no hate

At three o'clock in the morning, the Jing family mansion was still brightly lit, Zhou Mei curled up motionless on the expensive western-style sofa like an old cat, and the carved and silver-plated ashtray on the coffee table was filled with white ashtrays Cigarette butts, her eyes were covered with dark red bloodshot eyes, and her make-up was out of shape.

No matter how many pieces her heart has been broken into, the moon outside the window is as round as a jade plate, which still seems familiar.

The night when actor Bai fell into the river was also a full moon night, and it was also the same when actor Bai went to Peking in anger. It seemed that every time actor Bai left her, the moon would laugh at her hard. It reminds people of Su Dongpo The sentence in the head of the water tune:

There should be no hate, what is long to other times.

The sound of a car motor came from outside, Zhou Mei's eyes lit up, and she immediately bounced off the sofa, took two steps in three steps, and hugged Jing Luo who had just entered the gate of Jing's house, and said incoherently, "How is it, Xiao Luo?" ,ah?"

"I don't know, they won't let me in..." The temperature was cold at night, Jing Luo's military uniform was blown cold by the wind, her face was pale, and the fear in her eyes hadn't faded away, "I heard her calling, it made me cry Afraid, sister-in-law, will she..."

"No!" Although Zhou Mei looked embarrassed, what he said was firm.

People from the Nationalist Party will not let her die easily. The clues are broken from her. They hope to find a breakthrough from her. Besides, the vitality of Xizibai is so tenacious. She can't be drowned by floods or bombs. Little Japan's Even the bayonet was snatched backhanded by her.

There were intermittent footsteps on the stairs, and the two looked back, and saw that Jing Yuan hadn't even changed into his pajamas, and was still wearing the black gown he wore to Pan's house during the day, and he walked down slowly with a cane.

"Brother, you haven't slept yet..." Jing Luo glanced at Zhou Mei, feeling that some things were unclear for a while, and she didn't know what to say.

"It's been a tossing all night, you should take a rest, we'll talk about it tomorrow if you have anything to do," Jing Yuan said softly.

Jing Luo nodded, she squeezed Zhou Mei's hand, and signaled her to put away her previous hardness first, and stop having unnecessary quarrels with Jing Yuan, so she went upstairs first.

Jing Yuan slowly moved in front of Zhou Mei, seeing her haggard, a little hesitant to speak.

Zhou Mei's eyes were all swollen, and she didn't look directly at him.

"It's really you?" Jing Yuan said sadly after hesitating for a long time.

"Yes"

"Why are you so confused..."

"It's already like this. If you want to expose me, go ahead." A sneer appeared on the corner of Zhou Mei's mouth, which made the scalp tingle. "Protect yourself and take good care of Ruicheng."

"..." Jing Yuan was furious, and knocked the ground hard with the crutch in his hand, "How could I expose you! You are Ruicheng's mother, my wife, and my family! That bastard Xu Yuanju deliberately made things worse. The city is full of disturbances, just trying to sow discord, I will never be so stupid as to really fall into his way!"

"I'm sorry, I've damaged your reputation, and you've lost your face." Zhou Mei still had no expression on her face, and said something with a bit of teasing, "But I'm a female actress, so it's better to go and steal men, don't you think so?" ~"

"You!" Jing Yuan tried his best to suppress his anger, but Zhou Mei seemed to want to provoke him on purpose, and when he stepped up, he could not help but raise the crutch in his hand.

"Hit~" Zhou Mei's eyes were strange, expectant, she directly grabbed the crutch and threw it at herself, "Hit me!! Kill me, whore!! I'm shameless, I don't obey women, I deserve it! !"

"Xiao Mei...Xiao Mei!" Jing Yuan was frightened, he hastily held down Zhou Mei's careless hand, "Can you calm down! Will the problem be solved if you die? What about Bai! You really don't care about her? Don't forget, she still has a daughter!"

Originally, she acted as a jerk and ruthless, but with just this one sentence, Zhou Mei, who was quite aggressive just now, burst into tears. She covered her mouth with one hand, squatted down, and pinched hard with the other hand muscle.

This was probably the first time Jing Yuan saw Zhou Mei crying. With his mouth half open, he couldn't help being a little surprised when he looked at Zhou Mei who was trembling from forbearance on the ground.

