paranoid dependence

Liang Qiu didn't insist on going to pick up Gu Zhi, but reminded Shen Nian repeatedly that no matter what happened, he must notify himself as soon as possible, and he would do his best to arrive as soon as possible.Knowing that he was really worried about himself, Shen Nian accepted this thought and remembered it in his heart.

Because Liang Qiu no longer appeared, Shen Nian and Gu Zhi entered into a relatively peaceful period. They seldom talked and had no conflicts, but they knew well that this calmness was just an appearance. That day when he said he wanted to play big, it wasn't just talk, but he was not a roundworm in Gu Zhi's stomach, so he didn't know what he wanted to do, and when he would do it.

This autumn is very dry, it has never rained, Shen Chongshan is still busy, he has not been home for three days, before leaving, he said he was going for a short long distance, when he told them, Gu Zhi's unhappiness was the naked eye It can be seen that Shen Chongshan comforted him for a long time before coaxing him. He was distressed that he couldn't be sent to school by himself. He had to get up half an hour early to take Shen Nian's bicycle, but Shen Nian didn't care about him because he wanted to send Gu Zhi to school. , but also to get up a lot earlier.

But no matter how well Shen Chongshan comforted him, after he left, Gu Zhi still showed irritability, and this kind of mood became more and more serious as Shen Chongshan left longer and longer.

This kind of obsession made Shen Nian feel that he was faintly losing control. After Shen Chongshan left, he couldn't see Shen Chongshan every day, and he was sure that he would be the same as before, only seeing himself and only liking his loss of control.

He was worried, and also afraid, afraid that Shen Chongshan would leave him and dislike him, even though he had a long phone call with Shen Chongshan every day, this fear had not been alleviated.

If he doesn't see Shen Chongshan, he is not sure that Shen Chongshan still likes him and treats him as well as before, Gu Zhi will not feel at ease.

On the third night of Shen Chongshan's departure, it started to rain suddenly at night. Shen Nian was awakened by the thunder and got up and closed the window. It was even more frightening than the thunder outside the window, and it also scared away Shen Nian's sleepiness.

Just watched Gu Zhi run in helplessly, and got under his bed again.

Shen Nian stood there for a while, then sighed softly, walked over and closed the door.

It's not that he doesn't want to be driven out, but with Gu Zhi's attitude, it's much easier for him to stay here than to be driven out. Shen Nian doesn't want to spend energy to fight with him in the middle of the night, so if he stays, he stays, under the bed, under the bed No, he won't take care of it, just treat it like a big mouse, and it won't affect him.

But when Shen Nian walked to the edge of the bed and sat down to lie down, Gu Zhi grabbed him again.

This time because Shen Nian was not wearing long trousers, he only grabbed his ankles, Shen Nian was silent for a few seconds, then he managed to break away from his hand and lay down.

Letting him stay under the bed is already Shen Nian's carelessness.

Gu Zhi's abnormality, and his being so afraid of thunderstorms made Shen Nian believe that his previous experience was not good, maybe there was some shadow, otherwise he would not have behaved like this, but it was not because he did those things to himself For the reason, his suffering should not be borne by himself, Shen Nian has no such responsibility, let alone an obligation.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, Shen Nian fell asleep in a daze, and was woken up by the suppressed sobbing under the bed, he didn't move, didn't make a sound, just opened his eyes and looked out the window until the rain stopped, until he cried The sound stopped.

When it was dawn, a voice came from under the bed, Gu Zhi crawled out, got up and left, Shen Nian looked at his back, watched him open the door lightly, and carefully put it on for himself, silent for a long time Slowly closed his eyes.

Today is Sunday, he doesn't go to school, and sleeps a little longer.

Every time after the rain, Gu Zhi can be quiet for a day, and this time too, even though Shen Nian slept until noon, he didn't come to bother him. Eggs, but he didn't say anything, maybe he was hungry, but he ate a lot.

They hardly spoke that day, they were doing their own things, Shen Nian felt rare and at ease.

In the evening, when Shen Nian came out of the bathroom after washing, Gu Zhi was squatting at the door of the north room and staring at the courtyard, when he heard the sound, he turned around and asked him:

"When will he come back?"

Shen Nian looked at him, but didn't answer this question, because she really didn't know the answer, after all, she was not the one who called and chatted with Shen Chongshan every day.

Shen Nian walked into the room, but Gu Zhi didn't stop him, but when he woke up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet, he found that there was a light in the courtyard, which was coming from the gate. Shen Nian thought it was because he didn't turn off the light before going to bed and went out He went to close it, but didn't think the gate was open, so Gu Zhi sat in the middle of the gate and looked in the direction of the alley.

He was waiting for Shen Chongshan.

