【Xiangmi】【Heavenly Phantom】Suffering

Why worry.

As the sun was setting on the western mountain, Zhanhuang picked up a jar of wine, found a hilltop and sat down, watching the sunset.

Ni Yun stood beside him, also holding two jars of wine in his hands, with anxiety and doubt on his face, which he suppressed.

They just came back from interrogating Tu Yao.

To be precise, Zhan Huang had just returned from interrogation of Tu Yao.

Half a day ago, his group returned to the Northern Wilderness from the Heaven Realm, and Zhanhuang was not in a hurry to interrogate them. He threw Tuyao to Niyun and asked him to lock him up for treatment, and then informed Wan Yaotang to let them disperse. After that, they went back to the sleeping hall with Runyu.

Runyu lay silently in Zhanhuang's arms for a while, looked up at his calm expression, hesitated for a long time, stretched out his hand to pull his sleeve, and said in a low voice: "Let me tell you what happened today. .”

Zhan Huang bowed his head and kissed him, said: "Eat first."

Runyu was anxious, raised his head, and was about to speak when Zhan Huang patted his hand and said, "I want to know."

Runyu was taken aback.

Zhan Huang smiled at him, stretched out his hand to caress his cheek, and said in a gentle voice: "Of course I want to know everything about you. However, since it has already passed, don't worry about it. You are too tired today, and you are not in good health. Okay, let's eat first."

Runyu was silent for a while, then nodded, then fell into his arms again, wrapped his arms around his waist, and closed her eyes.

Zhan Huang also hugged him, stretched out his hand to stroke his back gently, and turned his head to kiss his temple hair from time to time.

The two of them were silent for a while, and Runyu suddenly said, "Don't imitate me. If you have something to say, don't keep it in your heart."

Zhan Huang smiled: "You don't know that too?"

Runyu didn't answer, but buried her in his arms.

Zhanhuang smiled softly again, and said: "After dinner, you sleep for a while, I go out to do some things. You think about it first, and tell me tomorrow, okay?"

He paused, and continued: "Not only today's things, but also other things. For example... How did you deceive me and make me think that you are getting better. "

As he spoke, he picked out a strand of blue silk from Runyu and wrapped it between his fingers.His tone was still endlessly gentle, but the words he said seemed to carry some undeniable meaning, which made Runyu's body tremble.

After a long time, he nodded in Zhanhuang's arms and said hello in a muffled voice.

Zhan Huang kissed the top of his hair in satisfaction, had dinner with him and watched him lie down, before leaving, he solemnly promised Runyu that this was the last time he was away from him for so long, and finally called Ni Yun, who came back to his life, went out.

He walked with Niyun to the place where Tuyao was being held, and asked lightly if Tuyao could speak now. He nodded after getting an affirmative answer, waved his hand at Niyun, and entered the door alone.

About half an hour later, Zhan Huang walked out the door, stood silently for a while, and ordered Ni Yun to get the wine.

And now, Ni Yun looked anxiously and questioningly at Zhan Huang, who was pouring alcohol on him, and didn't dare to say a word.

Zhan Huang had never done this before.

Zhanhuang always drank a lot, but it was mostly because he had nothing to do or was upset, never once like today.

He drank, as if just to get drunk.

As Ni Yun watched, his heart gradually sank.

Zhan Huang glanced back at him: "Are you worried about him too?"

Ni Yun nodded, and said in a hoarse voice, "Young Master...Young Master is very good."

Zhan Huang nodded in agreement and waved his hand: "Don't hold it, drink it."

Ni Yun didn't refuse either, silently opened the altar of wine and sat down, touched Zhan Huang, raised his head and drank it.

Ever since Zhan Huang defeated Ni Yun and pacified Beihuang thousands of years ago, Ni Yun has always been loyal to Zhan Huang.For Yu Niyun, Zhan Huang is the master he truly admires.For Zhan Huang, Ni Yun could be regarded as half of his former opponent.Having known each other for many years, they are also half friends and half brothers.

He watched Zhanhuang's life and death all the way, watched him finally get a true love, and maybe he will also see him lose that true love.

Teach him how not to be sad.

