Can't fly

Yang Yuanyi doesn't cook, but the refrigerator is full of ingredients.

The large Roche prawns do not need complex seasoning, they are boiled directly, served with scallion, ginger and vinegar dipping sauce, to restore the fresh and sweet taste; the pork ribs cut into two knuckles are marinated, and they are fried to a bright red sugar color , simmer until the outside is crispy and the inside is tender, and you can take off the bone with a light tug; the remaining big bones are stewed in a casserole. It is best to eat lotus root in autumn, and a handful of snow peas are stewed together until they are soft and rotten, and the aroma is overflowing; the last dish is a Simple stir-fried anchovies with chili, as a green decoration on the table.

Fang Fei searched around but didn't find a rice jar, so he looked at the handmade noodles in the cupboard, boiled them and let them cool, stir-fried green beans, corn, eggs, minced ham and tomatoes, and covered them on the noodles.

When night fell, they used the black marble island as a dining table and had a quiet home-cooked meal facing each other.

Yang Yuanyi peeled a shrimp, wrapped it in dipping sauce, and put it into Fang Fei's bowl naturally.I just ate shrimp, another piece of sweet and sour pork ribs, and a spoonful of snow peas and lotus root. Fang Fei didn't have to bring her own vegetables afterward.

He is like feeding a domestic pet, he will feed anything delicious, and he doesn't mind the other party's picky eaters.After Fang Fei tried to hide the snow beans, Yang Yuanyi did not persuade him to "balance the nutrition", but carefully scooped up lotus root and soup for him next time, and at the same time took away the green beans that Fang Fei had never eaten in the mix.

Fang Fei didn't know how to refuse Yang Yuanyi, or maybe he didn't have to.

Lovers are very similar to pets, both are kept.

He has a clear self-positioning and needs to avoid paying too much attention to Yang Yuanyi's gentleness. At the same time, being favored by an outstanding, handsome and more mature man, it is difficult for Fang Fei not to be willing to be controlled by him.

Not to mention the old relationship with Yang Yuanyi, even if it is only a physical relationship, it is enough for Fang Fei to indulge in it.

Although the meal was silent, the atmosphere was good.

After clearing the dining table, Yang Yuanyi leaned against the island and said, "The projection is adjusted, come here?"

Now it is not uncommon to set up a projector to watch movies at home, but when Fang Fei walked into the room, he was still shocked by Yang Yuanyi's sound-transmitting screen and the full set of theater-like speakers.However, Yang Yuanyi is a film director after all, and it is reasonable to be a professional-level home theater. Fang Fei put away his surprise, took off his shoes, and stepped on the thick carpet.

The air conditioner is fully turned on, it will be a bit cold, the lights are dimmed just right, and there is a bottle of wine and two glasses on the table.

Yang Yuanyi is picking out movies, his collection covers almost one wall, everything from old VHS to Blu-ray 4K discs.He was entangled, and turned around holding two movies: "You choose?"

Fang Fei discovered that Yang Yuanyi had a slight choice fear, so no matter what his answer was, Yang Yuanyi would be happy.

Just don't want to make the "trade-offs" myself.

I don't know if this is also part of Yang Yuanyi's passionate personality.

One is a black-and-white film shot in Norway in the 50s, with two women as the protagonists, and the story is full of vitality; the other is a German-language film that was well received in Europe in the past two years, with an anti-war theme, excellent photography and art.

Fang Fei didn't like to watch any of them, he didn't cater to Yang Yuanyi, he tried to ask: "Can I choose another one?"

The pet has an idea, and Yang Yuanyi is very interested: "Which one do you want to watch?"

"The Secret Lover."

After Fang Fei finished speaking, Yang Yuanyi's eyes that had sunk into the shadows lit up for a moment, but he couldn't see through Yang Yuanyi's expression, it seemed that there was no change, but he clearly felt a little resistance from the other party.

Fortunately, there is only one point.

Fearing that Yang Yuanyi didn't understand, he used the movie of the same name to prevaricate himself, and rarely stubbornly said: "The one you directed."

"Haven't you seen it?" Yang Yuanyi asked him back, like raving.

