their ten years

The sun is just right outside, the grass is growing, and the warbler is flying, but the young man in the ward is still as calm as water, without waves or waves.

Ai Jue sat on the chair, looked at the young man sleeping on the bed, with sad and tired eyes, and muttered to himself, "Cheng Yu, I suddenly envy you, you can lie here, don't have to think about anything, don't need to worry about anything face,"

"I know it's wrong for me to think this way, but I'm really tired, so tired," Ai Jue held Cheng Yu's hand and choked up on the hospital bed, "I don't know how it all became like this , why did you become my younger brother overnight, why did you lie here suddenly, why did I break up Xiao Qi and Lin Yu with my own hands, "

Ai Jue raised his face and looked at the young man whose eyes were still closed, tears streaming down his face uncontrollably, "Cheng Yu, get up, get up quickly..."

After returning from the hospital, Lin Yu became seriously ill. He didn't take the final exam, so he went home to recuperate. Every day, Lin Yu stared blankly at the sky. No matter what he asked him, he kept silent. For such an increasingly thin son, Lin's father sighed helplessly, smoking a cigarette and thinking about buying some good food to replenish Lin Yu's body, but Lin's mother could do nothing but hide in the room and weep silently.

When Lin Yu returned to school again, it was already the last semester of senior year. On the day of registration, Lin Yu met Zhao Zidong, and learned from him that Xiao Qi had gone to England in July, and he didn't say when he would come back.

Entering the classroom, the moment he saw his new deskmate, at this moment, Lin Yu really understood that Xiao Qi had really left, really left his world.

Lin Yu moved back to the dormitory and lived a life of eating alone, doing homework alone, and walking around alone. Zhao Zidong said that Lin Yu hadn't changed, and was as withdrawn as before. Ai Jue smiled, she knew, this A beautiful boy, his heart has been separated by a curtain, no one can get in.

Xiao Qi, I moved back to the dormitory from a home without you and lived a life alone. I thought I would get used to it soon, but in fact, I am so unaccustomed to it without you.Until now, I didn't know that the rumors about us from the school had spread a long time ago. I used to hide from others because I was afraid that others would say it. Now, someone said it, but I am not afraid at all. You are not here anymore. What else have I to be afraid of?In fact, it's okay, I'm living a good life, really, at most I wake up in the middle of the night alone, and then I cover my mouth and cry very hopelessly.Today, I revisited all the roads we have traveled. From September 2002, 9 to June 1, 2003, I thought I was strong enough, but when I came back, I found that I cried all the way, Xiao Qi, I recall now In the past, I really regretted that I didn't treat you better at the beginning. In the future, someone should replace me to make you happier, but how I wish that person was me.

——Lin Yu

Looking at Lin Yu who was about to bury his homework, Zhao Zidong worried, "You said he was the first to come to class every day and the last to leave. With his small body, can he last until the college entrance examination?"

"You thought he was you!" Ai Jue glanced at Zhao Zidong contemptuously, "Every day, you come last and leave first."

"What's the use of my hard work!" Zhao Zidong said indifferently, "Anyway, my dad told me to go abroad after the exam." Zhao Zidong gently touched Ai Jue with his elbow as if he had thought of something, and asked in a low voice, " Have you got in touch with Xiao Qi?"

"It's long gone." Ai Jue's eyes gradually dimmed, "I'm afraid only my dad can contact him now."

"Ai Jue," Zhao Zidong pursed his lips, "If one day Xiao Qi finds out that Lin Yu was forced to separate from him, will he blame you?"

"If I can still see him, I don't mind blaming me!" Ai Jue lowered his eyelashes and smiled wryly, the covered eyes seemed to be rippling with the wind.

"Sigh! That's right," Zhao Zidong sighed sadly. "In the past, whenever I thought of two men together, I would get goosebumps all over my body. But now, seeing Lin Yu alone, I suddenly felt a little unaccustomed to it." It's time." After saying that, Zhao Zidong looked to the side, and there was no one beside him, "Where are you going?" Zhao Zidong shouted to the figure in front of him.

Ai Jue waved while walking with his back to Zhao Zidong, and then Zhao Zidong received a message from Ai Jue: to see Cheng Yu.Zhao Zidong watched the distant figure gradually melt into a dot and disappear into his pupils, and his heart became more and more uncomfortable.