fallen star

It was still dark after six o'clock, I got up secretly, got dressed, crept out of bed, put on my shoes and carried my suitcase, and quietly left the dormitory.

I didn't choose to go through the main entrance, but climbed the wall from the back door of the cafeteria, stepped on someone else's field and walked with a flashlight. There are two bedroom lights on

I suddenly recalled the part in the book "The Catcher in the Rye" that I read when I was in junior high school, when the male lead was expelled from school. I didn't dare to shout like him, but whispered to the building, "I'm still there." Just dreaming, your good days are coming to an end.”

I walked along another road for a long time. When the sky was getting brighter, there were more and more cars on the street. I took Didi to the subway station to take the subway. I accidentally lost one of the wheels of the suitcase. It was so bad that I had to drag it there. Ouyang's home

The house was renovated later, as expected of an art genius, the whole house is about 130 square meters, which perfectly integrates Chinese retro elements with European elements. There are warm wall lamps on the top of the cooked brown sofa, and the walls are also warm dark yellow. The fresh floor-to-ceiling curtains are eggshell-colored inside and outside; there are three rooms walking inside, one is very ordinary, only a bed, two bedside cabinets, a computer desk and several wardrobes, it should be a guest room; The decoration is more Chinese style, the whole room is calm brown, the computer is also placed on the computer desk, and there is a photo of me and Ouyang on the bedside table; the last room is very small and fresh, the wallpaper is yellow-green lemon, and there are There are all kinds of dolls, and I lean against the door with mixed feelings in my heart. In this world, he is the only one who knows that I like this kind of mouth.

It was getting late, Chen Jiatong called, I answered, and before I could open my mouth, I was scolded

"You want to do this again! Do you know that there are people blocking you outside?! I will obey your character that the more dangerous you are, the more promiscuous you are!"

"I just know where I'm going, I don't need you to accompany me, thank you for your concern, I have arrived safely"

"Am I your enemy? You want to treat me like this! As a friend, I can't help you if others want to trouble you? You have been resisting and resisting. I have already said that I will not force you. What do you want from me? I completely forgot that I knew you?"

"It's okay~" I chuckled, "I'm just more relaxed on my own and don't want to trouble others. I appreciate your kindness."

He was silent, then hung up the phone without saying a word, I also packed up my things, lay down on the sofa and turned on the TV, the next thing to do is to wait for Ouyang to come to me

On the first day, I wiped all the dusty desks and stools of the whole family, and ordered takeaway when I was hungry, because I don’t know how to cook, so the day passed quickly

The next day, after getting up in the morning and washing up, I collapsed on the sofa and watched TV. When I was hungry, I cooked some noodles. Although it was not delicious, it was a waste of time to order takeaway

Day three…

Day [-]...

A week has passed and there is no news from him, no calls, no text messages

I waited hard, but it was sister Li Ziqi who was waiting

It was morning, and it was still very cold. It was almost New Year’s Eve. I was drying the underwear I washed last night on the balcony. Sister Li Ziqi opened the door with the key and came in.

The first time my sister saw me, her expression was very bad.

"Sister, you're here~" I asked, "Where's Ouyang? Didn't you come back with you?"

She seemed a little speechless, she just put down the things she was carrying and said, "Xiaofan, have you lost weight because you haven't eaten properly?"

I laughed, "Hey, I'm already thin, but I can't get fat no matter how much I eat, I'm helpless~"

I was afraid of getting bad news about Ouyang, so I could only test it out occasionally, but my sister didn't reveal any words about him, and made me a meal when it was almost time for dinner, braised crucian carp in brown sauce, sweet and sour pork ribs, and Coca-Cola chicken wings, and a corn rib soup

I was absent-minded after eating a meal, and finally when I put down my chopsticks after eating, I couldn't help asking

"Where did Ouyang go? Didn't he come back with you?"

She is still ready to avoid, I continue to ask

"Sister, just tell me, I've been waiting for a week, is there something at home that he can't come for now...?"