"I saw it, so I know that I cut a part." Fang Fei said, unconsciously clasping his hands together, pulling out the remaining nostalgia in his heart, "At that time... I thought I would never meet again, so I bought a ticket. But I feel that the middle plot is different. Too coherent, I wonder if it was cut, or you cut it yourself."

In a semi-enclosed room, the soundproof cotton prevents the outside sound from entering, so the sound of breathing is more clearly audible.

I have felt Yang Yuanyi's pressure before, but the time is always short, and it will disappear soon.Fang Fei was standing opposite him now, there were only two or three steps between the two of them, but he suddenly realized that he really couldn't cross it.

He and Yang Yuanyi are far apart, even if they are in the same circle, they are not from the same world at all.

Speaking abruptly will only make people feel that he is ignorant.

The light was bright, making Yang Yuanyi's light-colored pupils sink into the darkness.

He rubbed the video tape in his hand, lowered his head and pondered for a long time, and said softly in a suppressed voice that was almost breathless: "Let me look for it first, I don't know where to put the first version of the film."

Fang Fei felt relieved: "Oh, good."

Then he quickly said: "I can't find it, and it doesn't matter...I..."

"It's okay." Yang Yuanyi said.

No matter how it sounds like prevarication, Fang Fei thinks that there must be details in that movie that Yang Yuanyi doesn’t want others to find out—it’s easy for a director to mix personal emotions into a work, which is more serious than an actor’s inability to escape from the role. Movies all carry a certain part of the director's sustenance.

Especially in the debut novel, it is possible to discover the unknown side, not to mention the rough cut.

Originally, Yang Yuanyi, who was alienated and laissez-faire with feelings, with a faint heart but never seemed to reveal his face, was no exception in this point, and he always kept a secret that no one else was allowed to set foot in.

Fang Fei felt that it was over, so he went to the small sofa and sat down.

When I seriously started to choose black-and-white films or small languages, a light in the corner turned on.Fang Fei looked over, and Yang Yuanyi took out a video tape from the bottom drawer of the cabinet.

He turned around, the coldness and resistance just now disappeared from his eyes.

"The Secret Lover" was released in May this year. Fang Fei bought a ticket after seeing the director's name.At that time, he no longer expected to have an intersection with Yang Yuanyi, he just wanted to see the style of Yang Yuanyi's movies.

The camera is unexpectedly delicate, and every change in emotion is very natural. It tells the story of a young girl who has just begun to fall in love.In the end, the relationship ended without a problem, but because the handling was subtle enough, it didn't make people feel sad. There was only a little regret left, which was in line with the imagination of "youth".

The filming was earlier, the heroine Cao Xinran's acting skills at that time were more jerky than now, with a pair of deer-like eyes, pure but stubborn.Shen Jue plays the male lead who doesn't have many roles. The strong age difference and male hormones make everyone understand why the heroine falls madly after seeing him.

Now, Yang Yuanyi's private cinema has resumed playing the movie.

They each occupied a corner of the couch. Fang Fei did not observe Yang Yuanyi's expression of appreciating his own work, but concentrated on watching this version without too heavy a filter and with rougher editing traces.

Near the end.

The girl was about to graduate from university, so she rejected the invitation of her classmates and went to find the male store manager who had broken up at that time.She squatted at the door of the store, finally waited for the other party to come, and asked him: "Can you dance with me?"

The store manager played by Shen Jue smiled and said nothing.

Flowers and plants swayed as a partition of the plot, and in the auditorium, all the students appeared in their costumes.

Cao Xinran wore a little black dress, combed her hair, and put on very mature makeup—she felt that this was closer to the mature woman's posture that the other party liked—and anxiously waited for the man in formal attire to come.

Without a word of dialogue, they danced to the classic "Anna Polka", looked at each other, and danced.

As the dance rotates, the montage switches repeatedly, interspersed with Cao Xinran going home alone after finishing, graduating alone, and applying for a job alone. She moved into a new residence, and she was still in that city, taking the same bus route, passing by that shop ...

At the end of the song, the store manager restrainedly left a kiss on her forehead.

After graduating, Cao Xinran passed by the store and glanced at the glass window, where workers were removing the signboard.

There is no such dance in the released version.

It's like suddenly cutting off the emotions brewing to the peak, the plot is still smooth, and the subsequent music and leading actress are also convincing.But Fang Fei felt that something was wrong anyway, until today, he finally understood.

