fallen star

Because the road was freezing and I couldn’t walk, I had to find a hotel to stay first, and sat by the window, looking at the whiteness outside, I was still holding on to Ouyang’s letter and couldn’t bear to let it go, Chen Jiatong sent me a WeChat message

"When you go back to Jiujiang, where do you live now?"

After reading that line of writing, I looked at the suitcases and backpacks in the corner of the room, and saw them lying there alone, and my heart was empty

Me: "Live in a hotel first, and then go to the dormitory when the school is ready in a few days."

He: "New Year's Eve is coming soon, what will you do during the New Year's Eve? It's so boring to be alone"

Me: "It's good to be alone, it happens to be able to travel, it's very cool"

After a while, he posted again, "Come to my house if you don't mind, it will be more lively with one more person"

I didn’t reply to his message, but turned off the phone screen and threw it on the table, and continued to look at the snow scene outside the window. As a southerner, I have never seen such a big snow. It was really as big as a goose feather. Open the window Grabbed a handful of snow on the window sill, put it in the ashtray, and lit another cigarette

Chen Jiatong called again, and I answered it too

He: "what's the matter with you, and suddenly you don't reply to my message again, what are you doing?"

Me: "Ouyang asked you to help and you really didn't tell me. You clearly knew how much I liked him, but you didn't tell me that you looked at me so uncomfortable. I really am not today, and I really don't want to in the future." See him, can't see him, tell me!"

He was silent for a while, and said, "I'm quite selfish, for your own good, and for my own good~"

Me: "You are farting, he is going to die! You still want to treat him like this?!"

He: "It's my cousin's own idea. I didn't make my own claim. My cousin said at the time that he had no cure. Please let me say that I hope I can take good care of you. I can't help that your heart is not with me. I'm sorry."

He hung up, the beeping sound on the other end of the phone was really harsh, and suddenly found that the air conditioner in the room was not effective in heating, and the windows were not closed tightly. I was sad and cold, and my whole body was shaking. I found it in the call log The Jiujiang number that Ouyang called me before was overjoyed and he dialed it right away

He answered, but didn't immediately ask me how I was doing as I expected, just a moment of silence

"You bastard!" I scolded him, but he still didn't speak

"With you, I'm like this now! Do you trust me to let go alone?!" He continued to scold, but he still didn't respond at all.

I'm tired, I've forgotten all the curse words, and I don't have the energy to yell again

"I'm sorry for you..." He finally agreed to speak. I haven't heard that voice for a long time, and tears filled my eyes

"I don't allow you to leave like this! Don't say sorry to me!"

"From now on...be nicer to yourself, I..." Before he finished speaking, he hung up the phone, and I couldn't get through when I called again

The night passed like this, I turned from the window to the bed, from sitting to lying down, from lying down to sitting up, going round and round. It was dawn and the snow had stopped for a long time, so I also checked out of the room and went to the train station bus

The journey was full of wind and dust, but I was told that many railways were out of service due to freezing, and I had to transfer trains if I wanted to go home. I went north and then down to the Loess Plateau. Dingxi, Dingxi sung by Brother B Li Zhi, I transferred from Dingxi Station , my head is full of rivers and lakes, but I hope that when I wake up, I have never been here

The green leather train was surprisingly slow. I arrived at Nanchang Station at eight o'clock in the morning on the third day, and when I got out of the station, I took a taxi like crazy to go to the Ganjiang River. I don't expect Chen Jiatong to help me. , but I can't bring up hatred, only apology

Sister Huang Xuan was a little surprised by my sudden arrival. She was pressing the calculator at the cashier counter, and I just showed up at the door of the restaurant with my suitcase in my hand, smiling at her with a tired face.

"Ah, Li Jifan, what's wrong with you?"

Sitting on the terrace near the river, having a bowl of porridge and some cold dishes

"Sister, I saw the letter Ouyang wrote to me" I don't have time to be sad now, so I took out the letter paper and handed it to Sister Huang Xuan

She got up after reading it, and said, "Let's go, maybe it's not too late"

Then he was pulled into her car and said to go to Fengcheng

"I didn't go because the store had to pay employees wages today. Today is Ouyang's wedding day~" She seemed to be a little relieved and continued to say, "I haven't seen how little Lizi looks good in her wedding dress yet." ~"

"I've never seen Ouyang look serious in a suit..."

