Curve driving

Ji Sinian came back with two glasses of fruit wine, the light purple layered under the dim yellow light like a misty filter.

"I don't drink it." Xie Hang smelled the smell of grapes and lemon soda.

Ji Sinian sat across from him, and said perfunctorily, "Everyone is here."

The ice cubes reflected colorful projections, and the tiny air bubbles swirled and floated, floating to the surface with a small mint leaf attached.

"I have a hereditary psychosis in my family."

Xie Hang started the conversation too suddenly, without any opening words, Ji Sinian was adjusting the pillow in the booth, when he heard the words, he paused and almost didn't react.

He simply put the pillow that had no place to rest in his arms, rested his chin on it and listened carefully.

Everything is difficult at the beginning, and this principle is also applicable to talking about the heart.Xie Hang stared at the swirling bubbles in the cup, and simply thought of nothing.

"My grandma has been ill for more than ten years, and she is about to die. My mother suffered from my sister's illness after giving birth. She was bipolar. I didn't know about it at first, but after I...dad left, I started to treat it, and it was cured." Xie Hang said , "She was in a bad state for a while. She said she had a dog, but I said no. Later, she took the initiative to apply for job scheduling. Now she is in the Biopharmaceutical Research Institute in Ancheng and hasn't been back for a long time."

"My grandma wanted to commit suicide, but my mother refused. Xie Cheng came back after hearing about it, and wanted to use my blood relationship to coax out some of my grandma's property. Xie Cheng... said it when my dad went there yesterday. It made my mother anxious, and my grandma was in a bad mood after the fall, so my mother felt uncomfortable and became a little irritable."

"Xie Hang." Listening to Ji Sinian, he felt that his state was getting worse and worse. When Xie Hang spoke, his tone was unwavering, as if he was telling a story about someone else's family, "Look up."

He stretched out three fingers: "How much is this?"

Xie Hang's gaze slowly focused, staring at it for a while before saying: "Three."

After he finished speaking, he smiled, took a sip of the fruit wine on the table, and only then realized how correct Ji Sinian's decision to buy this glass of wine for him was: "What did you just say?"

"Speaking of..." Ji Sinian half-sighed and half-smiled, "Let me make an outline for you, so that you can know where you are next time your mind wanders."

"This is delicious, what's it called?" Xie Hang said.

"It's called grape sparkling wine. The boss offered a huge reward for the name." Ji Sinian knocked on the table with his fingers, "Changing the topic, right?"

Xie Hang smiled and slowed down for a while, this time it was more difficult to speak this time than before: "I don't know if you can understand what I mean when I say this, some things that are very big to others, after they fall on me After a long time, it is not unacceptable, and it may even be easier than others, but if someone tells you deliberately, don’t think about these things, you won’t get involved, and then forcefully corrects you, you will instead Becomes unacceptable. Kind of twisted?"

"Understood." Ji Sinian nodded, "Others will substitute other people's sorrows and misfortunes into their own lives, and the sense of gap is too great to accept. But the only way to really fall into your own life is this way. , There is nothing else to compare, and it is more... a fight to the death? But the more you emphasize, the more you care, and the more you correct, the more you miss, this is what everyone does."

"Yeah." Xie Hang didn't know where to start, "They divorced when I was eight years old, and Xie Zhou and I were sentenced to my mother. I was already in the second grade of elementary school when I was eight years old, because I was too lonely. Friends, Xie Cheng felt that this was not what a second-grade child should look like, and he was afraid that I would inherit a disease and wanted to correct it, so he locked me in the toy room."

Ji Sinian frowned: "No, who still plays with toys at the age of eight?"

"Ultraman. Didn't you watch anime when you were eight years old?" Xie Hang propped his chin, looked at him and smiled, "Even Xie Zhou believes in light."

"Damn." Ji Sinian sighed incomprehensibly, "Xie Cheng thinks you don't respect Ultraman."

"I don't know. I ran a few times, and then he tied me inside with an iron chain." Xie Hang said lightly, "I already knew about the family at that time, and I thought I had to follow him , not noisy, but when he went to the Shen Rong Research Institute, he forgot about me and stayed there all night, thinking he was going to starve me to death. I was a little scared, and my feet were worn out. Climbed to the door and knocked, it was Xie Zhou who found me."

He stretched his legs: "There is still a scar now, and because of this scar, the elementary school classmates who hadn't seen the world much at that time were scared to death, and no one provoked me."

Ji Sinian lowered his head to look, the scar was different from what he had imagined, the color was not too dark, a circle of light black that blended with the skin was embedded on the ankle like a shackle.

Anger immediately rushed to the top of his head. He knew that Xie Hang had strong self-esteem and he didn't want him to see his worry, but he couldn't restrain his anger no matter what.

eight year old child.

It took Ji Sinian a long time to speak, and his voice softened unconsciously: "Why don't you get a tattoo here, it's pretty cool."

"No tattoos, it's too obvious, what if I take the civil service exam in the future." Xie Hang said calmly.

"Damn it." Ji Sinian suddenly felt that his cautious look just now seemed like he was joking, and he couldn't help laughing, "It's a sight."

