fallen star

Early the next morning, waiting for Chen Jiatong's arrival with swollen eyes, he didn't sleep well all night, so he sat by the window and watched the scenery outside

He finally came and took me to the cemetery after checking out my room

"Wait for me~" Passing by a flower shop, I saw Eucalyptus again

He also stopped, but only left me with a back view without any emotion, and didn't even turn his head

I bought another bunch, it's green and shiny, and I'm going to keep it with Ouyang

Entering the cemetery, Chen Jiatong was familiar with the road, and quickly brought me to the small tombstone with big characters on it: Tomb of the late Ouyang Ming

He walked far away, leaving me alone to cry in front of the tombstone, but there was nothing on the tombstone, there was only Ouyang's name on it

"It's getting late, it's time to go back~" I didn't check the time until Chen Jiatong came over to call me, and I was lying on the ground. It was past twelve o'clock, and there were more and more people visiting relatives around

But I still have a lot of things I haven't said to him, and I haven't had time to say...

"Oh~ good..."

"Let's have dinner together~" I asked him

"Next time, I have something to do today"

He directly refused, and then personally watched me get on the taxi. I hurt him too much, and I didn't expect him to be so determined.

It’s almost two o’clock when I returned to Nanchang. When I got home to get my things and prepared to go back to Jiujiang, I suddenly remembered to turn on Ouyang’s computer. I don’t know what happened to the article I submitted last time.

Just logged into that webpage, I was dumbfounded by the overwhelming private messages and Art

"Brother, you are about to appear, your articles have been transferred to the sky." "Is what you wrote true?" "So how are you doing now?" Private messages like this

There is a private message from a netizen named Zhan Wu Invincible: In view of your experience with your boyfriend, I wrote a song for you, see if it works

"The Star Flew Away"

The stars fall by your side

look the way you like

You tell yourself that you don't want to lose your lover

The story is over but the world is apart

the stars are back in heaven

The world is withered to desolation

Please don't look at the sky alone in the dead of night

The past left two lines of tears

Mom said

star he is very kind

He watches you grow from heaven

He can't walk the long way with you

There is still a long way to go in the future

he will go back to heaven

he is also kind

The future is still long, don't be disappointed

I was tired from crying too much, I kept silent in front of the computer, silent, the small universe in my heart kept collapsing and collapsing

"He can't walk a long way with me..." I really wanted to laugh, but the corners of my mouth were weak, and I pouted reluctantly

Replied to those readers one by one, about hundreds of private messages, packed up my things and booked a ticket back to Jiujiang after I was done, my mood became worse after a trip to Fengcheng, and my miss for Ouyang became more and more uncontrollable, but how could I I can persuade myself not to think about him anymore

This time when I went back to Jiujiang, I didn’t even bring my mobile phone with me. I just took some cash with me and went out. Before I left, I looked at Ouyang’s artistic photos hanging on the wall. It’s so handsome.

I arrived at the school at 06:30 in the evening. The school was on holiday on Sunday afternoon, so the school was very empty. I went back to the dormitory alone, and Yang Le was not there. I was so exhausted that I collapsed on the bed and fell asleep in a daze.

"You have to study hard~"

I had a dream again. In the dream, Ouyang stood beside me, with one arm around my shoulder, and told me

"You have to study hard~ Your future life will be even more exciting~ Believe in yourself, you are the best~"

In the dream, I was not sad at all, I just asked Ouyang how to live a more wonderful life

"It's very simple~ It is to strive to live better every day. If you accumulate it for a long time, one day~ you will see the harvest~"

I still nodded, but I still don't understand, is it really that easy to live better every day than the day before?

"It's very easy. For example, if you ate a bowl of rice today, yesterday's you only ate half a bowl, then today's you is better than yesterday~ In comparison, climbing a higher mountain and walking down a river are more difficult." Wide river, draw a more perfect picture, look at the emptiness of the sea and sky, these are the fruits that can be harvested after long-term accumulation to make you more perfect~”

I seem to understand, but back to the beginning, I said "but you are not here~"

He smiled slightly and said, "It is because I am not here that you have to become stronger and protect yourself from being bullied~" He patted my head and said, "Okay, I have to go~"

I was woken up before I could even say goodbye to him

"Hey~ Li Jifan, are you okay?" I opened my eyes narrowly, and Yang Le was standing in front of the bed, bending over to look at me

I got up and found that I fell asleep without taking off my clothes and even my shoes

"You...why do you keep crying when you fall asleep?" He asked me

"Is there? I don't know~" I pretended to touch the corner of my eye, and then I took a lump of eye shit and threw it towards him

"Go away!" He avoided it flexibly, and said, "Hurry up, class is almost here~"

I just realized that I have slept for so long...

When he was still brushing his teeth, Yang Le took the lead and left without saying a word, and he was different from others, so there was no need to wait for me

After washing my face, I looked at myself in the mirror and made up my mind that I couldn’t go on like this anymore. I cheered myself up and started laughing out of nowhere. I’m really an emotional person.

