Attempted first love

When he was kissed for the first time, Lu Zhouyu frowned slightly, turned his face to the side, his eyelids trembled, but he did not wake up.

Xia Yan propped his head on one hand and lay on his side on the bed. Because he was so close, he could see his subtle resistance. He found it interesting, so he leaned over and kissed him again, but Lu Zhouyu still didn't wake up.

He seemed very tired and dusty, even after sleeping for one night, the faint bruises under his eyes were still there, and the breath he exhaled was like the afternoon wind, blowing across his skin, bringing a warm and dry heat.

Giving up the urge to wake him up, Xia Yan changed into a relaxed posture, lying on the bed, tracing the outline of Lu Zhouyu with his eyes.After meeting yesterday, he was still in a trance due to the complicated emotions. Until now, he felt a solid sense of stepping on the ground.

He didn't look at his watch, but he reasonably guessed that it was less than six o'clock, because Lu Zhouyu said he would wake up at six o'clock.

That's still some time.

Xia Yan observes his regular sleeping posture - lying on his back with his hands on his sides, it hasn't changed in the past so many years.

Of course, it's not just the sleeping position that remains the same.

From a long time ago, Xia Yan realized that he couldn't guess what Lu Zhouyu was thinking.He is always far and near, when he is in high spirits, he will teach himself to draw, and he will allow Xia Yan to squeeze into a narrow bed with him rascally, and watch movies with a small mp4.But never reveal your heart, do not talk about anything about yourself with anyone.

At that time, Xia Yan just naively thought that he was cool, and even worshiped him blindly. At the same time, he also abided by his duty as a friend, did not exceed the rules, and did not ask too many questions.

Going around to this point, their relationship has undergone a qualitative change, but the way of getting along seems to be still ten years ago, and even the most intimate moments seem to be separated by a transparent membrane.

You can't see it, you can't describe it, but you can experience it personally.

Xia Yan really wanted to tear off this layer of membrane, wanted to overstep the rules, and at the same time opened his arms to tell the other party, please feel free to invade my territory.

But he couldn't be sure whether this film was just his unilateral imagination, because judging from the results, their relationship was smooth and smooth at present - they hadn't even quarreled.

He also wasn't sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing.

But then, thinking of the goldfish in the fish tank that traveled across the ocean, and imagining all the obstacles that Lu Zhouyu would bring it to go through the formalities—even though he said he brought it back by the way, Xia Yan felt that everything seemed to be heading in the right direction. develop.

Maybe we shouldn't act too hastily, eager to grow the seedlings of the nascent relationship, and bloom the fruit of ten years of love overnight.It's not realistic.

After watching quietly for a while, Xia Yan was sometimes full of fighting spirit and sometimes hesitant.He rarely has such indecisive moments, and perhaps he likes to be in such a state of worrying about gains and losses.He can only bear it.

"Wake up so early?" Xia Yanzheng sighed silently, when suddenly he heard Lu Zhouyu asking him, his voice was slightly smiling and hoarse in the morning.Xia Yan's ears itched when he heard it.

"Just woke up."

As he said, he put his hands on the bed and wanted to get up, and then he saw a tube of hand cream on the bedside.It looks familiar, if I remember correctly, because it is not used often, it has been placed in the storage compartment of the bathroom after receiving it.

Standing up for a while, Xia Yan suddenly thought of what happened last night. When they came back from the museum, they first watched a documentary, and halfway through seeing him drowsy, they were picked up and walked to the bedroom.Lu Zhouyu asked him if he wanted to do it, and he said yes, but he didn't remember it after that, he must have fallen asleep.

Just as he was about to explain, Xia Yan changed the subject when he remembered that barrier, "Do you still want to do it now?"

This question is very strange, lacking emotional foreshadowing, it seems abrupt.So after asking, both of them fell silent.Xia Yan closed his eyes, angry at his abruptness, when he was about to prop up his body, the back of his neck was clamped and he pressed down.

It's like pressing down a ladle floating on the water. It took a little effort at first, and then with a "gurgling" sound, the ladle was filled with water, and it sank willingly.

The moment he fell on the bed, Lu Zhouyu turned over and pressed down.Xia Yan didn't have time to open his eyes, but he could feel the heat covering his body, his breath was close to the side of his neck, like a gushing tongue of fire licking his skin, which made him tremble uncontrollably.

I didn't want to open my eyes after that.He stretched out his arms silently, wrapped around Lu Zhouyu's shoulders, and fell down.