The elder sister's eyes were shining, she pursed her lips, and said, "That...Xiaofan, remember to add some clothes for today's cold, Ouyang...he will come to you, soon."

I have a very bad hunch that the credibility of this sentence is not high

"Sister, if you know where he is, you must tell him. No matter what, I won't run away again. No matter what happens to him now, I am willing to wait for him here. He must come back!"

My sister patted my head, "I believe he will come back, and he will come soon!"

But why don't I believe it? If my sister can happily tell me "Ouyang will be back soon", but her expression is also telling me "Ouyang is in trouble, it may take a long time, or he won't come back"

My sister is gone, at four o'clock in the afternoon, I am so tired, I climbed to bed early

"Xiaofan~Xiaofan~" I was awakened in a daze, I opened my eyes, it was Ouyang, he was squatting in front of the bed

I jumped up and hugged his neck and cried loudly, "I thought you wouldn't come back!" The sadness at this moment is as hard to contain as a spring, and I don't need to contain it. In front of this person, I can vent as much as I want

"Fool, who told you that I won't come back? My Xiaofan is waiting for me. Why don't I come back?" He stroked the back of my head, and I cried even harder

"Don't go anymore, don't go!" I hugged me even tighter, for fear that he would break away from me and run away in the next second

"I won't go, idiot..." He also choked up as he spoke

So we kissed passionately, turned off the lights and had a carnival in the dark, but I didn't feel any pain. Maybe I have been together for a long time and the number of times, so naturally I can't feel it.

suddenly i was pushed away

"I'm sorry, I forgot that I'm sick..." I heard his self-blaming voice

"I'd like to go with you, anyway..."

"But I don't want to!"

I laughed, "But it seems to be too late, I can catch up with you soon"

"No... no, you should have a better life, you shouldn't think about me all day, after all, I make you sad"

"It's not sad, as long as I'm with you, I'm not sad, but I will be sad without you!"

I heard the sound of him sitting up, he was putting on his clothes, I hugged him, but he pushed him away

"I don't wish, I will be sad if you become like me, I want you to live happily" He dressed and walked out, I got up and chased but couldn't catch up

"Don't go... you agreed..." crying, I woke up from my dream

It is now 09:30 in the evening. After the nightmare, I have no sleepiness. I sat in a daze for a long time. I really didn’t know what to do. The tears in the corners of my eyes were not dry yet, and my cheeks, the roots of my ears and the back of my head were wet. Hair, touch the pillow, it is also tide

"It turned out to be a dream..." After sitting for a long time, I was relieved, the curtains were not drawn, and the LED lights from the opposite building shone into the room, which was empty and filled with disappointment

After all, this is too short a dream

each other finally back to strangers

Me and you don't equal us

Turn on the light, go to the kitchen to drink some water, and then lay down on the balcony to smoke a cigarette. It is really difficult for one person to survive such a long night, so I simply go to Ouyang's room, turn on the computer and start typing, while secretly telling myself that I can't continue to die like this

In fact, I don’t need any gorgeous words. I just record what I saw and thought during the days with him, and what happened. By 02:30 in the morning, I have already coded thousands of words. I have revised and sent it to banyan tree, then go to bed

"Li Jifan~" I was dreaming again, and in the dream, Chen Jiatong was calling me again, "Look, my boyfriend, hahaha~"

I turned around, he was holding that brother Wang's arm, the two of them looked at me with smiles

"Haha goodbye~" He waved to me, and then the two disappeared

When I opened my eyes again, it was already dawn, and a little sunlight penetrated into the room through the gap in the curtains and hit the ground, it was really warm

Dry the quilts of the two sunny rooms on the window sill, and move the quilts of the non-sunny rooms to the balcony. The old people often say that if you don’t dry the quilt for three months, you will sleep with you, hahaha I forgot

After drying the sweat all over the quilt, I looked back and smiled. It was inexplicable that I started to regard this as my home. This feeling is really amazing.

