paranoid dependence

After school started, Shen Nian's class was promoted to the third grade. Compared with before, his responsibilities were heavier and he had more things to do. Except for Saturdays and Sundays, he would not come back until almost ten o'clock in the evening after going out every morning. Although lunch and dinner were all at home Eat, but the time spent with Gu Zhi has been greatly reduced.

Gu Zhi felt sorry for him working hard, and would urge him to rest after he came back, and the time for the two of them to talk was much less than before.

Gu Zhi has been suppressing Shen Nian's panic that he is not around most of the day, but sometimes he can't suppress it.

I don't know if it's because Shen Nian is young, or because he has a good temper. Although he didn't deliberately try to get closer to the students, the students are still very happy to mingle with him, talking and laughing, and occasionally hooking up with him when they get into trouble. Putting on the back, although Shen Nian doesn't like this kind of touch very much, but when the students come up to him, he can't sternly refuse.

Gu Zhi bumped into it once, there was no need for evening self-study on Friday evening, and the next day was also a holiday, the school gate just after school was crowded with people, Shen Nian knew that Gu Zhi was waiting at the school gate, so Shen Nian didn't delay too long, walked to the school gate At that time, I happened to meet the students in my class.

Shen Nian's recent anomaly has already attracted their attention, it's not class time, and he hasn't seen each other for two days, so he's a lot bolder when he jokes:

"Mr. Shen, is there something wrong?"

Shen Nian's footsteps slowed down when he heard the sound, and looked at the questioning student: "What's going on?"

"In love." Someone rushed to answer: "Teacher Shen was a role model for the entire grade teacher before. She was the first to come and the last to leave. How many days has it been? It's been almost a month? After school, I can run faster than us. I can't see your shadow."

"Also, Mr. Shen, do you know that you haven't eaten in the school cafeteria since school started?"

"What does the teacher's wife look like? If I can take you down, let us meet." It was Gu Zhi who said this, and after he finished speaking, he put his hand on Shen Nian's shoulder: "How about we treat you to dinner?"

Gu Zhi might be watching at the school gate, Shen Nian took his hand off calmly: "Hurry up and go home."

"Teacher, are you embarrassed?"

Shen Nian smiled and ignored them, stepped out of the school gate and walked across the street.

Although he told Gu Zhi last time that he could wait for him at the school gate, Gu Zhi still seemed to have his concerns. He didn't really stand at the school gate, but by a banyan tree across the street. Normally, he would stand there. He was at the side, but this time when Shen Nian walked over, he didn't see Gu Zhi, but he didn't leave either. He stood behind the tree, his whole body was tense, and the clenched hands hanging by his side were also trembling.

"Brother Zhi?" The people who came and went were all students, Shen Nian didn't make too intimate gestures, and called him softly, Gu Zhi raised his eyes to look over, the emotions in those eyes were all suppressed madness, isn't it? Facing his own, Shen Nian could tell that he wanted to find the student who touched him just now.

He looked away from his own face and even moved.

Shen Nian grabbed his wrist at this moment: "Brother Zhi, this is a trivial matter, please don't do this? Be obedient."

Gu Zhi's impulsiveness was instantly relieved by Shen Nian's words, but he was still shaking, even though Shen Nian was grabbing his wrist, he was still shaking.

Just now I was joking with myself that those classmates were walking towards this side behind Gu Zhi, if they didn't leave, maybe they would meet each other in less than a minute, by that time, Shen Nian wasn't sure if he was 'obedient' Can magic suppress Gu Zhi's impulse?

Shen Nian glanced at the students in his class, and left with Gu Zhi.

In the taxi on the way back, Gu Zhi was still very tense, Shen Nian grabbed his hand and couldn't relieve much, the atmosphere was so oppressive that even the driver increased the speed of the car a lot, the usual ten minutes journey took only this time 5 minutes.

After paying and getting out of the car, Shen Nian just wanted to ask Gu Zhi if he wanted to take a walk in the small square to relieve his mood, but before he could say the words, Gu Zhi reacted, he held his hand instead, using a lot of strength, Regardless, he dragged Shen Nian back home, even though there were other residents in the elevator, Gu Zhi didn't care.

The man probably didn't expect the two men to hold hands so intimately, and glanced at them from time to time. Shen Nian felt that it was a little dangerous, but as expected, Gu Zhi's eyes had already swept over when he just had this thought, maybe It was so fierce that the man pressed down on another floor halfway before reaching the floor he was on.

Shen Nian didn't say anything.

After returning home and closing the door, before Shen Nian could change his shoes, Gu Zhi dragged him into the shower room of the bathroom. He tore off the white shirt and threw it on the ground, as if he couldn't stand it being on Shen Nian's body again. For a second, it seemed to be dirty.

After taking off the shirt, Gu Zhi turned on the shower to rinse Shen Nian's shoulders again. He repeatedly scrubbed the spot touched by the student's arms, until the red spots showed signs of skin damage. Calm down a little.

During the whole process, Shen Nian kept silent, and he cooperated with Gu Zhi in whatever he did. When scrubbing, he just supported the wall with one hand and left Gu Zhi with a back view.