The kiss was not intense or deep, but it was gentle and tentative, as if waiting for someone to stop at any time.

Not long after, Xia Yan couldn't stand such a slow torture. He opened his eyes, his chest rose and fell violently, his upper limbs exerted force suddenly, and he straddled Lu Zhouyu's waist.

After a short pause, he asked unsteadily, "Do you want to do it or not?"

Lu Zhouyu answered irrelevantly, smiled and squeezed his waist, "Where is the thing you bought last time?"

He asked the box cover, "I don't know, can't I use it?"

"Row."

The thin quilt was thrown to the ground, followed by pajamas.

Xia Yan noticed that he had changed his pajamas, he didn't remember this item before going to bed last night, maybe Lu Zhouyu helped change it.This thought only had time to stay for a moment, and then was interrupted by the next action.

They have played with each other many times, and they are quite familiar with each other's bodies. Even so, they still couldn't help trembling, and they were too embarrassed to look directly, so they had to close their eyes.There was a slight sound of water in the air, occasionally one or two heavy panting sounds, but it was hard to tell who it was.

The body is like two pieces of candy, which are gradually ironed and melted by the body temperature, dripping water, and stick together, unable to be torn apart.

When the atmosphere was about the same, Xia Yan raised his head strenuously to reach for the tube of hand cream on the bedside table. The cover is open and close, but for some reason, he couldn't open it even after trying a few times.

The sweat flowed more and more, and even the fingertips seemed to be dripping with water, which was greasy.Lu Zhouyu's fingers climbed up little by little along his arm, embedded in the gap between his fingers, pushed his thumb against the cover, and it opened, and the peach-flavored white paste filled his hands, and the air was full of it. A sweet and fruity aroma.

It's getting hotter.

Xia Yan grasped a part of his fingertips, eager to move down, but was pinched by his wrist.Lu Zhouyu didn't give him this chance, and he wasn't being forceful. Instead, he first grabbed his wrist and rubbed it, and then moved to his waist, as if he was holding a puddle of water.

Not only the hands, waist, and all the bones were softened, but also the consciousness and the few persistence, all collapsed together.Lu Zhouyu stood on top of him, a drop of sweat rolled from his forehead hair, just dripped on Xia Yan's lips, he couldn't help but licked it, it was salty.

It doesn't matter anymore, Xia Yan turned his head and panted, "Come on, hurry up."

But it didn't work out, Lu Zhouyu was still rubbing his various parts, as if trying to loosen his whole body, and at the same time lowered his head to kiss him.

It was too slow, too deep, and too silent. At the moment when his consciousness was the most lax, Xia Yan's Adam's apple slipped suddenly, and his voice was swallowed up.

It didn't hurt as expected.

It felt like drinking hawthorn soda for the first time, and my mouth resisted, but the moment I swallowed it, the temperature in my mouth was too high, colliding with sufficient carbon dioxide bubbles, and my scalp tingled with irritation.After a while, I wanted to continue to drink the second and third sips.

The whole process is still slow and deep.When Xia Yan got used to it completely and wanted to say something, he met Lu Zhouyu's gaze, which was different from usual, but he couldn't describe it in detail, like exploring and confirming, straightforward.

Looking at each other for a while, Xia Yan forgot what he wanted to say, and could only open his mouth to call his name, but after he finished calling, he felt inexplicably sore and swelled in his heart, as if he had really been poured into a bottle of soda.

Not wanting to show his emotions, he blinked quickly, turned his head to one side, and then Lu Zhouyu pinched his chin and straightened it gently, asking "what's the matter", "are you uncomfortable".

Even though he said no, the rhythm became slower, like a long journey through a catastrophe.At the end, the room was filled with panting one after another, and there was a strong smell of peaches.

"It's too sweet, this one." Xia Yan picked up the hand cream next to the pillow, glanced at it, "Change to another one next time."

"For what?" Lu Zhouyu smiled and held his hand.

"I don't know, change to something sour."

After a short conversation, no one spoke anymore, and hugged each other regardless of the sweat on their bodies.

The body is full and the mind is empty.

Xia Yan tried to return to his consciousness, but couldn't find where he was going. In a daze, he recalled the documentary he watched last night.At that time, he had taken medicine and was groggy. In fact, he couldn't remember the shining ancient Egyptian civilization in the film. He only remembered that someone said "Goodluck" to the speaker before she entered the scene.

