Wu Wan

When Zhao Duobao woke up, Jiang Yi was guarding his bedside. Seeing him open his eyes, he hurriedly leaned over, looking worried, "Is there anything uncomfortable?"

Zhao Duobao was stunned. His clearest memory of Jiang Yi was the way he was three years ago. Now the person in front of him has changed so much that he didn't dare to recognize him for a while.

Jiang Yi asked again, and Zhao Duobao shook his head.

Jiang Yi tentatively asked, "Are you alright?"

There was no response for a long time, and just when Jiang Yi thought it was just a recurrence of Zhao Duobao's illness, Zhao Duobao said, "You are different from three years ago."

As soon as Zhao Duobao finished speaking, Jiang Yi hugged him and buried his face in his neck, "You're finally healed."

"I'm sorry, I have caused trouble for you all these years." Zhao Duobao looked at the hair on Jiang Yi's head and said flatly, "I shouldn't continue to live."

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Jiang Yi suddenly raised his head, his face sullen.

"I can't save my parents. I'll send you to jail and ruin your future. I'm useless except to cause trouble for others. It doesn't matter if I die." When he said these words, Zhao Duobao's expression did not show any ups and downs, and remained flat. as ever.

In fact, after Li Li left yesterday, Zhao Duobao suddenly woke up, and all the good and bad memories of the past few years flooded into his mind.

The father was so angry that he fell to the ground and died that night; the mother died of illness for many years, and finally the medicine did not work.

And after Jiang Yi was put in prison, he passed by the bulletin board of Jiang Yi's school and saw how good Jiang Yi was in his studies, so he knew that he personally ruined Jiang Yi's future.

The images of these memories scrambled into his mind, without even leaving a chance to breathe. He was forced to retreat, so he chose to commit suicide impulsively.

Unexpectedly, he was rescued.

"I did it myself." Jiang Yi lowered his head, "Now the company is developing well, so you don't have to worry about me."

"You are very smart."

Jiang Yi sighed, "If I was really smart, things shouldn't have turned out like this." He smiled at Zhao Duobao, "I'll talk about this later, you just recovered, I'll ask the doctor to check you up."

Jiang Yi stood up and rang the nurse's bell, then helped Zhao Duobao roll up the hospital bed and put a pillow behind his waist.

Zhao Duobao closed his eyes and let Jiang Yi play with him.

The doctor came in to check on Zhao Duobao's condition, and the nurse changed the medicine for his wound, and told him, "If there is something to do, I still want to get some treatment. It's better to be alive than dead." Then he was told that he could be discharged home and rested.

On the way home, Jiang Yi called Shi Qi, told about Zhao Duobao's situation, and asked her to call Chen Xin to show Zhao Duobao the situation.

"Chen Xin is the doctor Chen who treated me."

"Ah."

"My mind is in a mess right now, a lot of things are mixed together, and I can't tell the truth from the truth."

The two sat in the back seat of the taxi, and Jiang Yi stretched out his arms to embrace Zhao Duobao, "It's normal, just rest for a while."

Zhao Duobao stiffened and was unwilling to lean over. Jiang Yi secretly exerted force on his hand, but Zhao Duobao still persisted, so he had to give up, and resentfully withdrew his hand and put it by his side.

Back home, Zhao Duobao took a closer look at this familiar yet unfamiliar place. The house was still in a mess from last night, and there were bloodstains in the bathroom.

"I've been living here?"

"It's us."

"Has it been a long time? I remember I lived in a hospital-like place for a long time."

"I took you back after I got out of prison." Jiang Yi was cleaning the bathroom, "I bought the house."

Zhao Duobao stood in the middle of the room, not knowing whether to stand or sit. In his memory, this house was his familiar residence, but this was the first time he had entered here after regaining consciousness, and everything was strange. Let him not know how to deal with it.

Jiang Yi turned his back to Zhao Duobao, heard that he didn't speak, thought he was worried, and added an explanation: "I haven't done anything bad, I will tell you about the source of the money later, you need to rest now. "

Shi Qi and Chen Xin arrived quickly, and they knocked on the door just as Jiang Yi finished cleaning up the blood in the bathroom.

When Zhao Duobao saw Shi Qi, he suddenly felt that after so many years, even his nasal cavity began to turn sore, "Sister Qi."