He kept silent, but Gu Zhi panicked. He hugged Shen Nian from behind in a panic, shouting 'Nian Nian Nian Nian' non-stop, but never said a complete sentence. Shen Nian let him hug him for a while, and was about to turn around. It was only then that I heard another sentence from Gu Zhi, he said:

"Sorry……"

Shen Nian paused for a moment, then smiled: "It's over?"

"Yeah." Gu Zhi's voice was muffled mixed with the sound of the water, "I've gone crazy, I've calmed down."

"Then can you let me take off my pants first and take a shower?" Shen Nian said, "I feel uncomfortable when my wet clothes stick to me."

Gu Zhi should let go of Shen Nian and let him move, but he didn't, he always had a feeling that if he let go of Shen Nian, he would lose him, and even hugged him even tighter, Shen Nian understood Gu Zhi more or less I didn't force her to let him hold her.

Later Shen Nian apologized, he said:

"Brother Zhi, I did this wrong."

Gu Zhi froze for a moment, as if he didn't understand Shen Nian's meaning, he let go of Shen Nian and let him face himself, so that at least he could see his expression, but there was nothing wrong with Shen Nian's expression, even looking at His eyes were the same as usual, they were all gentle.

"Nian Nian..." Gu Zhi was still uneasy.

Perhaps it was too uncomfortable to talk under the shower, Shen Nian raised his hand to turn off the shower, the bathroom door was not closed, the hot water was cut off, it was a bit cold, but Shen Nian didn't care, just looked at Gu Zhi , raised his hand to smooth the hair on his forehead back.

"I know you don't like this, but I didn't stop this behavior. I did it wrong."

Gu Zhi was very angry when he saw those students getting along with Shen Nian. Although he knew that those students were the ones who took the initiative, he still felt a little weird about Shen Nian. He was very upset when he smelled someone else's taste.

With such a mood, he brought Shen Nian back home, pushed him into the bathroom, tore off the clothes he thought were dirty, and scrubbed the places where he was touched by others, trying to wash away the smell that didn't exist in the first place.

Before this, he didn't feel that he did something wrong, but the moment Shen Nian said 'I did something wrong', Gu Zhi felt that he was wrong.

Big mistakes.

"You're right." Gu Zhi lowered his head and didn't dare to look at Shen Nian: "It was my fault, it was my problem, I clearly knew it was normal, you are a teacher, it is impossible to keep a distance from students, it is impossible not to contact , but after I saw it, I still couldn't control my emotions, and I still wanted to rush over and beat those people up, and keep them away from you. I was wrong, I'm sorry..."

Gu Zhi couldn't hear Shen Nian say 'wrong', and Shen Nian didn't want to hear Gu Zhi say 'I'm sorry' to him, he felt sorry for such a Gu Zhi.

Shen Nian raised his hands to hold his face, forcing him to look at himself, I don't know if it was because of the water vapor, but Gu Zhi's eyes were wet, like a dog who was worried that he would be thrown away, Shen Nian's thumb lightly Rubbing the corner of his lips lightly, he sighed helplessly:

"Brother Zhi, don't you know how possessive you are of me when I'm with you?"

Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian and said nothing.

"I know what kind of person you are, what kind of temper you are, what your past is, what your hobbies are, I know all of them. You who are crazy at a glance, this is the real you. Do you think I never thought that you would have such actions and emotions towards my work and the people around me today?"

"I thought about it, but I don't care." Shen Nian stroked his eyebrows: "Brother Zhi, do you know why?"

Gu Zhi doesn't know, he doesn't know why such a self who is close to an indefinite time bomb is not a burden for Shen Nian, even he himself feels it is a drag.

"Because I know that you who are good to me will definitely suppress the crazy you, because I know that no matter how crazy you are, you still think more about me, because I know that even if the subconscious can't suppress you, you just need to watch Come to me, as long as I kiss you, hug you, as long as I make you obedient, you will really listen to me."

"So don't worry, you are in any mood, it doesn't matter what you are crazy, if I am here, I will support you."

"Aren't you tired?" Gu Zhi looked at him with red eyes, "Aren't you tired with supporting me like this?"

Shen Nian smiled slowly upon hearing this, and leaned over to kiss his lips:

"The most tiring time for me was the eight years when you were not by my side."

"You don't know how happy I am now." Shen Nian looked at him tenderly: "So Brother Zhi, take me, I am willing."

These words of Shen Nian are even more deafening than the previous "I love you" to Gu Zhi. Most people in the world like and love another person because of their merits or the point that attracts them. Few people even love their shortcomings. Gu Zhi's shortcomings are obvious, and they will even affect Shen Nian's work and life. Shen Nian knows it clearly and knows what consequences will result if he continues to let it go, but he still said it.

He said: Possess me, I am willing.

Gu Zhi calmed down and stopped trembling. His hands trembled uncontrollably again, but this time he knew clearly that he didn't think of something bad, it wasn't because of anger, let alone anger, he was just agitated, because Shen Think hot and pure love.

He kissed Shen Nian ferociously. Shen Nian seemed to have expected it and was not frightened by his actions. He indulged and allowed every inch of Gu Zhi's attack on him. He seemed to be telling Gu Zhi with his body:

Possess me, you see, I am happy.