He said I was soft and nice

Qi Ling originally thought that he had behaved normally enough, and even he himself was almost deceived.

Isn't it just not accepted by the family and forced to come out?He is not penniless, he can live in a good hotel, eat delicious food, and study in University A without any worries. He will have a very bright future.

But, why was he so congested in his heart? It was like soaked cotton, which kept spreading out and expanding, enclosing his whole body. It seemed light, but it was so heavy that he couldn't breathe.

He obviously left that family, why is he still like this...

Feeling Xu Chen's gentle touch on his face, Qi Ling was a little dazed, "Am I okay?"

But when he opened his mouth, his voice was inexplicably choked up, and there was even a slight cry.

The next moment, he was hugged into a wide and warm embrace, "It's okay to cry."

Xu Chen said this to him.

Qi Ling blinked and opened his mouth to say something, but something flowed down from the corner of his eyes uncontrollably. He reached out to touch it, and it was tears.

He wiped his face, not wanting to appear so vulnerable in front of Xu Chen, but the more tears he wiped away, soaking a large area of ​​Xu Chen's clothes in front of him.

Qi Ling felt like a child who fell down at this moment. It was okay at first, but as soon as the person he was relying on comforted, the grievance in his heart burst out all of a sudden, and he couldn't stop it.

Xu Chen listened to the suppressed cries of the person in his arms, and rubbed his hair, "Qi Ling, homosexuality is just a sexual orientation, it doesn't matter if someone doesn't accept it, it's not wrong."

"You are not wrong."

Xu Chen's attitude and Qi Ling's parents were clearly on opposite sides.

Yao Peilan and Qi Changyong feel that homosexuality is disgusting, and they feel that this is not something that should appear at all. They regard Qi Ling as a different kind, and they have been putting pressure on Qi Ling to make him like a normal person.

But at this time Xu Chen stood behind him, stopped those overwhelming denials and abuse, and told Qi Ling, "You are normal, just live your own life well."

Qi Ling bit his lower lip, and tightly grabbed Xu Chen's clothes, his sobs could no longer be stopped, he only felt that the hard shell he had erected just now was broken bit by bit by Xu Chen's words.

"Why...for so many years, they couldn't accept me?"

"I fought hard and tried to pretend to be a normal person so as not to embarrass them, but they are still like this and don't give me any room to breathe. I'm really uncomfortable..."

Qi Ling spoke intermittently, his body trembling slightly, the words that had been squeezed in his heart for so many years seemed to have a vent, pouring out.

Xu Chen's embrace is his most stable safe haven, here, he doesn't need to pretend to be strong, he is also a child who is being pampered by others.

He buried his face in Xu Chen's arms, hugged the other's waist tightly, felt the other's body temperature and heartbeat, choked up and said,

"After I found out that I like men, I was also very scared. I went to them immediately, but what I received was endless scolding. They said I was disgusting, that I was ashamed, and that it was useless to give birth to me. No."

"From then on, they would follow me and rummage through my things, as if they were afraid that I would associate with someone who was unclear. During that time, I really wanted to die."

That time was the darkest time in Qi Ling's life.

The person he trusted the most pushed him to the edge of the cliff little by little, almost destroying him.

"After I was admitted to University A, their attitude gradually improved, and I thought they accepted me, but the invisible sense of surveillance did not weaken because I left home, and they even gave me a bank card for tuition and living expenses. They are all under my dad’s name, and they can see all my transaction details.”

He realized then that Yao Peilan and Qi Changyong didn't really let him go, they just took control of his life in a different way.

He started working part-time to earn money by himself. After freshman year, he didn't spend his family's money and was self-sufficient.

Qi Ling thought that the two of them could coexist peacefully, but he was wrong.

Just thinking about it now, the nausea in his stomach couldn't stop churning.

Xu Chen noticed Qi Ling's reaction, pulled him into his arms again, and raised his hand to wipe away the tears on his face, "It's okay, just say it, I'm here."

Qi Ling felt the opponent's strength, and the nausea subsided a lot. After talking so much, his heart became lighter, and the tears in the corners of his eyes gradually stopped.

He rubbed his eyes and continued: "Then they arranged a blind date for me at home, that is, Liu Yuyu, whose father is my father's boss, that is to say, they not only want me to stay at home in the future, but also want me to give My dad's career has contributed."

"It was also this blind date that made me fully realize that I was admitted to University A with great difficulty, but in their eyes, I am nothing."

So he didn't want to whitewash the peace anymore, he deliberately set up this situation, pretending to accidentally let Yao Peilan see the hickey on his collarbone, just to test their attitude.

A week passed, and the two lived in peace. He thought he was overthinking, and he even hoped that his parents had actually accepted his sexuality.

Unexpectedly, they were just looking for the right time, looking through his things to find criminal evidence, and even wanted him to suspend school for a year... -

Qi Ling felt sore and astringent in his heart. Thinking about it now, in fact, Qi Changyong and Yao Peilan never thought about him since they knew he was gay. They just wanted to surround themselves as a beautiful and useful doll , let them fiddle with it.

He only felt a little cold all over his body, and the chill from the bottom of his heart gradually spread to his whole body.

Qi Ling rubbed his arms subconsciously.

Xu Chen turned up the temperature of the air conditioner, and carefully observed the expression of the person in his arms.

The eyes of Qi Ling who had just cried were wet, and the end of his eyes was still slightly red, and faint traces of tears could be seen on his face. Now he was nestling in his arms, soft and pitiful.

Fortunately, Qi Ling didn't hold his emotions in his heart like before. After crying, his whole body was obviously much calmer, but the hand on his waist never relaxed.

Xu Chen breathed a sigh of relief quietly. In fact, not only Qi Ling has recovered, but his tense nerves have also relaxed.