The drive took less than an hour, and I was rushing there as soon as I knew the wedding venue. It was already past ten o'clock, but when I arrived, I found that there was no invitation card. At this time, I had to watch Huang Xuan's performance

"I'm the groom's ex-girlfriend, just come and have a look, and then leave~"

"Your seats may not be arranged inside, try to hurry up"

The hall should be as big as two and a half basketball courts. There are many people sitting in it. There are all kinds of people. There is smoke everywhere. We are both cautious. Suddenly someone patted me on the shoulder.

"You are finally here! Come with me~" I turned my head, it was Chen Jiatong

He led him to their table and sat down, there were just two more seats, but this table was all his family, it seemed embarrassing enough for the two of us

Although it is a small city outside the third tier, Ouyang chose to ask the master of ceremonies to preside over the oath wedding, just to let everyone see that he is really married, and his wife is very beautiful, and he will live a comfortable life in the future, etc.

"Quick, quick, the groom is here~" I saw Ouyang in a straight suit with a rose pinned to his chest. He walked in from the backstage and walked to the side of the master of ceremonies. cry, silently shed tears

Suddenly all the lights went out, and two searchlights came on, one for Ouyang and the others, the other for the door, the door was pushed open, sister Li Ziqi was surrounded by bridesmaids and entered the hall, today she was wearing a wedding dress, With their hair tied up, they are even more beautiful than ever. Although I know that they have playful smiles on each other's faces, it is the first time in my life to participate in such a wedding, and I am still touched

When the bride walks up to the groom, it is the master of ceremonies' turn to ask:

"Mr. Ouyang, may I ask if you have considered clearly that you want to marry the lady in front of you and let her be your wife, no matter whether you are poor or rich in the future..."

"I do"

"May I ask if you have thought about it carefully. From today onwards, the future will be a certainty. Can you resist the temptations of the outside world and devote yourself to this lady in front of you?"

"I do"

There was applause from the audience, and it was the master of ceremonies' turn to ask the bride:

"Ms. Li Ziqi, starting today, you will bid farewell to this station in your life and embark on a new journey. Would you like to be the wife of the gentleman in front of you?"

"I do"

"Are you ready to bid farewell to the days when your fingers are not in the sun, and are you able to resist the temptation of the outside world and devote yourself to the gentleman in front of you?"

"What, my husband will cook all the meals in the future, and I will be responsible for eating~" Sister Li Ziqi humorously eased the awkward and quiet atmosphere at the scene, and said, "Don't worry, I will...husband!"

At this moment, the audience is cheering. For the two families, their children have completed their lifelong event, which is a good thing for the whole world to celebrate. For me, there is only sadness

Chen Jiatong said to help me, when the ceremony is over, call Ouyang out for me and let me wait outside, "It's only a while, hurry up"

"thank you"

"You're welcome, this is the last time I'll help you"

I nodded and left the hall. I sat on the stone pillar outside the hotel and lit a cigarette. It was so cold. My sister asked me on WeChat what to do during the Chinese New Year. I didn’t reply, so I put my phone into airplane mode. What’s wrong with me now? All gone, no relatives, friends, lovers

It's really not how hypocritical a person is, but when a person really loses these things, he has to face up to the fact that he has embarked on another path in life

After more than half an hour, Ouyang came out, opened the door and looked around, finally he saw me and ran towards me

"I knew you would come!" He hugged me, ignoring the people on the street, and said, "Why did you come, I've been waiting for you for a long time" Hearing his voice, there was a bit of crying

I pushed him away, because right here at the door, it might not be a good influence on him

"Are you a fool?" I asked him, "Did you ever think about the consequences when you did these things?"

He laughed, "It doesn't matter if there are consequences or not." Then he said, "If I can do something for you, I will feel better. I know you hate him, and I hate him too, so..."

He dragged me in, but I really didn't want to go in, so I was dragged by force, saying, "You haven't eaten yet, so why don't you eat if you don't want to? Can you die if you don't want to live?"