Going downstairs to take out the trash, I met Chen Jiatong who was walking towards here with a beer and Zhou Heiya

"You boy! What a dog!" He slowly approached, and said, "I'm here to do a task, have a drink?"

I laughed out loud, "Okay, okay! It's really a coincidence~"

When he got home, B threw his things on the dining table consciously, and then he floated to the sofa and lay down, saying, "Old cousin, I ran all the way here and didn't even have a sip of water?"

I went to pour him water again, it's like a guest

"What task are you here for? One-knife violence level 999?" He brought the water in front of him and put it on the coffee table

"You are very diligent, drying the quilt~" He lay on the sofa with a comfortable look, and said, "Sister-in-law asked me to come, she didn't have time, and I happened to be bored at home, so she asked me to come and be your companion~ "

"Where's your cousin?" I asked

He took out the charger from his satchel, got up and looked around for the socket, and said, "Chemotherapy~" After finishing speaking, he probably realized that he was talking fast, so he said again, "It's okay, the hospital will come soon after a few days~"

I have heard of chemotherapy, it is said to be very painful, so my sister came to see why I have such an expression

"Which hospital?"

"It's coming soon, why do you need to go to him to make him worry?" He put his phone aside to charge, and said, "There are a lot of people looking for you in the Qingshan Lake area, and there are people posting on the post bar, how dare you Running around?"

"Hehe, he looks like a fugitive~" I sat on the sofa, "Okay, if you want to see him, can you take a photo or video for me?"

He thought for a while and said, "Let me think about it. The key is that I can't see him when I go to the hospital now."

"what……"

"Don't worry, don't worry, I'll go in the afternoon!" He sat cross-legged on the sofa and frowned, "Oh, oh, I'm in a hurry to talk to you~"

I gave him a blank look, then opened Meituan, and asked him, "What do you have for lunch? Rice bowl or a la carte?"

"Eating your head and ordering takeaway, if you eat like this, you will be poor even if you have an oil field at home." He sat up and said, "Let's go out and buy vegetables. Chef Chen will cook by himself at noon~" After speaking, he took the key plug Put me in the satchel and pull me out the door

"can you cook?"

"Otherwise?" He stepped into the elevator first, and said, "Otherwise, why did my sister-in-law ask me to come? Why are you staring at takeaway with you?"

Seeing that it was still early, he went to a nearby farmer's market. He said that he could only cook some simple dishes, which was enough, so he bought some meat and vegetables. Sell ​​us what the uncle and aunt who sell vegetables say, I also have to obey his mouth

"I can't tell, he's so good at bargaining" and walked back with a plastic bag. I looked at the vegetables I just bought. Although I didn't save a lot, I still had to admire his bargaining skills.

"That's for sure, a good family man like me, how can he live without bargaining~" He was still complacent, and said, "Learn more, it will be useful in the future~"

On a whim, I asked him "Don't you want to find someone or something?"

He rolled his eyes at me, "The emperor is not in a hurry, the eunuchs are in a hurry~"

"That's right, it's better to make up for the culture after the next year~"

He rolled his eyes again, and said, "You know, you don't even look at what kind of virtue you are now, and you care about me, you pay attention to yourself." Then he was silent all the way... silent...

When I got home and played games in black for a while, I smelled the smell of cooking at someone else’s house, and then we both started to work

The meal was quite delicious, so B said he was going to see Ouyang in order not to wash the dishes. After sitting on the sofa for a while, he slipped on his shoes, and I put the unfinished dishes into the refrigerator. Turning around, the other person disappeared, and I gritted my teeth with hatred

Send him a WeChat message "Remember, if you can see it, be sure to shoot a video for me!"

He replied, "Don't worry, you will be fine, my cousin is lucky, I will take pictures for you if I see it."

Looking at the screen of the mobile phone, I suddenly feel very tired. The person who thinks about it day and night is suffering, but I can’t do anything. I can’t even go to see him.