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Although the spring day in Shanghai is still a bit cool, the spring day in Guangdong does not show the characteristics of spring at all. Just in the middle of April, it is as hot and humid as midsummer. Zhou Mei sits in the old car, Wearing a light green silk cheongsam, her short hair has just been trimmed, and she puts it obediently behind her ears. She is holding a rosin fan in one hand, fanning the air in front of her once and for all. Shi Liu is sitting in the front passenger seat , with a pipe in his mouth, the collar of his blouse was still tightly tied, and beads of sweat fell from time to time on his forehead.

They traveled all the way from Foshan to Shunde, and visited more than ten silk reeling factories. In recent years, with the outbreak of the world war, the silk industry in Guangdong has gradually declined. The demand for supply from foreign companies has dropped sharply. Many silk factories rely on this to make a living, and some factories do everything possible to drag the relationship, cooperate with the military factory, and directly produce military uniforms for profit. , just happened to be under the guise of the Chongqing government to run errands for Liu Xiang's army, and drop by to visit the great rivers and mountains of the motherland.

In the middle of the road, it happened to rain, and the sound of the rain drowned out the noise outside the car. Zhou Mei habitually left a gap in the car window, and she enjoyed the sporadic raindrops passing through the gap, piercing the window like needles. The way she looked, it seemed to be one of her quirks.And although the coolness subsided a lot, the road conditions outside were not good, the car was moving forward slowly, bumping every now and then, Zhou Mei closed her eyes, trying to take a nap to relieve the discomfort in her whole body.

It was just after noon when the rain fell, but when Zhou Mei opened her eyes again, it was already dark, and the car was quiet. She was covered with a familiar double-breasted blouse, and when she looked out, she could see Seeing the looming lights and the ancient stone steps, the sound of gurgling water beside the road, and the red lanterns hanging at the gate of each adjacent courtyard, you can hear the driver Huang Que and the accompanying people talking with two very friendly people. The majestic old man talked with a smile while Shi Liu stood smoking a pipe. He lost his short shirt and only had a simple robe inside. Zhou Mei took a deep breath and opened the car door. There was a surge.

She got out of the car crookedly, ran to the base of the wall, and vomited out fiercely.

Shi Liu on the side quickly found out, he frowned, and immediately followed, supporting Zhou Mei with one hand and stroking her back with the other. Although Zhou Mei felt nauseous in her stomach, her mind was always clear , When she recovered, she just squatted down, hugged her knees with her hands, tried her best, adjusted herself, and tried to recover quickly.

Shi Liu stood in front of her, looking down at Zhou Mei, with a smile on the corner of his mouth.

Zhou Mei raised her head and looked at him. Although Shi Liu is a member of the gang, his appearance is extremely refined. It is hard to think that his appearance is inconsistent.

"Sixth Master laughs." Zhou Mei also pulled out a smile, and no one could easily understand that smile.

When a person is vulnerable, it is instinctive to seek dependence, but she really can't let go of everyone like that.

"Already arrived in Shunde," Shi Liudao, "This is not the county seat yet, let's settle down first tonight."

"..." Zhou Mei nodded.

"It's been a day of tossing around, let's go to bed earlier." Shi Liu didn't say any more, but walked quickly towards the few people over there.

Zhou Mei took a deep breath, supported the wall, stood up slowly, squinted her eyes, and walked along the bubbling water to the end of the stone road.

On both sides of this road, houses are brightly lit, and from time to time laughter in the local Cantonese dialect can be heard in the courtyard.

In fact, she just wanted to take a walk to recover her strength, but in a foreign land, she didn't know what kind of courage it was that allowed her to walk alone on a strange road.

Shi Liu took a puff on his pipe, and seemed to know that Zhou Mei was feeling unwell after a day in the car, and wanted to go for a walk alone. He gave Huang Que a look, and Huang Que immediately followed Zhou Mei, keeping a distance between him and her. far distance.

After walking for a long time, it seemed to come to an end, but there were still bits and pieces of light in the distance. Zhou Mei was curious, so she walked for a while, and when she reached the seemingly remote courtyard, she raised her head and saw Three words on the plaque: Aunt's House.

On the stone steps at the door, there were two women with long braids sitting. The two of them were eating with their bowls and chopsticks, whispering from time to time. When they saw her, their faces became very vigilant , especially the dark and thin woman next to her, stood up and stood in front of the petite girl behind her. They were all wearing short white jackets, soaked in sweat, as if they had worked all day, but their eyes were bright and energetic.

