Wu Wan

Three years later.

Time has changed and the city has taken on a new look.

After Jiang Yi was released from prison, he felt relieved facing the completely unfamiliar roads and urban traffic.

Following the route of memory, he found No. 28 Nanlin Road, a place he had not set foot in for a long time before he was imprisoned.

If there are blind spots in urban planning, then Nanlin Road in City B must be on the list.

Nanlin Road belongs to the old city, not long, but there are many kinds of old high and low houses lined up, so that no matter how sunny it is outside, Nanlin Road will always be covered by the sun.

Walking into Nanlin Road, Jiang Yi's memory returned to three years ago. Everything was still familiar. He found No. 28 in a row of bungalows according to the house number. He knocked on the door, but no one answered. I took a look, but it was so dark that I couldn't see anything clearly.

A woman in her fifties came out from next door, looked Jiang Yi up and down, pouted, "Who are you looking for?"

"Does Shen Xiushu still live here?"

"Who are you? Why are you looking for Xiushu?"

Jiang Yi froze for a moment, "I am her son."

"Son?" The woman stared at Jiang Yi's face suspiciously, and asked in disbelief, "Xiu Shu still has a son?"

"Hmm..." Jiang Yi was a little embarrassed, and replied hesitantly, "I lived here when I was a child, and then moved out..."

"Oh, it's strange." The woman sneered, "I can't bear to see Xiushu living such a life with a son as old as you. She has gone to the hospital. If you are really her son, you can take better care of her. "The woman gave Jiang Yi a blank look, turned around and entered the room.

Jiang Yi grabbed her, "Why did she go to the hospital?"

"Let go." The woman pushed Jiang Yi, "You are not her son, you should ask her yourself!"

"When will she come back..."

"Xiao Yi?" Jiang Yi and the woman were still shoving, when a female voice suddenly broke in.

"Mom?" Shen Xiushu lost a lot of weight, and Jiang Yi almost failed to recognize her.

"Xiu Shu, this kid said he was your son."

"Yes."

"Why have I never seen you have such a big son?"

Shen Xiushu smiled awkwardly at the woman, then looked at Jiang Yi, "He doesn't kiss me."

"Why did you go to the hospital?" Jiang Yi frowned and stared at the case in Shen Xiushu's hand.

"Why are you talking to your mother, kid?" The woman was about to enter the room, but she couldn't see it and rushed over to scold Jiang Yi.

Shen Xiushu said softly to the woman, "Sister Li, you are busy, I will take him back."

The woman gave Jiang Yi a warning sideways look before closing the door and entering the room.Shen Xiushu opened the door and called Jiang Yi in.

As soon as he entered the room, Jiang Yi reached out to grab the case in Shen Xiushu's hands, but Shen Xiushu avoided it without a trace, "When did you come out?"

Jiang Yi looked at his mother in surprise, "You know?"

"My own son hasn't been seen for three years, can't I find out?"

"Did you go to find him?"

Shen Xiushu paused while holding the cup, "It's about you on TV."

"You... are still doing it..." Jiang Yi looked at his mother's clothes. The hem of the white shirt was tucked into the denim shorts. As long as two chopsticks, the knee joints are particularly abrupt.

"Didn't do it."

"Then do you still have money?"

"I saved some before."

"Oh."

The atmosphere was a bit awkward, Jiang Yi didn't know what to say, and looked at Shen Xiushu again, she was too thin, she seemed to be a different person, the Shen Xiushu he remembered was thin but plump and fleshy, nearly fifty years old The skin is still tight, not as thin and wrinkled as it is now.

After hesitating for a long time, Jiang Yi couldn't help asking her: "Is your illness very serious?"

"It's nothing." Shen Xiushu lowered her head when speaking, not daring to look at Jiang Yi.

"It's nothing, why don't you dare to look at me?"

Taking advantage of Shen Xiushu's unresponsive moment, Jiang Yi snatched her case.The inside pages are full of doctor's scribbled handwriting, and the content is illegible. Jiang Yi frowned and flipped through several pages, and an electronic medicine list fell out from the folder. Shen Xiushu wanted to pick it up, but Jiang Yi took it first. stand up.

The list is full of incomprehensible drug names, the doctor's signature and stamp are on the bottom, and the printing time shows today.Jiang Yi looked at the content at the top of the list, and the words "breast cancer" hurt his eyes severely.

He raised his head and looked at Shen Xiushu blankly, his voice was very soft, with some unbelievable doubts, "How long has it been?"

"You found out not long after you went in."

"Why not heal?"

"It can't be cured." Shen Xiushu was a little excited.

Jiang Yi held up the medicine list, "Why didn't you take medicine when you went to the hospital?"

Shen Xiushu took a heavy breath, "I have no money."

"You wait." Jiang Yi threw down the medicine list angrily, "I'll ask that person for it, he made you like this."

"Don't go." Shen Xiushu yelled, choked and coughed a few times, "Your grandma came to give money, it's useless, it's already at the advanced stage, and I don't want to be treated, it's uncomfortable."