Late at night is always very quiet, and the sound of Shen Nian's footsteps naturally did not escape Gu Zhi's ears. He looked back at Shen Nian, his face under the dark night light was not particularly good-looking, he didn't say anything, then turned his head away again, Shen Nian thought Liao thought about what he should say, but he still didn't say anything, and turned back to the room.

The clock in the living room reads 3 o'clock in the morning.

The next day when Shen Nian got up, Gu Zhi also got up, or maybe he hadn't slept all night, anyway, his complexion didn't look good, Shen Nian hesitated and said:

"If you don't feel well, I can ask the teacher for leave."

Gu Zhi didn't say a word, Shen Nian didn't insist anymore, just let him.

But he didn't want to have an accident on the way. When passing an intersection, the back seat of the car that had been good before suddenly broke off one side of the bracket. Gu Zhi was caught off guard and fell, and fell heavily on the road. They were still waiting for the green light, so they didn't bump into him, but the motorcycle behind Shen Nian did not avoid it, and it was too late when he wanted to slow down. Rolled over.

All these changes happened so suddenly that Shen Nian didn't even have time to react. He also fell down due to the sudden weightlessness of the car, but Gu Zhi's lying there motionless frightened Shen Nian, and he even I don't even know how I got up and ran over.

Gu Zhi was lying on the ground, his face was pale without a trace of blood, and he was even breathing weakly. Shen Nian called him twice, but didn't dare to touch him.

The people around also gathered around, those who watched the excitement, those who wanted to help, chattered around in a circle, some were calling for an ambulance, some said that I should take it to the hospital directly.

These voices were all messed up, and Shen Nian couldn't hear a word, he had never been so flustered, even if he didn't like Gu Zhi, he never thought that such a thing would happen, never thought that Gu Zhi would die.

Such things are too far away from him.

Without delaying the time for the ambulance to arrive, someone in the crowd drove them to the hospital. Shen Nian forgot whether he had said thank you, but felt his head was in a mess, and kept running with Gu Zhi until he was reminded by the nurse to pay the fee Only then did I realize that I had no money at all.

When he was at home before, Shen Chongshan did give him a lot of living expenses, but after Shen Chongshan came back, he only had pocket money left, and most of it was left at home by him and he didn't bring it out.

Shen Chongshan couldn't come back from other places for a while, so Shen Nian borrowed the phone in the hospital to call Liang Qiu. He knew that Liang Qiu would secretly bring his mobile phone with him at school. It's not time for class yet, so Liang Qiu should have witnessed.

Liang Qiu had just cycled to the school gate when he received the call:

"Who?"

"It's me, Shen Nian."

After hanging up the phone with Liang Qiu, Shen Nian's heart felt a little more stable, she was silent for a few seconds, and after obtaining the nurse's consent, she dialed Shen Chongshan's cell phone again.

Liang Qiu came with his mother Su Xiaoxiao, Su Xiaoxiao comforted Shen Nian a few times, then asked Liang Qiu to stay with Shen Nian, and went to pay the fee with the bill, Liang Qiu sat next to Shen Nian, Patted him on the shoulder:

"It's okay, I'll be with you."

Shen Nian didn't speak, Liang Qiu thought he was frightened and didn't force it anymore, after all Shen Nian was only a 14-year-old kid no matter how mature, after all such things were too much for his age group, it was reasonable to be scared among.

"Don't worry too much." Liang Qiu said: "As the saying goes, it's a common saying that a disaster will last for a thousand years, that little pervert will be fine, I guarantee him..."

Liang Qiu didn't continue his words, he saw a drop of blood suddenly appeared on the floor in front of Shen Nian, he was taken aback for a moment before he realized, he got up and squatted in front of Shen Nian, looking him up and down:

"Didn't you say that only the little pervert was injured? Why are you bleeding too? Where is the injury? Why don't you tell me?"

Liang Qiu was very nervous, and carefully grabbed his wrist and turned it over, only to see that his palm was almost bloody, it was probably scratched, and there was still a lot of sand in it. He didn't know what Shen Nian was. How could he stay silent after being hurt so badly?

Liang Qiu's nervousness made Shen Nian come to his senses, only then did he notice some pain in his palm, and saw the blood on the floor, but smiled:

"I am fine."

"Is it okay to bleed so much?" Liang Qiu didn't dare to touch him, and got up: "Are you going to find a doctor with me, or should I let the doctor come and treat the wound here directly?"

Shen Nian is used to doing everything by himself, and he doesn't like to bother others. After Liang Qiu said so, he could only get up. Only then did he realize that after sitting for a long time, even his legs hurt a little, but he didn't let Liang Qiu Cho saw it, and went with him to the nurse's station.

Shen Nian's injury was not very serious, it was just a scrape, the area was a bit big, half of his palm could hardly be seen, his skin was already fair, so he looked extraordinarily scary.Liang Qiu felt very painful looking at it, but when handling the stolen goods in the wound, Shen Nian didn't flinch from the beginning to the end, as if what he handled was not his hands at all.