Pressing the class bell to enter the classroom, the classroom is full of people, it seems that I am the last one, but it doesn't matter, I am used to it

"We know that the exchange of Chinese and Western cultures originated from the opening of the Silk Road, and Zhang Qian's mission to the Western Regions..." The history class was on the right track at the beginning, but I actually started a desertion, thinking of Ding Taisheng's poetic drama "Love" A passage from "Chang'an"

Have you ever dreamed of Chang'an?

what is it like

Are its streets paved with gold?

Is its palace bigger than the grassland?

Do the people there have smiles on their faces?

Are the birds there singing and flying?

I'm already drunk

In my dream I murmured to myself,

While sleep is sweet,

With today's wine,

I have forgotten the wind and sand of ten thousand miles,

Forget the sorrows of the past,

I also forgot who used to whisper in my ear like this,

Did I ever really love her,

Or just to pass the time of loneliness,

it doesn't matter anymore,

Those are not important anymore,

I'm going back to my Chang'an,

Back to the life that really belongs to me,

I was in a trance in my dream,

I suddenly don't know,

my real life,

After all in Chang'an,

It's still in this place they call the Western Regions.

Inexplicably, I wrote it in the draft book, and then I dismissed the get out of class without knowing it

"Do you want to go to the bathroom?" Yang Le came over and asked me, I nodded and got up to follow him

When I went back to the classroom, I found that the draft book was gone when I returned to my seat. Although the small book had been ruined by the drafts, I had to find the two pages of Ouyang anyway, so I asked around.

"Who sat in your seat just now~? Let me think about it..." The deskmate has been burying his head in writing questions, and he only raised his head when I asked him

"Just... that one~" He pointed to a girl in the first row by the window, "He seems to have been here just now, but I have been writing questions, you can ask her, maybe she knows~"

So I walked to that girl's desk, I was ashamed that I couldn't even call her name for half a month

"That..." I said, she looked up, still smiling

"Are you looking for this?" She returned the book to me, "I saw your poem just now and liked it so much, so I took it and copied it. I'm sorry I didn't get your permission!" She seemed to be smiling happily look like

Explaining is meaningless, I smiled awkwardly, took the book and walked back, opened that page, densely packed with Ouyang, it made me feel comfortable

Lunch at noon, with Yang Le, he has been laughing since the end of get out of class, until the cafeteria has lunch, he is willing to say when he sits down

"You're a good boy, and you've got a lot of good fortune~" He said smugly, "Our class flower has taken a fancy to you~ Are you happy? Brother"

The news came a bit unexpectedly, but it didn't surprise me, it scared me

"What the hell? Which?"

"Just take the one in your notebook, he told me that you are good at clothes, talented, and handsome~" He laughed, "The class flower is cheap for you, no matter how many people in the school want to catch up, they can't catch up with you." Yes, you've only been here for half a month~"

I really wanted to slap him, but I controlled myself and said, "I didn't say I wanted it. She loves me, so I can't help it~" Then I said, "Besides, I only think about it now Learning, only learning can make me feel truly happy!"

"That's not right, the requirements are quite high~"

"What, I said I just want to study now, what are you thinking about?"

He stopped his chopsticks and said, "In my opinion, there are only two kinds of men in this world." He raised his index finger, "One is our big pig's trotters. When you see one, you love the other." After finishing speaking, he raised his middle finger, "Two, that is Gay”

Suddenly there was a feeling of being poked in the spine, I said, "That is the third type of man in the world that you have ignored~" I pointed to myself, and said, "A man who has lost his spouse and only wants to make money!"

I knew that if he brought out the widowhood stalk, he would definitely have nothing to say

"Okay, that's right, I forgot about it~" He picked up the soup bowl and said, "Cheers brother!"

I also picked up the soup and saluted him. When I was drinking, what he said was still echoing in my mind. I suddenly realized how inferior I was in front of their normal people. I was so inferior that I had to hide myself from being discovered by them. I was alone. , friends are really important to me

I never expected, I thought that girls would be as reserved as Faye Wong sang, as long as I didn't take the initiative, they would just hint wildly, and then stay still until we returned to the classroom after dinner to continue reviewing...

"What the hell?" My messy and comfortable desk was tidied up, looking very uncomfortable

Sitting on the seat, some snacks were stuffed in the desk drawer, which made me feel even more uncomfortable. It was not the panic that was hit by happiness, but the anxiety that my private life was invaded

"Hahaha when happiness knocks on the door~" Yang Le walked over from the front, smirking as he walked

I chose to ignore these, and then found the math book to review in the pile of books, and Yang Le sat in front of me

"how do you feel?" he asked me

"Are all girls now so active?" I said as I opened the book

"That's not good, only when you take the initiative will you have a story~"

I gave him a blank look, "I never said I would like her"

"Just admit it, it's better to find someone who loves you than to find someone you love..."

I glanced at him out of the corner of my eye, he was looking at which knowledge point we were going to review at noon

"Tell me to admit it, I don't even have to think about it." I snorted twice, and continued to say, "If you can't be with the person you like in this life, then forget it." I said while looking at him

He raised his head suddenly, I quickly moved my eyes to the book, I hope he didn't find it, but how did he know, he who dragged me out of the abyss is a bit fascinating to be honest