Seeing this scene, the oriole behind Zhou Mei immediately rushed up in three steps and two steps, first nodded to the two women, and then led Zhou Mei back, "Miss Zhou, this is the aunt's house, don't leave here. too close"

Zhou Mei was at a loss, "Why?"

"Women here don't marry all their lives, and they all die here. It's very unlucky"

Zhou Mei glanced at him sideways and didn't say anything else. She just turned her head and saw the dark and thin woman walking towards the aunt's house with the girl next to her. creaking sound.

"The silk factory here needs female workers, and they are all done by the women in the aunt's house." Huang Que is Shi Liu's entourage for many years. He has traveled all over the world and seems to be familiar with the customs of this area. If a man takes a step closer, he will be scolded, but in the end, he still wants to buy the door from his in-laws, because he doesn’t want to be a lonely ghost.”

Zhou Mei just listened and didn't say a word. She followed Huang Que and went back to the big family before. The owner's house was in the medicinal materials business. He must be an old friend of Huang Que. He chose the best room for her to stay. Liu and his party were having a banquet with the master, Zhou Mei always entertained on weekdays, and it was rare that it had nothing to do with business, and because he was not feeling well, he didn't bother to participate this time, and nestled in the room smelling of medicine.

Xu Shi slept too much in the car, at this time, she was very energetic.

Thinking of her location, which was already south of the border, she couldn't help being a little amused, this was probably the most leisure time in her life, but she never expected that she was wandering around with Shi Liu.Although the two walked together on the grounds of business, it was obvious that they were ulterior motives for each other, Zhou Mei went south, whether for private or public reasons, after all, it was to avoid the limelight, and Shi Liu, obviously, It's for Zhou Mei.

Maybe she didn't know Shi Liu well enough, but for some reason, she found that although she resisted Jing Yuan, she didn't have much resistance to Shi Liu, neither salty nor bland, that's all, maybe because of Shi Liu's experience Rich, with insight and tolerance, he is more sophisticated than Jing Yuan who grew up with a golden key.Men, for Zhou Mei, perhaps relying on and protecting them is more important. She knows what the situation is, and she needs someone to protect herself, so she will not reject anyone who can be used by her.

Anyway, she has lost her sincerity.

She took out a cigarette, lit it and sucked it on her lips. She couldn't help but fell into a daze until the night was getting deeper and everything was silent. She seemed to have finally found someone. Who came out, got up, opened the door, the person walked in calmly, she also closed the door as usual, just turned around, was surrounded by the person in front of her, a slight smell of alcohol and The smoke from her body penetrated into her nostrils.

"Master Liu still doesn't rest." Zhou Mei's lips were as red as blood, and Shi Liu was hugged in her arms, but she was very calm.

"How long is Miss Zhou going to play with me?" Shi Liu was not in a hurry, but said leisurely, smelling the smell of the woman in his arms, which was different from other women he had tasted.

"I have a marriage contract with Major General Jing"

"You and your godfather, it's not clear."

"Yes, many people and I don't know." Zhou Mei suddenly laughed, "Then according to Liu Ye's temper, if I really follow you, wouldn't you want to chop me into meat?"

"Hahahaha" Shi Liulang laughed loudly, leaned over, and blocked Zhou Mei's mouth.

As far as ordinary women are concerned, Shi Liu's appearance and ability are actually pleasing, and he can conquer any woman he wants to conquer, but Zhou Mei is not an ordinary woman.

The predatory kiss, which seemed to be biting, was attacked on the face and neck. Zhou Mei closed her eyes and did not resist, and her hands were hanging down as before. In fact, she was already prepared, but I don't know how to cater, the thoughts after closing the eyes seem to give her a free space, somehow, or involuntarily, she seems to feel that she is in a false world, the air is filled with the smell of disinfectant, Surrounding her were those white and slender hands, and the warm and moist wrap around her ears seemed to come from her rouge-scented lips. She trembled unconsciously and let out a light gasp, and it was this ambiguous voice that made her Shi Liu, who should have been excited, suddenly stopped moving.

Shi Liuda was surprised, gasped heavily, and looked at the woman in front of him with a half-smile, "What's wrong with you?"

To tell the truth, Zhou Mei was no less frightened than Shi Liu, her face was reddish, her mind was blank, she seemed to be asking herself, what happened to her?

