Lujiang, will you die if you are not arrogant?

Hongxiu Tianxiang, because I look like a girl, my parents named me Hongxiu Tianxiang.

They expect me to have a warm charm and indifferent demeanor like this name.

But I can't.

Watching them busy, watching the creative team of Thorn Bird grow little by little, and the editorial team of Red Sleeves gradually established, I am not happy.

Not at all.

In December 2001, I met Starting Point.

At that time, he had just started, his face was as jade-like, and he looked a little childish.

What impressed him the most was the sentence: "Work hard to make everything you think come true."

I stood not far away and was surrounded by everyone, watching him who was not paying attention to him secretly mocking: Even if I didn’t work hard, I could still be where I am today, but if you work so hard, you are just struggling to survive under the competition of this website.

For him, it is disdainful.

It wasn't until we got acquainted that I realized how extraordinary he was, he was meticulous in his calculations, and he was in control of every cent.

Success is not out of reach for him.

His destiny is in his own hands.Looking back on the half of my life that I spent almost under control, I only feel that the person who is sad is me.No matter how high you stand, no matter how much you have, the place in your heart will be empty, and nothing can fill it.Because none of this is what I want to seek.

In the same year and month, I got to know Xiaoxiang through the starting point.

He lived a more casual life, dressing up, website, and life than he started.

Xiaoxiang is a fake mother.

If he doesn't speak, you can't find any trace of a boy on him at all.He is much shorter than the average man, and his skin is much fairer. He always wears exquisite heavy makeup when he goes out, and you can't see his face under the makeup at all.

Xiaoxiang still remembers the first words she said when she saw me: "Red sleeves? Doesn't that mean beautiful women? But, hey, red sleeves must look good in women's clothing."

When I told him cryptically that I had participated in martial arts training, he looked at me in horror, feeling like a monster.

Later, he approached him unknowingly. He and the starting point came into the world in the same year, but they walked in different directions.I asked him why he chose this year, and he asked me, "Isn't it a good year?"

good vintageI can't guess what he thinks, but I really want to know what kind of face he has under his delicate makeup.

I moved out of the house, they were dying, but I was stubborn to the end.

I need to find a direction that belongs to me.

I moved to Xiaoxiang’s rented apartment. During that time, his former roommate moved away. I heard that he went abroad and never came back.Xiaoxiang is just getting started. The rent in this city is too high, and he has too much burden alone. He is very happy when I moved here.In fact, before coming here, the landlord here has already decided to develop elsewhere. I thought about it and decided to buy this place.

He said a lot of things, he said that he can cook for me in the future, and he can help me with my laundry, but sometimes he may come back a little later, I hope I don't suggest it.I said, I just don't know how to cook, and I don't know anything about housework. You can call me later if you are a little late, and I can pick you up.

He smiled and said yes, he really looked like a beautiful and charming woman.I feel very beautiful.

I got the contact information between him and the landlord, and for the convenience of the landlord, gave me the phone number.I imitated my landlord and texted him that his rent had been reduced.

He happily cooked so much that night that I was debating whether to tell him about rent free.

But in the end it didn't, and anyone who did too much would see that it was wrong.

Xiaoxiang's cooking is delicious, but sometimes he doesn't eat a bite of some of the dishes he cooks. I don't understand why he cooks them if they are not to his taste.

As he said, he came back very late at night, sometimes at two or three in the morning.But he never called me once.

I was a little annoyed at his distrust of me, but I couldn't open my mouth to question him.

One night, I finally got a call from him—at three o'clock in the morning.

It rained heavily in the middle of the night, and the weather in the city was as cloudy as his character.

I saw him at the door of the bar Xiaoxiang said.

Xiaoxiang was drenched all over. When he went out, he was wearing a bright red dress, and his long wavy hair was full of style.At the moment, it was soaked in water, sticking to the cheeks and skin, the hair was messy, the makeup on the face was smeared, and it looked like a beautiful water ghost crawling out of the river.

I opened the door for him, and he looked at me with empty eyes like a doll.

I got a little annoyed and stuffed him straight into the car.Whether the car will get wet is not a problem at all in my mind.

Xiaoxiang had a high fever that night, and I dragged him out of the bathtub exhaustedly. I was a little afraid that if I didn't have time, he would be drowned in it.i dare not think

That day, I saw his face clearly.

Completely different from his gorgeous and enchanting makeup, under the makeup is a classic and gentle face.

Classical like a gentle gentleman in ancient times.

I thought he looked better than usual, and then I watched it all night by my bedside.I can't figure out what the hell I'm thinking.

This is the first year I lived with him, 2002.

After waking up, Xiaoxiang didn't say anything, and continued to work. The only change was probably that he would call me to pick him up later at night.

This is really a big change.