"Xiaobao." Shi Qi's eyes were also a little red, she turned her head and pulled Chen Xin, "Show him."

Chen Xin asked Zhao Duobao to sit on the sofa, and after doing a few simple checks and tests on him, he smiled with relief, "Congratulations, I really recovered this time."

Before Shi Qi had time to laugh, he saw the looming gauze under Zhao Duobao's long cuffs, frowned and asked Jiang Yi, "What's wrong with his wrist?"

Jiang Yi suddenly looked like a deflated ball, lowered his head, and uttered two words with difficulty, "suicide."

"Ah!" Shi Qi and Chen Xin cried out almost at the same time, but Zhao Duobao listened quietly, as if what he was talking about had nothing to do with him.

Chen Xin's face was stained with sadness, "It's all my fault that I didn't think about it. He suddenly recalled the things he avoided. If he can't bear it, it's easy to commit suicide. There have been similar things before..."

"Doctor Chen, I don't blame you." Zhao Duobao said suddenly, "I'm too cowardly, I just run away when things happen."

"Stupid you." Chen Xin sighed weakly, "Life is nothing better than anything else, no matter how sad it is, it's over, what else... let's not talk about it, I'll prescribe some mood-stabilizing medicine, you take it for a while Time, you must be in a mess now, pay attention to rest and don't overthink."

Zhao Duobao complied obediently, "Yes."

After Shi Qi and Chen Xin left, Jiang Yi sat next to Zhao Duobao, stared at his face for a long time, and finally touched his face with trembling hands, "I'm still afraid now." His words were tinged with tears, "However, it's good that you're back."

"You should have been out of prison for half a year." Zhao Duobao avoided Jiang Yi's words, "I'm sorry to trouble you for so long."

Jiang Yi's expression froze on his face, "What do you mean by that?"

"Before I got sick, the house in my hometown had already been demolished. Now I should be able to get the demolition funds. I will go to the bank tomorrow to check. When I get the money, you can see how much it will cost. I will give you the money. Thank you for your kindness." I have been taken care of for a period of time, and now I have recovered and will move out as soon as possible."

"Zhao Duobao." Jiang Yi gritted his teeth, unable to believe what he heard, he swallowed to stabilize his emotions, and tried not to let himself explode, "Back then you stayed by my side and took those evidences to help Fuying sue me , I was willing to spend three years in prison, and I promised to let you live the life you wanted; but after you got out of prison, you fell ill, and I took you back to take care of you for so long without saying a word, and even prepared to take care of you like this for the rest of your life Your plan. Yes, I admit that I have done a lot of wrong things. If you can’t change your mind and come back to me, don’t you want me to prove myself again and wash away my bad impression?”

Zhao Duobao bit his lower lip, not daring to look at Jiang Yi, "I'm sorry."

It's not that he hates Jiang Yi too much, even, when he sees Jiang Yi again, he can confirm that he still likes Jiang Yi.

But in the face of Jiang Yi, his emotions are very complicated. There are worries about the resurgence of past injuries, self-blame for Jiang Yi's encounters over the years, and moving about some fragments of his illness that he sporadically recalled.The two are contradictory, he can't make a choice or make a decision, he can only escape again.

It's just that I didn't expect Jiang Yi to be so angry.

He thought...

"I thought that as long as you wake up, we can have a possibility to start again." Jiang Yi took two deep breaths, his head dropped to his chest, all the anger just now turned into a wry smile, "Forget it, I promised you Yes, let you live the life you want, without me, since this is what you really want, I will fulfill my promise. The money is no longer needed, you can keep it, live a better life in the future, don’t worry about it I am suffering myself. I wanted to make it up to you with my own hands and give you a good life."

Jiang Yi looked up at the room, "The house will be left to you, even if I compensate you, you are not in good health now, and moving is hard." Jiang Yi stood up from the sofa, walked into the bedroom and opened the closet, ready to take care of himself clothes, move them away as soon as possible.

"Jiang Yi." Zhao Duobao stood at the door of the bedroom.

Jiang Yi buried his head in the closet and didn't answer.

Zhao Duobao didn't care, and continued, "After you were imprisoned, I went to your school. You are better than I imagined. If you weren't in prison, you should have a better future now. Don't say that you deserved it. The cause has nothing to do with me."

