【Xiangmi】【Heavenly Phantom】Suffering

For a long time, Zhanhuang and Runyu have been busy in different fields.

Zhanhuang is busy with many things, not only many, but also complicated.From big things like wars to trivial matters, especially those who have been stained with Runyu, he always has to take care of everything, every detail, for fear of tiring him.

This makes Runyu relatively easy.He was originally a very resistant person, no matter how sad he was when he was alone, he never said anything.But after nearly a year, he seemed to have finally been spoiled by Zhan Huang.

This spoiling is manifested in many ways.For example, after he tried his best to help Li'er and almost confessed his life on the spot, he knelt on the ground in a daze for a long while, and when his consciousness suddenly became clear, what he was thinking was not What is a matter of life, but...

When did they get married?

Only then did Runyu suddenly realize that, as one of the parties involved in this major event, he was so relieved that he couldn't worry anymore, and was even so worried that he didn't know the progress of this matter.

He felt that he was a little too much.

He has nothing else to worry about now, so this thing that should have been a big deal but has been put on hold by him finally popped up and fell in front of him.

He has to do something.he thinks.

He sat weakly and weakly leaning against the side of the couch for a long time, and finally accumulated a little strength enough to support him to stand up, so he stood up so reluctantly, very slowly and quietly touched Zhanhuang's study.

He seldom came to this place before, firstly, he was afraid of disturbing the business of cutting waste, and secondly, the books of the two of them were kept separately, so there was no need to come.Making an exception today was because of a sudden flash of inspiration in his mind.

book of rites.

Suli has passed away, and Runyu has no other relatives whom he can look up to.Zhanhuang had a headache for a long time a few days ago, so he simply sent the letter of appointment to Taihu Lake, and Luo Lin took it on his behalf.The letter of appointment that has already been sent out cannot be taken back, and besides, Zhanhuang’s true feelings for him don’t need to be read to understand it, but the other two books have not been given out, so he can always get some information from them .

So he gave Li'er a few more instructions, summoned an attendant and asked him to call a ceremony officer to wait in the study, and then he himself went to the study.

When Zhan Huang sneaked back from the barracks in the morning, what he saw was his lover curled up in a small ball among various books, and it seemed that he was sleeping soundly.

Zhanhuang smiled awkwardly, he didn't expect that his sneaky move could run into Runyu.He looked around and saw that the fire in the room was extinguished, so he hurriedly walked forward, carefully picked him up and hugged him in his arms with distress and guilt, thinking about taking him back to the dormitory to sleep for a while.But Runyu woke up, he hummed twice in a daze, opened his eyes halfway to look at Zhan Huang, and smiled silently at him.

He didn't seem to remember the fact that he was angry with Zhanhuang before, he stretched out his arms around his neck and shrank into his arms, while shrinking, he asked, in a soft tone: "Going out in the middle of the night again?"

Zhan Huang was taken aback, changed the subject, and quickly changed the story of yesterday: "Well... when I just came back, there was a ceremony officer standing outside the gate, saying that you passed it on?"

While talking, he found a place where Runyu hadn't put the book and sat down, let Runyu sit in his arms, bowed his head and kissed him gently on the cheek.Runyu was sobered up by his kiss, and after a while reacting to what he said just now, she was taken aback, let out a small exclamation, and looked up at him.

"What time is it?" he asked.

"It's really impolite." He hurriedly propped himself up to get up from Zhan Huang's body, while adjusting his clothes: "How long has he been waiting? The waiters didn't ask him to come in?"

Now that the weather has not yet warmed up, and the spring is cold, he is obviously looking for someone to help, but he has tossed him so much, how can he live in his heart?

Zhan Huang saw his guilt, stretched out his hand to help him, and comforted him: "It's nothing, the monster is not afraid of cold, how can it be so expensive?"

Besides, if the ceremonial officer really dared to enter the house and wait, then something would happen.

In the middle of the night, if someone dared to stay in front of his sweetheart's sleeping face all night, he would have to skin him.

Thinking of this, Big Vinegar Tanzi laughed silently, his conscience not hurting at all.

He smiled, took Runyu's shoulders, stretched out his hand to gently smooth his frowning brows, and said softly: "I'm right here, if you want to know anything, just ask me. If you know everything, you can tell me everything."

Then, before Runyu could ask a question, he said again: "The wedding date is in April, and it's coming soon. I've postponed it twice, so don't worry. Also, the relevant documents..." He raised his eyebrows as he spoke. Pointing to a box by the wall: "Here."

Runyu froze for a moment, opened her eyes wide, and her cheeks were slightly red.After being silent for a while, he said: "I was too much. But, you...how do you..."

He and Zhanhuang really have a heart-to-heart bond, don't they?

He hasn't even opened his mouth yet.

Zhanhuang smiled: "Niyun reported this morning, saying that Li'er's illness has improved. I thought that your brother who is the best in the world should finally be the husband who can spare so much time for you." As he spoke, he kissed Runyu, and said: "It's time to report to you about lifelong events. If I do it all without saying a word, what can I do wrong..." He lowered his voice and laughed When he got up, his tone was low and ambiguous.

He said: "When the time comes, my bride won't marry me, what should I do?"

Runyu blushed, gave him a soft look, and couldn't help laughing: "Is it your fault?"

He stretched out his hand and gently pinched Zhan Huang's cheek, which was close at hand, and scolded him sweetly: "Slick tongue."

