Curve driving

Because of bumping into Xie Cheng in the hospital, Zhao Changqing came here to apologize to him, and asked him to come personally to set up a meeting place with the child.

Xie Hang made an appointment at the cleaning bar on the commercial street.

The psychiatrist that Zhao Changqing found for the child was named Zhang. Dr. Zhang was waiting for him downstairs.

Pushing open the door and walking into the bar, Xie Hang saw the familiar fake tree next to the bar, his nerves that had been tensed all morning slowly relaxed, and only then did he realize that he was still nervous.

This is almost out of instinctive self-protection, unwilling to recall some deliberately forgotten past events.

Only this place can make him feel a little relieved, maybe because it was here that he spoke for the first time in so many years, he and Ji Sinian.

This kid is called Xie Jiayang, and he read the information yesterday.

Zhao Changqing and his mother were sitting at the next table, and Xie Jiayang was waiting for him on the seat alone.

A child in his early teens—Xie Hang was dealing with children for the first time.

Dr. Zhang invited him to a seat: "What do you want to drink?"

Xie Hang turned his head to look at the small blackboard next to the bar, on which were still casually written the various drinks named after the ingredient list in the same sloppy style as last time.

lemon core.

The name he took was adopted.

Xie Hang looked at the line of words, and said after a long time: "Lemon core."

"Okay." Doctor Zhang replied in a gentle voice.

"Doctor." Xie Hang stopped him, "Is it convenient to chat with you after the end?"

Doctor Zhang nodded with a smile: "Of course it's convenient, that's what I originally planned."

"Thank you." Xie Hang said.

Xie Jiayang was different from most children of the same age he had seen, sitting quietly and watching him quietly.

There is not even a small movement in the hand, but it is not lifeless, at least something can be read in the eyes.

Very blatantly dismissive.

Xie Hang stared at him for a while, until after the sparkling wine was served, he said, "How did your mother and your uncle introduce me?"

Xie Jiayang froze for a moment in surprise, Xie Hang realized at this moment that a large part of his disdain was forced.

"Let's talk, just say something." Xie Hang propped his forehead with two fingers and looked at him quietly.

Xie Jiayang held his mouth shut for a while, and finally said: "There is nothing to say, I am not sick."

"They said I was sick?" Xie Hang asked.

Xie Jiayang quickly glanced in the direction of Zhao Changqing and the others, and then looked at his face carefully.

"I'm not sick either." Xie Hang said slowly, without any ups and downs in his tone, "So let's chat."

Xie Jiayang's chest heaved a few times, and it seemed that he had used a lot of strength before he said, "They didn't say you were sick."

"They didn't tell me that you were sick either." Xie Hang slowly circled around with him.

"I didn't. I didn't commit suicide because I was sick." Xie Jiayang was a little anxious, but his voice was very low, and he could hardly hear the last two words.

Xie Hang looked at the bubbles in the lavender wine that kept rising to the surface of the water: "I know, you committed suicide to get Xie Cheng to divorce."

Xie Jiayang's eyes widened suddenly.

He threw himself on the table, moved his lips, and said in disbelief: "You know? Doctor Zhang doesn't even know!"

"He knows, he just doesn't say it." The finger resting on his forehead nodded his earlobe, Xie Hang said, "I..."

His words came to an abrupt end, Xie Hang looked at the person who had just opened the door and entered in the bar, his heartbeat that was so numb that it was almost drawn into a line soared to a peak at this moment.

Ji Sinian's footsteps stopped at the door.

He was looking at the man in the corner across several rows of booths, and Yin Bo pulled him into the room, but he couldn't adjust his hands and feet for a long time.

Xie Hang is actually here.

Xie Hang is... seeing that child.

He suddenly raised his heart to his throat, nervous for Xie Hang for no reason.

"Let's go." Yin Bo also saw the person over there, he tugged Ji Sinian, and took him to a seat not too far away, just enough to see Xie Hang through the gap.

Ji Sinian forced himself to turn his attention back to his eyes, subconsciously clutching the coin pendant in front of his neck.

"What's going on?" Yin Bo sighed.

If he hadn't met him by chance, he could still play Tai Chi with Ji Sinian again, but in this situation, it would be a bit too hypocritical not to ask.

Ji Sinian looked at him.

"We broke up, when?" Yin Bo said the most difficult sentence for him.

It has been a week since the holiday, and Ji Sinian has kept silent about it like a normal person, and Yin Bo has never asked about it, seeing how he looks like.

But today Ji Sinian took the initiative to ask him out, and he tacitly agreed that this trip was to talk about relationship issues.

"I studied psychology for a year, guess what I'm thinking now." Ji Sinian narrowed his eyes.