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Jiang Yi raised his head from the closet, stood up straight and looked at Zhao Duobao, with dissatisfaction in his eyes, "What you deserve is what you deserve. Whenever you can change, you will take all responsibility on yourself bug."

Zhao Duobao didn't want to start a conflict with him, he just said what he wanted to say, "I have no ability and no promise. If others treat me better, I can remember it for a long time, such as Jiang Shuowang, such as you."

"Don't mention Jiang Shuowang." Jiang Yi was a little angry.

Zhao Duobao twitched the corners of his mouth, not sure if he succeeded in laughing, "My mind is very messy, it's all fragments of the past three years, very fragmented, some fleeting. Before, I lived in that hospital-like place for so long, it should be clearer..."

Jiang Yi's expression turned ugly, "Don't tell me that Jiang Shuo forgot."

"But all I can clearly remember now are your voice and this room." As soon as Zhao Duobao finished speaking, Jiang Yi's eyes brightened and then darkened instantly.

Jiang Yi smiled helplessly, with an aggrieved voice, "So what if you remember, you don't want me."

"Most of my memories are still three years ago, and there are only some intermittent fragments of what happened in these three years." Zhao Duobao pursed his lips, "I always think of those things in the past, and I am very angry, but A memory of when you were sick will suddenly pop up, and let me see a different you."

"You..." Jiang Yi didn't know what to say, so he paused as soon as he spoke, waiting for Zhao Duobao's next words.

"My mind is in a mess now, like two people are arguing."

"So..." Jiang Yi rolled his Adam's apple up and down, and asked hoarsely, "What do you mean?"

"I think I may need a little time." Zhao Duobao raised his head and finally dared to look Jiang Yi in the eyes.

"Yes, as long as it takes." Jiang Yi stepped forward, grabbed Zhao Duobao's arm, and looked down at him, "Then can you not leave? No, I can not leave?"

Zhao Duobao twitched the corners of his mouth, "I always thought that what you told me before going to prison was that you blamed me for taking advantage of you and didn't want to see me again."

"I don't know if you really don't remember or if you don't remember." Jiang Yi supported Zhao Duobao's shoulders, bent down and looked directly at him with a serious expression, "I don't care if you remember what I told you the day I picked you up. I don’t remember saying it again, you hear me clearly. I want to take back what I told you before I went to prison. You have not had a good life without me for the past few years. After that, you will never want to leave me again, I I won't let go again."

It would be a lie to say that I am not moved.

The past injuries have been smoothed over the years, and Jiang Yi has paid the price for this.During the three years of separation, Jiang Yi was not the only one who was imprisoned and shackled. Zhao Duobao put invisible shackles on himself and imprisoned himself in the memories of three years ago.

The fragments of memories in the brain are still splicing together, the voice deep in the memory is far away and unreal, but it gradually overlaps with the residual echo in the ear.

Jiang Yi gradually closed his arms and pressed Zhao Duobao tightly to his chest, conveying his fear to the other party through the abnormally fast heartbeat through the material, "You scared me to death, you know, I was so angry just now, it took so long When you recovered, you woke up and wanted to leave, I was really hurting all over, I thought..."

"I'm really contradictory." Zhao Duobao replied softly with his arms hanging by his side, "My head is too messy, it seems that there are many things crowded in it at the same time, I can't make a decision, so I want to avoid it for a while..."

Jiang Yi's voice sounded in his ears, gentle as water, "Don't hide, you can't make a decision, I can wait. I gave up the appeal at the beginning, so I stayed until now so that I can have a chance to prove myself to you again , okay?"

"I'm sorry about your mother." Zhao Duobao hesitated and said, he still felt that he should apologize for this matter.

Jiang Yi grabbed his shoulder and distanced the two of them, "You really have to change the habit of taking everything on yourself."

"But if you hadn't been in prison, you wouldn't have missed so long with your mother, and you might have found out early and could have treated it."

Jiang Yi was stunned, "You remember."

"Remember a little."

"Don't think about it. The matter is over. No matter who is to blame, a dead person cannot be resurrected. What's more, if you really want to blame, the two mothers and sons of the Jiang family are the real culprits."

"He's your father after all."

"It's not anymore. The money for buying a house and doing business is what he used to buy off the relationship between father and son."

"Then you don't have any family anymore?"

Jiang Yi took Zhao Duobao into his arms and kissed his forehead, "You will be my family from now on, and I will be yours too."