During these years of marriage, they get together less and leave more. In his memory, Zhou Mei seldom smiles, she is just a calm person.During the eight years of the Anti-Japanese War, it was difficult to do business. How many businessmen in Chongqing fell down and never stood up again. The business model has become a veritable financial tycoon in Chongqing today; in life, she treats her parents-in-law without any slack, caring everywhere, the old man and the old lady can hardly do without her, and everything is left to her. Daughter-in-law, where can I find it?

If it is said that she has a purpose in doing all this, yes, she has a purpose, but those things did not hurt the Jing family, right?Jing Yuan is not stupid, Zhou Mei's temperament is not something that ordinary women possess, since she chose him back then, she would not leave him easily, and he would never allow outsiders to intervene or even destroy things that can be digested internally.

"I'm going to the military headquarters tomorrow." Jing Yuan lowered his body with difficulty, knelt down on one knee with his good leg, stretched out his hand to embrace Zhou Mei in his arms, and coaxed softly, "It's impossible to protect her, but I I will try my best to make her conditions better inside, I hope she will hold on."

Since Liu Xiang and Pan Wenhua died in battle, all the relationships Zhou Mei relies on now are maintained by Jing Yuan. I have to say that sometimes she really needs him. No matter how strong a woman's character is, at some point , always needs a man to protect, this is the reality.

Zhou Mei clasped Jing Yuan's back with her hands, and cried bitterly in his arms.

"It's okay, it's okay..." Jing Yuan patted her on the back, "You've made my dad so angry that he almost fell ill, you have to express your opinion to him, just this one time, don't make another example"

After all, the old man's thinking is not so open-minded. The scandal of the daughter-in-law and the actor made a lot of noise, and it directly hit the headlines of the Bashan Evening News. It is an unchangeable fact that Jing's big and small matters are inseparable from Zhou Mei. Jing Junming once wanted to kick her out.

Although Zhou Mei agreed to Jing Yuan to express her opinion, her appearance in front of Jing Junming was not admitting her mistake. Her posture was clearly that of smashing a jar. Fortunately, actor Bai once saved his life. Thinking about it this way, Zhou Mei Mei is just repaying the favor for the Jing family, and the actor Bai is now in prison, and he is afraid that he will spend the rest of his life in prison. No matter how annoyed Jing Junming is, he can only give up in the end.

Although Xizibai had been tortured like purgatory for three consecutive days, she still survived tenaciously. Facing this woman who had suffered all kinds of tortures and refused to tell even a half-truth, Xu Yuanju treated her thoroughly. No way, I had no choice but to temporarily imprison her like other political F.

Although Xizibai is in prison, she lives in a clean independent cell with a simple bed. After winter, she also has a heavier quilt than others. She doesn't need to curl up on a straw mat to sleep, and it's not difficult to eat three meals a day. The big pot of brown rice that she swallowed was the small stove of the guards in the prison. However, she still couldn't escape the fate of wearing leg shackles because of her active nature. Occasionally, she had to make a tinkling sound when she wanted to move her muscles and bones.

During the daily breeze, those political prisoners who were detained had time to hang around in the small playground, bask in the sun, and feel the rare fresh air. Maybe it was because of their work habits on weekdays. All of them had a straight face, or He has a serious and desolate demeanor, except for Xizi Bai, who keeps smiling and laughing all day long, often does not obey the rules, greets people indiscriminately, and has been reprimanded and warned by the guards several times for talking too much.

Sometimes, she would stand in front of the barred window of the prison cell and look at the bright side and look into the distance. Fortunately, she could still see the rolling green hills and the occasional flying birds here.

She is such a playful and free person. It seems that she will never be free in the rest of her life.On the day she sent Shishi away, Bai Yuan didn't even have time to take a good look at her, and didn't know what she would look like when she became a big girl.

She was in a daze when there was a sudden noise from the cell door behind her. The actor Bai turned his back, thinking that Xu Yuanju was going to interrogate her again, but when she turned around, she saw that it was the guard who usually brought her meals calling her, "Room No. [-], there are people." prison visit"

The opera singer was slightly stunned, and unconsciously stroked the messy hair on both sides with her hands, and she said weakly, "Can I see you?"

"Hurry up!" the guard snapped.