Xie Hang laughed for a while before saying, "Actually, I don't care much about those days."

"Pull it down." Ji Sinian said immediately, "It's impossible to let go of all the experiences. If you really don't care, you won't be able to hit him today."

Xie Hang's face was distorted under the dim light, half of it was hidden in the darkness. Ji Sinian thought of the barbecue stalls in the snack street for no reason. When the neon sign was lit that day, Xie Hang also looked like this, with sharp edges and corners , his eyes were a little dazed and empty, his Adam's apple rolled as if he wanted to say something, and finally fell silent.

"It's hard to define whether you care or not. You asked me before if you would give up the current matter for something that you can't say for a long time. My answer at that time was that I would," Xie Hang said, "I Never hated my parents for the hurt they suffered as a child, but I will hate them for this answer...."

There was some unbearable loneliness on his expression: "If it weren't for those things, I wouldn't have gotten into the nitty-gritty of this genetic disease. But now I care a lot, I care so much that I don't dare to make friends, and I can't Control yourself not to care."

I am afraid that they will be hurt by me in the future.

So this step I'm taking towards you is the worst thing I've ever done in 18 years.

He didn't say the words, but he knew that Ji Sinian had heard the implication.

Ji Sinian sipped the sparkling wine, and after a long time said: "I didn't expect you to talk so much."

"I haven't made friends, so I want to let you know in advance. In case I...have something to say, act abnormally, avoid contact with people, etc., don't worry, it's my own problem. "Xie Hang randomly grabbed two handfuls of hair, only to realize that the fight just now messed up his hair, and no one reminded him to take care of it all the way.

As soon as Ji Sinian heard it, he remembered Xie Hang's inexplicable temper last night: "Understood, I will try not to be hurt by you."

Xie Hang said this very openly, his heart ached, and he really felt relieved.

He thinks that Nian Xia and Ji Jian'an have been spoiled a lot, and he has always greeted him with a smile when he grows up. Sometimes when he encounters someone who treats him coldly unexpectedly, his first reaction is always self-reflection.

Perhaps it was also influenced by Nianxia's character.

So that day, Xie Hang got [-] to [-] for his face, he was indeed a little awkward.

Yin Bo once analyzed it from a psychological point of view, saying that his behavior was probably due to lack of security, which was overturned by his "nonsense".

Now that I think about it, it is still incisive, and Yin Bo has a bright future.

He doesn't want to admit that he is squeamish and hypocritical, but he also knows it well - he has rejected several boys who came to confess his love in the past. On the one hand, he doesn't like it, on the other hand, he is too sensitive. sense of security.

No one can give him such a sense of security.

Ji Sinian sucked up the sparkling wine in suspense.

Xie Hang is really a magical and contradictory person. It stands to reason that after this vaccination, the words between the lines foreshadowed "I am not a good person", but staying with him is steadfast.

Ji Sinian couldn't find any adjectives to describe his current mood, but he felt at ease from the bottom of his heart.

It's a pleasure to have such a friend.

"You never asked why Xie Zhou acted in front of my mother, pretending to have mediocre grades, and pretending to need a tutor." Xie Hang said in a low voice, "It's because of these. She was only seven years old that year, and I scared her gone."

Ji Sinian made a "tsk", wanting to comfort him that this matter has nothing to do with him, after thinking about it, Xie Hang may not be ignorant of this truth, but many things cannot be changed by knowing.

The battery life of the wall lamp was a bit poor, and it gradually dimmed after a short chat. Ji Sinian took a few pictures and found that it was detachable, so he replaced it with a new one.

The small space was lit up all of a sudden, and Xie Hang's silhouette became deeper.Ji Sinian leaned casually on the back of the chair with the pillow in his arms, looking at the scar on the corner of his mouth.

"Don't mention these anymore." Ji Sinian looked from the corner of his mouth to his forearm, "Why did you do it today? What did he say... did you say anything?"

Xie Hang followed Ji Sinian's gaze for a second, and the scratches on his arm had scabbed over: "No, I'm afraid every time I see him. I've been under a lot of pressure these two days, so I didn't hold back before I did it."

BY.Fable

He really dared to tell the truth, and he didn't even want the chance to pretend to be coercive.

Ji Sinian laughed sullenly for a while, and finally said: "I didn't realize that you have this personality before, and I thought you were more than a bodhisattva."

The sparkling wine was only left with the last few pieces of unmelted ice, the surface was shiny, and the mint leaves fell on the ice, and a few small drops of water oozed from the leaves.

The two of them were silent in tacit understanding at this moment, looking at the glass in unison.

Xie Hang's cup also contained a small slice of lemon, which was a bit sour when he drank it to the end, and half a lemon seed lay on the side of the cup.

"Give this glass of sparkling wine a name." Ji Sinian said endlessly.

Xie Hang stared at him for a few seconds before turning to look at the potted plants on the table: "Lemon core."

"It smells like grapes, what does it have to do with lemon?" Ji Sinian smiled.

"Isn't the real thing and the name of the drink not consistent?" Xie Hang said.

Ji Sinian vaguely understood the core of the name, he tilted his head, the almost non-alcoholic fruit wine made him a little dizzy: "Okay, lemon core."