After a while, Zhanhuang put down the jar in his hand, and looked at the afterglow of the setting sun in the sky.He looked at it for a while and laughed.

He asked Ni Yun: "What's good about him?"

Ni Yun put the wine aside, and said: "Honestly speaking, my subordinates have always thought that your luck is really good." He smiled and shook his head: "It means that the young master was ignorant at the beginning, otherwise, how could I tell you to take advantage of it?" ?”

Runyu is really good.

According to common sense, Runyu's identity should be the kind of "heavenly person who has confused the Lord", who will be disgusted, despised, and repelled by many people.But in fact, in the demon world, Runyu is really very attractive.

He is good-looking, has a good temper, doesn't put on airs, treats everyone politely, and never delays the business of cutting waste because of himself.Sometimes when Zhan Huang loses his temper, the elders have to count on Runyu to persuade him.After going on like this for several times, the entire demon world generally has a good impression of Runyu.

After listening to his words, Zhan Huang nodded and said, "He's fine."

He drank a few more sips of wine, propped his forehead tiredly, and sighed.

"Sometimes I wonder what he would look like if he was born in an ordinary family." He gently raised his hand, traced the red color on the sky in the air, and smiled softly: "He has both good looks and good looks. It must have grown up with a lot of stars and a lot of love. In that case... maybe he will laugh a few more times."

He was silent for a while, then shook his head lightly, and said, "Why did you risk your life like this?"

I don't know if it's about Runyu or himself.

Ni Yun watched from the side, feeling uncomfortable.He held back for a long time, patted Zhanhuang on the shoulder, and said, "My lord, don't blame yourself too much."

Zhan Huang nodded in agreement, and said, "I'm not like him, I take all bad things on myself."

Zhanhuang has always been clear in his work, and he would never take the blame if it wasn't for him.Just like what Runyu said, his injury and his hatred were all because of Tu Yao, and he knew who was to blame.

But how?

Even if he can understand clearly, so what?

Even if he knew it wasn't his fault, let alone Runyu's, so what?

Runyu still suffers from the pain of burning inside every day, and he himself still feels pain in his heart all the time.

He frowned, his head was drunk, and he was a little confused.

What is the way of heaven?How could they be tortured like this?

Ordinary people have life after life, and the cycle of cause and effect. If you live a bad life in this life, it can be said that it is the cause planted in the previous life.But they, they have no previous life or future life, and the previous causes are all caused by the so-called heaven, so why do they have to suffer this effect inexplicably?

It's not that he himself is willing to become a greedy wolf, and it's not that Runyu is willing to be a dragon.

Why is it so unreasonable.

Thinking this way, he raised his head and took a few more breathless mouthfuls, put aside the jar and opened a new one.

Ni Yun held back for a long time, after all, he wanted to hear a happy word.He put down the wine jar, cupped his hands and apologized to Zhanhuang, saying: "This subordinate is stupid, I still want to ask, young master..."

Before he finished speaking, Zhan Huang waved his hand and said, "Tu Yao didn't lie."

Ni Yun was stunned for a moment, and before he had time to be happy, Zhan Huang interrupted him again.

He rubbed his temples, and said to Ni Yun: "I didn't think of it just now, so you go through it too, and see if it makes sense?"

Ni Yun nodded, straightened up, not daring to be careless at all.

Zhan Huang woke up and recalled the scene just now.

He stood in front of Tu Yao, looked at her expressionlessly, and said, "You are allowed to heal your wounds. I can explain the rest in detail later, but you have to explain the principle of saving lives to me first."

He was afraid that he would be happy in vain.

Tu Yao was silent for a while, then forced herself to sit up, and nodded in agreement.

A few simple words made him react for a long time.He thought over and over again, afraid that something might be wrong.

However, after thinking about it so many times, he didn't find anything wrong, but he was still not happy.

What Tu Yao said is really quite simple.

The spiritual power in the world is divided into five elements, and among the five elements, it is subdivided in detail, and it is not known how many kinds can be divided.

Just like him, Tuyao, and Taiwei, although they are both fire spirits, they are very different.

And the reason why Liuli Jinghuo can't destroy Phoenix alone is because of its only spiritual power.

