No lights at night

At night, Mu Yunfan went to check the ward, and someone came into my ward without turning on the light.I'm so scared, I'm inexplicably scared at night, I have no choice but to say "Yunfan... turn on the light..."

The man didn't move.I said tremblingly again, "Turn on the light...I'm so scared...Turn on the light...Turn on the light..."

I held my head, and said it over and over again, the light finally turned on, but I still held my head, the lingering shock just now has not passed.

That man came to my bed, he hugged me gently, this smell... this familiar smell...

I rubbed away from his arms like crazy, and fell to the ground. I pulled the quilt and leaned hard against the corner, trembling.

"Don't...don't come here...don't touch me...Xiao Zhenglin...don't..."

Yes, that person is Xiao Zhenglin, I will never forget his smell...

"Zhi Tian..."

"Please go...don't come here..." I trembled even more, and my voice trembled violently.

Xiao Zhenglin stood there in a daze, staring at me firmly, he ignored my words, but came over and hugged me tightly, I struggled desperately, and hit his face with both hands, but he still hugged me, no let go.

"Zhi Tian... Zhi Tian... what's wrong with you... why are you like this..." Xiao Zhenglin murmured in my ear, but he hugged me even harder, as if he wanted to rub me into his arms inside.

I cried again, until now, I have not shed a single tear, but facing Xiao Zhenglin, I couldn't control it.

"Xiao Zhenglin...let me go...don't touch me again...I'm dirty...I'm dirty...please" I was still pushing him and resisting, but not as fiercely as before. Xiao Zhenglin's hug made me There is a trace of peace of mind that I have never had before, but I can't, I can't forget what those beasts did to me...I don't want Xiao Zhenglin to know...I am...not the me I used to be...

The door was pushed open suddenly, Mu Yunfan saw me being hugged by Xiao Zhenglin in the corner, he lost his mind, rushed over, pulled Xiao Zhenglin away, and threw him to the wall next to me, I was still shivering on the ground , eyes dull.Unable to hold back his anger, Mu Yunfan punched Xiao Zhenglin. I don't know why Xiao Zhenglin didn't fight back and let Mu Yunfan beat him.

"What are you doing here!! Are you not satisfied with killing him like this! Do you want him to die!!! You are a beast!!" Mu Yunfan beat and cursed, but Xiao Zhenglin didn't resist, he just kept Looking at me, the eyes... Is it pity... I'm not sure.

With another heavy punch, Xiao Zhenglin was knocked to the ground.He sat up slightly, wiped the blood from his mouth with his hands, and said to Mu Yunfan, who was short of breath and panting, "Tell me...why did this happen...Zhi Tian, ​​what's wrong with him"

When Mu Yunfan heard him ask this question, he almost went crazy. He bent over and grabbed Xiao Zhenglin's collar tightly, his eyes were red.

"He got gang/raped!! That crowd drove him nuts!! You are here asking what the fuck is going on! He was almost out of breath when he got to me!! It took me sixteen It took him an hour to save him!! You fucking asked what happened now!! Why the hell did you hand him over to those people!! Xiao Zhenglin! You rely on him to like you, and you just ruin it like this... He..." Mu Yunfan cried, he was arguing for me..."After he woke up...he didn't eat, drink or talk...I had no choice...I really had no choice...I had nothing but to stop him Suicide... I can't do anything..." Mu Yunfan's grip on Xiao Zhenglin's collar gradually loosened... He knelt on the ground weakly, crying...

"Don't...don't say it...please don't say it..." I covered my ears...I was deceiving myself...I don't want to hear such disgusting things...what violence...I don't know, don't let me hear it Such a disgusting word... I covered my ears and shook my head.

Mu Yunfan hurried over, patted me, comforted me, trying to calm me down.

Xiao Zhenglin stood up slowly, he looked at me, he didn't seem to understand what Mu Yunfan said to him just now, his breathing was very heavy, I knew this was the prelude to his fury, the last time this kind of anger, or I saw it when his father was hacked to death.I don't know what he is angry about, I only know that he turned his head and left the ward without saying a word, without even closing the door...

He left... completely left...he knows...knows that I'm dirty...he will never want me again...now I don't even have the qualifications to be his bed partner...

My heart completely died the moment Xiao Zhenglin left...

In the days to come, I will no longer look for death, I am very obedient, and obey all Mu Yunfan's arrangements, but I never said a word, and my face always has an indifferent expression.No matter who you see, it's the same.