Sitting back at Chen Jiatong's table again, sister Li Ziqi was sitting in my seat just now, talking and laughing with sister Chen Jiatong and Huang Xuan, I should be happier, after all, the knot in my heart has been untied

"Xiaofan is back!" Sister Li Ziqi stood up, "Come and sit down, the food will be served soon, you will run around and be naughty~" She said, I felt the heat from the central air conditioner in the hall warm my face hot

"I'm sorry, sister, I always like to run around, which makes you worry~" I smiled apologetically

"You should apologize to us Chen Jiatong the most. You keep running and people keep chasing you, just like a brother looking for a younger brother~" My sister said, I looked at Chen Jiatong, and he began to bow his head in silence

Maybe I should believe it, what the old man said, the dream is the opposite of the reality, I dreamed that I lived with Ouyang and lived a happy life, but now he is leaving me; Never left, I laughed and my nose got sore

"Good day, hold on~" Sister Huang Xuan patted my shoulder, and I stopped the tears that were about to overflow

After a meal, I didn't notice anything unusual. Ouyang and sister Li Ziqi came over to toast, he winked at me, I smiled and raised the glass to him, and drank it down

"Everyone eat and drink well," he greeted, "especially you, Li Jifan! If you want to run away in our Dafeng City, hey, I will drag you off the plane too." He pointed at me, and everyone laughed, I nodded awkwardly

Chen Jiatong disappeared after dinner, maybe he was completely disappointed in me, I got back in sister Huang Xuan's car and got on the highway, Ouyang told me to stay at his house in Nanchang first, he would come to find me

"What's the matter? Are you still thinking about it?" My sister asked me while driving, "The conflict is finally resolved, are you happy?"

"But even if the contradiction is resolved, he and I..."

"Sooner or later, will we still be separated?" She said lightly, "If two people like each other, even being together for a day is better than two people who don't like being together for a lifetime, isn't it?"

I nodded, "That's what I said, but that day will still come. I watched him leave me but I couldn't keep him. I won't see, hear, touch, or smell him in the future. Could it be won't you be uncomfortable?"

She didn't talk anymore, and arrived in Nanchang at almost two o'clock. She went to the restaurant to pick up her luggage and went back to school. It was still the same school gate. Those who came down to prepare for the school exam all sat in the classroom and drew. Da Mo saw me, and I saw him too, and he stopped me

"Li Jifan, come here." He probably knew that he had been infected

I put the suitcase at the door of Class A classroom and followed him upstairs

His room is with the office, which is as big as two Ouyang rooms. He waited for me at the door, "Come in, I have something to ask you"

I snorted coldly, "I happen to have a question to ask you," thinking to myself, and went into his room

He closed the door and asked me, "Do you know about Ouyang?"

"I still want to ask you, is that sick lady called by you?" I asked him back

"You suspect that I did it? You already know how I am now? Why should I do this?"

I rolled my eyes, "You invited the meal, who would know where you are going to invite the meal before you, and put drugs in the wine, that person knows what you are going to do better than you?"

He sighed and said, "Well, I arranged for the lady, but I didn't know she was sick at the time." Then he asked me, "Can you do me a favor? Do Ouyang as well."

"Why?" I asked him, "It's you who want to play tricks behind your back, and you're the one who wants my help now. What were you thinking when you helped me out? Teacher?"

"Those are not what I wanted to do, and I was also forced," Da Mo said, "That lady is not what I wanted to be, someone arranged to come here"

I haha, "Is there someone forcing you? Aliens? If you don't do it, you will destroy the earth?"

"Listen to my explanation, the thing is like this..."

After listening to his explanation, I seem to know something, that person, this is not the first time I heard his name from someone else

"But I still can't forgive you, sorry I can't do anything for you"

"Please, just pretend to be helping Ouyang and prove our innocence. At least it won't be so painful when we leave..."

I laughed, "Don't keep tying yourself with Ouyang, it's boring, he is innocent, are you innocent? You are different"

The words are said like that, but I was persuaded later, I can only try my best

Back in the dormitory, the more I think about it, the more angry I feel, I seem to be in contact with the powerful forces in the darkest corners of this society, but I can't do anything, this feeling is very uncomfortable, and I really want to do something