The movie is called "The Secret Lover", and Cao Xinran was assigned this title throughout the story, but with the addition of this dance and the ending, the status of the two changed instantly.

There is no ending in the rough cut, and the curtain is pale and illuminates him.

Squinting his eyes, Fang Fei raised his hand to touch his cheek, only to realize that his face was flushed at some point.

"This dance was filmed very well. I went through it once, but I still didn't include it in the end."

Yang Yuanyi was the first to raise the issue, Fang Fei was secretly surprised, and asked along with him, "Why?"

"It can't happen, right?" Yang Yuanyi's eyes were far away, and his tone was mocking, "You said, how can someone like him who has ideals and pursuits and does not allow mistakes in every step of his future planning, fall in love with a little girl?"

It’s impossible for Fang Fei not to answer, and asked, “Hasn’t Teacher Yang ever had a crush on someone else?”

Yang Yuanyi turned his head sideways, his gray-blue eyes were as clear as glass.

After a while, Fang Fei heard him answer firmly: "No."

"That's no wonder..." Fang Fei paused, and gave up explaining to Yang Yuanyi his superficial experience of "secret love". You have them all, you just need to pick the most obedient one."

Yang Yuanyi laughed: "Don't make me sound like a drunkard."

The slightly teasing words eased the stiff atmosphere at the beginning of the movie, and Fang Fei caught a glimpse of Yang Yuanyi drinking half of his wine—he was so absorbed that he didn’t notice that the bottle was a third down—and sat down.

Keeping a palm width between Yang Yuanyi and Fang Fei, Fang Fei reached for the wine bottle, but was caught by the arm halfway through.

"You don't know how to drink, don't be brave."

The glass was replaced, but the fingertips were inevitably stained.Yang Yuanyi's five fingers slid from the elbow bone to Fang Fei's wrist, grabbing him, and pulling towards him to cover up.

The shoulders were also attached, and the opponent's shirt still had a smell of burnt grass, Fang Fei did not hide from his sight.

Gripping his fingers a little harder.

Fang Fei suddenly realized: he really didn't need to be so careful in front of Yang Yuanyi.

He stopped looking at the wine, took Yang Yuanyi with his back hand, and leaned forward to get close to him.Taking the initiative but keeping a distance, he can leave the position at any time, he asked Yang Yuanyi:

"Mr. Yang, am I the most obedient?"

He was answered with a spicy kiss tinged with vodka.

As soon as the wine touched his lips, it was cold at first, and then burned all the way through his throat, Fang Fei's eyes and nose were sore and swollen.Yang Yuanyi wiped away a little tear in his eyes, and kissed deeper.

The silver light with the curtain not closed completely disappeared from sight soon, Yang Yuanyi covered him with his shirt, the feeling of suffocation aggravated by the feeling of suffocation when his throat was pinched.Fang Fei didn't resist, didn't even say a word of discomfort, he groaned fragmentedly, feeling Yang Yuanyi strangle his throat, while passionately kissing his heartbeat.

"Afei, Afei..."

A little violent, with a strong sense of control, the eyes are dark, and there are colorful fireworks exploding.

Fang Fei gasped and buried his head in Yang Yuanyi's neck.

Afterwards, Yang Yuanyi hugged him again to wash, Fang Fei shamefully reflected that he had neglected to exercise recently, otherwise how could it be easier for Yang Yuanyi to hug him.

There is no way to hide from soaking in the bathtub, and the result is to do it again.Back on the bed again, it was past twelve o'clock without knowing it, Fang Fei was thinking about the private movie hall that hadn't been cleaned, and struggled to get up.

Yang Yuanyi pressed him under the quilt.

"sleep."

Smiling, she sat down next to him and combed Fang Fei's hair like caressing a fluffy puppy or cat. Yang Yuanyi was half-clothed in his shirt, as if in a daze, with downcast eyes, not knowing where they were.

Fang Fei was in a state of conflict between excitement and distress, and went to grab Yang Yuanyi's hand on top of his head.

He wanted to say something, but Yang Yuanyi preempted him.

"The Golden Rose Awards Ceremony will be held in Taiwan next week." Yang Yuanyi sighed, "Come with me."

Yang Yuanyi didn't let him choose this time.