Later, when I got better, Mu Yunfan sent me to a nursing home. The place he chose was really good. The courtyard was huge, the scenery was beautiful, and the air was good. I sat there, and the surroundings were not at all quiet. The sound, I looked at the beautiful scenery around me, and slowly felt a little peace in my heart.I looked into the distance. There was an old man in a wheelchair playing with a little boy. The child was about three or four years old. He gave a balloon he liked to the old man, and he helped the old man squeeze into the wheelchair. , They were laughing, very happy, and the corners of my mouth also raised up, it's so good, I can still laugh.

I took a deep breath and slowly closed my eyes. I wanted to enjoy this hard-won peace, but in the end, it reminded me of the painful experience. I woke up suddenly, gasping for breath, and opened my eyes. For a moment, I seemed to see a figure in the corner of my eyes, but after I looked carefully, there was nothing... Is it a hallucination?I am always like this now, and I often have hallucinations. Mu Yunfan once took me to see a psychiatrist. The doctor said that it was my own demons. The mental state is slowly adjusted.

I stayed in the nursing home well, but Yang Yi brought people to disturb my life. He told me that the police had sued Xiao Zhenglin, and now that I was a witness, I had to be protected by the police 24 hours a day, in case something happened before I testified in court.I shook my head and refused, but Yang Yi insisted on doing this, he said he owed me his life, so he would not let me suffer any more.

I couldn't resist Yang Yi, so I stopped objecting. I sighed softly. I don't think there is such a need at all. No matter how cruel Xiao Zhenglin is to me, he will never kill me. Not to that extent.

But... I was wrong...

On the day I was sent out of the nursing home by Mu Yunfan, Yang Yi sent a few people to pick me up and leave the hospital. The situation was really exaggerated. I have never been so beautiful when I grow up.On the way, we passed the place where Xiao Zhenglin and I used to go to middle school. I yelled to stop, and the people in the car were startled by me. Yang Yi nervously asked me what was wrong.I was a little embarrassed, but said it anyway.

"I... I'm hungry, I want to eat bibimbap."

At that time, everyone in the car was holding their foreheads. Yang Yi frowned and rejected me. He said that this place is not safe, there are too many people and complicated, and it is not suitable for protection.But I can't, I've never been so persistent. The three delicacies rice bowl in this restaurant can't be eaten in other places.Maybe what I want to eat is not only the taste, but also the memories of that time.

Yang Yi had no choice, because I threatened him by taking out the court. Of course, a bowl of three delicacies rice bowl was no match for the seriousness of one ten-thousandth of the one who appeared in court. Yang Yi laughed and said that I was the most unreliable person he had ever seen. witnesses.I didn't laugh or speak.

Yang Yi, when you go to court, you will know what it looks like when I am really unreliable.

I got out of the car, Yang Yi checked the surroundings, and then arranged for someone to protect me to the small restaurant.The boss didn't change, he recognized me right away, and asked me, "Young man, or Sanxiandon?" I was surprised, have I not changed for so many years?But at the same time, a warm current poured into my heart. I remembered that in the past, Xiao Zhenglin would often come to eat with me, but he didn’t like it. He said it was fishy, ​​and he would finish eating with me, and then clamored for me to accompany him to eat something else thing.

I’m still remembering that a bowl of freshly cooked bibimbap was served in front of me. I picked up the spoon and suddenly felt reluctant to eat it. It’s still the same shop, the same boss, I’m still me, the rice is still rice , but around... but there is no one who urged me to eat quickly.In the end, the spoon didn't even touch the rice, and it fell to the ground.

Because—someone shot me twice in front of the restaurant...

It turns out that I still overestimated myself, Xiao Zhenglin is really so ruthless...he really thinks that I will come to court to correct him...

Yang Yi yelled at me all the way, don't faint, don't fall asleep, he hugged me and rushed into the hospital, Mu Yunfan had already received a call and was waiting in the hospital, when he saw me, I had lost too much blood and was fainting Now, I don't know whose hand I'm holding, but I keep repeating "I... safe... evidence... information... personally... hand it over to... the judge... don't look at it... don't Look..." I held that hand firmly and kept talking.

Until that person said in my ear, "Zhitian, I am Yunfan, I heard...I heard..."

I really didn't have any strength left. When I heard Yunfan's voice, I let go of that hand. I don't know what happened next...