After I made a biography for my scumbag ex, I was on fire
Chapter 83 Reflection
"That day, you said, let me open my eyes to see the world, don't think I'm the only one, I thought all night why you said that.
Why, do you think, I think this world is only me?
I really thought about it all night..."
Hearing Lu Yuan's serious words and seeing his extremely serious expression, Mu Song suddenly wanted to laugh.
Why do you still want to think about this? !
You look like no one, even ten miles away, you can be seen at a glance.
But out of respect for him staying up late thinking, Mu Song endured it, suppressed his laughter, and asked in a relatively serious tone.
"So, have you figured it out?"
Lu Yuan nodded.
"You think so, probably because I'm too right about things and not people."
Mu Song: ...
I really didn't expect that President Lu could relieve himself so much, and he transformed a derogatory meaning into a neutral quality.
Apart from admiration, Mu Song was quite speechless, just about to tease a few more words, when he listened to Lu Yuan continue to analyze himself.
"In the past, it wasn't that I didn't know that there were others, but I didn't think much about others... I always felt that the most important thing to live in this world was to constantly improve my skills and keep doing the right thing.
In this process, it is enough to meet like-minded people with the same ideas, and to work together to make things happen.
I can understand and respect other people's own goals and ideals, but I always feel that those are other people's own business and have little to do with me.
After all, my goal is ideal, and it has little to do with others.
Everyone's life has its own long track, and it is rare that there will be intersection and overlap from beginning to end.
Everyone takes good care of themselves. From the small point of view, it is self-reliance and self-improvement. If it is large point of view, independent personality is the most basic of being a human being.
If he can't take responsibility for other people's life, why should I think and struggle for him? "
Hearing this, Mu Song lost his mind to criticize, he was surprised, but also emotional.
In the past ten years, there were very few decent conversations between them.
Just like many partners who share the same bed and have different dreams, most of the daily conversations fall into the sporadic and trivial aspects of life.
Such a deep and serious topic can't even be discussed, so how can it be discussed in depth?
Therefore, the bond between each other becomes more and more superficial, drifts away, and becomes the most familiar stranger.
"I'm not going to hide it from you. In fact, I still think so until now."
Seeing that Mu Song didn't respond, Lu Yuan paused, then spoke again, but the topic changed.
"But after you reminded me, I realized that not all situations should be 'right to the matter and not to the person', such as... getting along with you."
Mu Song was listening to President Lu's self-analysis with great interest, but unexpectedly, the conversation turned to himself, and he couldn't help taking a breath.
He opened his mouth, and before he could come up with the right words, he heard Lu Yuan continue to speak without shame.
"Before, I always thought that we became like this because I did something wrong, but now that I think about it, the core problem is that I don't pay much attention to your feelings.
I think I know you very well, and I haven't thought deeply about your thoughts and feelings, and I haven't asked you seriously..."
As Lu Yuan said, he looked carefully at Mu Song, but saw that he lowered his head, wondering what he was thinking.
"So, many times, I thought you didn't care, so I didn't care...but I accidentally hurt you.
In the past ten years, I have broken your heart so many times, I am really... sorry.
It's too light to say 'I'm sorry', so, no matter what, please give me another chance, let me use ten years, 20 years, or a lifetime to make up for it..."
"Stop, stop, stop!"
Mu Song raised his head abruptly and looked at Lu Yuan, the light in his eyes was a little blurry.
"So, you want to pay off the debt?"
Lu Yuan was startled, avoided Mu Song's scrutiny, and shook his head.
"I'd rather it be as simple as 'pay the debt', so I'll pay you back as fast as I can, so we can start over.
Can……"
Lu Yuan looked at Mu Song, eyes that could tell stories, hidden thousands of words, surging silent waves, but suddenly fell into a desperate silence.
"...It's not that easy."
Witnessing the change in Lu Yuan's expression, he naturally couldn't ignore the indescribable emotion in his eyes.
Mu Song's heart trembled uncontrollably.
Since the reunion, this is the first time that Lu Yuan has frankly stated his reflections on this failed relationship, and it is also the first time to apologize decently.
Listening to Mu Song's ears, it is impossible not to be touched at all, even more touching than watching him try his best to please himself.
Stripping the relationship between them, in all fairness, Lu Yuan is indeed a very good person.
Not counting the things God gave such as family background and appearance, just knowledge, quality, low-level thinking, these "wealths" accumulated through acquired hard work, also gave him enough self-confidence to make him look above the top. Survive in this world with the attitude of "doing things and not people".