"Hmph." Jiang Yi snorted coldly, "Is that old woman afraid of dying and going to hell to pay for her crimes? Does the Jiang family think that we should be grateful if we give money?"

"Jiang Yi!" Shen Xiushu supported the table to stabilize her figure, her shriveled chest rose and fell violently, "Don't provoke them, we can't beat them."

"I don't have anything anyway, and I'm afraid of wearing shoes when I'm barefoot?"

Regardless of Shen Xiushu's voice calling him from behind, Jiang Yi rushed out.

Jiang Yi rushed to Qingyi Building, five kilometers away from Nanlin Road, calmed down a little at the door, and walked to the front desk of the lobby.

"I'm looking for Jiang Junqing."

"Do you have an appointment?"

"No."

"Jiang Dong's schedule is already full today, if you have something to ask him, I'll ask him for you..."

"You tell him directly, I'm Jiang Yi, if he doesn't want everyone to know his scandal..."

Before Jiang Yi finished speaking, he saw a person coming out of the elevator. He rushed over with puffy eyes, "Jiang Junqing!"

When Jiang Junqing saw Jiang Yi, his face immediately turned dark, and he called the security guards in the hall to restrain Jiang Yi, and then stopped a little away from him.

"What are you doing here?"

"My mother is dying of illness, you use the money to treat her illness."

"What does it have to do with me?"

Jiang Junqing is a well-known entrepreneur in City B. The entire Qingyi Building is his property. Even though he is over fifty years old, he is still in good shape and energetic under the maintenance of affluent life. Jiang Yi on the ground spoke sarcastically.

"You did something wrong yourself, do you want to not take any responsibility?" Jiang Yi struggled to raise his head, glaring at Jiang Junqing.

"I do not understand what you are saying.

"You scumbag who abandoned his wife and son, you are dressed like a beast." Jiang Yi shouted, and everyone in the hall followed the sound to look over.

Jiang Junqing's face was livid, "Stop his mouth."

"Woooooooooo..." Jiang Yi still wanted to make a sound without stopping.

Jiang Junqing glanced at him contemptuously, then raised his chin towards the security guard, "Kick him out and don't come in again."

"Yes."

Jiang Yi kept trying to break free from the shackles and twisted his body desperately. The four security guards united to completely restrain him and drive him out of the hall, but he still wanted to rush in. back.

Jiang Yi glanced at Jiang Junqing through the glass, gritted his teeth, turned his head and left.

Later, he came several times, and without exception, he was kicked out, or he couldn't even enter the gate at all.

Shen Xiushu finally gave up treatment, and her condition deteriorated faster and faster.

Jiang Yi didn't understand, Shen Xiushu had survived for three years, how could he have just found out that his condition had deteriorated so badly.Seeing Shen Xiushu's spirit getting worse and thinner every day, Jiang Yi felt unspeakable pain in his heart, hating himself for going to jail, hating himself for not caring, hating himself for being incompetent...

Finally, on an ordinary night, Shen Xiushu fell asleep under Jiang Yi's gaze and never woke up again.

When his hand failed to reach Shen Xiushu's breath, his brain immediately went blank, his thoughts seemed to have been stripped from his body, and he clearly knew that the person had passed away, but he couldn't accept it anyway.

Jiang Yi couldn't shed a single tear.He thought he had no feelings for Shen Xiushu, he thought he hated this woman who brought him into the world without authorization.But when he really touched Shen Xiushu's icy body, he felt that he had become a kite with a broken string, cut off from the world.

When sorting out Shen Xiushu's belongings, Jiang Yi found a letter, a letter written by Shen Xiushu to him.

Xiaoyi:

sorry.I ruined your life, I know you hate me, hate me for bringing you into this world, hate me for being incompetent and cowardly.I'm sorry, because of my selfishness, I let you live in such a deformed environment, and you can't have a healthy life. I don't deserve to be your mother. I want to be close to you but I'm afraid to see the love in your eyes that look like Junqing. The alienation and contempt you show makes you think that I don't love you.

I'm sorry, my mother can't leave you anything, and all the savings have been used for medical treatment.The moment I knew I was sick, I wanted to see you again, but I saw the news that you were in prison. I have been doing conservative treatment because I want to persist until the day you come out, and say goodbye to you.

You and I have been together as a mother and son, and now the fate is over, I hope you will never be ashamed of me for the rest of your life.

Mother: Shen Xiushu

Jiang Yi's tears that had been clogged in his chest completely burst after reading the letter, and water stains bloomed circle after circle on the thin and transparent letter paper.The letter paper was crumpled into a ball by him and pressed against his chest, sobbing in pain continuously in his throat.

He took care of Shen Xiushu's funeral.

Seeing Shen Xiushu's skinny body turned into a small urn and handed it to him, he couldn't tell what it was like, his emotions were already numb, he did everything step by step, and brought back Shen Xiushu's urn In that little house.

He had no money to buy her a cemetery.

Jiang Yi sat in front of Shen Xiushu's urn for a whole day, burned the paper for her, and brought the letter she wrote to him. In the blank part below, there were three words he added newly.

I am sorry.