Yin Bo said: "Now you want to beat him up."

"Almost." Ji Sinian raised his hand to cover his eyes.

If it wasn't for the fact that he still had a little bit of rationality and morality remaining, he really wanted to make a social scandal with Xie Hang on the spot.

"When was it divided?"

"Christmas Eve." Ji Sinian suddenly felt very tired.

No one noticed that the two of them had broken up, neither did Yin Bo, who knew him best, nor did Bai Yuhui, who was closest to him.

He stroked his hair and said suddenly, "I want to get back together."

"Go ahead." Yin Bo took a glass of orange juice, "Some mirrors should be round, isn't that what you advised me before?"

"But if it's broken, it's broken, even if the stripes are broken, it's broken." Ji Sinian's mind was in a mess, and he couldn't calm down since he saw Xie Hang sitting not far away.

He didn't want to sort out his thoughts anymore, so he directly picked the key points and said the time points of the problems in the past few months.

He speaks incongruously, and sometimes he has to be stunned for a long time before remembering his next sentence. He even doubts whether Yin Bo can understand.

But it was much easier to say it, and he realized that there had been a lot of discomfort accumulated in his chest in the past few months, which had been making him difficult to breathe.

Perhaps it contained too many things that he had never mentioned to others, and Yin Bo crashed immediately after listening to it.

Ji Sinian guessed that it was because he didn't mention those things about Xie Hang's family and his childhood, so the story lacked the most core contradictions, and also made many of Xie Hang's behaviors incomprehensible.

But he has no way to talk about this part, these things can be told by Xie Hang himself, to Yin Bo, to anyone he wants, but not by others.

Yin Bo finished drinking the orange juice in the glass, and suddenly said: "I won't talk about his problems, I think you have problems too."

"Damn." Ji Sinian didn't expect such a thing, he smiled and let out a long sigh.

"I didn't mean to ask you to find problems from yourself, it's really strange for me to say that." Yin Bo scratched his head, "What I mean is...you came to ask me just to hear my opinion, right? What about Xie Hang? So I can't control it, at present I can adjust... only your part, do you understand what I mean?"

"Understood." Ji Sinian felt that what he said was concise and to the point.

Yin Bo asked: "You said he has a lot of things that he doesn't want to tell you, so why don't you ask him if he doesn't tell you?"

Ji Sinian gave a "tsk" sound: "If I didn't understand what you mean, a client would just sit here and slap you."

"Answer the question!" Yin Bo patted the table, "—won't you ask?"

It's like extorting a confession by torture.

"Aren't I tired? Ask every day, but he doesn't want to say." Ji Sinian leaned back in the chair.

"Think to yourself, is it more tiring if you force him to ask him, or follow him, pretend not to care, and then accumulate dissatisfaction a little bit more tiring?"

Ji Sinian vaguely understood what he wanted to say.

"When you broke up, you think that you gave him time to adjust himself, but in fact, you also gave yourself space, and you are no longer trapped by worries about gains and losses, right." Yin Bo said.

"Yes." Ji Sinian hesitated, and found that it was indeed the case.

Then neither of them spoke.

Ji Sinian was being enlightened by what he said, waiting for his conclusion, but he didn't expect to wait for the next one.

"Then what?" he asked.

Yin Bo frowned, and said seriously: "I can't analyze anything, I just think it's not right, you can figure it out for yourself."

"Just say it straight, you don't have to take care of my face." Ji Sinian said.

"When did I take care of your face?" Yin Bo looked at him as if he had seen a ghost. "My own emotional problems, others are laymen when they talk about flowers."

This is a truth.

Ji Sinian was so upset that he stood up before the stool was warmed up: "Let's go, change to another place."

Yin Bo turned his head and glanced at Xie Hang: "Aren't you going to wait for him for a while?"

"Wait, if he doesn't want to find me, he'll just keep his heart in check here..." His words stopped.

"Hello." A bartender held a tray and put two glasses of lavender sparkling wine in front of them, "Mr. Xie ordered the wine for you."

Ji Sinian froze, looking down at the two glasses of wine on the table.

"...Is this the meaning of looking for you?" Yin Bo's eyelids twitched.

What is he looking for me now?Ji Sinian was so dazed that he almost couldn't stand, and when he came back to his senses, he didn't know whether he had asked this sentence or not.

No need to ask though, the answer is almost obvious.

"Then I'll go first." Yin Bo picked up the coat that was draped over the back of the chair, and patted him on the shoulder, "Call me if you need something."

Ji Sinian turned to look at Xie Hang.

I didn't dare to look carefully just now, but now I found that apart from Xie Hang and a child sitting in the innermost, there were also a few people who I saw in the ward sitting across two tables.

What would they say to Xie Hang?