But today, because of one sentence of his own, he will seriously reflect on it and finally overthrow his long-standing principles of life. I have to say that I really put my heart into it.
Mu Song looked at Lu Yuan and thought, if this scene happened earlier, maybe...
Unfortunately, there is no such thing as an "if".
At this point, because of his sudden enlightenment, I have to ignore the scars left by the past ten years and reunite with him?
Indeed, there is no such easy thing...
Mu Song sighed softly from the bottom of his heart, but his face remained calm. He looked at Lu Yuan for a while and forced a smile.
"It's good to have such an understanding, and I can keep it for my next appointment."
"What did you say?!"
"I said yes...well..."
Before Mu Song could finish repeating his words, Lu Yuan yanked him, pressed him into his arms through the armrest, and blocked his mouth severely with his mouth as if punishing him.
"If this is the case, don't say it again! Did you hear me?"
Lu Yuan let go of Mu Song's mouth, turned his face to his face, only moved a finger away, and stared at him with red eye circles.
The kiss just now was so powerful that Mu Song felt that all the oxygen in his respiratory tract was robbed by Lu Yuan, and his brain fell into a state of confusion due to the short-term lack of oxygen.
"In the future, don't say such things again. In this life, I will only tie you up, and you can only follow me..."
Seeing that Mu Song didn't respond, Lu Yuan hugged Mu Song tightly in his arms and pressed him firmly against his chest. It seemed that only in this way could he glue the broken heart together.
"You...you let go..."
Mu Song came back to his senses and struggled for a long time, but he still couldn't push Lu Yuan away. He had no choice but to open his mouth and bite Lu Yuan's shoulder.
"hiss……"
Lu Yuan hummed in pain, but still didn't let go.
"Aren't you in pain?!"
Mu Song rolled his eyes in anger, thinking, I'm biting my teeth.
"pain……"
"Then why don't you let go?!"
"Not loose..."
……
"Unless you promise me, don't say such things..."
"Okay, okay, okay, let's not talk about it."
Mu Song dealt with it impatiently, but he thought in his heart, this kind of thing, whether you talk about it or not, what should happen will still happen...
"Don't even think that way."
……
This dog man is really lenient, not only talking about his mouth, but also his brain cells!
"Huh? Did you hear that?"
Not getting Mu Song's reply, Lu Yuan exerted his arms again, trapping the person in his arms even tighter.
Mu Song was really annoyed and snorted coldly.
"You take care of yourself, whether I say it or not, whether I want it or not, it's not that important."
As soon as these words came out, Lu Yuan's arm visibly loosened. Just as Mu Song was about to take the opportunity to escape, he was hugged violently again.
"You're right, I have the final say on this matter, it doesn't matter what you think or say, I won't find anyone else, and don't even think about having someone else.
In this life, we will be separated until death..."
Lu Yuan pressed Mu Song, lowered his head, and kissed him on the top of his hair before finally letting go.
After being strangled for a long time, as soon as Lu Yuan let go, Mu Song immediately bounced back to the depth of the seat, half a meter away from Lu Yuan, turned his head, not wanting him to see his hot face.
I really don't know if it was because of being hugged for lack of oxygen, or what Lu Yuan said, or, his last kiss...
Mu Song felt that his face was as hot as a thermos bottle, and he didn't need to look in the mirror to know that it must be completely red.
Sure enough, even though Mu Song tried his best to turn his back on Lu Yuan, he was still noticed, and his big warm palm directly touched his forehead.
"What? Do you have a fever? Your face is so red..."
"Oh, you go away! Don't touch your hands!"
Now that he was spotted, there was nothing to hide, Mu Song opened Lu Yuan's arm, turned around with a whimper, and glared at him angrily.
Mu Song's original intention was to warn this doggy man who always wanted to be ambiguous, but he didn't know that his current appearance is really not very powerful.
Not only did he blush like a little boy on the plateau, but his watery eyes were even more crystal-clear, coupled with anger, it was really not enough anger, but more than coquettish.
Seeing that Lu Yuan was not only not afraid, but could not help laughing.
"Okay, okay, stop making trouble, if you're hot, I'll get you a glass of ice water, okay?"
Lu Yuan smiled and was about to ring the service bell, but Mu Song grabbed him.
"Calm down!"
Mu Song glared at Lu Yuan again, making sure that he was no longer messing around, then let go of his hand, turned around and retreated to the corner of the seat, staring at Lu Yuan worryingly.