"Huh?" Shi Liu let go of Zhou Mei, gloating on his face, "Miss Zhou, so there is someone in your heart."

Zhou Mei didn't react yet.

"That's interesting." Shi Liu's smile was deep and chilly. He pursed his lips, as if reminiscing about Zhou Mei's taste, but now, what he wanted was not so simple.

Both of them are scheming people, especially Shi Liu, who has been too involved in the world, and at first glance, he knows that this kind of woman is cold in nature, has only purpose and no sincerity, but this kind of person is often born with magical powers, which makes people think to have.

But today he accidentally discovered that she still has a heart. It seems that fighting for the heart of a woman like Zhou Mei is much more interesting than possessing her.

She is so young and beautiful, and once she is young, she is destined to have some things that cannot be seen through.

Shi Liu didn't do anything else, but said hello very politely, and closed the door.And Zhou Mei, who was squatting by the bed in a daze, buried her head on her knees, feeling slightly annoyed in her heart, this kind of annoyance, I couldn't tell what it was like, but felt a little strange in her heart. He took off the embroidered shoes on his feet, and slammed them forward...

She annoyed herself all night, couldn't close her eyes, the sky turned white, and the rooster crowing that she rarely heard at that time completely pulled her out of her thoughts and brought her back to reality. She looked at herself in the mirror With slightly swollen eyes, she sighed softly, and quickly cleaned up her makeup and hair, and changed into a brighter set of clothes from her carry-on luggage.

Zhou Mei pushed open the door, getting used to the sunlight which was different from the mountain city.

The master's helpers got up much earlier than her, and they were already busy in twos and threes. In the kitchen not far away, there was the smell of home-like rice. At this time, Zhou Mei was a little hungry, but she didn't go to find food. Yes, just walked out under the curious eyes of those people.

It was late last night, and I couldn’t appreciate the atmosphere here. After a casual stroll for a while, Zhou Mei’s mood improved a lot. The water towns in the south are like this. It was covered with moss, and the vines and trees were clinging to the tiles, reflecting the chirping of birds and insects. Maybe this place is really not big. As she walked, she went back to the aunt's house that she passed by last night.

There are steps in front of the aunt's house, and under the steps is the winding green water in the town. Several women are squatting by the water and washing themselves. They laugh at each other and sometimes chase each other. Two of them seem to be the same as last night. At this time, the petite girl with long hair was brushing her teeth, while the black and thin woman was brushing her long hair and skillfully braiding her thick braids.

After the braid was finished, the girl turned her face and smiled happily. The dark and thin woman looked at the foam at the corner of her mouth, and immediately wiped it off with the towel around her neck. The behavior between the two of them was so natural.

Zhou Mei was in a daze again, and she suddenly remembered that just last month, when she was still lying on the hospital bed, she refused to let the actor touch her in vain, and that woman slammed the pots and pans After being dragged in, it was as if the hospital was her home. Every nurse who came to change the dressing was very helpless when she came in. She not only turned a blind eye to the persuasion with the cheek, but also forgot to tease the nurse with her frivolous face.Finally, after Zhou Mei was coaxed, lied to and sang, Xie Bai quietly brought a pot of hot water, used soap to lather up her head, and scratched her head. When Zhou Mei woke up, Xie Zibai kept complaining that her hair stinks, and finally took advantage of her unpreparedness, painted her eyebrows white, and showed her a mirror.

Thinking of herself in the mirror at that time, Zhou Mei couldn't help laughing, she seemed to have forgotten that she didn't like to laugh, and she didn't like warmth.

She couldn't forget that when she closed her eyes, when her hands rubbed gently between her scalp, the subtle feeling in her heart, the mist of hot water, the smell of soap, and the towel dried by the noon sun seemed to have all come to an end. Premeditated, but also an accomplice in the details.

Everyone who is extreme, world-weary, and doesn't love living is often more likely to feel the feelings that life gives them.She finally understood the reason for the awkwardness and inexplicable emptiness along the way.In her world, a person can always be replaced by another person, but the feeling is still irreplaceable.

This is really bad...

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The author has something to say:

This work should be a change in my writing style from a teenager to an adult.

No more entanglement, no more hesitation, no longer only know how to love others, but always remember to love yourself, and before, I was used to describing scumbags and infatuated feelings, this time, I will do the opposite.

Maybe the only thing I can't change is the abuse~