The waiting time was not too long. After the child left, he chatted with another man, who was probably a psychiatrist, and then went to communicate with the child's family.

Xie Hang got up and walked over.

Ji Sinian held the phone whose screen had been black for an unknown amount of time, and stared at his figure approaching step by step from the corner of his eye.

"I've been waiting for a long time." Xie Hang walked across to him.

This unfamiliar opening sentence made Ji Sinian unable to answer.

I don't know if it's because he hasn't been in close contact for a long time, every movement of Xie Hang at this time is magnified countless times, frame by frame is reflected in his eyes.

Hooking the chair around for half a circle, Xie Hang pulled it away, sat on it, and loosened his collar casually.

Ji Sinian's eyes fell on the skirt of his clothes following his movements, and then slowly lifted up to look into his eyes.

Xie Hang smiled, and tapped the wine glass with his knuckles: "The boss used the name we provided, and this glass of wine is called Lemon Core."

"Yeah." Ji Sinian was suddenly thirsty, he didn't look down at the glass of wine.

"I received your letter." Xie Hang didn't make a transition at all, saying it very unexpectedly.

Ji Sinian pinched the tiger's mouth hard.

"I have received it too." He was suddenly at a loss for words, and the emotions he had finally suppressed swallowed him once again.

It seems that there is a pot of fire roasting on the soles of the feet.

"But my judgment was wrong." Xie Hang still said in such a quiet voice, "The doctor didn't persuade me not to look for you, she said that I have made great progress after we separated, and now I can try to continue contacting you."

Ji Sinian even breathed lightly, the strings in his head broke apart one by one, and then mixed together in disorder.

"I'm going to chase you." Xie Hang said.

Ji Sinian was silent.

This silence made Xie Hang a little uneasy.

This was his own decision, he could have not told Ji Sinian so bluntly, and he shouldn't have kept him waiting for so long.

But there are always some things that cannot be recovered. If Ji Sinian hadn't come, he could have finished the conversation calmly, but he happened to catch a glimpse of Ji Sinian, and the moment he saw him, he felt that if he wasn't there, he would It will definitely not last.

Xie Jiayang told him just now that he didn't think so much when he picked up the knife, but he just felt that he and his mother should not bear Xie Cheng's moodiness, and felt that he must fight for the freedom he should fight for.

"Why do you say I'm sick?" Xie Jiayang said, "A person who commits suicide must be sick? Why can't it be the people around him who are sick."

It's a very simple truth that Xie Hang hasn't figured out after more than ten years.

He still hasn't completely convinced himself, but everything is going in a good direction.

"I always say to be honest and communicate more. You think you have done it, but you know it in your heart. The seemingly straightforward things you say have been screened." Lin Jing said that day, "You You will take the initiative to say love, but you will not tell him that Shen Rong is sick and Xie Cheng's family is looking for you, you have not really opened your heart."

Xie Hang closed his eyes, and continued in silence: "I have seen the doctor many times during this time, and I will come to see Xie Jiayang...that kid regularly."

Listening to him, Ji Sinian felt as if his heart had been twisted.

"So you can ask me to chase you for a while, wait until I'm... completely healed, and confess my love again." Xie Hang said.

He withdrew his hand from the wine glass and hid it under the table, but Ji Sinian saw him trembling slightly.

The mind that was so chaotic as if it had been turned over by a thief suddenly cleared up. Ji Sinian was not as clear-headed as he is now even for the final exam.

Just do what you love, even if the world is destroyed, he can't stop his urge to come out at the moment.

He got up from his chair.

"Chasing, you have to chase, at least until the end of the Chinese New Year." He said.

Xie Hang looked at him.

Ji Sinian directly grabbed his wrist and pulled him to the bar.

A bartender greeted him.

"The old place, the key." Ji Sinian tapped on the table with his fingers and stretched out his hand.

The bartender found a key from the cabinet under the cashier and threw it to him: "No one has ever gone in, check to see if there is any dust."

There is a light blue plate on this key with 304 engraved on it, which looks like a spicy number plate.

Ji Sinian didn't say a word, and directly dragged him out.

It was not the first time that he had to get on the bus before making up for the fare. Anyway, he couldn't stand it anymore.

"Where are you going?" Xie Hang stared at him from beginning to end, his throat tightened a bit.

Ji Sinian pushed open the door of the bar, and there was a "No Entry for Idlers" sign in the middle of the stairs leading upstairs, he walked up without even looking at it.

"Where are you going?" Xie Hang stopped, held him instead, and pulled the man who was going upstairs dully back to him.

Ji Sinian looked at him: "Can't you guess?"

Xie Hang unconsciously increased the strength in his hand, even his eye sockets were burning hot.