Stalking is not enough, what else can I say, we will not separate until death...
What the hell!
This dog man, doesn't really have the property of perverted and domineering robbery!
As soon as the thought flashed into his mind, Mu Song's well-developed nerves crackled and became active, and he immediately imagined many bloody scenes.
But the more I thought about it, the more I felt that it couldn't match Lu Yuan's upright face.
This person who has been together for ten years, in Mu Song's mind, is always more rational than emotional, and what he has done in the past three months has already crossed the line.
crazier things...
Mu Song couldn't imagine it.
But looking at his attitude of not giving up until he achieves his goal... Could it be that he just planned to keep pestering her like this? !
... What if he, really, keeps pestering her?
Mu Song's heart trembled.
no, I can not.
The dog man can't last long...
Mu Song comforted himself repeatedly, but subconsciously, an inexplicable uneasiness became more and more intense.
"What do you want to stare at me like this? Afraid you won't be able to see me when you get off the plane? Then you move in with me, okay? This way you can see me all the time..."
Lu Yuan was furiously stared at by Mu Song, but he still couldn't help it. He wanted to tease him and ease the embarrassing atmosphere at this moment.
"piss off!"
Mu Song came back to his senses, turned his face away with a low voice, closed his eyes, and wanted to fall asleep and pass out, not bothering to deal with such a bad thing that made his head swell.
But behind him, Lu Yuan's deep and pleasant laughter made it difficult for him to ignore it.
"Why didn't I realize that you are so annoying?"
Mu Song turned over and stared at Lu Yuan who "sneered" at him.
"Okay, okay, stop making trouble, you can sleep peacefully...be good."
Lu Yuan's smile withdrew the corners of his lips, and then, it turned into a soft kiss on Mu Song's smooth brow.
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The author has something to say:
Mu Song: It's over, it's over... I feel like the dog man can't get rid of him.
Lu Yuan: Haha, then hurry home with me!
Of course: Songsong, hold on!The big boss is coming on the colorful auspicious clouds!
Lu Yuan: ………………… Damn woman, are you playing wolf?Called a few small theaters, but let me see, where is the person?
An Heng: Ahem, let me introduce myself formally. I am the big boss. The next chapter will be online.
Lu Yuan: Fuck...
Why, do you think, I think this world is only me?
I really thought about it all night..."
Hearing Lu Yuan's serious words and seeing his extremely serious expression, Mu Song suddenly wanted to laugh.
Why do you still want to think about this? !
You look like no one, even ten miles away, you can be seen at a glance.
But out of respect for him staying up late thinking, Mu Song endured it, suppressed his laughter, and asked in a relatively serious tone.
"So, have you figured it out?"
Lu Yuan nodded.
"You think so, probably because I'm too right about things and not people."
Mu Song: ...
I really didn't expect that President Lu could relieve himself so much, and he transformed a derogatory meaning into a neutral quality.
Apart from admiration, Mu Song was quite speechless, just about to tease a few more words, when he listened to Lu Yuan continue to analyze himself.
"In the past, it wasn't that I didn't know that there were others, but I didn't think much about others... I always felt that the most important thing to live in this world was to constantly improve my skills and keep doing the right thing.
In this process, it is enough to meet like-minded people with the same ideas, and to work together to make things happen.
I can understand and respect other people's own goals and ideals, but I always feel that those are other people's own business and have little to do with me.
After all, my goal is ideal, and it has little to do with others.
Everyone's life has its own long track, and it is rare that there will be intersection and overlap from beginning to end.
Everyone takes good care of themselves. From the small point of view, it is self-reliance and self-improvement. If it is large point of view, independent personality is the most basic of being a human being.
If he can't take responsibility for other people's life, why should I think and struggle for him? "
Hearing this, Mu Song lost his mind to criticize, he was surprised, but also emotional.
In the past ten years, there were very few decent conversations between them.
Just like many partners who share the same bed and have different dreams, most of the daily conversations fall into the sporadic and trivial aspects of life.
Such a deep and serious topic can't even be discussed, so how can it be discussed in depth?
Therefore, the bond between each other becomes more and more superficial, drifts away, and becomes the most familiar stranger.
"I'm not going to hide it from you. In fact, I still think so until now."
Seeing that Mu Song didn't respond, Lu Yuan paused, then spoke again, but the topic changed.
"But after you reminded me, I realized that not all situations should be 'right to the matter and not to the person', such as... getting along with you."