Before he found Qi Ling, he felt that he was really going crazy. He even wanted to rush into Qi Ling's house and take those two out and give them a hard lesson. If something happened to Qi Ling, he would never let them go. .

Fortunately, he still found it.

He glanced at the time, it was almost 0 o'clock, he straightened the pillow, and then covered the person with a quilt, "Is it still cold? It's late, do you want to sleep?"

Qi Ling's emotions have been suppressed for so long, and he should be very tired when he releases them all at once.

Qi Ling looked at Xu Chen who was sitting on the bed, blinked, and whispered, "It's still cold."

He is alone, no matter what is cold.

Xu Chen was silent for a while, took off his shoes, put Qi Ling in his arms, looked down at the person who automatically found the seat, and asked with a smile: "Now?"

Qi Ling replied vaguely: "It's okay!"

He circled Xu Chen's waist in a familiar way, and the familiar body temperature spread to him little by little through their thin pajamas, which made him relax, but he also caught a glimpse of the other one beside him who was not moving old bed.

Xu Chen booked a double room, presumably because he knew he was in a bad mood and wanted to stay with him in the same room,

However, he wanted more.

Qi Ling buried his face in Xu Chen's arms, and said in a muffled voice, "Would you like to sleep next to me later?"

Feeling the person next to him who was sticking close to him, Xu Chen said helplessly, "I won't go, I'll stay here with you."

"Then will you disappear after I fall asleep?"

Seeing Qi Ling looking up at him with his head up, Xu Chen couldn't help pinching his face, "Don't run away, I'll sleep with you all night, are you satisfied?"

This push for an inch came again.

Only then did Qi Ling feel relieved, and put his face on Xu Chen's heart, listening to the other's steady heartbeat, the corners of his mouth curled up silently, "I just want to stay with you for a while longer."

He hadn't seen Xu Chen for a week, and it was an incomparably extravagant thing for him to be able to really touch the other person and feel the other person's body temperature.

Normally, Xu Chen would never be so easy to talk to.

Qi Ling couldn't help but hug Xu Chen tighter.

Today's anger, grievance, and even that bit of self-loathing are scattered into nothingness amidst the crying and talking.

He has never felt so relaxed, with Xu Chen around, he is not afraid of anything.

But when his eyes inadvertently glanced at the suit hanging in the bedroom, the arc of the corner of his mouth disappeared little by little.

There was a deep mark on the shoulder of the light-colored suit, plus the muddy shoes he saw in the rain...

How long has Xu Chen been looking for him?

He pursed his lips, grabbed Xu Chen's hand, put it on his face, and rubbed it carefully, "I'm sorry, I won't run around again next time."

Xu Chen felt the soft touch underneath and the flattering tone of the other party, "Why are you talking about this suddenly? This time it's not just about running around, but also, you shouldn't be foolishly getting wet in the rain, you know that your body is yours? "

Hearing the accusation in Xu Chen's tone, Qi Ling bit his lip, "I'm sorry, I won't be stupid again."

"Next time if I don't obey you, you will lock me up. I won't go anywhere, but I will stay by your side."

Xu Chen rescued his lips that were almost bitten off again, and brushed his fingertips over his red lips, feeling the slight wetness and soft touch of his fingertips, his eyes darkened, "Shut up!" ?”

Does Qi Ling know what he is talking about?

As if he didn't understand the dangerous signal in Xu Chen's eyes, Qi Ling put the fingers on his lips and rubbed them lightly with his teeth. It didn't hurt, but itched a little, just like being coquettish.

His tone was vague: "If you are not good, you should be punished."

The wet and soft fingertips swept across made Xu Chen's hand resting on Qi Ling's waist subconsciously exert force, tightly tightening his embrace, withdrew his hand from Qi Ling's mouth, and pinched his chin instead, saying in a deep voice Said: "Stop playing."

The body in his arms was thin and weak, and he couldn't bear unnecessary tossing.

But Qi Ling was never as proud as he was.

Qi Ling grabbed his collar with his hand and pulled him down. Xu Chen could even feel the wetness around Qi Ling's mouth.

Qi Ling softly touched the corner of his mouth with his lips, and licked it carefully. Seeing that Xu Chen didn't push him away, he boldly rubbed it to the side. Lips are a little wet.

Qi Ling just felt his head was dizzy, he didn't know that he could get so drunk before actually kissing.

He looked fascinated at the person standing still in front of him, and said softly, "Xu Chen, can you talk to me?"

"This time I am not good, you can punish me."

If it weren't for him, how could Xu Chen, who was always decent, become so embarrassed, and Xu Chen obviously came to find him in the middle of work.

The more Qi Ling thought about it, the more guilty he felt, wanting to please Xu Chen in this way.

Besides, he has experienced so many things, and he also has a secret desire for Xu Chen.

He wanted to be possessed, wanted to be ruined, wanted to belong to Xu Chen only from now on.

From time to time, the horns of cars and the shouts of hawkers can be heard outside the hotel, one after the other, obviously a bit noisy, but in Qi Ling's ears, only the overlapping breathing of the two of them and his own unstoppable swallowing .

He wanted to raise his head slowly, but the back of his head was firmly controlled by Xu Chen. Xu Chen didn't let him escape at all. Every part of his mouth was carefully explored, giving Qi Ling a feeling that he had been eaten dry. net illusion.

Qi Ling thought in a daze, the fire seemed to be too much.

When he was about to be out of breath, Xu Chen finally let him go.

Xu Chen looked at Qi Ling, whose face was flushed red in his arms, and his eyes were filled with steam, like Qi Ling who was about to cry because he was being bullied.

"If you don't behave well next time, it will be more than that..."