leaning on dreams

The weather has turned cold, and the colorful autumn has finally come late. The leaves of the ginkgo trees have also begun to fall, and a coolness is slowly radiating in the city.

This day is a special day, so special that it hurts.

Today is my mother's death day.

I took Ji Ziyan to the cemetery, and the withered and yellow leaves fell at our feet. Standing in front of my mother's tombstone, I saw a bouquet of flowers on it. It was my mother's favorite flower during her lifetime, tulips.

Probably someone has been here before us, who knows what mother likes, and it should be someone who is very close to her.

"Mom, I'm here to see you." I looked at the photo on the tombstone and whispered.

Even though I couldn't hear her answer, I still wanted to whisper to her.

After I turned my head and glanced at Ji Ziyan, I said to the tombstone, "I am very happy this year. I found someone who really likes me, so you don't have to worry about me anymore."

"Don't worry, Auntie, I will take good care of Tianyuan." Ji Ziyan on the side spoke lightly, with a firm tone.

I glanced at him and smiled.

The autumn wind brought a chill, I closed my clothes, Ji Ziyan came over and hugged me, and said lightly, "Let's go."

I nodded, and after looking at my mother again, I followed him and turned to leave.

I didn't expect Ning Cheng to put flowers in front of the tombstone before, so I was so surprised when I saw Ning Cheng and his car at the intersection ahead.He was leaning against the front of the car, lighting a cigarette. I rarely saw him smoking, so I thought he didn't smoke.

Maybe he was waiting for us, otherwise he could just go back after sweeping the grave.When he saw me and Ji Ziyan, he was not surprised at all.

"Let's go home together." He said to me, then paused, looked at Ji Ziyan, "You too."

Hearing this, Ji Ziyan's eyes lit up, and he got into the car without saying a word.

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This is not Ziyan's first visit to Ning's house, but it is the most disturbing one.Usually he looks calm when he is in danger, but this time he looks a little nervous, which makes people find it very interesting.In fact, he didn't have to do this, because Ning Cheng's decision couldn't change anything at all.

Ning Cheng sat on the sofa, looked at Ji Ziyan, and said, "You have a good mother, but I am not a good father. But I don't want to be a good father either. What do you think I should do?"

Ji Ziyan was very calm, and he replied: "You are indeed not a good father, or even a good husband, but when everyone makes mistakes, you can choose to make up for it, or you can choose to let it go, you still have a choice."

After hearing this, Ji Ziyan rubbed his forehead, feeling a little helpless, and said, "But I'm not reconciled to just asking me to give you my son."

I frowned, not knowing what he was planning.

"Ziyan, for your mother's sake, I will give you this chance." He sighed, and then said, "You are now a junior, you are really young, and you will die at once. If you If you can leave Tianyuan for four years and create a world by yourself in a distant place, if you come back at that time, if Tianyuan still loves you, then you two should be together."

I was startled, he is. ． ．

Ji Ziyan squinted his eyes, and finally replied firmly: "Okay!"

"Ji Ziyan, you..." I turned to look at him.

He smiled and patted my head, and said, "Tianyuan, your father is right, we are indeed too young, and we will break if we are too young."

I looked him in the eyes and finally nodded.

Maybe Ning Cheng is right, we are still too young, he doesn't want the relationship between us to last only for a while, even if we are sure, but the future is uncertain.Although the four years are a painful separation, it may be an opportunity. Ji Ziyan can do what he wants to do in these four years, and his uncle and aunt will not interfere with him. This kind of development is probably good. For Ji Ziyan Yan.only. ． ． ． ． ．

I pursed my lips, closed my eyes, and I will wait for him.

I can. ． ． ． ． ．

Autumn is short and winter is coming.

Ji Ziyan hasn't left yet, he said he would spend the first New Year with me.

The winter in City A is still snowy, and the city is covered in silver.This new year is more festive than any previous one, and the two families sit together and eat the New Year's Eve dinner without any grievances.It seems that the shadows of pain and death have melted in everyone's heart with the heavy snow this winter.

It's just a gathering and a faint sign of parting. This is an eternal truth.Ji Ziyan's departure was scheduled for April of the following year. This was my proposal, because I felt that there was one thing that neither he nor I had finished.

After the New Year's Eve dinner, my uncle and aunt were talking downstairs, and I kissed him in the room. No one wanted to end the suffocating kiss, and I wanted to do this until the end of time.

"Tianyuan, I want you." He said.

I nodded and wrapped my arms around his waist.

At the moment he entered me, I thought, I will definitely be in the coming year. ． ． ． ． ．

must. ． ． ． ． ．