And according to what she said, although the spiritual power is innate, it is not impossible to change it.Anything is possible if you pay enough.

Runyu's injuries were serious, and had reached the point of irreversibility, and her death was a foregone conclusion.The solution Tu Yao said was just to keep Liuli Jinghuo from repelling him as much as possible, so as not to be able to exert its full effect, so as to barely keep his soul.

There is no need to talk about the future.Zhanhuang was raised from a piece of primordial spirit, so they naturally knew what to do.

After all, it's just one sentence, put it to death and live later.

After hearing this, Ni Yun was silent for a long time, and finally said: "It should make sense."

But he was also not at all happy.

They all understood what that meant.

Things that make sense don't always make sense.Even if it works, it's not necessarily a good thing.

The six realms are huge, and there are many living beings.Among the six realms, except for mortals who are restricted by their bodies, and the body is destroyed and the gods are destroyed, the rest are dominated by gods, followed by skins.

Spiritual power, spirit and soul are the foundation, if you forcefully change, what price will you have to pay?

No matter what, Runyu has to bear all of that.No matter how distressed Zhan Huang is, how anxious he is, and how capable he is, there is nothing he can do to help him.

He has been through so much, what else is there to go through?

Taking ten thousand steps back, even if Runyu can really survive, will everything be fine?

To die and then to live.

A few more people were able to crawl out of the dead.

Zhan Huang knows how difficult it is to condense the soul.

It was a coincidence that he was able to return to the world back then, maybe he was lucky suddenly, had such good luck, and came back with a life.

But this time.This time, is it possible that he should hold on to this elusive vitality and hope for a good fortune?

Waiting for heaven to be merciful and return him to him?

How has heaven ever treated him favorably.

Zhan Huang thought in such a random way, his mind was in chaos.

Ni Yun couldn't bear to see him like this, so he raised his spirits to comfort him and said, "My lord, please be more relaxed, after all, there is a glimmer of life."

This ray of life is heavy and light, and light but heavy.

Life-saving straw, reluctant to let go.

Zhan Huang nodded, took a long breath, and said: "When I get drunk enough to talk nonsense, tell me to go back and see him."

It's ridiculous to say that he wanted to tell Runyu his true feelings, but he didn't dare to tell Runyu. On the one hand, he was afraid that he would not be able to slow down enough to make him worry, but on the other hand, he was afraid that not saying anything would make him even more sad.After thinking about it, I can only think of such a way.

Wine strengthens courage.

He raised his head and drank a lot more, secretly cursing himself for being so fucking cowardly.

Tell the truth after drinking.

Drunk words can't be counted.

Then I told him everything, what I wanted to do.Once sober, he was still able to get back on his feet.

Ni Yun responded, remained silent for a while, and said hesitantly, "My lord, maybe... it's too much."

Zhan Huang raised his eyes and motioned for him to continue.

Ni Yun said: "Perhaps it's because my subordinates are blind. I feel that... the young master is not so fragile..."

He can survive the series of bad news and still make plans, and he can stand in a helpless situation with a sharp edge to fight against the people of the heavens, which is naturally very strong.

Zhanhuang's excessive protection may hinder his sharpness instead.

Zhanhuang nodded, then shook his head again: "He is naturally not weak. It's just... I don't want him to show his edge."

He laughed and said: "He is not born to be a cruel person."

Her nature is hard to change, but Runyu is kind and gentle after all, which cannot be easily changed.To change, first of all, he has to cross the hurdle in his own heart.

He may show his sharpness, but he is not happy.While hurting others, he blamed himself.

His sharp blade grew inch by inch from his heart, cutting himself through before hurting anyone else.

Injuries to the enemy may be less than [-], but self-injury is far more than [-].

I can't bear to cut waste.

He was silent for a while, laughed at himself, and said: "Taiwei should have sent him to my side early, I'm afraid I'd be dead long ago, why would it give him a headache."

He thought he was a handful of honey, but he didn't expect that he was a knife.

A deadly knife.

He has lived for so many years, and has never been injured so seriously.

Ni Yun listened and just sighed.

Zhan Huang, a person who doesn't talk much, finally talked a lot today, babbling endlessly to the horizon.He chanted the ray of setting sun down the mountain, raised his head, and looked at the sky full of stars.