The nurse who bandaged her hands was about to leave, Liang Qiu made another sound, begging politely:

"Sister, please take a look at your leg, it seems to be injured a little bit."

Shen Nian was stunned for a moment, and looked at Liang Qiu, but Liang Qiu didn't look at him, and directly squatted down in front of him, and rolled up his trouser legs. It wasn't serious, the nurse didn't deal with it, and said that it would be good to go home and apply some medicinal wine for bruises.

Liang Qiu thanked him, put Shen Nian's trouser legs down, saw that Shen Nian was still looking at him, and smiled:

"What? Think I can't see that you're walking wrong? How many years have we known each other? If I can't even see this, how can I be your brother?"

Shen Nian smiled and didn't say anything.

When the two returned to the emergency room, Su Xiaoxiao was looking for them, she was worried when she saw that Shen Nian had bandaged her hand, and she was relieved after confirming that it was just a scratch.

"Aunt Su, I really troubled you today." Shen Nian said to Su Xiaoxiao, "I will return the money to you when my dad comes back."

"This child, why are you being so polite to me?" Su Xiaoxiao looked at him distressedly: "In my eyes, you are the same as Xiaoqiu. Aunt Su doesn't treat you as an outsider. You are also scared today. Wait I'm sure there's nothing wrong here, you and Xiaoqiu go back and have a good rest, I'll watch over here."

"I'm fine." Shen Nian said, "I've already troubled you too much today."

When Gu Zhi came out of the emergency room, he was already awake. A piece of gauze was stuck on his forehead, and there was blood oozing out. Although his complexion had recovered a little, he was still not energetic. His left hand was also put in a plaster cast. The doctor said it was a mild concussion and fracture. Had to be hospitalized for two days for observation.

Gu Zhi was hospitalized, Shen Nian would not be able to leave. He didn't have to take care of this person, but he had no reason to let Su Xiaoxiao stay for him. On his side, to Su Xiaoxiao:

"Mom, you can go back, I will accompany Shen Nian, I will call you if there is anything."

But Shen Nian didn't let Liang Qiu accompany him, and insisted on letting him go back. Liang Qiu was really worried, but he also understood that it would be a burden for him to stay by himself when Shen Nian was so persistent. , So even though he was worried, he still left, but left his mobile phone to him, and asked him to contact Su Xiaoxiao anytime he needed anything.

Shen Nian accepted: "Thank you."

After watching the two leave, Shen Nian returned to the ward.The ward was a room for four people. Besides Gu Zhi, there was a middle-aged man and an old man. The old man was listening to a storytelling book. Shen couldn't understand it, and he was not in the mood to listen, so he went straight to Gu Zhi who was lying on the hospital bed by the window.

He was still awake, seemingly bored, looking out the window, Shen Nian walked over, stood in front of him, and said directly:

"Did you do it on purpose?"

Shen Nian has been thinking about this question ever since he calmed down. No matter how he thinks about it, he doesn't think there will be such a coincidence, but he is not too sure. Are you crazy enough to gamble with your own life?

He is only 12 years old.

Gu Zhi quickly answered Shen Nian's doubts, looked at Shen Nian, and smiled appreciatively:

"Discovered by you? Yes, I did it on purpose, I..."

Gu Zhi couldn't finish his words, Shen Nian raised his hand and slapped him hard, maybe it was too hard, the voice was too loud so that the people around him looked over, the old man even tried to persuade him, Shen Nian She didn't pay any attention to it, just looked at Gu Zhi like that:

"If you want to die, don't pull me."

Shen Nian's family environment and experience made him not do anything outrageous, even if he hurt himself, he would accept it.But what happened today, Gu Zhi's madness made him unable to hold back, he even hit Gu Zhi with his right hand that had just been bandaged, too much movement, the gauze was stained with blood again, but Shen Nian didn't care, It didn't hurt, even though his hands were shaking.

Gu Zhi didn't expect that Shen Nian would hit him, the reason for the concussion, he was a little dazed and disgusted by the beating, but he didn't feel any anger towards Shen Nian, even when he looked back at him, he still smiled:

"So you don't want to die. I thought someone like you wouldn't want to live."

"Gu Zhi." Shen Nian looked at him: "Get what you want by yourself, I won't fight with you, but don't involve me in your crazy games, I have no interest at all."

"Brother Niannian." Gu Zhi looked at him with a smile, as if he didn't understand his words: "So you lose your temper like this, you look better than usual."

Maybe it was because of being too angry, the corners of Shen Nian's eyes were flushed, he looked more lively than usual, most of him was lifeless, it was only at this moment that he seemed to be alive.

Gu Zhi didn't lie, he really thought he was pretty.