She sighed softly, kicked her shackles, and slowly followed the guards in a direction she had never been before. She passed many prison cells. Although those comrades were usually taciturn, they all stood up at this time, and they all looked at each other. Looking at her figure, there was indescribable desolation in his eyes.

For prisoners who are no longer useful, it is meaningless to continue to detain them. Many inmates have never returned after being released. Watching off and mourning are the only farewell ceremonies they can do.

She's not going to die, she doesn't want to die yet.Bai Yuan thought silently in her heart, but after thinking about it, she thought about it again, forget it, it is better to die than to live like this.So when she walked into a closed room under the guidance of the guards, Xie Zibai had a rather fearless attitude. She saw that there was no one around, and the smell of dust in the air made her very uncomfortable, and she immediately became impatient. He roared, "What the hell are you doing, kill and cut quickly!"

The rusted iron door on the left side of the wall was pushed open with a creak, and the first thing that came into view was a crutch, and then, Jing Yuan, who was dressed in military uniform, walked in slowly.

In fact, Jing Yuan, like Tang Xiangwan, has a tall and straight figure and outstanding appearance. After being tempered in the battlefield, they have added a lot of men's unique taste and charm.

They haven't seen each other for many years. For a while, the two didn't recognize each other immediately. It took a while for Bai Zi to respond, "You...?"

"Long time no see." Jing Yuan saw that her cheeks had not healed from the old injury, her clothes were in a mess, but her face was still clean, and her hair was relatively neat compared to other prisoners, so she couldn't help but feel a lot of emotion in his heart.

A frequent visitor to the Chongqing Fengyue venue, a peerless youth on the stage, and the wife of a major general who is enamored of luxury, she is considered a legend after being reduced to this point. I really don't know what to say about her.

"That's fine, I deserve to die at your hands." The actor Bai actually heaved a sigh of relief and smiled.

"..." Jing Yuan didn't know what to say for a while, "How is the living, it's comfortable"

Even if he said it, he felt that he was extremely boring, even if the golden house warmed the tent to eat and drink fat food, no one would be happy if you were forced to stay at home for the rest of your life.

"Thanks to your care, I am content"

"Xiaobai...do you have something to say, do you want me to bring it to her?" Jing Yuan looked directly at Bai, the actor, with sincere eyes.

"No, but I have something to tell you"

"You just talk." Jing Yuan was a little surprised.

"Zhou Mei has a bad temper." The actor Bai seemed to be sorting out her words. After hesitating for a long time, she smiled again and said, "No, it's not that he's not very good. It's really bad. Please be tolerant. In other words, you look like this, when you get old, you still want her to take care of you, you say yes~ You should treat her better when you are young, and she will never treat you poorly in the future."

"Yes...you may say, what right do I have to order you, Zhou Mei is your wife, so what do I care about, yes, you are a man, you are born with the qualifications to marry her, but I don't, so I'm just begging you, not ordering you, you are still a soldier, you have the ability and status, you are so powerful, so you should protect her more than bully her, you say yes..."

The actor Bai slowed down, and continued to speak, "It was my fault for so many years, I shouldn't be pestering her, I shouldn't have such crooked thoughts, if I hadn't come back that year, everything would have ended long ago, it's all my fault, Don't blame her, you also know that my rogue temper, being a woman, will be dragged down by me."

"I know that I have lost all my face in my life, but can you sell Xiang Wan a favor? My daughter is still young. If she has any troubles in the future, can you give her a hand..."

The actor Bai's life was absurd and dissolute, but she never showed weakness. Zhou Mei was more tactful than her, and knew how to deal with people better than her. Naturally, she was more adaptable to this materialistic society dominated by patriarchy. Rampage, all depends on luck, but luck, there will always be a day when it will run out.

"Don't worry, I will treat her as my own daughter." Jing Yuan agreed without hesitation.

Xie Zibai saved his father and blocked this catastrophe for Zhou Mei. He is also the wife of his former best friend. In fact, men are sometimes easier to coax than women. As long as you trust him, admit him and want to rely on him, he will be very tolerant .

"Thank you." The actor Bai bowed, bowed to Jing Yuan, and said softly, "I'm done talking, can I go?"

"Don't you ask me, does she have anything to say to you?"

Before Jing Yuan came, she had asked Zhou Mei if she wanted to send her a letter, but Zhou Mei thought that if the letter fell into the hands of the enemy, it would only be used to give someone a handle, and it would also harm the actor Bai, so she finally dismissed it. this idea.