It seemed to be a staff member. He was eating with his head down. Hearing this sentence from a string of unfamiliar languages, he raised his head and paused for a short while.

At this moment, the phrase Goodluck seems to travel through time and space and come from afar to send them a blessing.

He thought of those golden civilizations that lasted thousands of years, and thought, thank you, then wish us luck.

"What are you thinking?" Xia Yan didn't notice that he was smiling, and suddenly heard Lu Zhouyu's question.

This seems too fatalistic and superstitious, he said shyly, shaking his head, "It's nothing, I don't want to get up."

"I'm sorry."

"But I am in the morning..." In the middle of speaking, the mobile phone on the bedside rang. Lu Zhouyu reached out to help him pick it up. His eyes seemed to pause on the screen, but he didn't seem to, and he handed it over smoothly.

It was Shen Qi, reminding Xia Yan not to forget to attend the appointment in the morning.

Xia Yan told him in horror that he would arrive at nine, and then hung up the phone.

"Who is it so early?" Lu Zhouyu asked in a soft tone.

"Shen Qi." Xia Yan paused, thinking that Lu Zhouyu had misunderstood that Shen Qi was chasing him, and felt that he should explain, but Lu Zhouyu said "um", patted his arm, and didn't seem to care at all.

"Get up, it's almost eight o'clock." He said.

"...Okay." Xia Yan swallowed the finished manuscript, half sat up, leaned against the head of the bed, took the clothes he handed over, said thank you, and then said like a ghost: "Shen Qi asked me out today, Might be late coming back."

Lu Zhouyu was still "um", and asked, "What do you want for breakfast?"

"Glutinous rice balls, there are quick-frozen ones in the refrigerator."

After he finished speaking, Lu Zhouyu had already put on his clothes, nodded and went out.

Xia Yan lifted the quilt, put clothes on his body indiscriminately, and tried his best to calmly think that Lu Zhouyu did not ask anything out of trust, besides, he and Shen Qi did not have anything.

After getting dressed, he couldn't help thinking, but what if it was him?If I heard that Lu Zhouyu was talking on the phone with someone who was interested in him, it seemed that he was disconnected, and he would meet after the work and stay for a whole day.

Will it just be a "huh"?

Say ok and go make breakfast?

Will it be so indifferent?

Absolutely not.

Xia Yan knew that he should not lie to him and say that he would go out with Shen Qi for a whole day, and he should not make assumptions that the conditions were not established, and he should not treat his trust as disregard, but the more he wanted to stop, the more he couldn't control his thinking, like grasping with his bare hands. Sand, every finger is passing his precarious sense of security.

It made him feel powerless, helpless, helpless.

It's eight twenty after breakfast.Xia Yan asked Lu Zhouyu what plans he had today, Lu Zhouyu said nothing, Xia Yan said then I'll come back as soon as possible, Lu Zhouyu said yes, and a few seconds later said, there is a meeting nearby at noon, can you stay at Xia Yan's house temporarily After a while, the province ran back and forth.

Xia Yan nodded quickly, "Do I need to give you the key, I can come back to rest after the meeting."

Lu Zhouyu shook his head and said, "No need."

The conversation seemed to end here.Xia Yan stood in the entrance, touched the two goldfish in the glass fish tank with his fingers, and then lowered his head to make sure that he didn't forget his mobile phone and car keys.

"Then I'm leaving." He said in a relaxed tone.

"Drive carefully." Lu Zhouyu waved at him.

Xia Yan pushed open the door, stuffed the phone and keys into his pocket, touched a cold chain with his left hand, took it out and saw it was the necklace left by Shen Qi, almost forgot.

Re-tuck it back and prepare to return it to him later, Xia Yan suddenly remembered that this chain was originally stuffed on the right side, such a trivial matter, he thought he would not remember it, but he remembered it very clearly.

And he also remembered that after installing it, he never took it out again.

Suddenly, his heart beat fast, Xia Yan stood there for a while, then turned and walked back.Lu Zhouyu was using a ceramic cup to catch water. The cup was in the shape of a cat, black, with gilt patterns on the surface - Xia Yan bought it not long ago, there were two in total, and they were a pair.

Seeing him coming back, Lu Zhouyu straightened up and asked, "What's the matter, what did you forget to bring?"

"No." Xia Yan approached him, slowly took out the chain, and fell between the two, the letters and patterns on the metal tag could not be hidden.

It was Shen Qi's confession.

"Did you see this," he asked, with a firm tone, "do you have nothing to say?"