paranoid dependence

As the dog days passed and the weather became less sweltering, Jianjia Lane finally had a new transformer, so there was no need to cut off the power from time to time.

Shen Nian also started school and entered the third year of junior high school.

Shen Nian didn't know what the other students were thinking and whether they were willing to start school, but he quietly breathed a sigh of relief on the first day of school.

Before Gu Zhi's father passed away, Gu Zhi had been studying in a private school in the city. Originally, Shen Chongshan wanted to transfer Gu Zhi to another school, but he found that Gu Zhi's student status was not in this city. It was very troublesome, so I didn't transfer to another school.

It's just that the private school is far away from the middle school where Shen Nian is studying, and they are not in the same urban area. It is unrealistic for Shen Nian to send Gu Zhi to school. , but no matter what the reason was, it was a good thing for Shen Nian.

On the first day of school, Liang Qiu was waiting for Shen Nian in the school carport, surrounded by acquaintances, trying to ride Liang Qiu’s newly bought mountain bike one by one. Changing back and forth, seeing Shen Nian coming over from a distance, he glanced at his bicycle for the first time, and couldn't help cursing secretly.

Shen Nian got out of the car and pushed the bicycle into the shed, before he could say anything to Liang Qiu, Liang Qiu spoke first:

"I knew Uncle Shen wouldn't buy you a car."

Shen Nian smiled: "I bought it, I didn't ride it."

"I really bought it?" Liang Qiu didn't quite believe it: "It's also a mountain bike? Is it the same as mine?"

"No."

Liang Qiu: "...Could it still be the same style as yours now?"

"Almost." After Shen Nian finished speaking, he walked towards the classroom. Liang Qiu had seen enough of them riding the bike, so he threw the key to the car lock to them, told them to lock the car for himself, and then followed Shen Nian. , put his arm around his shoulders and walk with him:

"The little oil bottle starts school too?"

"Yeah." Shen Nian said, "My dad sent him to school."

"It's okay now, but what if your dad goes to the sports car again?" Liang Qiu felt uncomfortable: "Does it still have to be you? Xiao Nian, will you be able to take care of it by then? You have to get up half an hour earlier than now Hours? Are you still going to school?"

"Don't worry, my dad stopped running sports cars, so he found a job locally."

Liang Qiu was so surprised that he couldn't speak, it wasn't until Shen Nian walked forward for a while that he realized it, followed up and blocked Shen Nian:

"For Gu Zhi? Xiao Nian, tell me, is that little oil bottle your father's illegitimate child? Apart from this reason, I can't find any other reason to convince me."

Shen Nian looked at him without speaking, but Liang Qiu didn't care about the emotion in Shen Nian's eyes:

"You lived alone for three years. Three years ago you were only 11 years old, and your father dared to leave you alone at home. What happened now? Give him your room, buy him an air conditioner, now You can even change your job if you want to change it, why not!"

Liang Qiu's roar made the passing students look sideways. Shen Nian didn't want to be the focus, so he sighed helplessly and said:

"Don't do that."

"You are my best brother, and I treat you as my own younger brother." Liang Qiu said, "I can't see you like this."

Shen Nian smiled: "You are only one month older than me."

"It's your elder brother on a big day." Liang Qiu looked at him: "You came to my house, with our house! My parents like you very much, and they are so happy that you can come. Don't dare to say anything else. You can eat and live. It’s definitely much better, and caring is definitely enough! My parents must treat you better than me.”

"Why do you treat me better than you?" Shen Nian said, "Because I'm a guest, not my own? So you can't make me feel uncomfortable, right? Maybe my dad thinks the same way?"

Liang Qiu was choked, and wanted to refute, but couldn't speak, so Shen Nian smiled:

"Isn't it great that my dad comes back to work? If he doesn't come back, I'll be the one who takes care of Gu Zhi. Now I'm at ease, that's great."

"What a fart." Liang Qiu cursed.

This day until after school, Liang Qiu still asked Shen Nian:

"You really don't want to go back with me?"

"In the future." Shen Nian thought of what Gu Zhi had said to him, and smiled: "Maybe I will really live with you for a few days in the future."

"Don't stay here for a few days." Liang Qiu said, "If you want to live, just change your surname. From now on, your surname will be Liang, and Liang Nian sounds very nice."

When Shen Nian arrived home, Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi hadn't come back yet, he put down his schoolbag and went to the grocery store to buy groceries and came back.It was already dark when the meal was ready, but Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi still didn't come back, they called Shen Chongshan's cell phone but didn't answer, so they went back to the room to read a book first.

When there was chatter and laughter outside, Shen Nian glanced at the alarm clock on the desk. It was almost eight o'clock. When he got up and walked out of the north room, he happened to see Shen Chongshan and Gu Zhi coming from outside the door holding hands. After carrying a lot of things, seeing Shen Nian smiled:

"Aren't you in a hurry? I took Xiaozhi to the city for a stroll. The season is about to change, so I bought some clothes."

Shen Nian responded, and walked towards the kitchen:

"I'm going to heat up the food."

"You haven't eaten yet?" Shen Chongshan was a little surprised, and some guilt appeared on his face: "I thought you would eat first before we waited. My mobile phone ran out of battery and I didn't make a call. I was with Xiaozhi. I ate outside."

Shen Nian stood at the door of the kitchen in the west room, because of these words, the movement of opening the curtain paused, he didn't know why, why since Gu Zhi came to the house, his daily life was obviously similar to today, but here For a moment, an uncontrollable grievance arose.

It has been 3 hours since school ended. He spent an hour cooking and waiting for them for two hours, but this was the result.

Even say a word.

