Miss Mu and the Canary

Hearing Bai Yan's cry, Mu Xing's heart suddenly ached.Not caring about entanglement, she hugged Bai Yan and said, "Yan'er! I didn't mean to hide it from you, you trust me, trust me, okay..."

The red candle flickered, the heavy light and shadow flickered endlessly, and the shadow shrouded two anxious hearts. They wanted to approach, but they dodged and fled.

Just saying "Miss Mu" exhausted all of Bai Yan's strength, she was like a piece of paper soaked in water, lightly attached to Mu Xing's body.

Mu Xing hugged her and said in a low voice: "...I don't know if you still remember, but on a certain day in March, I once met you at Huarong Foreign Firm."

"The first time I saw you in that corridor, I knew how to write the word 'beauty'."

"You may not believe it, but one day, when I was walking on the street, I mistook a woman for you, and unexpectedly got into this Moon River by accident, and knew your name and surname."

"'Bright and pure, good-looking and fresh', I was originally attracted by your brilliance, but I have known you not only have 'good looks' during the past few months. I know how exquisite you are, and I also know how much you love I don't dare to let down my feelings. But do you know my heart?"

Leaning in Mu Xing's arms, Bai Yan didn't make a sound, only the thin trembling under her palms, which made Mu Xing feel her emotions.

"I am a woman, this is a fact. I deceived you, this is a fact. But my sincerity, all my love for you, is also a fact. Even if you can no longer believe me for a while, is it true that all your past love, Have you never felt it?"

Exhausting all his courage and restraining all his heartache, Mu Xing said with difficulty: "Yan'er, no matter how much you blame me, it's my own fault. I am willing to bear it, as long as you are willing to accept me. But I also know that as a woman, How shocking is my feeling for you, if you... If you can't accept it after all, it's your freedom."

"If you reject me because of this, from now on, I will not pester you again."

Every word and sentence slipped across her heart like a blunt knife. After saying these words, Mu Xing was finally exhausted. She trembled and closed her eyes, waiting for the verdict.

After a long time, she only felt that the person in her arms moved, and a hand brushed her eyebrows lightly.

"...I blame you for blaming you. It's never because of your gender." Bai Yan said softly: "In the past few days, all I've complained about is my suspicion that you didn't treat me with sincerity. But now, I don't have any doubts anymore. .”

His chest trembled violently, and Mu Xing quickly opened his eyes, looking at Bai Yan.She almost cried with joy, but Bai Yan's next words directly threw her into hell, her body was smashed to pieces.

"But you and I can't go on any longer."

"Why, why? Why?" Mu Xing's hand holding Bai Yan tightened irresistibly, almost embedding Bai Yan into his blood and bones.

She said eagerly: "I apologize, Yan'er, you can make it up to me any way you want, as long as you don't reject me because of your gender, I can do whatever you want...or...is it because of my engagement? You heard about me Engagement? I will call off the engagement soon, this engagement has already existed in name only, as long as I call off the engagement..."

Hearing the words "retire the engagement", Bai Yan was stunned for a moment, but she quickly regained her composure.After Mu Xing finished speaking, she said: "Even if you can cancel this engagement, you will always have another one."

Mu Xing shook his head and said: "No, I will make it clear to my parents, they are very open-minded, I can try..."

Bai Yan continued: "No, your clan, your parents, and all the things that support you to this day will not allow you to make such a choice, don't you understand? You have your responsibility, maybe You can refuse, you can argue, you can refuse. Within a certain limit, you always have room for turning around, but you can't disobey..."

Mu Xing said anxiously: "But we haven't even tried it yet! Don't we even have the chance to try it? I am willing to try and work hard..."

Bai Yan interrupted her suddenly: "But I don't want to!"

Facing Mu Xing's astonished gaze, Bai Yanhong said with red eyes, "Mu Xing, I'm different from you, I don't have the capital to try it with you!" Although trembling and choking, she was still determined.

"You can try without any scruples, without worrying that your impregnable life will collapse, but I'm different! All I have left is myself. I don't have the courage, let alone the capital, to bet on this future with you."