Mu Song was listening to President Lu's self-analysis with great interest, but unexpectedly, the conversation turned to himself, and he couldn't help taking a breath.
He opened his mouth, and before he could come up with the right words, he heard Lu Yuan continue to speak without shame.
"Before, I always thought that we became like this because I did something wrong, but now that I think about it, the core problem is that I don't pay much attention to your feelings.
I think I know you very well, and I haven't thought deeply about your thoughts and feelings, and I haven't asked you seriously..."
As Lu Yuan said, he looked carefully at Mu Song, but saw that he lowered his head, wondering what he was thinking.
"So, many times, I thought you didn't care, so I didn't care...but I accidentally hurt you.
In the past ten years, I have broken your heart so many times, I am really... sorry.
It's too light to say 'I'm sorry', so, no matter what, please give me another chance, let me use ten years, 20 years, or a lifetime to make up for it..."
"Stop, stop, stop!"
Mu Song raised his head abruptly and looked at Lu Yuan, the light in his eyes was a little blurry.
"So, you want to pay off the debt?"
Lu Yuan was startled, avoided Mu Song's scrutiny, and shook his head.
"I'd rather it be as simple as 'pay the debt', so I'll pay you back as fast as I can, so we can start over.
Can……"
Lu Yuan looked at Mu Song, eyes that could tell stories, hidden thousands of words, surging silent waves, but suddenly fell into a desperate silence.
"...It's not that easy."
Witnessing the change in Lu Yuan's expression, he naturally couldn't ignore the indescribable emotion in his eyes.
Mu Song's heart trembled uncontrollably.
Since the reunion, this is the first time that Lu Yuan has frankly stated his reflections on this failed relationship, and it is also the first time to apologize decently.
Listening to Mu Song's ears, it is impossible not to be touched at all, even more touching than watching him try his best to please himself.
Stripping the relationship between them, in all fairness, Lu Yuan is indeed a very good person.
Not counting the things God gave such as family background and appearance, just knowledge, quality, low-level thinking, these "wealths" accumulated through acquired hard work, also gave him enough self-confidence to make him look above the top. Survive in this world with the attitude of "doing things and not people".
But today, because of one sentence of his own, he will seriously reflect on it and finally overthrow his long-standing principles of life. I have to say that I really put my heart into it.
Mu Song looked at Lu Yuan and thought, if this scene happened earlier, maybe...
Unfortunately, there is no such thing as an "if".
At this point, because of his sudden enlightenment, I have to ignore the scars left by the past ten years and reunite with him?
Indeed, there is no such easy thing...
Mu Song sighed softly from the bottom of his heart, but his face remained calm. He looked at Lu Yuan for a while and forced a smile.
"It's good to have such an understanding, and I can keep it for my next appointment."
"What did you say?!"
"I said yes...well..."
Before Mu Song could finish repeating his words, Lu Yuan yanked him, pressed him into his arms through the armrest, and blocked his mouth severely with his mouth as if punishing him.
"If this is the case, don't say it again! Did you hear me?"
Lu Yuan let go of Mu Song's mouth, turned his face to his face, only moved a finger away, and stared at him with red eye circles.
The kiss just now was so powerful that Mu Song felt that all the oxygen in his respiratory tract was robbed by Lu Yuan, and his brain fell into a state of confusion due to the short-term lack of oxygen.
"In the future, don't say such things again. In this life, I will only tie you up, and you can only follow me..."
Seeing that Mu Song didn't respond, Lu Yuan hugged Mu Song tightly in his arms and pressed him firmly against his chest. It seemed that only in this way could he glue the broken heart together.
"You...you let go..."
Mu Song came back to his senses and struggled for a long time, but he still couldn't push Lu Yuan away. He had no choice but to open his mouth and bite Lu Yuan's shoulder.
"hiss……"
Lu Yuan hummed in pain, but still didn't let go.
"Aren't you in pain?!"
Mu Song rolled his eyes in anger, thinking, I'm biting my teeth.
"pain……"
"Then why don't you let go?!"
"Not loose..."
……
"Unless you promise me, don't say such things..."
"Okay, okay, okay, let's not talk about it."
Mu Song dealt with it impatiently, but he thought in his heart, this kind of thing, whether you talk about it or not, what should happen will still happen...
"Don't even think that way."
……
This dog man is really lenient, not only talking about his mouth, but also his brain cells!
"Huh? Did you hear that?"