He must be too good at pleasing him.

Zhan Huang stretched out his hands to smooth out the broken hair on his sideburns, stood up in an embracing posture, and tentatively discussed: "Go back and rest for a while?"

Runyu shook her head, stretched out her hand to grab his arm, with a hint of worry in her eyes: "You should call someone in for me."

Zhanhuang is a person who is really reliable when he is reliable, and he is really not counted when he is not counting.

If he really coaxed her into the head, she still doesn't know what he's going to do.

Zhan Huang frowned, and still coaxed him without temper: "Go back to the bedroom first, while you rest, I will talk to you, okay?"

After speaking, he was silent for a moment, and added: "I have a very good memory, what I say is the same as what I write."

Runyu stared at him for a while, shook her head, and pushed him gently: "I'm angry with you."

Zhan Huang was stunned for a moment and smiled.Smiling and laughing, and a little cowardly.

Runyu looked at him like that, and the corner of her mouth raised a small arc silently.

He wasn't actually angry anymore.Strictly speaking, he was not angry a long time ago, he was just very distressed and guilty.And this heartache and guilt are mixed with a little understanding.

understand.

In the eyes of the world, he is a very tragic figure.In line with it, all kinds of emotions, such as inferiority, self-doubt and self-abandonment, which are not beneficial to people, have always been haunting him.

He thinks a lot, thinks deeply, and thinks more thoroughly.Of course he knew what kind of place Zhanhuang put him in his heart, so he also knew that his behavior of hurting himself must have happened under extreme anxiety and uneasiness.

He sometimes thinks, Zhan Huang was such a wanton and happy person before, but because of him, he even vents his anger on himself, how sad is this?

If he hadn't met him, if he had done better in the past, if all this had never happened, wouldn't the ending be so difficult?

The person he loves, who is probably the only one who loves him now, is driven to a dead end.

He always felt it was all his fault.

He had always hated himself.

Zhan Huang saw that he was silent for a while, and his face gradually sank, he was frightened and hurriedly nodded in agreement, got up with a sneer and wanted to go out to call for someone.Runyu woke up from her daze, thought for a moment, then suddenly grabbed his arm and shook her head.

"No need." He said, "I'll take it for once."

Zhan Huang was taken aback for a moment, then smiled at him: "Of course I have a sense of proportion."

Runyu gave him a suspicious look, and then said: "Just one thing, give it to my mother's house, you should weigh it carefully, don't go too far."

For him, his mother was always the deepest wound in his heart.But even if the injury hurts at the first touch, he still has to touch it.

A few days ago, he found time to meet with Yanyou, picked and asked about the events at that time, and learned that after his mother passed away, Yanyou had given him some things, which were probably tokens of the remaining forces of the Dragon Fish Clan.

He thought about it, and it won't be long before this thing has to be handed back to them from him.

He hesitated for a while, then swallowed the question in his heart in silence.

He doesn't know his cheap little brother very well, he doesn't know his ambition, and he doesn't know how he views this matter, so he simply wants to let him go.

Whether you want revenge or want to let go.Those are things they have to decide behind him, and he has no right to interfere.

It's just that he thought again, he couldn't let them be completely free.

After all, he bears the name of an elder brother, so he should shoulder the corresponding responsibility.With his incomplete memory, his family relationship is relatively weak, so he calmly analyzed it, and felt that the dragon fish clan is difficult to make a fortune, and if they act rashly, there may be a catastrophe.

Now that the war between the heaven and the demon world is a foregone conclusion, his revenge will be avenged by cutting waste. It is good for his clansmen to contribute, but it is best not to go too far. bad thing.

As he thought about it, he stopped talking for a long time without saying anything.

He was leaving, and what was left behind would be a hindrance to others, and he didn't want to do that.After thinking and thinking, he still decided to let Zhan Huang take more care of him.

It's just going to drag him down again.

Thinking of this, he raised his head to look at Zhan Huang, and sighed: "Perhaps Tu Yao is not wrong, I am really a villain."

Zhan Huang carried him back to the dormitory, he didn't say anything after hearing this, he just gently put him on the couch, lay down beside him, carefully held him in his arms, and then said: "What nonsense. "

Runyu sighed again, hooked his neck and kissed him actively.After the kiss was over, he lightly stroked Zhan Huang's face, and suddenly lowered his eyes not to look at him.

He said, "Let's advance the wedding date a little earlier."

His voice was light and fluttering, like the wind that cannot be caught.

Zhanhuang froze, and after a long time, he came back to his senses and returned to the situation in front of him.Runyu didn't look up at him, but could only hear his breathing, which was long and difficult, full of sadness trying to calm down.

Runyu's heart also tugged.But he was worried, and he still wanted to be that villain.

He said softly again: "Probably soon."

He is about to leave.

Some things, they always try to avoid mentioning, because they know it well, because they have never forgotten it, because they really can't bear it.

But there are some things that cannot be avoided after all.

Every night in the middle of the night, he was suffering from pain and couldn't restrain himself from thinking about something.

When will we leave?

As soon as he thought about it, it seemed to hurt even more.

No matter how the world treats him, he will never give up.

But what can he do.

This long-term hard-to-break and hard-to-let go is finally coming to an end.

The fate of the world is unpredictable.

Unknowingly, send you thousands of miles.

There will always be a difference.

The author has something to say: the exam is over, I'm sorry for taking so long, bow