but does he treat you like a younger brother?"

"I don't want my lover to hurt my loved ones...please, don't...please. Just let it all go, don't make it hard for me, okay?"

I stared blankly at him, feeling that slightly trembling body, all the resentment and all the anger had turned into a powerless depression.

The old building is narrow and dark, with simple decoration, dilapidated hard beds, and dim lights. Han Yu feels inexplicably at ease and at ease in such an unbearable environment.I think he was looking for something to say, in order to break the sad silence.

Although I didn't go there in the end, my heart was pressed by a heavy stone, which made me feel as if I was suffocated.

"Still angry?...Can you just say something?"

My hands paused and I continued to wipe him with Dieda wine. Lin Zi bought it for me. I used half of the bottle and used the rest on Han Yu today.So many scars and bruises, each of which was gently rubbed by me, firmly imprinted in my mind and burned in my heart.

"It doesn't hurt at all, really."

"...I'm sorry!" I gritted my teeth fiercely, holding back the tears that almost burst into my eyes.

"Why do you have to apologize?" Han Yu pressed on me, hugged my waist tightly, and rubbed against my chest, "Don't take it to heart, everything is over."

These words and this scene made me feel deeply sad.The light in front of him flickered on and off, and his vision was sometimes blurred and sometimes clear, his heavy heart beating with unbearable pain.In fact, I know that he said that because he was afraid that I would lose my life in an impulsive way, and he was just giving me an excuse that I couldn't refuse and could save face.

Why do you apologize?Because I'm incompetent, I'm useless, I'm useless.I can't even protect my lover, I despise myself! "I will make it up to you."

"What do you say!"

I held Han Yu tightly in my arms, strong enough to prevent him from saying anything.At this moment, there is no need for words between us.At this moment, I swore secretly that I must become a rich man and stand out. For Han Yu, I will give him the best life, and for the dignity of my man, I will never be trampled under my feet again.

The sad thing is that even though I am full of passion and ambition, I am just a humble poor boy now. I can only pay a drop of sweat for a dime and do coolie work to support me and my lover.

The job on the construction site was found by my fellow villagers. I worked from morning to night, and I was so tired that I couldn't even pick up chopsticks.

"Why don't you eat?"

I shook my head and forced a smile for him, "I'm not hungry yet, you can eat first."

Han Yu took a bite of the steamed bun and put down his chopsticks, "What have you been doing these days?"

"Looking for a job, didn't I tell you?" The hands under the table trembled violently, afraid that he would not even dare to put a cigarette in his mouth if he saw me.

"Have you found it?"

"Not yet... But don't worry, we are so handsome, there must be someone who wants it." I don't think about the waiter's job, and I won't get my salary until a month later, and Xiaoyu will starve to death by then.The flow was cut off, and I could only accept this short-term job that could pay off quickly, even if I was a coolie.

"Don't look for a job that's too hard."

"Don't worry, I will definitely find a job that is not hard and pays well, and when I earn money, I will raise you for nothing."

"Actually, I can also go out to work."

"No!" I flatly refused, "Your task now is to take good care of your body, and then go back to school obediently."

"But......"

"Don't say anything, let's eat quickly." I lowered my head to play with my mobile phone, and if I didn't answer his words, he would have nothing to do with me.

The food in the family ran out within a few days, and the money in the pocket was also spent, so the wages could only be paid tomorrow.On the way home from get off work, I bought a pack of instant noodles with the remaining two yuan.

A bag of noodles and a big pot of soup, "Eat it, it's just too much water, it's a bit watery."

"What about you?"

"I've already eaten it, you can eat it yourself."

"Yes? What delicious food did you eat?"

"Lingzi invited, Lanzhou noodles."

"He's really stingy."

I chuckled, and took a few sips of cold water to suppress the croaking in my stomach.As a person grows up, he has to experience everything, and he won't starve to death after a few meals.Besides, don't you often go hungry when you are in the karaoke bar?

The only thing I'm worried about is Han Yu's body. During this period of financial stress, I haven't done anything nutritious to nourish his body.Wait until the salary is paid tomorrow, and buy him more delicious food.

Some people say that poor and lowly couples are sad. This kind of life seems to be very sad, but I don't think so.At night, after turning off the lights, the two of them hid under the quilt and hugged each other tightly, as if there was always something to say.Han Yu wants me, and I want him too, but his body hasn't recovered yet, and hunger also keeps me from concentrating.After finding some perfunctory reasons, we just hugged each other like this, sometimes provoked a topic to chatter, and sometimes stared at each other with a smirk.

In fact, I was also worried about whether a person like Han Yu who grew up in an environment with no worries about food and clothing could endure such hardships with me, although he never complained, although he always took it with a satisfied expression. The three meals a day I prepare for him are still eaten with relish.But I am still worried, I am afraid that he will feel wronged when he is with me.

But the facts of so many days have proved that he cares more about me.

"What kind of job did you find? Why do you leave early and return late all day?" He has asked this question many times in the past few days.

"Oh, it's just a temporary job, helping people." I dare not tell him the truth, because my humble self-esteem is at work.

"What should I do? Isn't it hard work?"

"Oh, it's not hard, don't worry." I put the last hundred-dollar bill in my pocket on the bedside, "It may be very busy at noon, you can order some takeaway by yourself, and I will come back early in the evening." As for my own How to solve breakfast and lunch I have no time to take care of.

In the past few days, I was still thinking that it would be fine to pay my salary, but as soon as the money arrived, it was divided into several parts and sent out before it was warmed up.The younger sister's life is inseparable from money, and the family needs money even more, and what is left in their hands is pitifully small.I found that I seemed to be struggling with money since I was born, and I was still poor after nearly 20 years.

"Li Kai!"

"Huh?" I turned around after walking out the door, "What's wrong?"

"You recently......"

"what?"

"Forget it, you go to work."

I know what he is worried about. The work that exceeds my load seriously overdraws my physical strength. I often fall asleep when I get home at night, and I don’t even have the energy to talk to him. After a long time, he will naturally be confused. think.But I can't help it, I'm really tired.

Every minute, or even every second, I am not willing to take a break. Occasionally, the workers will gather together to take a break, smoke a cigarette and chat for a while, but I can’t do it. I can earn one yuan more.

"Are you made of iron? Are you afraid of being exhausted after working so hard?"

"Fortunately, I'm not very tired." I wiped off my sweat and smiled at the enthusiastic workers.

"Let's take a break, this big lunch can roast people. Are you afraid of heatstroke?"

"Sure, then I'll push this car over first, you can go rest first."

Half an hour later, I was still loading and unloading trucks, and the workers under the shade of the trees said that I wanted money, not my life.In fact, I think it's okay, and I even enjoy it. I move a few more cars every day, and I can buy clothes for Han Yu later, and I can buy him a pair of shoes after moving a few more cars.He came out in a hurry and didn't bring any clothes, and now he's wearing my clothes, which looks awkward if he's two sizes too big.Fortunately at home, if you go back to school, how can you wear it and go out to meet people.

"You'll die if you take a break!" The worker sighed and handed me a cigarette, which I could not refuse.What's more, I'm addicted to smoking. To be honest, I don't even buy cigarettes these days to save money.It was okay before, even if I didn’t buy cigarettes, I could smoke just relying on the rewards from customers, and they were all good cigarettes.Now there is no such good thing, unless some worker is enthusiastic and gives one.

"Hey, is that person looking for you? I've been looking here for a long time."

I glanced back absent-mindedly...

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