belated antidote

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Some people are born with an invulnerable armor, and can run rampant in their emotions with full courage.Qi Dongqing was also like this when she was young and ignorant. When she was found out, she would admit it openly, and if allowed, she would fight for it generously.

Qi Dongqing knew very early on that he didn't like girls. When he was in middle school, his eyes were attracted by Chang Xu, a senior in the first grade.

The six years Qi Dongqing attended has always been a private middle school known as the springboard for top prestigious schools, and Chang Xu has been a well-known campus male god since junior high school.

Chang Xu was already the resident child host of the local TV station when he was in elementary school. He was a "child star" but he didn't want to rely on this special talent to gain points. Instead, he chose to take the extremely perverted selection exam like most people. In the end, because Students with excellent grades will be selected into the top all-funded classes, and tuition fees will be waived.

Smart and good-looking, versatile, gentle and approachable, all the fantasies of schoolgirls in school novels and TV dramas are perfectly reproduced in Chang Xu.Qi Dongqing, who just entered the first year of junior high school, was captivated by Chang Xu, who was the host, at the first school assembly.

The sunlight at 07:30 in the morning slanted on the boy's shoulders, and Qi Dongqing could hear his own heartbeat in the whirring autumn wind during the pause between every sentence.

"His name is Chang Xu, and he and I are in the same elementary school." The girl standing next to Qi Dongqing in the queue secretly talked to him while the class teacher was not paying attention, "Look stupid, I said he can take all men and women!"

Chang Xu.

Qi Dongqing silently recited the name with its own temperature and light source, and realized for the first time that there would be a short pain in the chest cavity when the heartbeat accelerated.At that time, some hazy feelings were not strong, but they already guided him to unconsciously search for that person among countless school uniforms.

Mysterious power and strange impulse drive Qi Dongqing to join Chang Xu's radio station and student union.During the interview, Chang Xu sat at the other end of the conference table, with a serious expression when flipping through the resume, Qi Dongqing was almost shaken by the other party's smile and forgot his words.

After Qi Dongqing and other candidates waited for news in the lounge, Chang Xu pushed the door in, walked up to him, and extended his hand to him: "Student, we very much welcome you to join the Junior High School Student Union."

The boy's fingers were long and slender, and his palms were warm. At that time, two palms of similar size were briefly pressed together, and Qi Dongqing didn't dare to hold back forcefully, for fear of appearing frivolous.

This was the first time they talked, Qi Dongqing's eyes flickered across the bridge of Chang Xu's nose, and he remembered the other party's gentle eyes for many years.

He began to nest under the quilt to write a diary after the lights were turned off, and the crooked characters recorded his sweet and sour mood.The closed space quickly made people out of breath, but the gradual rapid breathing and the sweat on his forehead made him sink into this dizzy feeling, and he seemed to be able to see Chang Xu's first love in the diary in a daze. The way he smiled to himself for the first time.

Later, the two became a particularly tacit cooperative partner very smoothly. They held regular meetings together and discussed the next program of the radio station together.

Qi Dongqing was in charge of copywriting planning at the radio station.Every Thursday evening, Qi Dongqing feels extremely satisfied when he hears Chang Xu's words on the radio coercing himself to stay up all night to polish.This is a romance that he dare not say out loud, as if at that moment he and Chang Xu had an aboveboard sense of compatibility.

Chang Xu takes great care of those around him, and is willing to give younger juniors the opportunity to be responsible for projects independently. In the daily details, Qi Dongqing is even more impressed by his emotional intelligence and character.Time passed quickly during their relationship, and Qi Dongqing witnessed some changes in Chang Xu himself.

The pre-grown Chang Xu wore the pink and jade carvings of milk dumplings, and his puberty reshaped him into a tall and straight boy.His voice also faded from the softness it used to be, with a layer of soothing deepness, and the current passing through the microphone is even more magnetic.

As Chang Xu's stature continued to rise, it became easier for Qi Dongqing to find him in the crowd, and every change fascinated him.As she grows older, more and more student couples around her make Qi Dongqing realize that her feelings for Chang Xu should be defined as "like".