"I've eaten it." Shen Nian said, "I'm just afraid that you haven't eaten it, it's fine if you have eaten it."

Shen Chongshan breathed a sigh of relief when he heard the words: "That's good, that's good, then put the food in the refrigerator, and wait until tomorrow morning to heat it up, so you don't have to cook."

"Okay." Shen Nian opened the curtain and entered the kitchen.

He was very hungry at first, but at this moment he had no appetite at all. He looked at the two dishes on the table and put them in the refrigerator after a few seconds of silence. When he turned around, he saw Gu Zhi standing at the kitchen door looking at him.

"Actually, you didn't eat, right? Why didn't you say you didn't eat? Only by making Uncle Shen feel guilty can he treat you well, don't you even understand this?"

Shen Nian didn't speak.

"Reluctance?" Gu Zhi smiled: "So...you deserve it."

Shen Nian didn't say anything, he crossed Gu Zhi and wanted to go back to the room, but he couldn't breathe, after thinking about it, he went out, but he didn't know where he should go when he was standing at the door.

Go for a walk, a walk is also good.

When passing by the door of Grandma Qin's house, she found that Grandma Qin was sitting in the small courtyard to enjoy the shade, holding a woven fan in her hand, and fanning it slowly on a small bamboo chair. She saw Shen Nian standing at the door, and greeted him with a smile go in.

Shen Nian had no other place to go, so he walked in, and Grandma Qin pointed to the little horse at the door of the North House:

"Move here and sit with grandma. Today's weather is cool, but there are mosquitoes. Grandma will fan you so you won't be afraid."

Shen Nian moved the pony and sat next to Grandma Qin, but he didn't let her fan him. He took the fan in her hand and fanned her.

Grandma Qin didn't refuse, she looked at Shen Nian with a smile:

"Xiao Nian was wronged."

The whole alley actually took care of Shen Nian during the three years he lived by himself, especially Grandma Qin, who asked Shen Nian to eat at her house every day, and when Shen Nian couldn't go, she would bring some food over. Even when Shen Nian was sick, Grandma Qin took care of her.

Shen Nian has lived in this world for 14 years, and the first time she felt the warmth of home was not from her mother You Xiaoyue, nor from her father Shen Chongshan, but from this old man in front of her who had no blood relationship with her at all.

"Although your child is not very talkative, I grew up watching him after all. There may be some things grandma doesn't know, but grandma can tell at a glance if you are happy." Grandma Qin patted his hand: " Did your dad make you angry?"

Shen Nian didn't know what to say and remained silent.

"That kid doesn't look easy. You are no match for him." Grandma Qin said.

The movements in Shen Nian's hands paused, and he looked at Grandma Qin.

Grandma Qin smiled: "He's so good, he's so cute. Every time I see him and talk to him, every word he says is good, which makes people very comfortable and happy."

Shen Nian never thought that Grandma Qin would be the first to see that Gu Zhi was not as well-behaved as he appeared on the surface.But even Grandma Qin could see the problem, but Shen Chongshan never doubted it.

"Is it not good?" Shen Nian asked.

"Of course it looks good on the surface. I don't have any conflicts with him. He picked the one I like and said, of course I think it's good. Everyone likes such a child, so no one in the alley says he is bad."

Shen Nian also knew this. Every time Shen Chongshan took Gu Zhi out of the house, he always had a smile on his face. Even Shen Nian himself heard some of them in the alley.

"But the better he is, the more worried I am about you. He is at an age where he makes mistakes and is self-willed. If he can tell you what you like to hear, and he doesn't leak anything, isn't he a genius?" Grandma Qin Looking at Shen Nian, his face was full of distress: "I don't know if your dad can see it, but I know that my Xiao Nian must have been wronged. These days, the smile on your face is almost gone. , it’s almost impossible to pretend.”

When Shen Nian went out, he really felt that he had been wronged to the extreme, and his emotions were all negative, but at this moment, he was mostly healed because of Grandma Qin's words.

"Grandma." Shen Nian looked at Grandma Qin and asked, "Am I not very attractive?"

This is not the first time Shen Nian had such thoughts, ever since You Xiaoyue ignored her and Shen Chongshan left herself alone at home, this thought haunted Shen Nian like crazy, but he never said it out, He swallowed what he could bear and what he couldn't bear.

This is the first time he has asked this question, and he also wants to know if it is really his fault, otherwise how can he really not love his mother or his father?

"Nonsense." Grandma Qin frowned: "Why would you have such an idea? How could Xiao Nian be unpopular? What has grandma been doing all these years?"

Shen Nian smiled, but didn't speak.

"You're just too sensible. Only children who can cry will have sweets." Grandma Qin stroked his hair distressedly: "That child is indeed cute, but you are your father's real son after all. Your father hit you I haven't stayed at home much since I was born, and I can't see him a few times a year. Maybe he is not used to being a father and doesn't know how to get along with you, but he is not a bad person. Now there is such a person who let him know how to be a father. It may not be a good thing, Xiao Nian can try to be more active, your father will see."

Shen Nian was silent for a long time, then shook his head.

It's not that he didn't take the initiative. When he was a child, he took the initiative to please You Xiaoyue. When Shen Chongshan came back home, he would try his best to please you. He hoped that they could take a look at him, but they all failed.

He stretched out his hand, but no one caught him.

Shen Nian was scared.Rather than being disappointed, he would rather not have hope from the start.

Shen Nian got up from the pony and squatted in front of Grandma Qin, lying on her lap:

"Grandma, I want to lie down for a while."

"Lie down." Grandma Qin touched his face distressedly, took the fan from him, and fanned him gently: "Don't be afraid of Xiao Nian, Grandma loves you."