He said again: "That way, how much suffering will he have to suffer. I force him to stay by my side and suffer in this world. He probably doesn't want to."

Ni Yun didn't answer, and said: "Master, go back, you are talking nonsense."

He turned to Shang Zhan Huang's gaze, and said firmly: "Even I know, the young master is not afraid of hardship for you."

Runyu's painstaking efforts these days are just to make Zhan Huang feel less sad and make him accept it more easily.He was willing to do such things for him, so why would he be afraid of suffering?

Zhan Huang was stunned for a moment, got up, nodded, and hurried back.

"Yes," he said, "he has mine in his heart."

When Zhanhuang came back, Runyu was sitting by the window with her head up.

I don't know when, he suddenly likes to look at these things like the sky, the earth, the sun and the moon, and he can always stare at them for a long time.His gaze was empty and far away, as if he was about to melt into the space between the sky and the earth, and those who looked directly were flustered.

Zhan Huang saw him like that, suddenly pinched his thin wrists, hugged him and fell on the couch.

Runyu woke up, smelled the smell of alcohol, and frowned distressedly: "Drink a lot?"

Zhan Huang shook his head, leaned over and kissed him fiercely.His kiss meandered all the way, Runyu wrapped her arms around his neck obediently, and let him kiss his snow-white skin under the clothes that hadn't seen the sun all year round.

He tilted his head, and tried his best to endure the small trembling sounds in his throat, but suddenly felt a pain, exhaled in pain, and the tears that fell instantly fell into his hair.

He lowered his eyes to look, and Zhan Huang actually bit another blood mark next to his scar.

What is this for?He was a little puzzled.

Zhanhuang propped himself up, looked into Runyu's eyes, and said, "I'm not trying to bully you, don't be afraid. Make an imprint, lest you lose it."

He lowered his head slightly, and dropped a few kisses on the scar and wound, tender and pious.

He said: "The kindness of life is too great. I will not compete with your mother for the position on the top of your heart. I just ask you to put me aside and don't forget me, okay?"

Runyu was taken aback, her eyes sore.

When did Zhanhuang put himself so humble.

He held his hand, nodded solemnly, and said, "Of course I won't forget you."

Heaven, earth, sun and moon, rivers, lakes and seas, humans, gods, ghosts and monsters, even if he had completely forgotten them, he would not forget him.

Zhanhuang nodded, and explained Tuyao's tricks to Runyu in a messy manner, then bowed his head to kiss his hand, apologizing while kissing him.

Runyu was stunned for a while, then showed a shallow smile, and returned the words to him intact.

He said: "I am also willing."

He was stunned for a while, seeing that Zhan Huang seemed to be sleepy, he stretched out his hand and pulled the quilt over to cover him, and beckoned him to go to sleep first.

Zhanhuang had already closed his eyes, but suddenly opened his eyes and grabbed his hand, saying: "Back then, I slaughtered many creatures in Beihuang because of my own selfish desires. It was a very bad thing."

He said, "It was indeed my mistake."

If you think about it this way, maybe good and evil are rewarded in the end.

He sat up and stared at Runyu's face, his eyes were full of love and sadness.

He just stared at it for a long time, then suddenly opened his mouth and said softly: "Are you my blessing or my retribution."

In an instant, Runyu's tears fell uncontrollably, onto his hands and into his heart. .

He wiped his tears with his hand, and said again: "You must miss me, you must come back."

It seems to be exhorting, and it seems to be begging.

After he finished speaking, he seemed to be exhausted by the turbulent emotions of the day after all. He closed his eyes and breathed evenly.

Runyu propped herself up and looked at him for a while, then lowered her head and kissed his lips lightly, like a superficial touch.

"You are not wrong, you have no retribution, and I... am not your blessing." He slowly slid into his arms and said softly.

He took a breath, and said again: "Of course I don't want to part with you, I will... definitely..."

He couldn't say the next words.

He just choked up.

He looked at Zhanhuang's face with teary eyes, and there were thousands of thoughts in his mind.

You are my blessing.he thinks.

You are the greatest blessing in my life.

It's just a pity.

After all, he is blessed.