Not getting Mu Song's reply, Lu Yuan exerted his arms again, trapping the person in his arms even tighter.
Mu Song was really annoyed and snorted coldly.
"You take care of yourself, whether I say it or not, whether I want it or not, it's not that important."
As soon as these words came out, Lu Yuan's arm visibly loosened. Just as Mu Song was about to take the opportunity to escape, he was hugged violently again.
"You're right, I have the final say on this matter, it doesn't matter what you think or say, I won't find anyone else, and don't even think about having someone else.
In this life, we will be separated until death..."
Lu Yuan pressed Mu Song, lowered his head, and kissed him on the top of his hair before finally letting go.
After being strangled for a long time, as soon as Lu Yuan let go, Mu Song immediately bounced back to the depth of the seat, half a meter away from Lu Yuan, turned his head, not wanting him to see his hot face.
I really don't know if it was because of being hugged for lack of oxygen, or what Lu Yuan said, or, his last kiss...
Mu Song felt that his face was as hot as a thermos bottle, and he didn't need to look in the mirror to know that it must be completely red.
Sure enough, even though Mu Song tried his best to turn his back on Lu Yuan, he was still noticed, and his big warm palm directly touched his forehead.
"What? Do you have a fever? Your face is so red..."
"Oh, you go away! Don't touch your hands!"
Now that he was spotted, there was nothing to hide, Mu Song opened Lu Yuan's arm, turned around with a whimper, and glared at him angrily.
Mu Song's original intention was to warn this doggy man who always wanted to be ambiguous, but he didn't know that his current appearance is really not very powerful.
Not only did he blush like a little boy on the plateau, but his watery eyes were even more crystal-clear, coupled with anger, it was really not enough anger, but more than coquettish.
Seeing that Lu Yuan was not only not afraid, but could not help laughing.
"Okay, okay, stop making trouble, if you're hot, I'll get you a glass of ice water, okay?"
Lu Yuan smiled and was about to ring the service bell, but Mu Song grabbed him.
"Calm down!"
Mu Song glared at Lu Yuan again, making sure that he was no longer messing around, then let go of his hand, turned around and retreated to the corner of the seat, staring at Lu Yuan worryingly.
Stalking is not enough, what else can I say, we will not separate until death...
What the hell!
This dog man, doesn't really have the property of perverted and domineering robbery!
As soon as the thought flashed into his mind, Mu Song's well-developed nerves crackled and became active, and he immediately imagined many bloody scenes.
But the more I thought about it, the more I felt that it couldn't match Lu Yuan's upright face.
This person who has been together for ten years, in Mu Song's mind, is always more rational than emotional, and what he has done in the past three months has already crossed the line.
crazier things...
Mu Song couldn't imagine it.
But looking at his attitude of not giving up until he achieves his goal... Could it be that he just planned to keep pestering her like this? !
... What if he, really, keeps pestering her?
Mu Song's heart trembled.
no, I can not.
The dog man can't last long...
Mu Song comforted himself repeatedly, but subconsciously, an inexplicable uneasiness became more and more intense.
"What do you want to stare at me like this? Afraid you won't be able to see me when you get off the plane? Then you move in with me, okay? This way you can see me all the time..."
Lu Yuan was furiously stared at by Mu Song, but he still couldn't help it. He wanted to tease him and ease the embarrassing atmosphere at this moment.
"piss off!"
Mu Song came back to his senses, turned his face away with a low voice, closed his eyes, and wanted to fall asleep and pass out, not bothering to deal with such a bad thing that made his head swell.
But behind him, Lu Yuan's deep and pleasant laughter made it difficult for him to ignore it.
"Why didn't I realize that you are so annoying?"
Mu Song turned over and stared at Lu Yuan who "sneered" at him.
"Okay, okay, stop making trouble, you can sleep peacefully...be good."
Lu Yuan's smile withdrew the corners of his lips, and then, it turned into a soft kiss on Mu Song's smooth brow.
--------------------
The author has something to say:
Mu Song: It's over, it's over... I feel like the dog man can't get rid of him.
Lu Yuan: Haha, then hurry home with me!
Of course: Songsong, hold on!The big boss is coming on the colorful auspicious clouds!
Lu Yuan: ………………… Damn woman, are you playing wolf?Called a few small theaters, but let me see, where is the person?
An Heng: Ahem, let me introduce myself formally. I am the big boss. The next chapter will be online.
Lu Yuan: Fuck...
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