At that time, same-sex marriage was not yet legal, and Qi Dongqing knew that if her feelings were discovered by everyone, it would bring great trouble to Chang Xu.However, when he was a student, it was too obvious that he liked someone. His increasingly flustered eyes and blushing cheeks always caused some good-natured jokes.

He never said he likes it, but every move reveals his precious and clumsy liking.

At this time, Chang Xu would always seriously prevent others from crossing the line. From Qi Dongqing's point of view, he felt respected and protected.

Every intervention may be interpreted by interested people as an ambiguous "protection of shortcomings". After entering high school, Qi Dongqing finally made up her mind to keep a distance from Chang Xu. The attitude gradually became ambiguous.

From time to time, the arms around his shoulders and the somewhat intimate names smashed him dizzy like a huge pie, and he didn't even have the mind to think about the weirdness in it.

Qi Dongqing still remembered that it was the monthly exam holiday of the second semester of high school. The night before returning to school, he was lying on the bed with a fever and fainted. When he was about to go to bed, he suddenly received a message from Chang Xu.

Senior Chang Xu: [Did you sleep, Holly? ]

Senior Chang Xu: [I saw your post saying you were sick, how do you feel now? ]

Qi Dongqing, who was huddled under the blanket, felt his body getting hotter. He pressed his face against the cold phone screen, thinking over and over again what Chang Xu said about him.The ambiguity at night is always extra sticky, like the moon melts into syrup and wraps people tightly, even breathing is sweet.

Qi Dongqing: [I'm much better, thank you senior for your concern. ]

Senior Chang Xu: [Don't be brave, I will feel bad. ]

Qi Dongqing couldn't remember the content of the later chat. Before he fell asleep, he only remembered that he agreed to the relationship proposed by Senior Chang Xu.Holding his mobile phone, he had a very long dream. In the dream, he and Chang Xu were wearing school uniforms, holding hands and running on the playground openly and aboveboard.

After waking up the next day, it was almost time to go back to school, so Qi Dongqing had no time to take care of her battery-drained mobile phone, so she hurried back to school after eating.On the first day of their relationship, Qi Dongqing was in a sweet and anxious mood, and complicated emotions dominated him, making it difficult for him to concentrate during the half-day self-study.

Carrying a mobile phone is one of the three high-voltage lines in the high school, Qi Dongqing always sticks to the bottom line, and naturally cannot contact Chang Xu without a mobile phone.The strange thing is that Chang Xu didn't come to him at all for a whole week, and he didn't come to club activities, as if they had never confirmed their relationship, only Qi Dongqing was restless.

She didn't know what went wrong, and she didn't have the courage to go directly to the classroom to block people. Qi Dongqing was plagued by doubts and anxiety until the day after school, when she finally couldn't help it.

The first year of high school was over, and Qi Dongqing stayed in the dormitory from noon, absent-mindedly brushing the papers, and waited until the bell rang for the end of the last class, and then nervously appeared in the corridor outside Chang Xu's class.He was afraid of other people's random thoughts, so he deliberately stood a little farther away.

The boy at the back door by the window noticed him first, whistled frivolously, then turned around and patted Chang Xu on the next table.

The moment Chang Xu saw Qi Dongqing, a trace of impatience flashed in his eyes, and the corners of his mouth quickly shrunk.Qi Dongqing rubbed her eyes, thinking she was wrong.After about half a minute, Chang Xu packed his schoolbag and came out, and led Qi Dongqing to the stairwell on the ground floor of the complex with a few friends.

It was dark and humid there, and there was a blind spot for surveillance, so Qi Dongqing was surrounded by three tall boys in a daze.He was like an ornamental fish locked in a glass tank. Those people looked at him wantonly with ridicule and playful eyes, which made him feel very uncomfortable.

And Chang Xu stood by with his hands folded the whole time without saying a word, acquiescing to this bullying eye insult.

"Senior..."

Qi Dongqing wanted to break free from the embarrassing scrutiny, and subconsciously asked for help from the only person he knew, but the unconcealable disgust and contempt on the other person's face completely froze him in place.

Chang Xu has almost completely changed himself. In front of Qi Dongqing, he unabashedly tore off his usual gentle and elegant disguise, revealing his strange real core: "You really are shameless, damn it."