With a sad smile, Bai Yan said softly: "If I choose you, how long can we be together? Three years, five years? When my time is exhausted, when you finally can't resist the pressure, what can we do then?"

His chest heaved violently, Mu Xing wanted to refute and deny it.She wants to say that you believe in me, that I will definitely protect you, she wants to say too much.But in the end, she knew she had nothing to say.

She knew how ridiculous these words were, and how normal and correct Bai Yan's concerns were.

She has no right to ask Bai Yan to take risks for a love with no future.

If he hadn't met her, maybe Bai Yan would still have a chance to meet a lover, be redeemed, put on the wedding dress openly, get married and have children.

This is the most ordinary happiness that ordinary women can have, and it is the "right way" that Bai Yan has been looking forward to for so many years, eager to return.

When she was presumptuously immersed in some deceitful and concealed little love, she completely forgot that what Bai Yan needed was never these icing on the cake.

Candle tears drooped, drowning the crumbling candle wick, and the bright red wedding room gradually dimmed.The redness covering the sky and the earth is so heavy that it almost makes people breathless.

The split fingers gently slid across Mu Xing's cheek, sweeping away the drop of hot tears, but left a trace of blood, the color of fire, but without the life of fire.

Slowly closing her eyes, Bai Yan stood on tiptoe and sucked Mu Xing's trembling lips.

"At least tonight, I'm just your bride..."

...

At dawn, Mu Xing had already walked out of Yuhua Shuyu.

After sending the person away, the bustard returned to Bai Yan's room in a hurry, grabbed the aunt who was waiting outside the door and frowned and asked, "What's the matter? Why did Mr. Mu leave so early, did you not take good care of him?"

The aunt whispered: "No, Mr. Mu seems to be in a hurry. Just now, he rewarded me and Xiao Juan'er with two silver dollars. It doesn't seem like he's unhappy."

The bustard mother also accepted the reward just now, seeing what she said, she only thought that Mu Xing was in a hurry.I told my aunt to go and deliver a freshly made tea in the kitchen to Bai Yan in a while, and then left happily.

While whispering outside the door, Bai Yan was closing her clothes and sitting on the bed, lost in thought.

Last night until the end, Mu Xing didn't touch her, they just hugged each other and slept together all night.

Just before Mu Xing left, he said to her, "Please give me a little time".

She didn't know what Mu Xing meant.

She didn't dare to think, didn't dare to know.

When she said those words to Mu Xing last night, her heartbeat was actually not that violent.She even thought that she had frozen all her feelings, that's why she was able to state her thoughts in such an orderly manner, and said those words indifferently.

It turned out not to be the case.

It's not like this.

All the frozen emotions melted little by little, not violent, not deep-rooted, just like warm water flowing through, but it was omnipresent and everywhere.

She had just left, but she had already begun to miss her.

Standing up slowly, Bai Yan took a hairpin and cut her finger, watching the dark red blood soak into Hipa little by little, leaving a false symbol.

You should think about it less.Putting her fingers in her mouth, Bai Yan thought blankly.

For the rest of her life, she still has a lot of time to remember slowly.

The early morning mist has not cleared away, sporadic figures appeared in the mist, and disappeared in a flash.

Passing through the Moon River still immersed in sleep, she raised her hand and called for a rickshaw.

The driver was still sleepy, and asked inarticulately, "Master, where are you going?"

"British Concession, Mu Yuan."

The problem of the pharmacy's books and management has not been resolved, and she must take the real power into her own hands; and the prescription that Zhang Derong told her before, she has not focused on dealing with it; as for the dissolution of the engagement, she must also mention on the agenda...

The rickshaw shook gently, Mu Xing closed his eyes tiredly and rubbed his temples.

After dealing with these things, even if she can't let her become independent immediately, at least she can have some confidence and accumulation.Let her stand in front of Bai Yan quickly and tell her that I will protect you.

So please wait, please wait a little longer.Don't give up so quickly, don't be so determined.As long as you nod your head, I am willing to cross mountains and ridges and overcome thorns and thorns.

For you, for us.

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