"Pfft." The actor laughed in vain, "Why do you ask, there must be none."

Dragging the heavy shackles, she turned and walked out, leaving behind a thin and lonely figure.

Xie Zibai thought too much, she was not executed, but she was raped all the time, this test lasted for three years.In the past three years, the situation outside has changed, and the country in the north has already changed its appearance, with a new owner, the civil war is in full swing, and the Nationalist Party is retreating steadily, gradually unable to do what it wants.

For her sake, Ni Gan, who was determined to be an ordinary person after graduation, joined the Eastern Sichuan Liberation Army without hesitation, and began to fight desperately with the Kuomintang army. He hoped every day that the PLA's gunshots would reach Chongqing. He was able to lead his brothers into the Bai mansion and rescue the actor Bai out; in order to prevent being coerced by both the Kuomintang and the Communist Party, after secret negotiations between Zhou Mei and Lao Zeng, Zhou Mei and Lao Zeng negotiated in secret, and with a considerable reward, they secretly hid Shishi After arriving in Chongqing, she changed to a new identity and was raised and looked after by Li Boshu; while the gentle and virtuous Jian Rong, when living in Yibin, was favored by a military cook who had just lost his wife, and formed a new family to help him take care of With two sons and a daughter.

In the three years she was away, the stage in Chongqing finally returned to Qiu Chufeng's hands, and he regained the feeling of the past. He drives a foreign car, and raises a few wild men for fun from time to time.People are really strange, today they can be obsessed with one person, and it’s no regret that their daughters are gone, but it’s just a blink of an eye, they can turn around and applaud another one, anyway, whoever obeys their wishes and satisfies their wishes If they like it, they are willing to turn against whomever they like, without any feelings or attitude.

Shi Liu is a businessman, business should be done or done, no matter how much he dislikes Qiu Chufeng, he will not spoil his own business, but what Zhou Mei has done these years has really given him a headache, so he has no choice but to ask Jing Jing for help. Luo, let her often take care of Xia Zhoumei.

I have to say that Zhou Mei's temperament has really changed drastically. She is not like before who only focuses on work and is bored in the office every day. Whenever she has free time, she will come to the theater and often use all means to book the show, even triple the ticket price. Return it, and leave her alone.Several times, she happened to book Qiu Chufeng's play, and Qiu Chufeng was still dedicated to his work. Although there was only one guest sitting below, he went on stage when he should, and his singing was unambiguous, but Zhou Mei was not so easy to pass. She either threw nuts or teacups on the stage, and once she seemed crazy, she jumped onto the stage to peel off Qiu Chufeng's red costume, which frightened people and called her indecent. Not to mention that she is the head of the Jiajing family, a wealthy lady.

In the past, although she acted domineeringly, her temperament was always restrained, and she handled the company's affairs neatly and decisively without talking nonsense, but now she would slap the table every now and then, yelling and scolding all the managers in the room. After finishing their temper, they signed and approved their draft, which is really unpredictable.

Since the Kuju incident was demoted, Jing Luo simply resigned from the position of military commander and joined the family business run by the Jing family together with Zhou Mei. Her most important job in daily life is to take care of Zhou Mei's mood, because she Sister-in-law, it’s getting more and more worrying, not only taking photos of tables and playing in the garden, but also visiting the vegetable market and cooking in the kitchen, often cooking some weird things to force Jing Yuan and Rui Cheng to enjoy, what’s more, she directly The fishermen on the river went fishing between the dams, and at sunset they came back sitting on the sliding poles, holding wet shoes and socks in their left hand, and a net of snakeheaded fish in their right hand, which scared the waiter A Dong so much that he couldn’t speak. Like what she would do, she did it all over again.

Jing Luo often couldn't laugh or cry, and every time she asked Zhou Mei what was wrong with her, Zhou Mei just answered calmly, it was nothing, she was just afraid.

Yes, she was afraid, obviously she still had a family, relatives, husband and son, but for some reason, she was still afraid.Her current tranquility was bought by that idiot with the freedom of the rest of her life. She dared not live up to a single minute and a second. She also knew that no one in this world would love her so much anymore, so she began to learn to love herself, love Living, loving others, she no longer suppresses what she wants, what she wants to say, what she wants to do, she just wants to live as she wants.